These are my letters to Tyler. They are the conversations that we would have on a daily basis. We can't do that any more. In some small way, this is my tribute to my son and probably my way of healing. Every night we would talk about everything. I can still do that, and I know he's listening.
Thursday, January 14, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is not in a very good mood right now to be honest with you. I was up quite early this morning. I fed the pups, walked them and then I headed right upstairs to get ready. I needed to go out and run errands all day long. Auntie Kristina called me at 9 am. I talked to her for a little bit and then I headed out the door around 10 am. I took Meme with me so that she could have a break. we went to the post office, then to 3 other stores and then back home. We got in about a little bit after 1 pm. Mom made some lunch and then came right upstairs. I made phone calls and sent emails. I had very little time to do anything today as we were notified that there was a showing at 4 pm today. We got everything all set and we were outside with the pups for about 20 minutes when I got the text that the folks cancelled the viewing. That makes Mom more angry then I want to express. Just pisses me off. How rude. They cancelled when they were suppose to be here. I am so tired of this process already. We have between 2 -3 showings tomorrow as well. One around 11 am, then another at 3:15 pm and the last one is at 4 pm. That one is kind of back to back. Mark is working from home so this one will be a bit tough. I may have to be the ones taking the pups out while he is still working while the showings are going on. Not sure on that just yet. Mom had a dream last night that one of the showings...the people made an offer on the house. It wasn't the best offer but it was descent. I hope that dream comes true. Mom and Mark really want out of here! We need it to become a reality. Mom is praying hard to you, God and all the Angels to help us out. Anything that can be done will be a blessing and we appreciate it. Thank you my sweet precious son.
It is already going on 5 pm. Mom needs to feed the pups and take them for another walk. Then as always it will be dinner for Mark and I and clean up. After that, we have a few things that we need to do this evening. We have a bunch of listings to go through and look at so that I can get back to the realtor tomorrow. That will take a few hours and then it will be time to go to bed for the evening. I will whisper to you before I fall asleep. I see you in my dreams last night very briefly. Hope you come back soon. Have fun doing all the things that you need and want to do tonight. The candle warmer will be going for you as well. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter inbetween the showings. TGIF....lol! Please continue to watch over us and keep us safe. Thank you, pumpkin. Mom needs to go for now. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💛
Wednesday, January 13, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is so sorry that I didn't get the chance to write to you yesterday but if you can see what is going on down here then you know why I didn't, but just incase I will explain it to you....
Tuesday~ Mark was gone to the office at 8 am. Meme and Bob left to go do whatever for a few hours as well. Mom was home with the pups. I got ready and cleaned the house as we had 2 showings coming up in the afternoon and early evening. I did a few things around the house and tried to clean out the closet in my office. The first showing was at 3:30 pm -3:45 pm. That time came and went. I chalked it up to a no show. Mom was feeding the pups early as the next showing was at 4:45 pm-5 pm. At 4:10 pm...the door bell rang and it was the folks for the first showing...40 minutes late.... Meme took the pups for a walk for Mom while Mom was inside the house with everyone. The second showing was late as well....they arrived at 5:05 pm and stayed until 5:30 pm. Mom then had to feed the pups and then start dinner. We ate at 6:30 pm and was upstairs around 7:15 pm so that Mark could do paperwork. Mom stayed in the bedroom and relaxed with the pups. I watched a movie and then called it a night. I slept really well last night. I only woke up at 5 am and that never happens.
Today~ Mark had to go to the office for the 3rd time this week. Meme and Bob left early in the morning too. It was supposed to be Bob's stress test but when they got there the doctor had noted that he cancelled it. No reason why so that is a mystery. Mom did a lot of stuff on the computer today. I also sent emails and talked on the phone a lot. We did get good news. We were approved for the loan for a new home so that is exciting! Now we need to sell this one and find a better one. If you can help in any way that would be super, Tyler. We need it! Thank you my sweet precious son. I think tonight will be a low key evening. Mark is still on a call for work and it is almost 5:15 pm. I will finish this letter to you and then go feed the pups and then get dinner going for us. It will be cleaning up and then relaxing. I think Mark and Mom need that for an evening as we have been going full tilt for the past several days.
Thursday though, Mom needs to go run some errands and then after that I really need to start curating my boxes. I have about 2 weeks before they need to get shipped out. I will write to you when I get back home and get settled. I will fill you in on all the other details as well. I will update you on everyone too.
Mom is sorry that I had to cut this letter short tonight but at least I did write to you...lol. I will light the candle warmer for you this evening and I will whisper to you before I fall asleep. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Have fun this evening while I do sleep. Come visit me in my dreams. I would love that. Thank you, Tyler. I miss you like crazy. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💜
Monday, January 11, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I am a bit tired. I went to bed after midnight and was up at 7 am. I didn't sleep all that great and was up several times during the wee hours of the morning. I am feeling it today. That is for sure. I am moving at a sloth pace...lol. I believe that going to bed early is in my very near future!!!!
As you can see, Mom took the weekend off to try and relax but it was nothing of the sort. Saturday was a mess. Mark and I were suppose to go out and run errands and do things but that changed and then it was supposed to become a "down" relaxing day and that didn't happen either. We went grocery shopping and then came back home and put everything away. There was a couple hours inbetween that we had and we looked at houses. Then it was dinner time. We had dinner, Mom did the dishes and then we watched a show with Meme and Bob. It got over after 8 pm. We all went upstairs after that and called it a night.
Sunday & today ~ We were scheduled to go see a house at 12 noon but we got a text saying that someone wanted to look at our home at 12:45 pm. That stopped us from going to that home. We got everything all set here and Mark took the pups for a walk and Meme left, Mom stayed behind to wait for the realtor and the couple that wanted to look at the house. 12:45 came and went and I received a text saying that they were not going to be here until after 2 pm. Mark was mad, I was upset as we were supposed to have gone and looked at another home at 3 pm but that got cancelled too. The folks got here at 2:15 pm. They stayed for about 20 minutes or so. We will see. They liked the house and thought Mom was really nice. We got contacted again for another showing tomorrow afternoon at 3:30 pm. Mom will be cleaning the house tomorrow during the day and getting it prepped. Meme will stay in the house with the realtor and I will be taking the pups for a walk while they are here. Mark was at the office today and has to go back tomorrow and Wednesday so he will not be here to help out....go figure. Everything was finally done and settled around 4 pm. We ate dinner, fed the pups and walked them and then relaxed. Mom chatted with Grandpa for a bit and then a cousin of mine for about 90 minutes. I also spoke to a friend of mine too. Busy evening for sure. Mom wants a quiet and relaxing night tonight. I really am not all that hungry for dinner. Mark just got in and it is now 4:32 pm. I am just really tired. I will get the pups fed, make a bite to eat and then clean up and crawl into bed for the night and go to sleep early.
Mom will have to write to you early tomorrow morning after I am done everything. If I don't do that then I will not have a chance to write to you. I know you get it and you understand. Thank you my sweet precious son. It is a lot of work and my head is spinning on everything. I have to curate my February Box still, start working on my class again and try and look for a new home and pack everything up. Too much. I need help and I am not getting it. Please just watch over Mom if you can. Make sure I am safe and healthy along with everyone else. Thank you. I will light the warmer tonight for you. I will whisper to you before I fall asleep as well. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you more than words. Never forget this or not feel all these things deep within your soul. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I have to go for now as I need to get the night routine started. Until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💛


































