Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday late afternoon? Mom is feeling blah today. I can't seem to want to do a dang thing at all. I was up a lot last night because of Ozzy not wanting to be settle, Mark was snoring a lot as well. I was up all hours of the night and I think I just may be really tired but who knows. I am just not in a good mood. I was up early, fed the pups, took them for their walk and then I relaxed for a couple minutes and then went to get ready. I had to go to the post office to brought a box off and get the mail. I think I was gone a total of maybe 20 minutes and then home again. I made breakfast after, did the dishes and headed up to my office for the day. I had every intention of getting a lot accomplished but I did absolutely nothing. I chatted with a couple people on line and then I basically screwed off all day. At one point I thought that I was going to fall asleep but I am forcing myself to stay awake so I can sleep good tonight. Ozzy has been a handful today as well. He has been loud, jumping and just won't stop. Hard to get things done when he is being that way. Mom gave him his 3 pm medicine so he is finally settled down and sleeping. Good thing for that so I can write to you a short letter. 
 Today is may 4th. May the 4th be with you, Tyler. You loved Star Wars so I thought you would get a big chuckle out of that. Hope that makes you smile and laugh. Mom misses your voice, laugh and smile so much. Next month will be 7 years since I have seen it and every day and every year it gets harder and harder. By now I know that it will never get easier for me. Today is also your buddy, Jeremy's Birthday. I hope you are sending him a sign to let him know that you are near him. I don't ever talk with him much anymore. He is rarely on social media these days. He looks good though as I have seen pictures of him. Still no girlfriend for him and he is still with his Mom and Stepdad. Mom wished him a Happy Birthday today as well. I hope he sees it! It's a hot one today and will be all week long. Upper 90's. Our guy doing the work on the roof and house got here at 11:30 am and left at 2:30 pm. Guess his generator fell in our pool and he had to stop working. He has a lot of mishaps so far. He didn't work yesterday and only 3 hours today. He will be busting his butt the rest of the week to get everything done as he gave a date of Saturday to be finished with everything. We will see. He said he will be here at 9 am tomorrow morning. 
 Bob had a video call today with his doctor this morning. Meme filled me in on things. I think that is where my whole day turned to sh*t to be honest. he told his doctor that he didn't care about anyone in this house or anything at all. That rubbed me the wrong way. How are we all suppose to feel about that? Seriously, we are keeping a roof over his head, paying all the bills, doing all the cleaning while he lives a dogs life...eats, sleeps, and goes to the bathroom and that is it. Meme does his laundry, all the cooking while he does nothing at all. He makes a mess and doesn't even clean up things. He expects everyone else to do it. This morning I told him he made a mess and to go clean it up. I am not putting up with this anymore. It is causing way too much stress on everyone in this house. Him and Meme, Meme and me, Mark and Mom. Too many dynamics to say the least. I refuse to help someone anymore that doesn't want to help themselves!
 Today is also a day where Phase 1 of opening things back up in the state of Florida. The public beaches are now opened and retail stores are opened up. They can have 25% capacity at all times. Mom is going to stay away from them still. I know that things need to start opening back up and eventually everything will but I still feel it is too soon. I think they will be sorry that they opened up too fast. The positive cases are still rising and the death toll is still climbing. It is a scary thing and scary world right now that we are living in. I don't think any of us know what to expect when going out. For 8 weeks it has been just to the grocery store and post office and back home. It is like a whole new world out there and the unknown is uncomfortable. 
 Mom wanted to write to you briefly tonight before it was time to go feed the pups and take them for their walk. I have no desire to cook dinner tonight so I think it will be just sandwiches for dinner for me and who knows what for Mark. I haven't heard a peep out of him all day long. He has had his door closed most of the day and if it hasn't he has been on the phone. Meme has been quiet and Bob as usual has been sleeping all day but up like clockwork at 4:30 pm looking for Meme to make him dinner. I think tonight, Mom will take a nice bath and watch tv before calling it a night and going to bed. I will light a candle for you and whisper to you. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. Have fun while I sleep and come visit me in my dreams if you can. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter and I promise I will be in a better mood and won't be so tired. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you. Fly high and free. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. I miss you, Tyler....More than words.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤