Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Saturday evening? I hope that you are smiling up there in Heaven and having the time of your life. Mom is so sorry that I didn't write to you again last night but after a long day I started to feel like crap again. Slight fever and a headache. Still have it today as well. I am hoping that this will all do down and gone so I can start feeling better. I am really having a hard time sleeping these last few days too. Not sure why though. If you could help me out that would be wonderful and I would really appreciate it. Thanks pumpkin.
 There is so much to say to you. I know that you already know but I called Jeremy the other day ( Tuesday ) and Cindy answered ( your 2nd Mom ) and she was telling me that he was in the hospital. High fever and fluid in or near the lungs. Docs were thinking perhaps an infection was brewing. I know you are with him and you watch over him closely. Guess there is a lot going on at Crotched Mtn. these days. I wish you were here with Mom but I can honestly say I am so grateful that you do not have to put up with that nonsense any longer and lack of care that the facility gives the patients. I used to be so worried about you, Jeremy, and Ron at that place. I feared for you boys to the point it made me ill to think about it. Still does to this day. You and Ron are free of that pain & suffering now, but Jeremy is not. I hope that he can get out of there and soon. Please continue to watch over him. I am going to call him again tomorrow for an update. Hopefully he is recovering and will get to leave the hospital if he hasn't already!
 Please be with Meme. There is just so much going on there and I know you know all of it and see it. I am so worried for her. I just ask of you to be with her and protect & watch over her closely. I wish things were different and better... not sure if they ever will be again though. I pray for her every morning & night. Thanks Tyler!
 I have heard from Aunt Becky. She is having a great time in South America. She has been there for 12 days already and has 2 more weeks to go or maybe 3.. not sure though. Sounds like all is well and they are enjoying the weather and Ecuador very much. Just please continue to watch over them and make sure that they are protected and safe. Meme worries about her a great deal too. I can't wait to hear if you visited her while she was there. I can't wait to hear about her trip too.
 I will be leaving for my mini getaway in 18 days to Las Vegas to go to my Celine Dion concert. I really am getting excited. I have waited so long and several years to see her in concert... seems surreal to me to be going there! I will be gone for 3 days. Bonnie will be flying in on the 17th to stay with us for 10 days and watch the pups while we are gone. Can't wait to see her either. We talk a few times a week but we haven't seen each other in 8 months! Please watch over Mark & I as we travel. Please be with us throughout our time there. I wish you were going to be with me here so we could gamble together. You would have won. You were great at the game and very lucky too! Give Mom some luck ok...lol? Love you Tyler!
 Well... the weather was cloudy all day and threatened rain but nothing as of yet. We walked the pups already once tonight and no stars could be seen. I don't think there will be any out later either. Suppose to rain the next 4 days here. The temp is nice though. 80 degrees today so I will take that! As always I know you are up there shining down on us and watching and protecting Mom, Mark & all our family. Thank you for all that you do for us all. It means the world to Mom. I will be whispering to you like I always do... hope you are listening and can hear me. 
 I wish you a peaceful evening and many sweet dreams. Fly high and fly free my precious son & Angel above. I miss and love you beyond any words I could ever express. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. Spencer & Brie announced that their baby that will be born in July is a Boy! I told them Congrats and that you were smiling down on them. Oh cool would it be if their baby was born on your Birthday! My fingers are crossed :)

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Today is what they call the Black Moon Day. It is where you have more than 1 New Moon in 1 month... t sounds cool. It can only be seen in the daytime though. It is almost nightfall here and it is very cloudy and overcast so we couldn't see anything. Always seems to happen here in Texas when something cool takes place. I hope that you got a chance to see it.
 I am so sorry that I didn't get a chance to write to you the last 2 nights. Tuesday during the day I was fine and when it came to early evening and we took the dogs out for a walk I came back in and sat down. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I got a headache, I was cold and couldn't get warm and I started to have the body shakes.. then came the fever. I went to bed and slept all night to awake yesterday with all the same symptoms but the headache was so much worse. The fever was higher and I actually slept until 5:30 pm and woke up to have alittle something to eat and stay awake for a couple hours so I could sleep last night. Today, the headache is slight and tolerable, the fever is not so high but still there, and I have been up since 10:00 am. I actually got out of bed and came o the couch for the day. I am feeling half human which is good. Tomorrow I should be feeling back to myself again. The pups have been with me and by my side the entire time and I am sure you were as well. I know you hate to see Mom sick and would do anything to take it all away. Mark was wonderful again as usual. He was making sure I was resting and taking Tylenol when I could. He made sure that I was hydrated and had food in my stomach. He is so good to me. I am really lucky to have him by my side. Anyways...
 Not much else have been going on the last few days. I am awaiting the warmer weather that is coming in tomorrow and the weekend. It is suppose to be 70 -75 degrees and partly cloudy. I will take it. Sunday is the Superbowl. None of our favorite teams are in it but I will still watch it for all the commercials. I did see that the Doritos has one and it has a " doxie " in it. Looks a lot like Ziggy. It is cute and funny! I know you will like that one. There is a new M & M commercial too. Will tell you about that one on Sunday night when I see it. I wish that you were here still so we could watch it together or at least skype and watch it together. I miss you so much. I love you my sweet son. I know I say I miss you but I hope you know I truly do. It comes from my heart when I say it. I don't think I will ever be able to express it to you or anyone on how I really feel... the loneliness, the sadness, the pain, the emptiness that I feel.
 Obviously, I have not been able to look up to the sky the last couple nights but I do know that it was overcast and there were no stars shining brightly. I know you still were up there shining and watching over Mom and the rest of our family and friends. I still whispered to you so I hope you heard Mom. No stars tonight either but I will look to the sky and whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for Mom's voice. 
 I hope you have a wonderful night and it is restful and peaceful for you. Sweet dreams my precious Angel. I miss you so much and I love you beyond words. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!