Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom has been in a good mood all day as it has finally stopped raining & it has been 65 degrees & sunny all day long. My headache is gone & I am feeling really good. Mom is hoping that I will get the chance to see a nice sunset tonight or perhaps the stars & the moon shining bright. Either way I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice my sweet precious son. Today has been busy with doing things around the house as we have guests all this week coming starting tomorrow. I have also done some studying & I will be taking a exam tomorrow as well. Mark has been busy all day long with his work & has a pretty long commute ahead of him. Sounds like he is pretty booked all week. Guess Mom will be the one hosting our guests at least until the weekend! It is ok though as I have fun doing so & I think it is a blast. I am sure that you remember when I would do that when you were living at home! I sure miss those days though. I miss you when you were small. I miss you as a young man & Mom misses you now that I can no longer see you in the physical form. Every day is a struggle but I do my best to keep it together. I think I do well for the most part but I know there are days that I do not cover it up as well as I should. I don't deny myself the right to grieve you still I just like to do it privately now. No need to have the world to see it. I think part of me grieves every night when I write to you. I have had many people, family & friends say how much I have grown through the last 3 years of writing on my blog to you. They read the hurt, the pain, the healing process that I have been through. In some ways I see it too but maybe not as much as others do as I am the one living this life without you. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond forever & always! I don't think that words will ever express the love I have for you, Tyler. I know you feel it though in your soul & to Mom that is all that matters. Unconditional love is what I have for you. We will always be connected even if we are separated in different realms. Nothing will ever ever change that....You are my son & always will be regardless... you are now my most loving Guardian Angel & Mom knows you are always with me. Thank you so much for that. It means the world to me. 
 I don't really have any updates for you when it comes to our family & friends. It has been a quiet day in that way. Maybe I will have some updates for you in the next day or 2. I know we are going to have a beautiful week with lots of sun & almost 70 degrees but the weekend will be totally different. There is a Hurricane looming in the South right now that is suppose to come up this way by the weekend. I guess it will be lots of heavy rain & high winds we are looking at. Folks here are already starting to freak out. Mom is not at this point but I am watching it closely. If there is anything that you can do to not let this happen in our area that will be wonderful. Thank you! I do have the daily prayer for you now so here it is:
 October 3 ~ The heavens are the work of your hands. They will perish but you endure; they will all wear out like a garment. You change them like clothing & they pass away; but you are the same & your years have no end. Holy Creator God, I look at an ocean & I marvel. I see mountains & I say, " That's something! " The sheer magnitude of that bit of creation is awesome to me. I see  canyon cut by a river & I delight in your artistry. But what is truly amazing is that you outlast all of these majestic masterpieces. I gaze at the night sky with it's untold stars & I exult in the wonder of your creation but I don't worship what you've made. I bow only before you, the Creator. Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. Amen.
 Oh, Mom forgot to tell you that today is your cousin Johnny's 50th Birthday!  Make sure to stop on by & see him! Also, yesterday, Uncle Rick got married. I am sure you were there. I heard that he was really disappointed as Aunt Mary, Uncle Dan & your Dad were not there to help celebrate their special day. Mom sent a message to him. I am happy for Uncle Rick. Your cousin Jonathan sang....it was video taped & I watched it. Wow... when he sings it gives me chills. He is really good. I shared it on my facebook page. I am sure you smile when he sings too. You used to love listening to him. Ok... I think that is all. I think I remembered everything now...lol!
 I hope that you have a evening that is all that you want & need it to be. I am sure there will be some fun times with adventures too. Come visit Mom if you get a chance. Remember that you are my hero, my wind beneath my wings & forever you will be in my heart, mind & soul. It's that time of night for Mom to get dinner going. Mark will be home soon so until tomorrow..... good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. I sure do miss you & I love you more than words can say.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!