Saturday, January 11, 2014


Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you doing on this Saturday night? I hope that everything is wonderful for you. Today was a beautiful day here in Texas. It was sunny and 72 degrees outside. The next few days will be sunny & 75 degrees. I am digging that weather! I am wishing and hoping that the sky is clear and the stars are shining brightly tonight. I will be taking the pups out soon so I shall find out. Be listening for Mom to whisper to you regardless. I always do and I always will! 
 Mark and I enjoyed the day mostly outside. We did a little shopping and walked around so that we could enjoy the fresh air. We went to a English Pub for lunch. That was neat. You have loved it! They had a sigh there that said " Jack lives here". I know it means something completely different but I thought of you when I saw it and automatically thought of Jack from " Nightmare Before Christmas ". I took a picture of it and will post it on here tomorrow night. I think you will get a kick out of it. Kinda had a mini meltdown in CVS today. There stuff is out for Valentines Day already and I saw the " Sad Sam Dog " and started to cry. I remember getting you the Sad Sam & Honey stuffed animals for Valentines Day a couple years back. They just made me think of you that is all. It makes Mom sad when I see something that reminds me of you. Some things make me smile, some make me sad, and other things just make me cry. I am trying. Guess it is going to take more time. Please be patience with Mom. I just miss you so much! 
 The rest of my day was ok. Spoke to Meme for a bit this morning. She seems to be doing better. The conversation went really well. Please continue to be with her during this difficult time. Thanks pumpkin or in Meme's case peanut :) Didn't get to call Bob today but I will give him a call in the morning. I guess the doctors did feel that it was indeed a blood clot so now they are coming up with a course of action. Please continue to be with Bob too. Thanks again! 
 I got a chance to speak to Marion today and a friend of mine that I have not spoken to in several years and haven't seen in 23 years. I will be getting a chance to spend a couple days with her next month. It will be so nice. You wouldn't remember her but you met her when you were a baby and again when you were a year old. All in all it was a pretty good day.
 I hope that the rest of your evening is all that you want it to be and so much more. I hope that you do all that you want. Fly high & fly free my precious son. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you so much. Sweet dreams and please tell everyone that I miss them and love them too. 
 I miss you so much and I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Forever!!! Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. Thought you would like to know that I won the 4th game of Chess that I played. I still had the King, Bishop, Rook, & the Knight and Mark just had the King! Thought you would get a chuckle out of that :) 

Friday, January 10, 2014


This what you would tell Mom....


This is what Mom says....


Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you doing on this Friday early evening? Mom hopes that you are doing well and that you are so happy up there in Heaven doing all that you want to do and all that you can do. I hope there is no limitations for you and that it is basically " skies the limit " for you! Things here are pretty crazy but nothing that I can't handle or at least I hope I can handle it all. 
 I was telling you last night that I spoke to Meme and things were pretty heated up. She said some hard things to Bob and it started a mess between Meme, Bob, Jen ( Bob's daughter ) & Mom. The things that were said were not meant for Meme to say to Bob and then have Bob discuss them with Jen. It was suppose to be that Jen said the things to her Dad in her own time. Now... Bob is upset with Meme, I am upset with Meme, & Jen is upset with me. What a freakin mess going on. I did contact Bob and apologize to him for it all. We had a nice calm discussion and all is well between us. I will let it blow over for a couple days and then direct things again with Meme and Jen. Anyways.. on a better note.. Bob seemed more chipper. He did get some sleep last night so that was great! I guess the doctors are really unsure to what is going on with him and what the blockage is from so they are treating it as a blood clot and go from there. He will not be released until everything is cleared up and he is doing better. I hope that he uses his time to just relax, sleep and to mellow out and know he is safe and where he needs to be if something was to happen. They are watching him closely so I am happy about that! Thank you for all the help with being with Bob and watching over him. Will you please continue to sit with him and watch over him? I hate the fact that he is alone up there. Thank you sweetheart. It means so much to Mom. 
 Please continue to be with Meme as well. She needs you too. I hate the way our conversation went last night. I don't like fighting with Meme or anyone else for that matter. I just don't want to see anyone... Meme & Bob angry, sad, depressed, etc.. at one another or anyone else. I just want everyone to get along and be happy. Thank you for continuing to be with Meme. She is alone too and I don't like that at all either. 
 The sky last night was just like I thought it would be..crappy! It has been overcast for most of the day but it was 69 degrees outside. This weekend is suppose to be 75 and sunny! I can't wait for that weather. Not much to do but 2 long walks with the pups will be in order for the weekend. I will look to the sky tonight and hopefully I can see some stars! I hope to see you shining brightly. If I can't I know you are up there and watching over Mark & I too. I know you are with me I just wish I could get more signs that you are here with me. Do you think that you could do that for Mom? I miss you so much. I guess I just need some validation that you are here. I would appreciate it a great deal. I love you beyond words Tyler. Thank you my sweet precious son and Angel from above.
 Please have a wonderful evening. May it be peaceful for you as well. Be listening for Mom to whisper to you tonight. Sweet dreams my love. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah! 

PS. Hope you are enjoying all the puppy pics that I am posting for you. I can ALWAYS hear you say " Can we have one? "  :)

PSS. I am on game 4 of Chess.. not doing so hot but I am still learning! Hope I am making you proud. I love you. To the moon & back and all the way around the world!