Tuesday, March 3, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today on Tuesday evening? Things here as you can see are so crazy yesterday & all day today. I am so sorry again for not writing to. There is not enough hours in the day to do all that needs to get done. I am up to my ears in getting everything set for the movers next week to get all our stuff from Texas. Today alone I was on the telephone for over 6 hours finalizing everything. I am so tired & not feeling the greatest but I wanted to at least write you a small letter. I feel so much closer to you when I do. It might sound crazy but it is true.
I miss you so much Tyler. I never thought I would loose you this soon in life. I hate it. I try so hard to show everyone I am doing well & I am upbeat despite missing you. The truth is I am so lost without you. I have hard times making decisions on a regular basis. I stare of in space & sometimes I don't hear what people say. I don't do it on purpose but I guess I am in my own little world. I am sad & my heart hurts every hour of the day. I try to get by..by thinking that you are still on a long vacation & there is no way we can communicate until you get back home. It is a sick head game but it does help me to believe this. I am so sorry Ty. I know you want Mom to be happy, smile, & laugh but I just can't do it. I guess I need your help from the other side. I will take all I can get!
I know that I have 2 daily prayers to write you & the one today but I will write to you tomorrow & do them all. My eyes hurt & I would like to just relax for a bit. I think that Mom will be going to bed really early tonight again. I hope you don't mind.
I hope you have a wonderful & peaceful night. May you have sweet dreams & may I see you in mine own. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be able to hear Mom. I miss you & I love you bunches. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today on Tuesday evening? Things here as you can see are so crazy yesterday & all day today. I am so sorry again for not writing to. There is not enough hours in the day to do all that needs to get done. I am up to my ears in getting everything set for the movers next week to get all our stuff from Texas. Today alone I was on the telephone for over 6 hours finalizing everything. I am so tired & not feeling the greatest but I wanted to at least write you a small letter. I feel so much closer to you when I do. It might sound crazy but it is true.
I miss you so much Tyler. I never thought I would loose you this soon in life. I hate it. I try so hard to show everyone I am doing well & I am upbeat despite missing you. The truth is I am so lost without you. I have hard times making decisions on a regular basis. I stare of in space & sometimes I don't hear what people say. I don't do it on purpose but I guess I am in my own little world. I am sad & my heart hurts every hour of the day. I try to get by..by thinking that you are still on a long vacation & there is no way we can communicate until you get back home. It is a sick head game but it does help me to believe this. I am so sorry Ty. I know you want Mom to be happy, smile, & laugh but I just can't do it. I guess I need your help from the other side. I will take all I can get!
I know that I have 2 daily prayers to write you & the one today but I will write to you tomorrow & do them all. My eyes hurt & I would like to just relax for a bit. I think that Mom will be going to bed really early tonight again. I hope you don't mind.
I hope you have a wonderful & peaceful night. May you have sweet dreams & may I see you in mine own. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be able to hear Mom. I miss you & I love you bunches. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, March 1, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Things here were crazy Friday night & all day Saturday. About a half hour after Mark got home on Friday we lost power. The electric company said that we would get it back in 3 hours but boy were they wrong. We went without power for 21 hours. It finally came on at 12:30pm on Saturday afternoon. It was so cold in our apartment it was not funny. We thought that we would be without it for much longer so we booked a hotel room for the day/night. We ended up finding out that power came back on so we came back to our apartment & relaxed the rest of the evening. Mom did not feel good at all. I kinda laid on the couch most of the night & I went to bed at 9pm. I was so tired. I got some sleep so that helped me out. I feel alittle better today. Still tired but I am managing! At least I am warmer! I am so sorry I didn't write to you yesterday but that is why.
Today has been pretty mellow as far as us doing anything. We are just relaxing as tomorrow is Monday & it starts all over again for us. The weather is pretty crappy too. The sky is bleak because we are suppose to be getting more snow today & tomorrow. I will be so glad when winter is finished. Enough is enough. It has been such a rough winter to come back to. Not sure how I really feel about it all just yet. Again, like I have said.. I don't mind the cold at all.. it is the snow I can't stand.
I have 3 daily prayers to catch up on so I want to write them to you now before I continue my letter to you. February 28~ My friends, if anyone is detected in a transgression, you who have received the Spirit should restore such a one in a spirit of gentleness. Heavenly Father, I long to have your wisdom. I want to model myself on you, never reacting out of haste or anger, but pausing to reflect before answering another's behaviors or words. I want to take a moment to put myself in their place, taking on their hurts & sorrows So that I may respond from a place of kindness & compassion rather than thoughtlessness or impatience. Help me become more like you in this way so that others may feel loved & understood by me. Amen. Let the beams of God's goodness shine through you.
February 29~ [ Jesus said,] " Love your enemies & pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be children of your Father in heaven; for he makes his son rise on the evil & on the good, & sends rain on the righteous & on the unrighteous." Our creator, sometimes it's hard for us to understand why people who don't live a life of faith seem tremendously blessed. But what they don't know, & we should, is that they are the beneficiaries of your common grace--the grace you bestow on all those you created. Forgive us for being resentful or envious, Lord. Nothing on this earth compares to the riches of salvation that are ours. Therefore, we pray for those who don't know the source of their blessing,. Introduce them to your grace, now & forever. Mercy, grace, & love are always available to us, for the Lord is always available to us.
March 1~ My brothers & sisters, whenever you face trials of any kind, consider it nothing but joy. Lord, it seems strange to be thanking you for the pain I've experienced in my life. But from the perspective of time, I can see that each of these challenges has helped me become a more loving & compassionate person. If I had never felt disappointment, I would not have helped those who have failed as I have. If I had never felt heartbreak, I would not have helped those hearts are empty as mine was. If I had never been the target of hatred, I would not have suffered with those who hated as I was. My own suffering has opened me to the suffering of others, & it makes me long to help them heal. And for this, I thank you. Our own self-worth is developed as we help & serve others.
Today is Nana's Birthday. I wished her a Happy Heavenly Birthday already, but when you see her today please give her a big hug & kiss from Mom. She has been gone for 21 years now but not a day goes by I don't think of her & miss her so much. I know her & Pepe are watching over you for Mom. It means the world to me for that. I miss you all so very much. I love you all too. Today is also Meme & Bob's Anniversary. They have been married for 18 years. Make sure you go to them both & give them big hugs. Just don't scare them, Ty..lol!
Oh yeah, last night I saw the moon & stars shining so brightly. It was beautiful. I was so happy. I smiled a big smile & I whispered to you as I always do. Did you hear Mom? I can bet that I won't see them tonight but I will still whisper to you. Be listening out for Mom. I hope the rest of your afternoon & evening are wonderful. May you be surrounded by all the angels with so much love. I hope that you have sweet dreams tonight & I hope to see you in mine as well. I love you so very much, Ty. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you more than words can say. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son. Remember that, please!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Things here were crazy Friday night & all day Saturday. About a half hour after Mark got home on Friday we lost power. The electric company said that we would get it back in 3 hours but boy were they wrong. We went without power for 21 hours. It finally came on at 12:30pm on Saturday afternoon. It was so cold in our apartment it was not funny. We thought that we would be without it for much longer so we booked a hotel room for the day/night. We ended up finding out that power came back on so we came back to our apartment & relaxed the rest of the evening. Mom did not feel good at all. I kinda laid on the couch most of the night & I went to bed at 9pm. I was so tired. I got some sleep so that helped me out. I feel alittle better today. Still tired but I am managing! At least I am warmer! I am so sorry I didn't write to you yesterday but that is why.
Today has been pretty mellow as far as us doing anything. We are just relaxing as tomorrow is Monday & it starts all over again for us. The weather is pretty crappy too. The sky is bleak because we are suppose to be getting more snow today & tomorrow. I will be so glad when winter is finished. Enough is enough. It has been such a rough winter to come back to. Not sure how I really feel about it all just yet. Again, like I have said.. I don't mind the cold at all.. it is the snow I can't stand.
I have 3 daily prayers to catch up on so I want to write them to you now before I continue my letter to you. February 28~ My friends, if anyone is detected in a transgression, you who have received the Spirit should restore such a one in a spirit of gentleness. Heavenly Father, I long to have your wisdom. I want to model myself on you, never reacting out of haste or anger, but pausing to reflect before answering another's behaviors or words. I want to take a moment to put myself in their place, taking on their hurts & sorrows So that I may respond from a place of kindness & compassion rather than thoughtlessness or impatience. Help me become more like you in this way so that others may feel loved & understood by me. Amen. Let the beams of God's goodness shine through you.
February 29~ [ Jesus said,] " Love your enemies & pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be children of your Father in heaven; for he makes his son rise on the evil & on the good, & sends rain on the righteous & on the unrighteous." Our creator, sometimes it's hard for us to understand why people who don't live a life of faith seem tremendously blessed. But what they don't know, & we should, is that they are the beneficiaries of your common grace--the grace you bestow on all those you created. Forgive us for being resentful or envious, Lord. Nothing on this earth compares to the riches of salvation that are ours. Therefore, we pray for those who don't know the source of their blessing,. Introduce them to your grace, now & forever. Mercy, grace, & love are always available to us, for the Lord is always available to us.
March 1~ My brothers & sisters, whenever you face trials of any kind, consider it nothing but joy. Lord, it seems strange to be thanking you for the pain I've experienced in my life. But from the perspective of time, I can see that each of these challenges has helped me become a more loving & compassionate person. If I had never felt disappointment, I would not have helped those who have failed as I have. If I had never felt heartbreak, I would not have helped those hearts are empty as mine was. If I had never been the target of hatred, I would not have suffered with those who hated as I was. My own suffering has opened me to the suffering of others, & it makes me long to help them heal. And for this, I thank you. Our own self-worth is developed as we help & serve others.
Today is Nana's Birthday. I wished her a Happy Heavenly Birthday already, but when you see her today please give her a big hug & kiss from Mom. She has been gone for 21 years now but not a day goes by I don't think of her & miss her so much. I know her & Pepe are watching over you for Mom. It means the world to me for that. I miss you all so very much. I love you all too. Today is also Meme & Bob's Anniversary. They have been married for 18 years. Make sure you go to them both & give them big hugs. Just don't scare them, Ty..lol!
Oh yeah, last night I saw the moon & stars shining so brightly. It was beautiful. I was so happy. I smiled a big smile & I whispered to you as I always do. Did you hear Mom? I can bet that I won't see them tonight but I will still whisper to you. Be listening out for Mom. I hope the rest of your afternoon & evening are wonderful. May you be surrounded by all the angels with so much love. I hope that you have sweet dreams tonight & I hope to see you in mine as well. I love you so very much, Ty. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you more than words can say. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son. Remember that, please!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
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