Monday, May 4, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday late afternoon? Mom is feeling blah today. I can't seem to want to do a dang thing at all. I was up a lot last night because of Ozzy not wanting to be settle, Mark was snoring a lot as well. I was up all hours of the night and I think I just may be really tired but who knows. I am just not in a good mood. I was up early, fed the pups, took them for their walk and then I relaxed for a couple minutes and then went to get ready. I had to go to the post office to brought a box off and get the mail. I think I was gone a total of maybe 20 minutes and then home again. I made breakfast after, did the dishes and headed up to my office for the day. I had every intention of getting a lot accomplished but I did absolutely nothing. I chatted with a couple people on line and then I basically screwed off all day. At one point I thought that I was going to fall asleep but I am forcing myself to stay awake so I can sleep good tonight. Ozzy has been a handful today as well. He has been loud, jumping and just won't stop. Hard to get things done when he is being that way. Mom gave him his 3 pm medicine so he is finally settled down and sleeping. Good thing for that so I can write to you a short letter.
Today is may 4th. May the 4th be with you, Tyler. You loved Star Wars so I thought you would get a big chuckle out of that. Hope that makes you smile and laugh. Mom misses your voice, laugh and smile so much. Next month will be 7 years since I have seen it and every day and every year it gets harder and harder. By now I know that it will never get easier for me. Today is also your buddy, Jeremy's Birthday. I hope you are sending him a sign to let him know that you are near him. I don't ever talk with him much anymore. He is rarely on social media these days. He looks good though as I have seen pictures of him. Still no girlfriend for him and he is still with his Mom and Stepdad. Mom wished him a Happy Birthday today as well. I hope he sees it! It's a hot one today and will be all week long. Upper 90's. Our guy doing the work on the roof and house got here at 11:30 am and left at 2:30 pm. Guess his generator fell in our pool and he had to stop working. He has a lot of mishaps so far. He didn't work yesterday and only 3 hours today. He will be busting his butt the rest of the week to get everything done as he gave a date of Saturday to be finished with everything. We will see. He said he will be here at 9 am tomorrow morning.
Bob had a video call today with his doctor this morning. Meme filled me in on things. I think that is where my whole day turned to sh*t to be honest. he told his doctor that he didn't care about anyone in this house or anything at all. That rubbed me the wrong way. How are we all suppose to feel about that? Seriously, we are keeping a roof over his head, paying all the bills, doing all the cleaning while he lives a dogs life...eats, sleeps, and goes to the bathroom and that is it. Meme does his laundry, all the cooking while he does nothing at all. He makes a mess and doesn't even clean up things. He expects everyone else to do it. This morning I told him he made a mess and to go clean it up. I am not putting up with this anymore. It is causing way too much stress on everyone in this house. Him and Meme, Meme and me, Mark and Mom. Too many dynamics to say the least. I refuse to help someone anymore that doesn't want to help themselves!
Today is also a day where Phase 1 of opening things back up in the state of Florida. The public beaches are now opened and retail stores are opened up. They can have 25% capacity at all times. Mom is going to stay away from them still. I know that things need to start opening back up and eventually everything will but I still feel it is too soon. I think they will be sorry that they opened up too fast. The positive cases are still rising and the death toll is still climbing. It is a scary thing and scary world right now that we are living in. I don't think any of us know what to expect when going out. For 8 weeks it has been just to the grocery store and post office and back home. It is like a whole new world out there and the unknown is uncomfortable.
Mom wanted to write to you briefly tonight before it was time to go feed the pups and take them for their walk. I have no desire to cook dinner tonight so I think it will be just sandwiches for dinner for me and who knows what for Mark. I haven't heard a peep out of him all day long. He has had his door closed most of the day and if it hasn't he has been on the phone. Meme has been quiet and Bob as usual has been sleeping all day but up like clockwork at 4:30 pm looking for Meme to make him dinner. I think tonight, Mom will take a nice bath and watch tv before calling it a night and going to bed. I will light a candle for you and whisper to you. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. Have fun while I sleep and come visit me in my dreams if you can. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter and I promise I will be in a better mood and won't be so tired. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you. Fly high and free. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. I miss you, Tyler....More than words.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday late afternoon? Mom is feeling blah today. I can't seem to want to do a dang thing at all. I was up a lot last night because of Ozzy not wanting to be settle, Mark was snoring a lot as well. I was up all hours of the night and I think I just may be really tired but who knows. I am just not in a good mood. I was up early, fed the pups, took them for their walk and then I relaxed for a couple minutes and then went to get ready. I had to go to the post office to brought a box off and get the mail. I think I was gone a total of maybe 20 minutes and then home again. I made breakfast after, did the dishes and headed up to my office for the day. I had every intention of getting a lot accomplished but I did absolutely nothing. I chatted with a couple people on line and then I basically screwed off all day. At one point I thought that I was going to fall asleep but I am forcing myself to stay awake so I can sleep good tonight. Ozzy has been a handful today as well. He has been loud, jumping and just won't stop. Hard to get things done when he is being that way. Mom gave him his 3 pm medicine so he is finally settled down and sleeping. Good thing for that so I can write to you a short letter.
Today is may 4th. May the 4th be with you, Tyler. You loved Star Wars so I thought you would get a big chuckle out of that. Hope that makes you smile and laugh. Mom misses your voice, laugh and smile so much. Next month will be 7 years since I have seen it and every day and every year it gets harder and harder. By now I know that it will never get easier for me. Today is also your buddy, Jeremy's Birthday. I hope you are sending him a sign to let him know that you are near him. I don't ever talk with him much anymore. He is rarely on social media these days. He looks good though as I have seen pictures of him. Still no girlfriend for him and he is still with his Mom and Stepdad. Mom wished him a Happy Birthday today as well. I hope he sees it! It's a hot one today and will be all week long. Upper 90's. Our guy doing the work on the roof and house got here at 11:30 am and left at 2:30 pm. Guess his generator fell in our pool and he had to stop working. He has a lot of mishaps so far. He didn't work yesterday and only 3 hours today. He will be busting his butt the rest of the week to get everything done as he gave a date of Saturday to be finished with everything. We will see. He said he will be here at 9 am tomorrow morning.
Bob had a video call today with his doctor this morning. Meme filled me in on things. I think that is where my whole day turned to sh*t to be honest. he told his doctor that he didn't care about anyone in this house or anything at all. That rubbed me the wrong way. How are we all suppose to feel about that? Seriously, we are keeping a roof over his head, paying all the bills, doing all the cleaning while he lives a dogs life...eats, sleeps, and goes to the bathroom and that is it. Meme does his laundry, all the cooking while he does nothing at all. He makes a mess and doesn't even clean up things. He expects everyone else to do it. This morning I told him he made a mess and to go clean it up. I am not putting up with this anymore. It is causing way too much stress on everyone in this house. Him and Meme, Meme and me, Mark and Mom. Too many dynamics to say the least. I refuse to help someone anymore that doesn't want to help themselves!
Today is also a day where Phase 1 of opening things back up in the state of Florida. The public beaches are now opened and retail stores are opened up. They can have 25% capacity at all times. Mom is going to stay away from them still. I know that things need to start opening back up and eventually everything will but I still feel it is too soon. I think they will be sorry that they opened up too fast. The positive cases are still rising and the death toll is still climbing. It is a scary thing and scary world right now that we are living in. I don't think any of us know what to expect when going out. For 8 weeks it has been just to the grocery store and post office and back home. It is like a whole new world out there and the unknown is uncomfortable.
Mom wanted to write to you briefly tonight before it was time to go feed the pups and take them for their walk. I have no desire to cook dinner tonight so I think it will be just sandwiches for dinner for me and who knows what for Mark. I haven't heard a peep out of him all day long. He has had his door closed most of the day and if it hasn't he has been on the phone. Meme has been quiet and Bob as usual has been sleeping all day but up like clockwork at 4:30 pm looking for Meme to make him dinner. I think tonight, Mom will take a nice bath and watch tv before calling it a night and going to bed. I will light a candle for you and whisper to you. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. Have fun while I sleep and come visit me in my dreams if you can. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter and I promise I will be in a better mood and won't be so tired. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you. Fly high and free. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. I miss you, Tyler....More than words.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Sunday, May 3, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am so sorry about not writing to you but yesterday was kind of a messed up day. Mom was up early and went grocery shopping with Meme. We got home at 12 noon. I put everything away and then the guy got here to start on the roof. That was around 2 pm. He was here until 8 pm last night waiting for his ride. Mom went in the pool for the first time in 10 days. It was hot out and nice just to cool off for a bit. We had dinner and then we tried to watch a movie but it was pretty hard to do so we stopped. Grandpa called last night and I spoke to him until it was time to give Oz his medicine and then we took the pups for their night walk. We went to bed around 10 pm.
Today, we were up at 7 am. Fed the pups, took them for their walk and then we relax for a bit. Mom made some breakfast for everyone and then I decided to go upstairs. Mark made the bed which was such a nice surprise for me. I was so thankful for that. I didn't even bother to get ready because I put my suit on and went out to the pool. It is 84 degrees right now. The pool was 80 but so cold. I stayed in it for about 80 minutes and then got out to dry off to have some lunch. Mark is doing a few things around the house while I write to you. He is super productive today! I think we want to be anywhere away from Meme. She is in a bad mood. She is just cranky. She did laundry and wouldn't even come out to sit with us. She has been yelling at Bob constantly. In her defense he is lying and she knows it. He has said nothing to us all day long. I am nit saying anything to him anymore. It is disturbing that someone lives with you and they are sitting near you or walking by you and they say nothing at all. He sits at the table to be waited on by Meme every morning, noon and night. He does nothing for himself. I have told her to stop it but she doesn't listen at all. I now how stopped saying things to her. Guess for them it is not a fun day but for Mark and I, we are doing better. We have out times but we are trying. We are both putting our effort into it now.
The rest of our afternoon will be finishing up the small projects around the house and then we are taking the pups for a walk. After that is finished we are heading back out to the pool for a couple hours and then it will be time for dinner, a shower and then cuddling with the pups on the couch to watch the movie we tried to watch last night. Tomorrow is Monday so it will be a start to a busy week. The guy will be here all week long, power washibg the roof, driveway, house, pool area and then painting the entire outside of the house. He will be done by Saturday evening. Not bad as he has a lot of work to do. Mark will be busy and Mom will take advantage of doing some school work and working on her business this week. Mom is still hoping to launch in June. That is only 3 weeks away so not a lot of time. We shall see. If not July at the latest. I know that you are with Mom through all this and I thank you pumpkin. It means a lot to me. I miss you so dang much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings m. Forever, you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I will light your candle later this evening for you while we are watching the movie. I will whisper to you tonight before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Have fun while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Mom is going to get going now. Meme is just yelling at Bob. She just told him he belongs in a nursing home. Yikes. I am going to close this letter to get away from all this negativity right now. It's not pretty. She is just so bullsh*t at him, that she is sighing really loud. I don't want to hear it....period. Anyways, Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you my sweet precious son. Continue to fly high and free. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💞
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am so sorry about not writing to you but yesterday was kind of a messed up day. Mom was up early and went grocery shopping with Meme. We got home at 12 noon. I put everything away and then the guy got here to start on the roof. That was around 2 pm. He was here until 8 pm last night waiting for his ride. Mom went in the pool for the first time in 10 days. It was hot out and nice just to cool off for a bit. We had dinner and then we tried to watch a movie but it was pretty hard to do so we stopped. Grandpa called last night and I spoke to him until it was time to give Oz his medicine and then we took the pups for their night walk. We went to bed around 10 pm.
Today, we were up at 7 am. Fed the pups, took them for their walk and then we relax for a bit. Mom made some breakfast for everyone and then I decided to go upstairs. Mark made the bed which was such a nice surprise for me. I was so thankful for that. I didn't even bother to get ready because I put my suit on and went out to the pool. It is 84 degrees right now. The pool was 80 but so cold. I stayed in it for about 80 minutes and then got out to dry off to have some lunch. Mark is doing a few things around the house while I write to you. He is super productive today! I think we want to be anywhere away from Meme. She is in a bad mood. She is just cranky. She did laundry and wouldn't even come out to sit with us. She has been yelling at Bob constantly. In her defense he is lying and she knows it. He has said nothing to us all day long. I am nit saying anything to him anymore. It is disturbing that someone lives with you and they are sitting near you or walking by you and they say nothing at all. He sits at the table to be waited on by Meme every morning, noon and night. He does nothing for himself. I have told her to stop it but she doesn't listen at all. I now how stopped saying things to her. Guess for them it is not a fun day but for Mark and I, we are doing better. We have out times but we are trying. We are both putting our effort into it now.
The rest of our afternoon will be finishing up the small projects around the house and then we are taking the pups for a walk. After that is finished we are heading back out to the pool for a couple hours and then it will be time for dinner, a shower and then cuddling with the pups on the couch to watch the movie we tried to watch last night. Tomorrow is Monday so it will be a start to a busy week. The guy will be here all week long, power washibg the roof, driveway, house, pool area and then painting the entire outside of the house. He will be done by Saturday evening. Not bad as he has a lot of work to do. Mark will be busy and Mom will take advantage of doing some school work and working on her business this week. Mom is still hoping to launch in June. That is only 3 weeks away so not a lot of time. We shall see. If not July at the latest. I know that you are with Mom through all this and I thank you pumpkin. It means a lot to me. I miss you so dang much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings m. Forever, you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I will light your candle later this evening for you while we are watching the movie. I will whisper to you tonight before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Have fun while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Mom is going to get going now. Meme is just yelling at Bob. She just told him he belongs in a nursing home. Yikes. I am going to close this letter to get away from all this negativity right now. It's not pretty. She is just so bullsh*t at him, that she is sighing really loud. I don't want to hear it....period. Anyways, Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you my sweet precious son. Continue to fly high and free. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💞
Friday, May 1, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Happy May 1st to you in Heaven. Hard to believe that it is the 5th month of 2020. We are in Day 31 of lockdown too. I think soon that will change!
Mom has a quick chance to write to you now as it is 4:13 pm and I need to get the evening routine started in about 25 minutes. Today has been a busy day right from the start. Mom was up at 7 am. Pups were fed, walked and then emails, texts and phone calls started. There was a pups loose in the neighborhood so Mom, Meme and Mark tried to get the little guy but every time we saw it, he would run off. It is a little Yorkie. Cute little bugger. Mom walked the streets this morning to see if I could find him but no luck. next we broke down all the boxes in the garage and had a guy come pick them up for us. Mom stayed downstairs for a bit and then made some breakfast and more phone calls. I came upstairs around 12 noon and turned on my computer. I spent a couple hours sending emails and taking phone calls. I finally was able to take a shower and make the bed, walk the pups and give Oz his medicine around 3 pm. Now the pups are sleeping, Meme is relaxing in her room, Mark has been playing video games with his brother all day long and Bob has literally been sleeping all day. He woke up at 10:30 am and had breakfast, sat in the chair for 10 minutes and then at noon had lunch and then fell fast asleep. It is now 4:19 pm and he has not been awake at all. He is now using his CPAP machine but it is not doing what it is supposed to at all. He still has zero energy and sleeps all day long. I would say at least 20-21 hrs out of the 24 hrs a day. Mom says nothing anymore as it doesn't make a difference at all. Bob is doing what he wants and not what the doctors recommend so it is none of my business. I bet that he gets up in about 10 minutes to have dinner and he will be back to sleep by 6:30 pm. No joke. He does this 7 days a week. Anyways....
Last night was kind of relaxing. We ate dinner, walked the pups and then watched tv for a little bit. Around 10 pm we gave Oz his medicine and then took them for another walk. We noticed that they were renters across the street. They were loud and partying it up until 12:45 am. The Sheriff was called on them from a neighbor of ours. No one is suppose to be here on vacation as the ban has not been lifted on vacation rentals. All of us here that live year round are a bit angry with this. we all have to go by the rules and so should everyone else. Mark, Mom, and a few others all put in complaints regarding this issue. We shall see what happens. None of us have heard anything yet. Stay tuned for this....Tonight will be eating dinner, feeding the pups, walking them and then maybe a movie and then Oz's medicine, another walk and then bed. Hopefully the Sheriff will not be called on that house again but something tells me that they will. They have been loud all day long today. Kids are yelling and screaming in the pool. Ugh...… This weekend will be relaxing I hope. The weather will be hot and sunny so Mom is hoping to get in the pool since it has been 10 days since I have been in it. Missing the exercising and sitting in the sun. We have a new guy coming to work on the roof and painting will be all next week. He will be done the job next Saturday the 9th. 7 days and he will have powerwashed the drive way, the roof, the house, the pool area and painted the whole outside of the house. Not bad. He seems like a good guy and does excellent work. Meme is impressed so that is all that counts!
Just like I said and on cue... Bob is up and it is 4:30 pm on the dot. He is wanting to eat dinner. How funny is that. He days are the same. So predictable. Sad but true. he still says nothing to us and I see that no one tries to talk to him anymore either. I wish things would improve in that area but I don't think it will. I hear Mark still playing his video games. He has wasted a whole day by doing nothing but act like a child. This weekend better not be that way or Mom will be pretty angry!
Oz has had a tougher day today. He has been pretty quiet and sleeping a lot. He feels warm but it is warm outside. He is eating fine but something just doesn't seem right. I am watching him closely. The bloodwork came back on him and there are a few areas that are elevated. The doctor seems concerned on a few. She thinks he may have hypothyroidism due to lack of energy and weight gain plus his T4 levels are high. Mom thinks it is the steroid that he has been on but we will see. Please watch out for him like you have been doing. Please continue to watch over us all too. Thank you, pumpkin.
Mom will light your candle later tonight and I will whisper to you before I go to sleep. Smile for me and I will smile for you. Come visit if you can in my dreams. Have fun while we sleep. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you as well. I miss you and love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom needs to get going so until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Happy May 1st to you in Heaven. Hard to believe that it is the 5th month of 2020. We are in Day 31 of lockdown too. I think soon that will change!
Mom has a quick chance to write to you now as it is 4:13 pm and I need to get the evening routine started in about 25 minutes. Today has been a busy day right from the start. Mom was up at 7 am. Pups were fed, walked and then emails, texts and phone calls started. There was a pups loose in the neighborhood so Mom, Meme and Mark tried to get the little guy but every time we saw it, he would run off. It is a little Yorkie. Cute little bugger. Mom walked the streets this morning to see if I could find him but no luck. next we broke down all the boxes in the garage and had a guy come pick them up for us. Mom stayed downstairs for a bit and then made some breakfast and more phone calls. I came upstairs around 12 noon and turned on my computer. I spent a couple hours sending emails and taking phone calls. I finally was able to take a shower and make the bed, walk the pups and give Oz his medicine around 3 pm. Now the pups are sleeping, Meme is relaxing in her room, Mark has been playing video games with his brother all day long and Bob has literally been sleeping all day. He woke up at 10:30 am and had breakfast, sat in the chair for 10 minutes and then at noon had lunch and then fell fast asleep. It is now 4:19 pm and he has not been awake at all. He is now using his CPAP machine but it is not doing what it is supposed to at all. He still has zero energy and sleeps all day long. I would say at least 20-21 hrs out of the 24 hrs a day. Mom says nothing anymore as it doesn't make a difference at all. Bob is doing what he wants and not what the doctors recommend so it is none of my business. I bet that he gets up in about 10 minutes to have dinner and he will be back to sleep by 6:30 pm. No joke. He does this 7 days a week. Anyways....
Last night was kind of relaxing. We ate dinner, walked the pups and then watched tv for a little bit. Around 10 pm we gave Oz his medicine and then took them for another walk. We noticed that they were renters across the street. They were loud and partying it up until 12:45 am. The Sheriff was called on them from a neighbor of ours. No one is suppose to be here on vacation as the ban has not been lifted on vacation rentals. All of us here that live year round are a bit angry with this. we all have to go by the rules and so should everyone else. Mark, Mom, and a few others all put in complaints regarding this issue. We shall see what happens. None of us have heard anything yet. Stay tuned for this....Tonight will be eating dinner, feeding the pups, walking them and then maybe a movie and then Oz's medicine, another walk and then bed. Hopefully the Sheriff will not be called on that house again but something tells me that they will. They have been loud all day long today. Kids are yelling and screaming in the pool. Ugh...… This weekend will be relaxing I hope. The weather will be hot and sunny so Mom is hoping to get in the pool since it has been 10 days since I have been in it. Missing the exercising and sitting in the sun. We have a new guy coming to work on the roof and painting will be all next week. He will be done the job next Saturday the 9th. 7 days and he will have powerwashed the drive way, the roof, the house, the pool area and painted the whole outside of the house. Not bad. He seems like a good guy and does excellent work. Meme is impressed so that is all that counts!
Just like I said and on cue... Bob is up and it is 4:30 pm on the dot. He is wanting to eat dinner. How funny is that. He days are the same. So predictable. Sad but true. he still says nothing to us and I see that no one tries to talk to him anymore either. I wish things would improve in that area but I don't think it will. I hear Mark still playing his video games. He has wasted a whole day by doing nothing but act like a child. This weekend better not be that way or Mom will be pretty angry!
Oz has had a tougher day today. He has been pretty quiet and sleeping a lot. He feels warm but it is warm outside. He is eating fine but something just doesn't seem right. I am watching him closely. The bloodwork came back on him and there are a few areas that are elevated. The doctor seems concerned on a few. She thinks he may have hypothyroidism due to lack of energy and weight gain plus his T4 levels are high. Mom thinks it is the steroid that he has been on but we will see. Please watch out for him like you have been doing. Please continue to watch over us all too. Thank you, pumpkin.
Mom will light your candle later tonight and I will whisper to you before I go to sleep. Smile for me and I will smile for you. Come visit if you can in my dreams. Have fun while we sleep. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you as well. I miss you and love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom needs to get going so until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
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