These are my letters to Tyler. They are the conversations that we would have on a daily basis. We can't do that any more. In some small way, this is my tribute to my son and probably my way of healing. Every night we would talk about everything. I can still do that, and I know he's listening.
Thursday, October 15, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is recovering from the 3 say drive back home from Florida. I am so sorry that I did not get the chance to write to you while we were on the road. It was late nights getting in the hotels & a late night getting in yesterday. Mom was in bed early as you already know & up being sick during the night. Mom is feeling better today, just really really tired. Did not do anything at all except unpack, laundry & play catch up on the shows that were taped while we were gone. Thank you so much for being with us during the entire trip. Thank you for keeping us safe when we broke down. We all could have been seriously hurt. You are my sweet precious Angel, my one & only son. I miss you so much & I love you with all that I have.
Mom spoke to Meme today. She called to make sure that we made it home. Guess her & Bob want to go with us next year to Florida. That would really be nice if they do. Never been on a vacation where we all went. It was suppose to happen a few years ago when we went but Bob got sick & couldn't. Wish you would be with us in the physical form, but Mom is sure that you will indeed be along & make your presents known again. Thank you for the signs along the way. You made me smile & that meant so much to me. I will call Aunt Beck tomorrow to see how she is doing. First thing is we need to go grocery shopping & the pay some bills...blah, but it needs to be done.
Mom knows she has like 4 daily prayers that need to be written to you but I promise I will do those tomorrow. Mom is still pretty tired & plans on going to bed soon so I can get some sleep. Your letter will be quite long tomorrow, but that is ok with me!
Hope that your night is full of things that you need & want to do. May you relax a bit & close your eyes. Have sweet dreams tonight & I hope to see you in my own dreams as well. Mom will be looking to the night sky to see the moon & stars shining bright. As always I will be whispering to you so be listening for my voice. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You mean everything to Mom. I love you so much. Unconditionally....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is recovering from the 3 say drive back home from Florida. I am so sorry that I did not get the chance to write to you while we were on the road. It was late nights getting in the hotels & a late night getting in yesterday. Mom was in bed early as you already know & up being sick during the night. Mom is feeling better today, just really really tired. Did not do anything at all except unpack, laundry & play catch up on the shows that were taped while we were gone. Thank you so much for being with us during the entire trip. Thank you for keeping us safe when we broke down. We all could have been seriously hurt. You are my sweet precious Angel, my one & only son. I miss you so much & I love you with all that I have.
Mom spoke to Meme today. She called to make sure that we made it home. Guess her & Bob want to go with us next year to Florida. That would really be nice if they do. Never been on a vacation where we all went. It was suppose to happen a few years ago when we went but Bob got sick & couldn't. Wish you would be with us in the physical form, but Mom is sure that you will indeed be along & make your presents known again. Thank you for the signs along the way. You made me smile & that meant so much to me. I will call Aunt Beck tomorrow to see how she is doing. First thing is we need to go grocery shopping & the pay some bills...blah, but it needs to be done.
Mom knows she has like 4 daily prayers that need to be written to you but I promise I will do those tomorrow. Mom is still pretty tired & plans on going to bed soon so I can get some sleep. Your letter will be quite long tomorrow, but that is ok with me!
Hope that your night is full of things that you need & want to do. May you relax a bit & close your eyes. Have sweet dreams tonight & I hope to see you in my own dreams as well. Mom will be looking to the night sky to see the moon & stars shining bright. As always I will be whispering to you so be listening for my voice. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You mean everything to Mom. I love you so much. Unconditionally....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, October 11, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Hope you are in a place like Mom where it is so hot & sunny. We are getting ready to pack up & clean our villa. We have to leave tomorrow before 10 am. We sure are sad that we have to leave Florida but we shall be back very very soon! We all went to the Magic kingdom yesterday. It was so fun to go back & see things that have changed in the last 5 years. We had dinner at your favorite spot...Casey's Corners. Do you remember that place? You loved their hot dogs & french fries. We got to see a new night time parade & we finally got to see the fireworks. Mom has to admit that I did break down during that time. I was thinking of you & even though I was happy I was so heart broken because we never got to see them together. We were walking back at the end of the night to catch the Ferry Boat back to our vehicle & I lost it again because of the song & more fireworks were going off. Guess I just needed to get it out. Mom is sure that you were with me. One of the fireworks looked like Angel wings...it was beautiful. Mom video taped some of it so I can cherish it always.
Spoke to Meme today. She was saying that it has been beautiful during the day & cold at night. She said that the leaves are in full color so now will be the time the " Leaf peepers " will be touring New England. We have good weather to travel back home. Please be with us while we are on the road for the next 3 days. Thank you. Meme said that all is well there with them. Glad to hear. I will have more updates for you towards the end of the week.
Mom has a few daily prayers to write to you. October 9~ He caused an east wind to blow in the heaven: and by his power he brought in the south wind. All around, leaves are falling, drifting, & swooping in the wind. They become a whirligig, a dance of wind & nature. They are a picture of the heavenly places where lighthearted beings are carried by the invisible power of love.
October 10~ But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, & the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin. Dear God, what joy we have in gathering to pray & praise you together. How encouraging it is to share what's happening on our separate life journeys & see your hand at work in so many different ways. Thank you for arranging those times in fellowship, Lord. They are blessed times indeed.
October 11~ He that loveth his brother abideth in the light, & there is none occasion of stumbling in him. Heavenly Father, we are thankful for family. Please bring our family together in happiness. Help us see everything as children do: with wonder & awe. Glorious are your creations! Thank you for creating us. We love our family. We love you. Amen.
October 12~ Let the heaven & earth praise him, the seas, & everything that moveth therein. May you celebrate this day with all your heart. Rejoice in the beauty of it's light & warmth. Give thanks for the air & grass & sidewalks. Let gratitude for other faces flow into your soul. And cherish the chance to work & play, to think & speak---- knowing this: All simple pleasures are opportunities for praise.
Mom is going to write out the prayers fro Monday & Tuesday as well my sweet son. We will be traveling & Mom is not sure what time we will get into a hotel so I may not get the chance to write to you for the next 2 nights. So here are these prayers.
October 13~ Hast not thou made an hedge about him, & about his house, & about all that he hath on every side? Thou hast blessed the work of his hands, & his substance is increased in the land. You invented work, God & I am grateful. Framer of the cosmos, you've given me a project, too. Creator of earth & oceans, sustain my hands to do it right. Designer of amoebas & atoms, give me pause to look after the details. Worker of ultimate skill, accomplish your masterwork in my soul this day!
October 14~ Blessed are in the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Remind us, Lord, that you dwell among the lowliest of people. You are the God of poor, walking with beggars, making your home with the sick & the unemployed. Keep us mindful always that no matter how much we have, our great calling is to depend on you--- for everything, every day of our lives.
Ok.... think that is enough & Mom will be ready to do short letters to you & continue with regular ones starting on Thursday again with pictures too. The night is coming quite fast & we still have some work to do so I must get going. Dinner soon as well & then it will be to bed early so we can get up early. Mom hopes that you will have a wonderful night with all that you need & want it to be. May you continue to fly high & free. I miss you so much & love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Hope you get a chance to rest. If so, may you have sweet dreams & may Mom get to see you in my dreams as well tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do when I see the moon & stars shining bright. Hope you will hear Mom's voice. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Hope you are in a place like Mom where it is so hot & sunny. We are getting ready to pack up & clean our villa. We have to leave tomorrow before 10 am. We sure are sad that we have to leave Florida but we shall be back very very soon! We all went to the Magic kingdom yesterday. It was so fun to go back & see things that have changed in the last 5 years. We had dinner at your favorite spot...Casey's Corners. Do you remember that place? You loved their hot dogs & french fries. We got to see a new night time parade & we finally got to see the fireworks. Mom has to admit that I did break down during that time. I was thinking of you & even though I was happy I was so heart broken because we never got to see them together. We were walking back at the end of the night to catch the Ferry Boat back to our vehicle & I lost it again because of the song & more fireworks were going off. Guess I just needed to get it out. Mom is sure that you were with me. One of the fireworks looked like Angel wings...it was beautiful. Mom video taped some of it so I can cherish it always.
Spoke to Meme today. She was saying that it has been beautiful during the day & cold at night. She said that the leaves are in full color so now will be the time the " Leaf peepers " will be touring New England. We have good weather to travel back home. Please be with us while we are on the road for the next 3 days. Thank you. Meme said that all is well there with them. Glad to hear. I will have more updates for you towards the end of the week.
Mom has a few daily prayers to write to you. October 9~ He caused an east wind to blow in the heaven: and by his power he brought in the south wind. All around, leaves are falling, drifting, & swooping in the wind. They become a whirligig, a dance of wind & nature. They are a picture of the heavenly places where lighthearted beings are carried by the invisible power of love.
October 10~ But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, & the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin. Dear God, what joy we have in gathering to pray & praise you together. How encouraging it is to share what's happening on our separate life journeys & see your hand at work in so many different ways. Thank you for arranging those times in fellowship, Lord. They are blessed times indeed.
October 11~ He that loveth his brother abideth in the light, & there is none occasion of stumbling in him. Heavenly Father, we are thankful for family. Please bring our family together in happiness. Help us see everything as children do: with wonder & awe. Glorious are your creations! Thank you for creating us. We love our family. We love you. Amen.
October 12~ Let the heaven & earth praise him, the seas, & everything that moveth therein. May you celebrate this day with all your heart. Rejoice in the beauty of it's light & warmth. Give thanks for the air & grass & sidewalks. Let gratitude for other faces flow into your soul. And cherish the chance to work & play, to think & speak---- knowing this: All simple pleasures are opportunities for praise.
Mom is going to write out the prayers fro Monday & Tuesday as well my sweet son. We will be traveling & Mom is not sure what time we will get into a hotel so I may not get the chance to write to you for the next 2 nights. So here are these prayers.
October 13~ Hast not thou made an hedge about him, & about his house, & about all that he hath on every side? Thou hast blessed the work of his hands, & his substance is increased in the land. You invented work, God & I am grateful. Framer of the cosmos, you've given me a project, too. Creator of earth & oceans, sustain my hands to do it right. Designer of amoebas & atoms, give me pause to look after the details. Worker of ultimate skill, accomplish your masterwork in my soul this day!
October 14~ Blessed are in the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Remind us, Lord, that you dwell among the lowliest of people. You are the God of poor, walking with beggars, making your home with the sick & the unemployed. Keep us mindful always that no matter how much we have, our great calling is to depend on you--- for everything, every day of our lives.
Ok.... think that is enough & Mom will be ready to do short letters to you & continue with regular ones starting on Thursday again with pictures too. The night is coming quite fast & we still have some work to do so I must get going. Dinner soon as well & then it will be to bed early so we can get up early. Mom hopes that you will have a wonderful night with all that you need & want it to be. May you continue to fly high & free. I miss you so much & love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Hope you get a chance to rest. If so, may you have sweet dreams & may Mom get to see you in my dreams as well tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do when I see the moon & stars shining bright. Hope you will hear Mom's voice. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, October 9, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing pretty well. Today is Debbie's Birthday so make sure you come visit us & give her a hug. We took her to Chef Mickey for brunch & in a couple hours we will be going to a Medieval Times dinner where they will be singing her Happy Birthday! It was fun as always at Chef Mickey's but it was tough to be there without you. I smiled at the little kids when they saw the characters. One little girl was crying when she saw Pluto & Pluto also scared Mark. He jumped & yelled out loud. Did you see it? Bet you were laughing. As usual. Mom took lots of pictures. Hope you are enjoying looking at them. Everything else is ok as we are winding down our vacation. We have just 2 more days & we are headed back on the road to go home. Please continue to watch over us as we head back North. The weather looks really clear & sunny but cool as we get closer. Thank you so much for watching over us all.
Not much for updates. Spoke to Auntie Kristina last night for a bit. Things are well with them. Also spoke to Denise this morning....things look really bleak with her Mom. Please be with her too as she is having a very hard time dealing with the fact that she will be loosing her Mom very soon. Just so sad. She is battling bone cancer right now & has been in Hospice for the last month or so. Always hard to loose our loved ones. You met her Mom a couple times so I am not sure if you remember her or not. Sweet lady. Be watching for her, Ty. Thank you.
I know I have a daily prayer fro you but I will have to write it out to you in tomorrows letter as we have to get going again really soon. Mom is so sorry. I just wanted to make sure that I got the chance to write to you today. I know you understand.
Mom is hoping that your night is full with all the things you need & want it to be. When you get a chance to rest Mom is hoping that you have the sweetest of dreams & that mom gets the chance to see you in my dreams tonight too. Continue to fly high & fly free. Tonight when I see the moon & stars shining bright in the sky, may you hear Mom whisper to you as I always do. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing pretty well. Today is Debbie's Birthday so make sure you come visit us & give her a hug. We took her to Chef Mickey for brunch & in a couple hours we will be going to a Medieval Times dinner where they will be singing her Happy Birthday! It was fun as always at Chef Mickey's but it was tough to be there without you. I smiled at the little kids when they saw the characters. One little girl was crying when she saw Pluto & Pluto also scared Mark. He jumped & yelled out loud. Did you see it? Bet you were laughing. As usual. Mom took lots of pictures. Hope you are enjoying looking at them. Everything else is ok as we are winding down our vacation. We have just 2 more days & we are headed back on the road to go home. Please continue to watch over us as we head back North. The weather looks really clear & sunny but cool as we get closer. Thank you so much for watching over us all.
Not much for updates. Spoke to Auntie Kristina last night for a bit. Things are well with them. Also spoke to Denise this morning....things look really bleak with her Mom. Please be with her too as she is having a very hard time dealing with the fact that she will be loosing her Mom very soon. Just so sad. She is battling bone cancer right now & has been in Hospice for the last month or so. Always hard to loose our loved ones. You met her Mom a couple times so I am not sure if you remember her or not. Sweet lady. Be watching for her, Ty. Thank you.
I know I have a daily prayer fro you but I will have to write it out to you in tomorrows letter as we have to get going again really soon. Mom is so sorry. I just wanted to make sure that I got the chance to write to you today. I know you understand.
Mom is hoping that your night is full with all the things you need & want it to be. When you get a chance to rest Mom is hoping that you have the sweetest of dreams & that mom gets the chance to see you in my dreams tonight too. Continue to fly high & fly free. Tonight when I see the moon & stars shining bright in the sky, may you hear Mom whisper to you as I always do. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, October 8, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing today on this Thursday morning? Mom is so sorry that I couldn't write to you last night but we had a mishap....Mom's charger cord to the computer split right in half & we never knew about it, saw it last night & because it was plugged in all day, Mark went to pick it up, it was a live wire & got shocked. It was sparking like crazy. Boy were we lucky that nothing caught on fire or the pups didn't get hurt. I tell ya.. never a dull moment here with us. Mark is letting Mom use his work computer to do my letters to you so that it doesn't go 7 days. Anyways....
Let's see what is new..... called Meme yesterday. She didn't sound all that happy. Mom tried to ask what was wrong but she said nothing. I know she was lying though. Told her I would call her in a couple days. Hope her & Bob are alright. Remember Denise? I guess her Mom really isn't doing well now so Mom is guessing it won't be long for her to be joining you in Heaven. Watch over them during this difficult time. Please watch over us all. Thank you. Everyone here is doing well. Florida is very hot right now still. The days are in the 90's & the nights are in the 70's. Reminds us of Texas weather...oh how we miss it. Yesterday we went to the outlet mall & Old Town. It was Doo Wop night with 50 & 60's music & all the old cars. It was cool. We decided to stay away from the Disney things for a couple of days. Today, we will be going to the Hard Rock Cafe. Grandpa wants to do this. Not sure what else though. Think it will be a very mellow day as we have 2 busy days ahead of us. We are enjoying ourselves, but Mom sometimes has a hard time because I think of you & remember our times here together. I am constantly thinking of you & talking about you. Hope you can hear Mom.
There are a few prayers that need to be written out for you so let Mom start them now. October 5~ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? Dear God, Help my unbelief. When I'm in pain, I forget that you care about me. I forget that you have helped me through my trials. I forget that you hold me in your arms to keep me safe. I forget that you are feeling my pain with me. I forget that you love me, I forget that I am important to you. Show me your presence----let me feel your enveloping love. Heal my hurting soul. Thank you for staying with me even in my unbelief. Amen.
October 6~ Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed. Thank you Lord, for enduring unimaginable pain, even to the point of death, so that my broken relationship with my heavenly Father can be healed. By that healing, may all my emotional wounds be healed as well. In your name, I pray. Amen.
October 7~ Being content of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ. Lord, help my eyes to see all the ways you are working in this world. Because of your great compassion & active involvement, the effects of everything you accomplish are multiplied many times over. We praise you, Lord, & pray you will continue to be involved in our lives & in our world. And may our deeds & thoughts always honor you.
October 8~ Wherefore take unto you the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, & having done all, to stand. Lord, my warrior, my guard, my guide, Let your love be the armor that shields me from the slings & arrows of the day. Let your compassion be the blanket that protects me from the cold at night. Lord, be my champion & protector. Let your love surround me like an impenetrable light that nothing can break through to do me harm. Let your grace bring me peace no matter how crazy things are all around me. Lord, my warrior. Amen.
Mom is finally all caught up. Sorry there were so many to do. Hopefully Mom will be able to get back on track again. Just bare with me. Being on vacation, things get out of whack & routines get scrambled up. You know that. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you like crazy.
Hope that your day is all that you need. May you do happy things & learn all that you want & need to. During the night, Mom hopes that you continue to do all that you need & want. May it be restful & peaceful as well. Hope the stars & moon will be shining brightly as they have been the last few nights. It makes Mom smile. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening out for my voice.
Mom wishes you sweet dreams tonight & hope that I see you in my dreams as well when it is time for me to go to bed tonight. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son. Love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. For the next 7 nights, Mom won't be able to post pics for you because of using Mark's work computer. So sorry about that pumpkin. Mom will continue the pics when we get home though. I know you understand. Thank you.
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing today on this Thursday morning? Mom is so sorry that I couldn't write to you last night but we had a mishap....Mom's charger cord to the computer split right in half & we never knew about it, saw it last night & because it was plugged in all day, Mark went to pick it up, it was a live wire & got shocked. It was sparking like crazy. Boy were we lucky that nothing caught on fire or the pups didn't get hurt. I tell ya.. never a dull moment here with us. Mark is letting Mom use his work computer to do my letters to you so that it doesn't go 7 days. Anyways....
Let's see what is new..... called Meme yesterday. She didn't sound all that happy. Mom tried to ask what was wrong but she said nothing. I know she was lying though. Told her I would call her in a couple days. Hope her & Bob are alright. Remember Denise? I guess her Mom really isn't doing well now so Mom is guessing it won't be long for her to be joining you in Heaven. Watch over them during this difficult time. Please watch over us all. Thank you. Everyone here is doing well. Florida is very hot right now still. The days are in the 90's & the nights are in the 70's. Reminds us of Texas weather...oh how we miss it. Yesterday we went to the outlet mall & Old Town. It was Doo Wop night with 50 & 60's music & all the old cars. It was cool. We decided to stay away from the Disney things for a couple of days. Today, we will be going to the Hard Rock Cafe. Grandpa wants to do this. Not sure what else though. Think it will be a very mellow day as we have 2 busy days ahead of us. We are enjoying ourselves, but Mom sometimes has a hard time because I think of you & remember our times here together. I am constantly thinking of you & talking about you. Hope you can hear Mom.
There are a few prayers that need to be written out for you so let Mom start them now. October 5~ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? Dear God, Help my unbelief. When I'm in pain, I forget that you care about me. I forget that you have helped me through my trials. I forget that you hold me in your arms to keep me safe. I forget that you are feeling my pain with me. I forget that you love me, I forget that I am important to you. Show me your presence----let me feel your enveloping love. Heal my hurting soul. Thank you for staying with me even in my unbelief. Amen.
October 6~ Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed. Thank you Lord, for enduring unimaginable pain, even to the point of death, so that my broken relationship with my heavenly Father can be healed. By that healing, may all my emotional wounds be healed as well. In your name, I pray. Amen.
October 7~ Being content of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ. Lord, help my eyes to see all the ways you are working in this world. Because of your great compassion & active involvement, the effects of everything you accomplish are multiplied many times over. We praise you, Lord, & pray you will continue to be involved in our lives & in our world. And may our deeds & thoughts always honor you.
October 8~ Wherefore take unto you the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, & having done all, to stand. Lord, my warrior, my guard, my guide, Let your love be the armor that shields me from the slings & arrows of the day. Let your compassion be the blanket that protects me from the cold at night. Lord, be my champion & protector. Let your love surround me like an impenetrable light that nothing can break through to do me harm. Let your grace bring me peace no matter how crazy things are all around me. Lord, my warrior. Amen.
Mom is finally all caught up. Sorry there were so many to do. Hopefully Mom will be able to get back on track again. Just bare with me. Being on vacation, things get out of whack & routines get scrambled up. You know that. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you like crazy.
Hope that your day is all that you need. May you do happy things & learn all that you want & need to. During the night, Mom hopes that you continue to do all that you need & want. May it be restful & peaceful as well. Hope the stars & moon will be shining brightly as they have been the last few nights. It makes Mom smile. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening out for my voice.
Mom wishes you sweet dreams tonight & hope that I see you in my dreams as well when it is time for me to go to bed tonight. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son. Love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. For the next 7 nights, Mom won't be able to post pics for you because of using Mark's work computer. So sorry about that pumpkin. Mom will continue the pics when we get home though. I know you understand. Thank you.
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