These are my letters to Tyler. They are the conversations that we would have on a daily basis. We can't do that any more. In some small way, this is my tribute to my son and probably my way of healing. Every night we would talk about everything. I can still do that, and I know he's listening.
Thursday, June 24, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? It is 2:50 pm and it feels like 10 pm to Mom. It was another night with very little sleep. Princess was up at 3 am and I cleaned up after her...by the time I was finished, I was wide awake and couldn't fall back to sleep. I finally did though at 4:30 am and up again at 6:30 am. Mom is really hoping that tonight will be a night that I can get a lot of sleep. Hopefully the renters next door will not be loud and we can go to bed early.
Mark left for the office today at 10 am. Mom was rearranging things in her office, then cleaned Mark's office up... I finished at 11 am. I took a shower, grabbed something to eat and then I chatted on the phone to Auntie Kristina and Bonnie. Now Mom is looking at emails and getting things done that she needs to do. Tomorrow is Friday and I will be going to the grocery store to finish the shopping and then I will be home doing laundry and cleaning for Sunday. Not much else. I am hoping the weather holds out though for Sunday!
Last night, Mom and Mark chatted on the phone with our friends Dave, Brian & Jocsan. We came upstairs after that and played some more golf. Mark was pretty tired as he was falling asleep during golf so we called it a night. He went to bed as Mom stayed up. Mom also spoke to Grandpa a couple times too. Second time I don't know what happened but Debbie got mad again and stormed out of the house. That is like the 4th time she has done that in less than 18 months. Not sure what is going on at times with her but Grandpa don't need that kind of crap. I was going to touch base with them this evening but I am going to hold off until tomorrow instead. Whatever is going on there...the dust needs to settle.
This morning I believe in Miami, there was a 136 apartment building that collapsed right to the ground. Many people are trapped and injured. 1 was found dead and several others are needing to be rescued....men, women, children, animals. I haven't watched the news yet but I am sure I will see it later this evening when Mark watches the news. The whole thing is so sad. Mom is praying for everyone of them and their families and pets. May they all still be alive and make a full recovery from this tragic event. I will keep you posted on this tomorrow when there is more to tell.
I think tonight will be dinner and relaxing...no golf or games...maybe tv and bed. Mom is very tired tonight. I will light the candle for you and whisper to you as I always do each night. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. I know this is a short letter today but Mom is going to sit back and maybe snooze for 30 minutes or so as I am having a hard time keeping my eyes open. I may need that break to have the energy to feed the pups and walk them and then make dinner this evening for us. This happens when it makes 3 nights in a row that not much sleep has been had. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Have fun while I sleep tonight and come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you. Please continue to watch over us all here. Keep us safe and healthy. Thank you. It means so much to Mom. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams. I miss you more than anything...more than words can say.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
Wednesday, June 23, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is writing to you now as the clouds are rolling in and it is raining as I am writing to you. We are in for thunderstorms from 3 pm again until 10 pm this evening. Goin to be this way all the way until next week...that will be 5 weeks straight with more rain than sun. I know we need the rain but dang this is making my face puffy and sore and my mood very cranky. I hope that the Sunshine State gets more sun soon and then Mom will be a happy again. I am just that kind of person that rain makes me feel like blah. No motivation to do a dang thing either. No granted it is Wednesday and I have been gone every day this week weather it has been in the morning into the afternoon, the afternoon or like today...left at 9 am and got back at 12:30 pm. I have not had a full day here since Sunday. There is a lot of prep for Sunday. Thursday, Mark is at the office and I plan on doing some major cleaning, Friday the same thing and then going to get the rest of the food that is needed. Saturday will be a relaxing day and then friends will be here Sunday at 1 pm. Right now the weather says 30% rain and cloudy.. I hope it stays that way. Mom will keep you updated on things!
Last night we had a somewhat later dinner than normal. Pups were fed and walked before we got hit with another thunderstorm. We times that just right! We ate dinner, Mom cleaned up and then we headed upstairs around 8 pm. We got the pups comfortable and Mark and Mom played golf again. The renters were out by their pool swimming, yelling, screaming until 10 pm in the thunderstorm and someone close by was lighting fireworks. Not the smartest thing to do. All the noise stopped around 11 pm. Mom was able to get a little rest but not much. Hoping tonight will be better though. Looking at the weather it says we are in for the storms from 3 pm to 8 pm...40 to 54% so we will get them. Thursday will be worse. 8 am to 9 pm....rain and storms... 45 to 61% for that.... ugh. Anyways... maybe the renters will be quieter this evening. Who knows but Mom will definitely be going to bed early tonight. I need some much needed sleep. Please come visit me in my dreams if you can. I will whisper to you like I do each night. Smile for Mom and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. Mom will also light a candle for you this evening.
No updates at all for you today. Grandpa still has not gotten his computer up and running. They went out again today instead of calling me to help them. They are home now but we are going to be getting that crap weather and I refuse to do it when that is going on. Mom has to look after the pups because they are always shaking and scared. Not sure when he will get it running but Mom is trying. I would really like to skype with them. I miss Grandpa badly. Haven't heard from anyone in the family lately so I assume all is well. Oh, Mom does know that Aunt Shirley will be having her 1st surgery on July 7th or 8th and Grandpa will be with her for that. She is very happy with that and feels safer. Not sure about the 2nd surgery but I will let you know when I know.
Oh the thunder is rolling now. It is loud and the pups are scared as all heck. This is going to be a long afternoon and evening. It is only 2:46 pm. I know Princess is already shaking. She is with Mark right now. He didn't go to the office today as he has to go tomorrow for a very long day and early evening. Mom is going to end this letter to you so that I can go tend to them so that Mark can work. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter. I am home all day! I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you more than words pumpkin. Please watch over us all and keep us healthy and safe. Thank you. Have fun while I sleep tonight and continue to spread those wings and fly high and free. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💜
Tuesday, June 22, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? We just got done having another thunderstorm. We are ok until 6 pm and then there will be more until 10 pm this evening. These are getting tiring...every day now for the past 3 weeks...hardly any sun. Mom is very cranky because it too. I don't mind the rain but every day like this gets to me and puts me in a very bad mood. ok...anyways... moving on.... Ozzy was laying on my legs and feet during the thunderstorm... I had to put him in his bed as my legs are asleep now. It is not raining at the moment so I can write to you briefly...lol...the things we do for our furbabies!
Not much to wrote today I am afraid. Last night was boring. Mark worked until 10 pm, Mom laid in bed while it was storming with Ozzy while Princess was with Mark, Meme and Bob went to bed at 7 pm. Phone rang at 9 pm and it was Mom's friend. We chatted for a bit. Mom was sleeping by 10:30 pm. We got new renters next door and they we a bit loud...Mom didn't sleep well last night. Princess was up a couple times, cleaned up after her and it was very warm in here. Hoping to get better sleep tonight that is for sure!
Today, Mom tried helping Debbie put skype on her computer. What should have taken 15 minutes to do, took 2 hours and then she still didn't get it installed. Mom had to stop as Mom went out to get her nails done. Left at 12:35 pm and home at 2:15 pm. Not bad. Only went there and back home. Glad I did as I would have been caught in that storm. Tonight may be a repeat of last night. Mark may be working and it will be storming so Mom will be in the bedroom watching tv and calming the pups down. I am sure to be fast asleep by 10 pm tonight. Maybe tomorrow Mom can try again with Debbie and this skype thing. We have to get it as Grandpa can't use his new computer with us helping him set it up. Poor Grandpa will have to wait another night to do this because of it. Debbie has a tendency to just click buttons and hit buttons that she has no idea of what she is doing. she gets frustrated and then we do on this side. She just messaged Mom saying maybe we can try tomorrow. Mark is at the office tomorrow and Thursday so nothing will happen until Friday now. I feel so bad...Grandpa has this computer and he should be using it and he can't. Ugh...not sure what to do about that, ya know? I wish he was living down here. I miss him so much. He needs to be enjoying life and not working his ass off still. Maybe in a year he will change his mind. I sure hope so!
Mom misses you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I hope you come visit me in my dreams soon. I love when you do. I am sure you are super busy doing all kinds of things. I know I can't see any of it but Mom is so proud of you, pumpkin. You were amazing here and I know you are amazing wherever you are. I will light a candle this evening for you. I will whisper to you before bed too. Smile for me and I will be sure to give you a smile before I fall asleep. Mom is going to close now as it is thundering again and the rain is going to start. I will have to stop what I am doing and tend to Ozzy while Mark has Princess. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then...good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖



































