Sunday, February 2, 2014



Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? I hope that it is warm & sunny were you are because it is everything but here. It is cold, damp, and rainy. Just a blah day. So today is Groundhog Day and yep you guess it... the dang rodent has predicted 6 more weeks of Winter. Everyone up North is a little angry at this. They have had such a cold bitter Winter this year. I feel bad for them. We have had cold temps but nothing like they are having that's for sure. Today is also Superbowl Sunday. I am watching the 3rd quarter as I am writing your letter. It is Seattle Seahawks vs Denver Broncos.. it is not game.. it is a slaughter. The score right now is 29 -0. The commercials sucked this year too. The only thing so far that is great was the Half Time Show. It was Bruno Mars and Red Hot Chili Peppers. It was good, clean and one of the better ones in a very long time. I was impressed! Anyways...
 Today was a pretty basic day for Mom. Din't do to much because of the weather. It was raining so hard that we couldn't even go for our usual long walk with the pups. We kind of just didn't do anything all day. Did however play a game of Chess and I won. I think I am getting the hang of it. Mark says that I am doing really good. I told him I had a good teacher in both him and you  :). I really like playing Chess and I regret that I was never able to learn it with you. I would have loved the chance to play with you. It would have been an Honor. You were such a great player. I know you see me play and you are proud of me!
 Mom hasn't been feeling well again and I have been in the bathroom most of the night. Went in and the score was 29 -0 still...came out and it is 43 - 8. Wow... is all I can say. Not a good night for Broncos fans! 11 minutes left of the game... my guess is that Seattle is going to win...lol! I really wish that you were here so we could be chatting abut this. I know you would have so much to say! You also were so good at picking the Football Teams and such. I remember all the time I would hear you yelling at the tv during the game. It still to this day makes me smile & laugh. I just wish you were here. I miss you so much, Tyler. More than I could ever express to you or anyone. It is just not possible for anyone to know how I feel.
 I won't be able to see the stars tonight due to the clouds and overcast sky. I know you will be shining so bright up there and if you could you would let me see you. I will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening for Mom. I love you so much. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you for all you do. That you for being you my sweet precious son. You continue to amaze me daily. Keep up the great job in Heaven. Tell everyone hello for me. I miss them too.
 I hope you have a wonderful night. Sweet dreams. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Saturday, February 1, 2014




Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Saturday evening? I hope that you are smiling up there in Heaven and having the time of your life. Mom is so sorry that I didn't write to you again last night but after a long day I started to feel like crap again. Slight fever and a headache. Still have it today as well. I am hoping that this will all do down and gone so I can start feeling better. I am really having a hard time sleeping these last few days too. Not sure why though. If you could help me out that would be wonderful and I would really appreciate it. Thanks pumpkin.
 There is so much to say to you. I know that you already know but I called Jeremy the other day ( Tuesday ) and Cindy answered ( your 2nd Mom ) and she was telling me that he was in the hospital. High fever and fluid in or near the lungs. Docs were thinking perhaps an infection was brewing. I know you are with him and you watch over him closely. Guess there is a lot going on at Crotched Mtn. these days. I wish you were here with Mom but I can honestly say I am so grateful that you do not have to put up with that nonsense any longer and lack of care that the facility gives the patients. I used to be so worried about you, Jeremy, and Ron at that place. I feared for you boys to the point it made me ill to think about it. Still does to this day. You and Ron are free of that pain & suffering now, but Jeremy is not. I hope that he can get out of there and soon. Please continue to watch over him. I am going to call him again tomorrow for an update. Hopefully he is recovering and will get to leave the hospital if he hasn't already!
 Please be with Meme. There is just so much going on there and I know you know all of it and see it. I am so worried for her. I just ask of you to be with her and protect & watch over her closely. I wish things were different and better... not sure if they ever will be again though. I pray for her every morning & night. Thanks Tyler!
 I have heard from Aunt Becky. She is having a great time in South America. She has been there for 12 days already and has 2 more weeks to go or maybe 3.. not sure though. Sounds like all is well and they are enjoying the weather and Ecuador very much. Just please continue to watch over them and make sure that they are protected and safe. Meme worries about her a great deal too. I can't wait to hear if you visited her while she was there. I can't wait to hear about her trip too.
 I will be leaving for my mini getaway in 18 days to Las Vegas to go to my Celine Dion concert. I really am getting excited. I have waited so long and several years to see her in concert... seems surreal to me to be going there! I will be gone for 3 days. Bonnie will be flying in on the 17th to stay with us for 10 days and watch the pups while we are gone. Can't wait to see her either. We talk a few times a week but we haven't seen each other in 8 months! Please watch over Mark & I as we travel. Please be with us throughout our time there. I wish you were going to be with me here so we could gamble together. You would have won. You were great at the game and very lucky too! Give Mom some luck ok...lol? Love you Tyler!
 Well... the weather was cloudy all day and threatened rain but nothing as of yet. We walked the pups already once tonight and no stars could be seen. I don't think there will be any out later either. Suppose to rain the next 4 days here. The temp is nice though. 80 degrees today so I will take that! As always I know you are up there shining down on us and watching and protecting Mom, Mark & all our family. Thank you for all that you do for us all. It means the world to Mom. I will be whispering to you like I always do... hope you are listening and can hear me. 
 I wish you a peaceful evening and many sweet dreams. Fly high and fly free my precious son & Angel above. I miss and love you beyond any words I could ever express. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. Spencer & Brie announced that their baby that will be born in July is a Boy! I told them Congrats and that you were smiling down on them. Oh cool would it be if their baby was born on your Birthday! My fingers are crossed :)