Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today on Tuesday evening? Things here as you can see are so crazy yesterday & all day today. I am so sorry again for not writing to. There is not enough hours in the day to do all that needs to get done. I am up to my ears in getting everything set for the movers next week to get all our stuff from Texas. Today alone I was on the telephone for over 6 hours finalizing everything. I am so tired & not feeling the greatest but I wanted to at least write you a small letter. I feel so much closer to you when I do. It might sound crazy but it is true. 
 I miss you so much Tyler. I never thought I would loose you this soon in life. I hate it. I try so hard to show everyone I am doing well & I am upbeat despite missing you. The truth is I am so lost without you. I have hard times making decisions on a regular basis. I stare of in space & sometimes I don't hear what people say. I don't do it on purpose but I guess I am in my own little world. I am sad & my heart hurts every hour of the day. I try to get by..by thinking that you are still on a long vacation & there is no way we can communicate until you get back home. It is a sick head game but it does help me to believe this. I am so sorry Ty. I know you want Mom to be happy, smile, & laugh but I just can't do it. I guess I need your help from the other side. I will take all I can get! 
 I know that I have 2 daily prayers to write you & the one today but I will write to you tomorrow & do them all. My eyes hurt & I would like to just relax for a bit. I think that Mom will be going to bed really early tonight again. I hope you don't mind. 
 I hope you have a wonderful & peaceful night. May you have sweet dreams & may I see you in mine own. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be able to hear Mom. I miss you & I love you bunches. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!