Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am so sorry that I didn't write to you over the long weekend or yesterday either. It has been a big sh*t show here the last few days. Let Mom explain.... This place started filling up Wednesday evening and got even more packed by Thursday. By Friday, every house on our side of the street and on the other side was all filled up. Every house was rented and there were more then 4 cars in some driveways. The renters were their usual self. They were loud, obnoxious, partying, yelling and screaming all day all night until 2-3 am. By every day and night it kept getting worse. Mom called the police so much over the last 3 days/nights. I think I averaged about 4 hours of sleep. I am super tired. Most of the renters left yesterday morning. Trash, beer bottles were just thrown everywhere. The renters who I called the police on Sunday night are still here. They have been super loud still. They have about 6 adults and 7 kids. Guess they didn't decide having their kids in school were important...who knows. I almost called the police on them again last night. Mark and I were trying to eat dinner and watch tv and we couldn't even talk or hear the tv because of them. It was horrible. I am hoping that they are leaving soon! It is so tiring that they all disrespect the year round home owners. I don't know what happened on Sunday but things must have been rough as the police came around and shined spotlights in all the houses. Other than this house next to us, the rest of the houses are quiet even if there are renters in them. I am going to take in the next couple of months when it is quiet around here. I will enjoy this time! 
 We didn't do a thing over the long weekend. We couldn't even go outside and enjoy ourselves as we couldn't relax or hear one another over everyone else. The weather was so nice too... we watched a couple movies and that was about it. I did some cleaning and decorating for Fall. That is about it. Pretty sad. Mom was just so tired. My computer was not on at all until yesterday. I did some emails and work on my boxes but that was it. We didn't even eat dinner until 7 pm. Tonight needs to be earlier. I am writing to you right now and then my computer is being shut off. I need to clean my office and then we will be going downstairs to feed the pups and then get dinner going for us. I am hoping that it will not be loud tonight so that I can get some good solid sleep. Mom has a ton of things to do tomorrow. I will be busy all day long but I will still write to you in the afternoon. Everything else is the same. Bob is back to not talking, sleeping a lot again and Meme complains about it all. Mark is working 2 jobs now. I hope that he doesn't over do it but I am not saying anything at all. We need to have this safety to pay the bills later when these contracts run it course. 1 will end in December and the other will end in February. Then he will be left to look for work again. Mom is praying that he finds the job of his dreams and he is happy. That is all that I want for him. Mom will keep you posted on things.
 I spoke to Grandpa! They are coming in 18 days!!!! They found a ride to and from the airport. I am so excited. We will be spending all kinds of time together. we will be going to 2 theme parks, Old Town, Disney Springs and other days we will sit by the pool and relax and chill out. Mom will take them around the area to show them everything. I am hoping they like it so much that they will move. That would be my dream come true now. My ultimate dream would be to have you back. I miss you so damn much. I talked to you a lot this weekend. I hope you heard Mom. I hope you smiled like I did to you. I will do it again later tonight. I have had a candle burning for you all afternoon but I will burn another one later as well. I hope you have fun while I sleep tonight. Come visit me if you can. Please continue to watch over Mom and all of us. Keep us healthy and safe. Mom is really stressed out these days. Between all the arguing, the nasty renters, lack of sleep and doing this business and still trying to find time for school...it is rough not to mention cleaning, running errands for us, our pups and most of the time for Meme and Bob too. I am thinking that maybe tonight I will make dinner, clean up and then relax with a hot bubble bath...then after that a bit of tv and then sleep. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. 3 days of not writing was hard for me but Mom was so tired. Sunday I did paint. I did a virtual paint party. It started at 6:30 pm and ended at 9:45 pm. I tried having fun but the renters ruined it for me. I think the painting came out good. I will be doing another one in a few weeks. Meme is going to join on this one! Anyways... it is time for Mom to get going. I have to clean up my office and then get things going for the night routine. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖

 

 Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am at the hairdressers right now covering up all my glitter strands of hair. I have a new girl as my old hairdresser quit. So far so good! She is very nice and I like her. The real test will be when my hair is done and the final results...lol. Mom wanted to write to you quickly while I am under the dryer because when I get home, I will not be putting my computer on. I am going to relax until it is time to get dinner going for us. I went by myself today which was a nice thing for a change. Meme stayed home. Bob is on his computer and Mark is on the phone. It was his first week on the new job. He is okay with it. I told him to give it time. Mom officially has sold out of her boxes now!!! I have 2 new subscribers set for October as well. I am so excited!!! This is happening and this is working out. Thank you for all your support that you are giving me from the other side. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my rock, my hero and the wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much. More than words can say. You live in my heart, mind, body and soul forever and always. 

 Not much is on the agenda for the weekend. It will be spent by the pool and eating good food...lol. It wull be super hot or swimming is a must!! It is the long holiday weekend and the houses around us are filling up. The renters are being their disrespectful selves as always. I am hoping to be able to get some sleep each night but they have already started partying like crazy. Stay tuned for that!

 I know that this letter is short but Mom is almost ready to get out from under the dryer now. I will light your candle later this evening. I will whisper to you later tonight to so smile when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you. Have fun tonight while Mom tries to get some sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Please continue to watch over us all. Keep us safe and healthy. Thank you my sweet precious son. I will write you a quick letter over the weekend. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🤍

 

 

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I have been up and on the go since 6:30 am. I am a bit tired now but I am doing good. Last night was not a night I thought that it would be. I thought that it would be quiet like usual. Nope.... Aunt Beck called and I spoke to her, then she called Meme and they got into a bit of a tiff and then she was mad at me. The weather was crappy and raining so we didn't get to feed the pups until 6 pm and we didn't eat until 7 pm. After that was all done, Mom came upstairs and worked on her boxes until 8:45 pm. I finally crawled into bed, watched 1 show and then called it a night. I was up every 2 hours as well so very little sleep I got. Mom is hoping for a better nights rest tonight! 
 This morning the pups were fed, walked and then Mom went right upstairs to finish up the boxes and getting them ready. I finished that up, made the bed, showered and then took 2 calls before I could get out the door to go to the post office for 10 am. I then went to the grocery store, Walmart and then took Meme to a few gift shops as she was looking for a specific item. We got home after 1 pm. I made something to eat and then right to my office I went! It is 3 pm and I sent a couple emails and now I am writing to you. I wanted to get your letter in now as I feel that as the time gets later, Mom is getting more and more tired and I am in a need of a nap...lol. It sucks getting old, Ty! Mom is hoping that tonight will be all about relaxing as I sure could use it and then a good night sleep. Tomorrow is Friday and Mom has a hair appoint in the afternoon. I have to leave at 12 noon and I know I will not get back until 3 pm. I will write to you while I am under the dryer. That way I get my letter in to you while I am not doing anything. I know when I get home I will not be turning my computer on at all and then it is the weekend. Depending on the weather, Mom may take the weekend off from writing or if it is crappy weather then I will write you a short one. Not sure at this point. 
 Updates for you.... Aunt Donna's Dad, Ron is getting weaker by the day. Things are not looking good for him. I know they said 2-3 months but I don't think it is even going to be 2 weeks the way it is going. I pray for a nonpainful and peaceful passing. He deserves that as much as he has suffered. Aunt Donna is taking it really rough...rightfully so. Uncle Chris is not talking to me because he is angry that I can't be in NH for his wedding next month. He is not understanding that Mark has been furloughed for a month, got his job back for 2 months and we played catch up on bills then he was let go and after 1.5 months, he has a job but will not get paid until the end of this month and we have to play catch up again. He feels that I should be able to go still. I know if the shoe was on the other foot he would say they couldn't come and that would be the end of the story. Instead, he is trying to make me feel guilty. He told me he was going to stop following me on social media. I told him whatever.... I didn't care. He is no friend to me if he doesn't understand. Yes... I have known about the wedding for a year but Covid has played a huge part in this. Mark can't take any time off at all and we can't fly anywhere because if we do we can to self quarantine for 14 days and Mark can't do that either because of his job. we don't have 1800.00 to just blow for 3 days going up there and then back. It just isn't possible. I am sorry if no one understands but it is what it is. If he wants to delete me then he does....everyone else has so why not him too. Mom is just so over it. No one has bothered with me or has cared enough to get in touch with me in over a year so why bother now? Yes it hurt for a bit but I know I can say I did nothing wrong and I can walk away with my head held high! 
 Let's see what else.... Grandpa and Debbie were suppose to be arriving in 22 days but now I am not sure if that is happening. She messaged me a few days ago saying that Grandpa said that there was a lot that needed to be done at his house and maybe coming here was not a good idea. Then he changed his mind and said nothing to me. It sounded more like Debbie didn't want to come. Yesterday, Debbie said that they spoke to Johnny, the one who is driving them two and from the airport. He said he could bring them but he could not pick them up because of rules at his work. She has asked 3 or 4 people if they could do it and they all said no. So now it stands that they have a ride to go to the airport and come here but they have no way of getting from the airport and home when they leave. They said that they would ask a couple more people but after that they were out of options. Mom is pretty upset about this because they knew they needed to talk to Johnny and they waited until the last minute to do so. It all sounds like they did it on purpose. After everything that happened last year and the way it ended with Debbie and Mom telling Grandpa to stay there and not move here.... the deal was that I didn't see Grandpa just once a year and he agreed to that. They cancelled once already and pushed it 5 months back to now and if they don't come this time, by the time I see them it will be almost 2 years. Mom doesn't know how I am going to feel about it. I will be hurt, upset and I don't think I will talk to them for awhile. They will need to know that what they did is not okay. We will see though. I will be chatting with them tonight. Mom will keep you posted.
 I have good news! I have 1 box left before I sell out of the August Box and I am ready to take new subscribers for the October Box. I am beyond happy. everyone loves their box! It is such a wonderful feeling! I hope that all my subscribers will be happy with the next one as well and I can get more! I really want this business to grow and grow for me. I know I can do it! Mom will let you know when I sell out! Thank you for helping me along the way, Tyler. I know you are proud of your Mom. I wish you were here to celebrate all these things with me but I know you are in your own way. I miss you. I miss you more and more as the days turn into months and months turn into years. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will light your candle later and I will whisper to you later tonight as well. Smile for me and I will smile for you. Have fun while I get some sleep. Come visit me in my dreams when you can. Mom will try to write to you tomorrow and over the weekend but if not, I will be back on Monday with another one. everyone is off as it is a long holiday weekend. It is Labor day. I sure hope that it stays quiet around here and it is not party central and loud. We don't need that! Tomorrow is Friday so that will tell us if it will be or not! Mom needs to do a few things before it is time to get things started for the night routine. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💛

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? It is after 4:30 pm already. Mom has been at things since 7 am this morning. I have been straight out that is for sure! I am sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but it was such a long day and Mom was cranky to be honest with you. yesterday I was up at 4:30 am because I just couldn't sleep. The pups were walked and fed and then Mom got ready as I needed to start the day because I had an appointment in the afternoon. I thought that I had 2 appointments but I was wrong. The other appointment is on Friday afternoon. Anyways.... I asked Meme if she wanted to drive for a change and of course she said no. That set the tone for the day even worse than it already was. I am so tired of being the one who always drives everywhere. She never wants to, never wants to use her vehicle or go through her gas...it is getting tiring but anyways... the appointment was for 1 pm. Got there right on time and got home at 3 pm. I automatically came into my office to make calls and send emails out, etc... I finished up at 5 pm. I had to take Mark to go get his vehicle as it was ready. I got home before he did so I fed the pups and walked them before he returned. We were all going to have pizza last night but everything got screwed up so we had fast food instead and it was really late. We never finished up until 6:30 pm or so. after that Aunt Beck called while Mark was outside chatting with someone. I got off the phone with her around 8 pm. I was so tired that I went upstairs and cuddled in my favorite blanket and watched just an hour of tv before I called it a night. I slept pretty good. I woke up this morning to a not so nice email from someone who said they subscribed to my box. I have to trouble shoot that at 7 am. I fed the pups and walked them and back upstairs to my office to collect all the emails, transactions, etc... so that I could send them to this girl. I worked on this until 11 am. I finally got to make the bed and take a shower. I have lunch at 1 pm that took me until 2:30 pm to eat it all. I have been straight out all day today and stressed to the max. I have a headache so I decided to give everything else a break and just write to you. I didn't want to miss another evening not writing to you. Mom can't write to long though as it is going on 5:40 pm and I have not fed the pups still or got dinner going for Mark & I. Too much has been going on here today and I am losing all track of time. I apologize to you for this. I will make sure to write to you tomorrow and update you on all kinds of things that are happening. Please just be with Mom. Help me through this trying time my sweet precious son. I need you. Thank you. I hope you have fun tonight while Mom is trying to sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. You know how much I love that. I will light a candle for you this evening and I will whisper to you later tonight. Smile when you hear Mom and I will smile back to you. I miss you more than words and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖

PS. Mom received a mantra band bracelet in the mail today which was so perfect. It says " I love you to the moon and back" The saying on the card reads:

 I love you to the moon and back, farther than the stars above, deeper than the oceans, Taller than the mountains that touch the blue skies. truly, deeply, infinitely, I love you to the moon and back. I love this saying. It is beyond perfect. I just had to share it with you 💖