Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday morning? Mom is really sorry that I have not written to you in a couple days but as you can see, things aren’t the greatest around here right now. Monday was a good day. I got up and packed the rest of my office, the living room and the dining room. I worked on this for 4 hours and after that I could barely move because my back hurt so bad. I was able to make dinner and do the dishes but that was about it. The rest of the evening all I did was sit with a warm pillow on my back and watched tv. I felt okay yesterday but then I decided to pack some more which was a mistake on my part. I stopped after a bit because I was hurting again. I took a long hot shower but that really didn’t do anything. I did manage to do a bit of house cleaning
as well but then needed to sit down. Mark got home later than normal. He was a guy of no words. Not sure why but he didn’t talk to Mom at all last night. He came in, got on his computer, ate dinner in his office and then stayed there all night long. Mom was upset so I shut everything down in the living room and decided to watch tv in bed. He was on his computer talking and playing his game so I shut the doors so I could hear tv and not him. I went to bed at 10 pm but couldn’t sleep because his light was on. He never went to bed until 1 am this morning. He said nothing at all to Mom. He got ready and out the door he went. I heard him leave so I got up but he was already driving away. Not sure what his problem is but I am dang sure that I will be the blame of it as I always am. I can guarantee that tonight will be a repeat of last night where he won’t say anything to me at all. I won’t say anything either as I have nothing to really say as I didn’t do anything wrong. I don’t deserve to be treated the way that I am. He really needs to start treating me better and treat his coworkers the way he does me. He is still traveling daily to that same customer site that he has been for the last 4 weeks. It is taking a toll on him and has been but he still refuses to say anything. Instead he takes it out on me. It is not fair at all. Mom sometimes wonders why I put up with it at all. I have been wondering if this whole house thing is the right decision. I guess you can say that Mom is really doing a lot of thinking lately and second guessing everything right now. Mom has stayed off her computer for the last few days and today won’t be any different. I plan on working on my studies and then watching tv later this evening. Like I said it will be quiet. I might take a nice warm bath but not sure. I can’t do any packing of any sort as I am out of  bubble wrap and packing tape plus there is only 1 box left. Looks like I know what I am doing this weekend. I overheard Mark say that he is at this customer site until the end of the month. That will be a total of 9 weeks that he will have gone there. Not cool but I am staying out of it. I am saying nothing. Anyways....
 Mom has spoken to Meme and Grandpa one time since Sunday. Guess everyone is stressing out right about now. Well Grandpa isn’t.  Aunt Beck sent me a couple pictures of a church that our family in Italy go too. It is pretty. She said she is having a grand time. She leaves on Friday I believe or maybe it is Saturday. Those 2 weeks went fast. She is working in Claremont next week so I will chat with her when she gets home.  Still never heard from Bean at all. She claims to Aunt Beck she never got any of my messages or voicemails. I have the right number because Aunt Beck confirmed it. Oh well. I ask about her all the time. I guess she is doing well. Aunt Shirley is still not able to see. The surgery was not a success for her. She is almost completely blind now. It is sad and she is having a really hard time with it. I pray for her and everyone daily. I know you watch over her along with all of us. Thank you my sweet precious son. Today is August 14th. At 1:09 am 1 year ago Great Grammy crossed over to be with you. I can’t believe it has been a year already. I know you all are together and at peace  with everything so that is what keeps me going. I miss her, I miss everyone so much and I sure do especially miss you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Thank you for the beautiful painting in the sky last night. It was beautiful and Mom needed it after the night I had. I smiled and whispered to you. I hope you smiled when you heard my voice. I will whisper to you later tonight as well. Mom will light your candle 🕯 later this afternoon. It will burn bright for you, for Great Grammy and all our family and friends that are with you now.
 Mom needs to get ready now that it is after 11:20 am. I need to do a few things and then track down a missing package from the mail carrier plus the realtor just called with a concern. Guess it will be a busy afternoon for Mom. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Have fun tonight while Mom gets some much needed sleep. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Thanks pumpkin. Until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams later tonight. I love you with all my heart and soul.... unconditionally.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤

Mom will do the daily prayer for you tomorrow as I can’t when I am on my iPad 😞

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday Morning? Mom has been up since 6 am. Just couldn't sleep. I am sorry that I didn't write to you more Friday night or Saturday but I really felt like crap. My stomach hurt so bad. All day Friday Mom sat on the couch and just watched TV and then Saturday I was feeling better, I ate and then felt like crap again. I managed to do a few things around the apartment though while Mark took Princess to her vet appointment. I also was able to pack 90% of my office. After I did that I was really feeling yucky so I sat on the couch and watched a couple shows while Mark was playing his game with his brothers. We had dinner around 6 pm and we were both in bed sleeping by 10:30 pm. Today, Mom needs to go out and run errands and I have a nail appointment. I am writing to you before I go because I know that when we get back it will be late afternoon, I will have to put everything away and then it will be time to make dinner and do the night stuff. I won't really have a chance to write then so I wanted to now. Mom is hoping to get a few more boxes so that I can do some packing this week while Mark is at the customer site again.... 4 week in a row. I am sure hoping it will stop really soon. He needs the break from all this driving and the pain he is in will not go away until he stops going there either. Mom has not said anything as it always gets us in an argument so I don't bother. He says something about it and I ignore him. That is the only way I know how to deal with it without exploding! Anyways.... I did have the chance to talk to Meme yesterday. She was sounding even more stressed out and Bob is not helping the situation at all. I wish there was something I could do but I can't so all I can do is just listen to her vent. I know things are now getting down to the wire and it is more stress and pressure plus anxiety but we all are trying to do the best we can. We are 23 days out from closing on the house now and we only have 64 days until we leave. Mom is just continuing to do all that I can here to set things up and pack on this side so that Mark really only has to pack his office up. All the things that we don't use are going in boxes now. I plan on doing a little at a time so that I don't get stressed out on my end. Grandpa and Debbie are doing well. They have already started to pack things up too. They will be coming down 5 months later but they want to get a head start on things. They both only have 7 weeks left before they retire. I am happy for them! After they both do retire, they have a few things they want to get done to the house and then they will start the real packing. The months will go by fast because of the holidays and winter months up here. They are starting to get excited so that is a good thing! I still have not heard from Aunt Beck but I am sure she is doing just fine. She is still in Italy and I think she leaves a week from today. Maybe I will hear from her this week. I know you are watching over her though. Thank you pumpkin! That is all the updates I have for you today. Mom needs to be finishing this letter up and then hitting the road to make my appointment for 11:30 am. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you though. I plan on doing some studying and a bit of packing. Mom did her last lesson in her course and I took the exam.... I got a 95%! Now I have the 6 projects to do and the final. Hoping to get a lot of that done this week! I will start a new candle to you later today. The stash is getting lower. I think I will only have to pack a couple up so that is good! I will whisper to you tonight when I go to bed. Smile for Mom and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. I miss you like crazy and I love you more than words. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Have fun today and tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

TODAY, AUGUST 11, 2019

How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news, who proclaim peace, who bring good tidings, who proclaim salvation, who say to Zion, "Your God reigns!" Listen! Your watchmen lift up their voices; together they shout for joy. When the Lord returns to Zion, they will see it with their own eyes. Isaiah 52:7–8, NIV

Lord our God, grant that we may be your watchmen, who can understand what you mean for our time. We thank you for all you have already done, for every change to the good among the nations. For the nations must bow to your will so that nothing happens unless accomplished by you. Judge us wherever necessary. Open our eyes to see where we are wrong and where something does not go according to your Spirit. Be with us and give us strength. Raise up more watchmen everywhere, in every place and in every home. Wherever something happens to move people's hearts, let the watchmen proclaim, "This comes from God. It does not matter how much we suffer. This comes from Jesus Christ, who suffered and died, but who rose again." Raise up such watchmen among young and old everywhere on earth, to the glory of your name. Let there be a people who go to meet you with shouts of joy and thanksgiving. Amen.