Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart. How are you doing on this Sunday evening? I hope that it is so nice in Heaven and you are smiling away. Here it is cold, windy, and rainy. Back home it is the calm before the storm. There is a nasty storm headed through out the United States and it is suppose to affect over 139 million people. Lots of snow and ice. Guess it is suppose to be very messy out. Please watch over our family & friends. Let them be safe. Oh yeah.. they are calling this storm.. Titan and it is suppose to do more damage than the Titanic Ship. I will be praying for all to be safe.
 You will be so proud of Mom. I actually watched the movie Thor today. It was really good. I was surprised that I liked it. We are going to watch the 2nd one in a few minutes. Hope it is as good as the first. I hope you will be watching it with me.....I would love that!
 I spoke to Jeremy last night on Facebook. It was nice to see that he is all better now and feeling well. He told me he is no longer at Crotched Mtn. He is at Genesis in Laconia! I was so happy to hear this. He was saying that he wasn't able to get readmitted to Crotched Mtn because he would not agree to having a trach or a DNR so they refused to let him back. He said things were good an he was happier. Guess he has a girlfriend too. I have no doubt in my mind that you were a part of all this. I know that you are always looking out for your best friend and brother from another mother ( as you both would say...lol ) Thank you for all that you do from above. We all are so grateful for you. We miss you so much but no one misses you more than I do. I am so proud of you! You will always be my Hero!!!
 No chance for me to see the stars in the sky but I know that you are always up there shining brightly. One of these nights I will get the chance to see them and I will smile the biggest smile for you! I promise! I will be letting the pups out again so I will be whispering to you so be listening for Mom.
 Please watch over Mark & I and our family. Extra prayers and watching over to Meme, Bob, & Grandpa though. I know you already know and need no details. Than you my sweet precious son. I miss and love you beyond words. 
 Have a wonderful night and sweet dreams. To the moon and back and all the way around the world is just how much I love you and more :)
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing today? I hope you are well and happy as can be. Mom and Mark are doing well. Today has been a beautiful sunny day..80 degrees and warm! We took the pups out with us today so they could get some fresh air. I went shopping as Mark stayed in the truck with them. Did some grocery shopping and got my nails done today. I think you would like them. 8 nails are silver sparkle on top and black on the rest of the nail and 2 of them are all silver. Mark likes them and I think they are cool :) 
 I am sorry that I didn't get a chance to write to you last night but I was so busy during the day time that I relaxed last night and never got on my computer until just now. Sometimes there isn't really anything that goes on during the day and not much to write about so that is the days and nights you hear me talking to you more than normal. I want to write to you about my days but not if there is nothing happening. If I don't write daily please know that it is because I am not thinking of you because that is so far from the truth. I think of you every minute of the day. I hold and kiss my necklace so many times throughout the day and night. That is also my way oh saying I miss you and I love you beyond words. Just want and need you to know this. It is important to me.
 So yesterday I took a big step. It isn't probably anything to anyone else but Mom and Mark but I went grocery shopping all on my own. Drove the furthest that I ever had since living in Texas. I was so proud of myself. I know that I did it because you were right there with me. I asked you to be and I just know. Thank you pumpkin! It felt so good and I felt a bit free. Mark was home wit the pups and I just took my time and got back when I did. It was an awesome feeling! I definitely will be doing it more often from now on. 
 Wanted you to know that today is Nana's Birthday! I know that she is always with you and by your side along with Pepe. I wished her a Happy Heavenly Birthday today on Facebook. I told her that I missed her every day and that I loved her. I also told her to watch over you for Mom. Can you do me a favor... can you give her a big hug and kiss from me? Thank you so much!  Means a lot to me.
 So yesterday was beautiful outside but as night time fell the clouds rolled in same as today. The sun has been lost to the clouds again. I will be looking to the sky tonight to see if I can see you shining brightly. Either way I will whisper to you so be listening out for Mom. I miss you so much. I was talking about you today and started to cry. Some days are so much harder than others. Bare with me! 
 I hope that you have a wonderful and peaceful night in Heaven. Be sure to watch over our family and friends plus Mark & I. Nancy is still in pain from her procedure the other day but can talk so that is a blessing! Aunt Jacqui, Aunt Shirley, & Richard are sick so if you could help them out that would be great! Guess the rest of us are doing well, but always need your help and the rest of the " Family Angels " too. Fly high and fly free Tyler. Sweet dreams and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Forever!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!