Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom has been in a good mood all day as it has finally stopped raining & it has been 65 degrees & sunny all day long. My headache is gone & I am feeling really good. Mom is hoping that I will get the chance to see a nice sunset tonight or perhaps the stars & the moon shining bright. Either way I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice my sweet precious son. Today has been busy with doing things around the house as we have guests all this week coming starting tomorrow. I have also done some studying & I will be taking a exam tomorrow as well. Mark has been busy all day long with his work & has a pretty long commute ahead of him. Sounds like he is pretty booked all week. Guess Mom will be the one hosting our guests at least until the weekend! It is ok though as I have fun doing so & I think it is a blast. I am sure that you remember when I would do that when you were living at home! I sure miss those days though. I miss you when you were small. I miss you as a young man & Mom misses you now that I can no longer see you in the physical form. Every day is a struggle but I do my best to keep it together. I think I do well for the most part but I know there are days that I do not cover it up as well as I should. I don't deny myself the right to grieve you still I just like to do it privately now. No need to have the world to see it. I think part of me grieves every night when I write to you. I have had many people, family & friends say how much I have grown through the last 3 years of writing on my blog to you. They read the hurt, the pain, the healing process that I have been through. In some ways I see it too but maybe not as much as others do as I am the one living this life without you. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond forever & always! I don't think that words will ever express the love I have for you, Tyler. I know you feel it though in your soul & to Mom that is all that matters. Unconditional love is what I have for you. We will always be connected even if we are separated in different realms. Nothing will ever ever change that....You are my son & always will be regardless... you are now my most loving Guardian Angel & Mom knows you are always with me. Thank you so much for that. It means the world to me. 
 I don't really have any updates for you when it comes to our family & friends. It has been a quiet day in that way. Maybe I will have some updates for you in the next day or 2. I know we are going to have a beautiful week with lots of sun & almost 70 degrees but the weekend will be totally different. There is a Hurricane looming in the South right now that is suppose to come up this way by the weekend. I guess it will be lots of heavy rain & high winds we are looking at. Folks here are already starting to freak out. Mom is not at this point but I am watching it closely. If there is anything that you can do to not let this happen in our area that will be wonderful. Thank you! I do have the daily prayer for you now so here it is:
 October 3 ~ The heavens are the work of your hands. They will perish but you endure; they will all wear out like a garment. You change them like clothing & they pass away; but you are the same & your years have no end. Holy Creator God, I look at an ocean & I marvel. I see mountains & I say, " That's something! " The sheer magnitude of that bit of creation is awesome to me. I see  canyon cut by a river & I delight in your artistry. But what is truly amazing is that you outlast all of these majestic masterpieces. I gaze at the night sky with it's untold stars & I exult in the wonder of your creation but I don't worship what you've made. I bow only before you, the Creator. Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. Amen.
 Oh, Mom forgot to tell you that today is your cousin Johnny's 50th Birthday!  Make sure to stop on by & see him! Also, yesterday, Uncle Rick got married. I am sure you were there. I heard that he was really disappointed as Aunt Mary, Uncle Dan & your Dad were not there to help celebrate their special day. Mom sent a message to him. I am happy for Uncle Rick. Your cousin Jonathan sang....it was video taped & I watched it. Wow... when he sings it gives me chills. He is really good. I shared it on my facebook page. I am sure you smile when he sings too. You used to love listening to him. Ok... I think that is all. I think I remembered everything now...lol!
 I hope that you have a evening that is all that you want & need it to be. I am sure there will be some fun times with adventures too. Come visit Mom if you get a chance. Remember that you are my hero, my wind beneath my wings & forever you will be in my heart, mind & soul. It's that time of night for Mom to get dinner going. Mark will be home soon so until tomorrow..... good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. I sure do miss you & I love you more than words can say.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom had a quick chance to write to you right now. It has been a busy 2 days here over the weekend. Mark & Mom did lots of shopping yesterday but did not get it all done so we have to go back out today & finish the rest. The weather has been really crappy since we got home from vacation. It has been raining the whole time non stop. I guess tomorrow it is suppose to be sunny & in the 60's. It will be nice to see the sun again. 7 days is too long for Mom to go without the sun. I need to have my Vitamin D....lol. Mom has been sad as well because I have not seen a nice sunset, the moon or stars in that amount of time either. I am hoping to see all of them tomorrow night! either way though Mom will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear me & I will smile too. 
 These next week & upcoming weekend is going to be busy for us. We have company coming on Tuesday through Thursday & then Friday through Sunday. It will be nice to see everyone & Mom will be sad when everyone leaves. I don't really have any updates for you my sweet precious son. I did talk to Meme, Grandpa & my friend, Gary today though. Everyone is doing well. Mom is going with Gary to go see his brother this week. I have seen some recent pictures & he is doing really well. He is a strong guy & true fighter. He still has a long way to go but everything is going in the right direction. Mom will sure to have some updates for you in the coming days. Mom will be doing school work the next couple days before everyone shows up & Mark will be busy with his job as well. 
 I can't believe that it is already October. Fall is definitely here. The weather is chilly & the foliage is just so pretty. It is our favorite time of the year! Mom wants to write the 2 daily prayers for you that I need to catch up on. Here they are:
 October 1~ For he did not despise or abhor the affliction of the afflicted; he did not hide his face from me, but heard when I cried to him. Dear Lord, I'm grateful for your compassion & mercy. When I'm in need, you don't scold or lecture , but you welcome me with open arms. lease fill my heart with that kind of love, so I can do the same for others. Often I run away from people in need, fearing some entanglement & worried that they will need more than I can give. Or I judge them, assuming they've brought their problems on themselves. Give me the sense of mercy that pushes past those obstacles & help me truly love others in your name. " Lord, when was it that we saw you hungry & gave you food or thirsty & gave you something to drink?......" And the King will answer them, " Truly I tell you, just as you did to one of the least of these who are members of my family, you did it to me. " Amen.
 October 2~ Our steps are made firm by the Lord, when he delights in our way; though we stumble, we shall not fall headlong, for the Lord holds us by the hand. Step by step you help me go. Step by step I learn & grow. Step by step you guide me well. Step by---oops, I nearly fell. Step by step you take delight to pick me up & make things right. Step by step & hand in hand with you, along the path you've planned. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Amen.
 Mom is all caught up now. It is getting late for me & I need to be going to bed very soon. Mom is hoping that you have a peaceful night doing all the things you need & want to do. Have fun while Mom is sleeping & if you get a chance come visit me in my dreams. Hope you get to have some adventures along the way as well. Continue to fly high & free. Remember you are forever n my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you like crazy...every second of the day & night. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!