Friday, May 31, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Well, today is the last day of May and tomorrow will be June 1st. Crazy how time is flying by here. Mom has been awake since 5:30 am. I just couldn't sleep well knowing that Mark's appointment was this morning and not knowing what we were going to walk into. The unknown is so scary. We left for the doctors at 8:30 am and Mark got right in at 8:45 am. He was out by 9:20 am. Mom was beyond happy to hear what the doctor had to say. The power of pray is wonderful and God is so good! Mom can't stress that enough! Mark got a clean bill of health. No stomach ulcers and all the blood work came back 100% normal. He has to take 1 med for a short period of time to help with acid reflex but that is it. He is off everything else. The doctor felt that all the symptoms that he was feeling during this week... abnormal breathing, low O2 sats, stomach pain and distention, etc... was from the steroid med so he took Mark off that. He was cleared to go back to work on Monday, June 3rd doing light duty or in Mark's line of work it is called...remote work and not driving anywhere far. He will have to have the holter monitor for his heart still and then PT for 8 weeks. He will see how he is doing after that with a follow-up visit to the doctor after that 8 week period. Mom to say the least was so relieved that I started to cry...happy tears. Mom was really worried about him and everything that was going on. Oh yeah... the doctor said that the pinched nerve in his neck got to the point where it was so bad that it squeezed and cinched up on him and that is where the extreme pain and passing out was from. Thank you for everything my sweet precious son. I know you were watching over us and being by Mom's side through this whole ordeal. It means so much to me. I know you are always around and I guess Mom wants to be selfish and see you too. I miss you so much. I miss you laugh, your voice, your smile and your sweet face. I just can't believe that in 21 days you will have been gone for 6 years. Some days feel like yesterday and other days it feels like a lot longer. Either way, every day hurts like hell. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Last night was a pretty relaxing evening. Mom spoke to Grandpa and Meme for a few minutes and I also spoke to Uncle Gregg for a bit. It was so nice to chat with him and catch up as it has been awhile. He is doing well and so is his fiance, Tracy. She just got done having a partial spinal fusion a couple weeks ago. She is fairing well now although it was touch and go for a bit because of a complication last week but she is doing better now. Uncle Gregg seems happy for the most part. Just every day life gets to him and all of us for that matter. We are going to talk more often instead of this once a year thing. Mom gave him the site to view this blog and my letters to you so he might be stopping in to read some. I hope he does. I would love to hear what he thinks of it all. Not much else happened last night though. Mom went to bed fairly early knowing that we had to get up early this morning. I am sure tonight will be relaxing for us. Grandpa will probably call and Meme said she would be calling as well. After that though it will be watching a bit of TV and then going to bed because Mom is exhausted from the lack of sleep last night. I could actually fall asleep now but I won't because I know that I won't sleep well tonight.
Our cousin's daughter finally got to go home yesterday after being in the hospital for 3+ weeks. That is such amazing news. She still has chemo to do and will for the next 2.5 years or so but she can get back to a normal kind of schedule and life again now. Hopefully she can go back to school for the next couple weeks and relax for the summer. She looks good. A smile is always on her face even after all that she has gone through. All you kids are heros and such an inspiration to us all. She is slowly losing her hair now but we all keep telling her that bald is beautiful! She is being a trooper with this all. Mom will update you more when I know of things. I think that is all the updates that I have for you today. I am sure to have more over the weekend though. It is already 3:30 pm and Mom needs to get going. Groceries will be delivered anytime now and then the night routine stuff will be upon me in just a short time as well. Mark is resting as he took a muscle relaxer and it made him very tired. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I will light the candle tonight and whisper to you so smile when you hear me and I will smile right back to you. Continue to fly high and free. Have fun tonight while I get some sleep. Come visit in my dreams if you can. You know how much I love that! Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams pumpkin. I love you with all my heart and soul...unconditional.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Well, today is the last day of May and tomorrow will be June 1st. Crazy how time is flying by here. Mom has been awake since 5:30 am. I just couldn't sleep well knowing that Mark's appointment was this morning and not knowing what we were going to walk into. The unknown is so scary. We left for the doctors at 8:30 am and Mark got right in at 8:45 am. He was out by 9:20 am. Mom was beyond happy to hear what the doctor had to say. The power of pray is wonderful and God is so good! Mom can't stress that enough! Mark got a clean bill of health. No stomach ulcers and all the blood work came back 100% normal. He has to take 1 med for a short period of time to help with acid reflex but that is it. He is off everything else. The doctor felt that all the symptoms that he was feeling during this week... abnormal breathing, low O2 sats, stomach pain and distention, etc... was from the steroid med so he took Mark off that. He was cleared to go back to work on Monday, June 3rd doing light duty or in Mark's line of work it is called...remote work and not driving anywhere far. He will have to have the holter monitor for his heart still and then PT for 8 weeks. He will see how he is doing after that with a follow-up visit to the doctor after that 8 week period. Mom to say the least was so relieved that I started to cry...happy tears. Mom was really worried about him and everything that was going on. Oh yeah... the doctor said that the pinched nerve in his neck got to the point where it was so bad that it squeezed and cinched up on him and that is where the extreme pain and passing out was from. Thank you for everything my sweet precious son. I know you were watching over us and being by Mom's side through this whole ordeal. It means so much to me. I know you are always around and I guess Mom wants to be selfish and see you too. I miss you so much. I miss you laugh, your voice, your smile and your sweet face. I just can't believe that in 21 days you will have been gone for 6 years. Some days feel like yesterday and other days it feels like a lot longer. Either way, every day hurts like hell. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Last night was a pretty relaxing evening. Mom spoke to Grandpa and Meme for a few minutes and I also spoke to Uncle Gregg for a bit. It was so nice to chat with him and catch up as it has been awhile. He is doing well and so is his fiance, Tracy. She just got done having a partial spinal fusion a couple weeks ago. She is fairing well now although it was touch and go for a bit because of a complication last week but she is doing better now. Uncle Gregg seems happy for the most part. Just every day life gets to him and all of us for that matter. We are going to talk more often instead of this once a year thing. Mom gave him the site to view this blog and my letters to you so he might be stopping in to read some. I hope he does. I would love to hear what he thinks of it all. Not much else happened last night though. Mom went to bed fairly early knowing that we had to get up early this morning. I am sure tonight will be relaxing for us. Grandpa will probably call and Meme said she would be calling as well. After that though it will be watching a bit of TV and then going to bed because Mom is exhausted from the lack of sleep last night. I could actually fall asleep now but I won't because I know that I won't sleep well tonight.
Our cousin's daughter finally got to go home yesterday after being in the hospital for 3+ weeks. That is such amazing news. She still has chemo to do and will for the next 2.5 years or so but she can get back to a normal kind of schedule and life again now. Hopefully she can go back to school for the next couple weeks and relax for the summer. She looks good. A smile is always on her face even after all that she has gone through. All you kids are heros and such an inspiration to us all. She is slowly losing her hair now but we all keep telling her that bald is beautiful! She is being a trooper with this all. Mom will update you more when I know of things. I think that is all the updates that I have for you today. I am sure to have more over the weekend though. It is already 3:30 pm and Mom needs to get going. Groceries will be delivered anytime now and then the night routine stuff will be upon me in just a short time as well. Mark is resting as he took a muscle relaxer and it made him very tired. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I will light the candle tonight and whisper to you so smile when you hear me and I will smile right back to you. Continue to fly high and free. Have fun tonight while I get some sleep. Come visit in my dreams if you can. You know how much I love that! Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams pumpkin. I love you with all my heart and soul...unconditional.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
As for you, see that what you have heard from the beginning remains in you. If it does, you also will remain in the Son and in the Father. And this is what he promised us – eternal life. 1 John 2:24–25, NIV
Lord our God, we want to find our joy in you and in all your promises to us. For you have promised that in the midst of all the pain and sorrow, you are preparing what pleases you and serves your honor in every heart. May we experience in our lives the fulfillment of many of your promises, so that again and again we can go forward joyfully, rising above difficult times and situations. Have mercy on us and protect us in your strength. Amen.
Thursday, May 30, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing alright today. I guess according to Mark I got some sleep last night. I was out like a light around 10:30 pm and I was snoring so loud the pups were moving around like crazy. I woke up and told Mark to turn the TV off and go to bed. That is all I remember. I woke up a couple times during the night but fell right back to sleep. I guess I am just totally exhausted. Hopefully I will get some good sleep again tonight! Mom was up at 7 am and feed the pups and got coffee going for Mark. He got up a little bit after that. Mom noticed that he was laying down sleeping. That is such a great sign...he hasn't been able to do that in over 2 weeks. Things with that are progressing well and he is getting better daily. Tomorrow we will find out the results of his blood work and that breathing test that he did to check for an ulcer. Mom is hoping and praying that everything will be good news and whatever going on with his stomach will be healed in no time. Mom is also going to be starting to say a Sacred Heart Novena prayer that Meme gave to me. She says it daily and if you believe in it, the prayer works. Mom sure does believe in the power of prayer! It is a 9 day prayer and if you think you need to continue with it, you just start over.
Today was the first day that we did not have to go anywhere. we were up and ready thinking that we had to skip out and go get one of Mark's meds but I called the pharmacy and good thing I did because it was still not ready to be picked up. So instead of heading out this morning...Mom did a bit of housework and then made brunch for us. After that was done, I came into my office and paid a bunch of bills and then place a couple orders on line that I needed to. Now I am writing to you and then I will be going to prep for dinner tonight as it will take a bit to do. Tonight will be relaxing and going to bed early as Mark has a doctors appointment early in the morning again....8:30 am. The rest of tomorrow will determine what the doctor tells Mark in the morning at his appointment. The weekend will be relaxing at home and really not going anywhere unless Mark feels up to it. All our errands have been done and bills are paid so we really don't have to go anywhere if we don't want to. Mom just can't believe that Saturday is June 1st. May flew right by. The college graduations are all done and the high school graduations will be coming in the next couple of weeks. It is crazy to think that summer vacation is already upon us again and that pretty soon it will be Fall. The next few months will be super crazy and busy for us all especially if we move. Mark is focusing on all the things he needs to with the loan for the house and finding a job while Mom is focusing on the amounts it will take to move and the realtor. meme is still working on packing things up, donating things and getting ready for a big yard sale in July. She is doing so well. I am so impressed with her. Grandpa and Debbie are slowly doing the same thing. Mom and Mark are as well. Mom has already gotten rid of 6 bags of clothes and items that we didn't use. I know that I have a few more bags to do and then it is bigger stuff like furniture. I don't think that we really will be taking all that much for furniture because the house that we are looking at comes furnished. That is 7 bedrooms and 6 baths that will be all set with everything that we will need. That will be a huge bonus for us. we packed last year and had 100 boxes and this year it will be a lot less than that. Mom is hoping for only 50 boxes this time. I think that all that we will be getting rid of and donating.... we can do that and it will be a very reasonable goal to hit. we also have a few plastic bins as well to use up that will help. Mom is hoping and praying that Mark finds a job soon. We don't have much time. If there is anything that you can do to help us out, that would be super my sweet precious son. It would mean so much to us. Thank you pumpkin!
Not much at all for updates. The phones were quiet on our end last night. I am sure that Grandpa will check in tonight to say hello. Aunt Beck called yesterday and we had a great chat. Meme will call tonight as well to check in and so will Mark's brothers. Everyone has been so good to us on this. We are so blessed and loved in that way. Mom will be sure to update you on things as I know of them.
Last night I had your candle lit and I had to blow it out. The flames on the candle were higher than the glass and then Mom noticed that the glass was burning. It burnt enough to burn the label off the front of the candle. I have never seen anything like that before so tonight I will be lighting another candle for you. Hopefully this one will be better and not do the same thing. Mom will whisper to you later tonight as well. Smile when you hear me and I will smile to you. Have fun tonight while we sleep. Come visit in my dreams if you can. I would love that so much. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you in the afternoon. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you so much, Tyler. My heart hurts every single day.
Mom needs to get going for today as it is after 4 pm and I need to get things going for dinner. Please continue to watch over us like I know you do but I always want to ask. Continue to fly high and free. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing alright today. I guess according to Mark I got some sleep last night. I was out like a light around 10:30 pm and I was snoring so loud the pups were moving around like crazy. I woke up and told Mark to turn the TV off and go to bed. That is all I remember. I woke up a couple times during the night but fell right back to sleep. I guess I am just totally exhausted. Hopefully I will get some good sleep again tonight! Mom was up at 7 am and feed the pups and got coffee going for Mark. He got up a little bit after that. Mom noticed that he was laying down sleeping. That is such a great sign...he hasn't been able to do that in over 2 weeks. Things with that are progressing well and he is getting better daily. Tomorrow we will find out the results of his blood work and that breathing test that he did to check for an ulcer. Mom is hoping and praying that everything will be good news and whatever going on with his stomach will be healed in no time. Mom is also going to be starting to say a Sacred Heart Novena prayer that Meme gave to me. She says it daily and if you believe in it, the prayer works. Mom sure does believe in the power of prayer! It is a 9 day prayer and if you think you need to continue with it, you just start over.
Today was the first day that we did not have to go anywhere. we were up and ready thinking that we had to skip out and go get one of Mark's meds but I called the pharmacy and good thing I did because it was still not ready to be picked up. So instead of heading out this morning...Mom did a bit of housework and then made brunch for us. After that was done, I came into my office and paid a bunch of bills and then place a couple orders on line that I needed to. Now I am writing to you and then I will be going to prep for dinner tonight as it will take a bit to do. Tonight will be relaxing and going to bed early as Mark has a doctors appointment early in the morning again....8:30 am. The rest of tomorrow will determine what the doctor tells Mark in the morning at his appointment. The weekend will be relaxing at home and really not going anywhere unless Mark feels up to it. All our errands have been done and bills are paid so we really don't have to go anywhere if we don't want to. Mom just can't believe that Saturday is June 1st. May flew right by. The college graduations are all done and the high school graduations will be coming in the next couple of weeks. It is crazy to think that summer vacation is already upon us again and that pretty soon it will be Fall. The next few months will be super crazy and busy for us all especially if we move. Mark is focusing on all the things he needs to with the loan for the house and finding a job while Mom is focusing on the amounts it will take to move and the realtor. meme is still working on packing things up, donating things and getting ready for a big yard sale in July. She is doing so well. I am so impressed with her. Grandpa and Debbie are slowly doing the same thing. Mom and Mark are as well. Mom has already gotten rid of 6 bags of clothes and items that we didn't use. I know that I have a few more bags to do and then it is bigger stuff like furniture. I don't think that we really will be taking all that much for furniture because the house that we are looking at comes furnished. That is 7 bedrooms and 6 baths that will be all set with everything that we will need. That will be a huge bonus for us. we packed last year and had 100 boxes and this year it will be a lot less than that. Mom is hoping for only 50 boxes this time. I think that all that we will be getting rid of and donating.... we can do that and it will be a very reasonable goal to hit. we also have a few plastic bins as well to use up that will help. Mom is hoping and praying that Mark finds a job soon. We don't have much time. If there is anything that you can do to help us out, that would be super my sweet precious son. It would mean so much to us. Thank you pumpkin!
Not much at all for updates. The phones were quiet on our end last night. I am sure that Grandpa will check in tonight to say hello. Aunt Beck called yesterday and we had a great chat. Meme will call tonight as well to check in and so will Mark's brothers. Everyone has been so good to us on this. We are so blessed and loved in that way. Mom will be sure to update you on things as I know of them.
Last night I had your candle lit and I had to blow it out. The flames on the candle were higher than the glass and then Mom noticed that the glass was burning. It burnt enough to burn the label off the front of the candle. I have never seen anything like that before so tonight I will be lighting another candle for you. Hopefully this one will be better and not do the same thing. Mom will whisper to you later tonight as well. Smile when you hear me and I will smile to you. Have fun tonight while we sleep. Come visit in my dreams if you can. I would love that so much. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you in the afternoon. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you so much, Tyler. My heart hurts every single day.
Mom needs to get going for today as it is after 4 pm and I need to get things going for dinner. Please continue to watch over us like I know you do but I always want to ask. Continue to fly high and free. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits. He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases. Psalm 103:1–3, NIV
Lord our God, O Holy One, we thank you that we may lay aside our own nature and be lifted in spirit above all that is temporal and human and have joy in you. In spite of all the evil surrounding us, in spite of the thousandfold misery of humankind, we may still rejoice in you, in all you do and will yet do for us. Grant that we may go on rejoicing, having joy together, helping instead of burdening each other, until this earth is filled with the jubilation of those you have so richly blest. Forgive us all our sins. Heal us in mind and body. Deliver us from all the corruption that tries to take hold of our souls. Amen.
Wednesday, May 29, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is so sorry that I did not write to you yesterday but it was a crazy and not expected day for us here. In the morning, Mark took his medicine which he has been doing for the last 5 days and something seemed off. Something seemed so wrong. Mark was breathing weird and his breathing seemed labored and he was having trouble catching his breath. He couldn't say more than 2 words and he was winded. His lips were discolored and he just didn't seem like him. Mom took his O2 Sat and it was very low...91-93 and his heart rate was at 120+. I told him that I was going to call the doctors office and I did. I explained what was going on and the doctor wanted to see him right away. We left home at 1:30 pm and never got back until 4 pm. The doctor was happy to see the progress that Mark was making as far as his original injury. He was saying that Mark is at 50% in only 10 days which is wonderful. However, he was concerned at the elevated blood pressure, heart rate and the way he was breathing. He also rechecked the pain in his abdomen area and it was worse than 5 days ago. The doctor ordered blood work and a breathing test (that will show if he has an ulcer). By the time we got home and had dinner, Mom was so tired but didn't nap at all. I was overwhelmed and scared for Mark. He was doing much better by night time. He slept well last night but Mom did not. I was just too worried and kept checking on him. This morning we were planning on not doing anything but that changed when the doctors office called saying that they did not do all the blood work that was ordered. we ended up having to go back there this morning again for Mark to get the rest of it done and then they ordered another prescription for him. We had a run around on that too. We ended up getting home after 1 pm. We had some lunch and Mom put some groceries away and now I am writing to you while Mark is napping on the couch. Tomorrow we have to go back out again for half the day and Friday we are back at the doctors office for another check in for Mark. I have a feeling that this weekend will be 2 days of doing absolutely nothing at all but staying home and relaxing. Everyone has been so sweet and sending messages and checking in on us. we feel so blessed and loved by so many family and true friends. Mom is trying to update everyone as I know of things but it is hard to do all that, keep his appointments in order and then do all the regular life stuff....cooking, cleaning, laundry, paying bills, running errands, etc.... Mom has been doing this all on her own now for 2 weeks and I have very little time to myself. I am not complaining at all. Mom is just so busy with everything that if I miss a day writing to you I feel so guilty. I hate that feeling and I get upset at myself for it. Mom will do the best that I can.
I really have no other updates for you at all in regards to our family. Everyone else is doing okay. Bob is hanging in there and has an appointment tomorrow or in a couple of days. I sure hope he gets what he needs out of it. Aunt Beck got in touch with me. She said that Bean was fine but there is no change in her medical stuff either. She doesn't go back until July.
The weather is so crazy here. Today it is cloudy and 48 degrees. It is really damp and cold outside. Oklahoma has had over 41 tornadoes rip through that state in 10 days. NC got hit with a massive storm that has left over 600,000 people without power. Mom is not sure what is going on right now but dang the weather is super crazy. I pray for everyone that has been affected.
I will be lighting your candle in a bit and I will whisper to you like I do every night a little later on. Mom is going to go sit in the living room and watch over Mark. I just peeked and he is sleeping right now. I will go watch some TV while he is napping and before I need to feed the pups and get dinner going for us. Mom is also doing laundry and a bit of housework in between right now while it is quiet. I will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you. Have fun today and tonight while Mom gets some very much needed sleep. Come visit in my dreams if you can. I would love that my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you are in my heart, mind, body and soul. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you pumpkin. I miss you so much. I wish you were here with me so that Mom could talk to you and you could calm me down. I wish that I could hear your sweet voice again. I just miss everything about you. Until tomorrow comes.....good night and sweet dreams later. Mom is going to go relax for a bit and maybe just maybe I might take a small nap!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is so sorry that I did not write to you yesterday but it was a crazy and not expected day for us here. In the morning, Mark took his medicine which he has been doing for the last 5 days and something seemed off. Something seemed so wrong. Mark was breathing weird and his breathing seemed labored and he was having trouble catching his breath. He couldn't say more than 2 words and he was winded. His lips were discolored and he just didn't seem like him. Mom took his O2 Sat and it was very low...91-93 and his heart rate was at 120+. I told him that I was going to call the doctors office and I did. I explained what was going on and the doctor wanted to see him right away. We left home at 1:30 pm and never got back until 4 pm. The doctor was happy to see the progress that Mark was making as far as his original injury. He was saying that Mark is at 50% in only 10 days which is wonderful. However, he was concerned at the elevated blood pressure, heart rate and the way he was breathing. He also rechecked the pain in his abdomen area and it was worse than 5 days ago. The doctor ordered blood work and a breathing test (that will show if he has an ulcer). By the time we got home and had dinner, Mom was so tired but didn't nap at all. I was overwhelmed and scared for Mark. He was doing much better by night time. He slept well last night but Mom did not. I was just too worried and kept checking on him. This morning we were planning on not doing anything but that changed when the doctors office called saying that they did not do all the blood work that was ordered. we ended up having to go back there this morning again for Mark to get the rest of it done and then they ordered another prescription for him. We had a run around on that too. We ended up getting home after 1 pm. We had some lunch and Mom put some groceries away and now I am writing to you while Mark is napping on the couch. Tomorrow we have to go back out again for half the day and Friday we are back at the doctors office for another check in for Mark. I have a feeling that this weekend will be 2 days of doing absolutely nothing at all but staying home and relaxing. Everyone has been so sweet and sending messages and checking in on us. we feel so blessed and loved by so many family and true friends. Mom is trying to update everyone as I know of things but it is hard to do all that, keep his appointments in order and then do all the regular life stuff....cooking, cleaning, laundry, paying bills, running errands, etc.... Mom has been doing this all on her own now for 2 weeks and I have very little time to myself. I am not complaining at all. Mom is just so busy with everything that if I miss a day writing to you I feel so guilty. I hate that feeling and I get upset at myself for it. Mom will do the best that I can.
I really have no other updates for you at all in regards to our family. Everyone else is doing okay. Bob is hanging in there and has an appointment tomorrow or in a couple of days. I sure hope he gets what he needs out of it. Aunt Beck got in touch with me. She said that Bean was fine but there is no change in her medical stuff either. She doesn't go back until July.
The weather is so crazy here. Today it is cloudy and 48 degrees. It is really damp and cold outside. Oklahoma has had over 41 tornadoes rip through that state in 10 days. NC got hit with a massive storm that has left over 600,000 people without power. Mom is not sure what is going on right now but dang the weather is super crazy. I pray for everyone that has been affected.
I will be lighting your candle in a bit and I will whisper to you like I do every night a little later on. Mom is going to go sit in the living room and watch over Mark. I just peeked and he is sleeping right now. I will go watch some TV while he is napping and before I need to feed the pups and get dinner going for us. Mom is also doing laundry and a bit of housework in between right now while it is quiet. I will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you. Have fun today and tonight while Mom gets some very much needed sleep. Come visit in my dreams if you can. I would love that my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you are in my heart, mind, body and soul. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you pumpkin. I miss you so much. I wish you were here with me so that Mom could talk to you and you could calm me down. I wish that I could hear your sweet voice again. I just miss everything about you. Until tomorrow comes.....good night and sweet dreams later. Mom is going to go relax for a bit and maybe just maybe I might take a small nap!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
But God’s mercy is so abundant, and his love for us is so great, that while we were spiritually dead in our disobedience he brought us to life with Christ. It is by God’s grace that you have been saved. In our union with Christ Jesus he raised us up with him to rule with him in the heavenly world. Ephesians 2:4–6, TEV
Lord our God, we thank you for allowing us to experience your power. We thank you that we need not be occupied with material things only. We thank you that your Spirit comes to our aid again and again. Grant that we may continue to have your help, and let many hearts find what a grace it is that in spirit we may walk in heaven even during this transitory life with all its foolish ways. We may say with complete assurance that everything tormenting and burdening will pass by. It passes by, and we go joyfully and confidently toward your kingdom, which continually gains in power. Amen
Monday, May 27, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Today is May 27th and it is Memorial Day. Mom is doing alright today. Mark is doing okay as well. Yesterday was a really good day for him. It was so nice to see. I can tell that the "old" Mark is slowly returning and boy I have missed him so much. It has been definitely hard watching his pain. As I have expressed before, it brings back so many memories for Mom. This has been emotionally, mentally and physically draining on my part but I have not complained once and I won't. I am here to help Mark in any way that I can. That is what a wife does for her husband.
Today the weather is just beautiful. The sun is shining and the skies are so blue. The temps are in the middle 70's. That is just right weather for me! I am hoping to see a beautiful painting in the sky later tonight when the sun is setting. It sure is quiet out there today. I guess everyone is gone out either to the beach or to family and friend's houses for BBQ's. Mark said that we could go out but I told him no. I know he is not up to that yet and I didn't want him to feel like he had too. Sure it would have been nice but Mom is not worried about it at all. We really didn't have anywhere we needed to go and Mom just wants Mark to get better. We will take today and relax again and enjoy our down time together. The traffic will be crazy here in a little bit so I want nothing to do with that at all. Mom is perfectly fine right where I am today.
Meme called earlier. She was telling me that she was going to the cemetery today to plant flowers on your resting place and at her and Bob's bench. I think she will also be planting some at Nana and Pepe's too. Mom needs to plan a trip to NH so that I can come and sit at your resting place. I haven't been there since Christmas. Guilt gets the best of me on this. I feel that I am not being a good Mom because I rarely ever go there but then I have to remember that you really are not there. You are everywhere and your resting place is for all of us to go and find peace and comfort. Every time Mom does go for a visit there I go and see you. I do do that and I always will. Grandpa told me that he went last week before coming down to see us. That makes me happy to hear that! Mom really has no updates for you at all. I will get in touch with Grandpa tonight and Aunt Beck later in the week to catch up. Mark has a doctor's appointment again on Friday to see how he is doing. The following week will be crazy with multiple appointments for him. Mom is going to enjoy all the quiet time that I can because I know it is about to get busy again and soon.
Mom hopes that later this evening you have fun while I am sleeping. I hope you get to do all kinds of things that you need to do and want to do. Come visit Mom if you can in my dreams. I would love that. I will light your candle later this evening as well. Listen for Mom when I whisper to you tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now, Mom is going to go relax and put a heating pad on my shoulder as I hurt it somehow yesterday. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later. I miss you with every beat of my heart and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Today is May 27th and it is Memorial Day. Mom is doing alright today. Mark is doing okay as well. Yesterday was a really good day for him. It was so nice to see. I can tell that the "old" Mark is slowly returning and boy I have missed him so much. It has been definitely hard watching his pain. As I have expressed before, it brings back so many memories for Mom. This has been emotionally, mentally and physically draining on my part but I have not complained once and I won't. I am here to help Mark in any way that I can. That is what a wife does for her husband.
Today the weather is just beautiful. The sun is shining and the skies are so blue. The temps are in the middle 70's. That is just right weather for me! I am hoping to see a beautiful painting in the sky later tonight when the sun is setting. It sure is quiet out there today. I guess everyone is gone out either to the beach or to family and friend's houses for BBQ's. Mark said that we could go out but I told him no. I know he is not up to that yet and I didn't want him to feel like he had too. Sure it would have been nice but Mom is not worried about it at all. We really didn't have anywhere we needed to go and Mom just wants Mark to get better. We will take today and relax again and enjoy our down time together. The traffic will be crazy here in a little bit so I want nothing to do with that at all. Mom is perfectly fine right where I am today.
Meme called earlier. She was telling me that she was going to the cemetery today to plant flowers on your resting place and at her and Bob's bench. I think she will also be planting some at Nana and Pepe's too. Mom needs to plan a trip to NH so that I can come and sit at your resting place. I haven't been there since Christmas. Guilt gets the best of me on this. I feel that I am not being a good Mom because I rarely ever go there but then I have to remember that you really are not there. You are everywhere and your resting place is for all of us to go and find peace and comfort. Every time Mom does go for a visit there I go and see you. I do do that and I always will. Grandpa told me that he went last week before coming down to see us. That makes me happy to hear that! Mom really has no updates for you at all. I will get in touch with Grandpa tonight and Aunt Beck later in the week to catch up. Mark has a doctor's appointment again on Friday to see how he is doing. The following week will be crazy with multiple appointments for him. Mom is going to enjoy all the quiet time that I can because I know it is about to get busy again and soon.
Mom hopes that later this evening you have fun while I am sleeping. I hope you get to do all kinds of things that you need to do and want to do. Come visit Mom if you can in my dreams. I would love that. I will light your candle later this evening as well. Listen for Mom when I whisper to you tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now, Mom is going to go relax and put a heating pad on my shoulder as I hurt it somehow yesterday. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later. I miss you with every beat of my heart and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all. 2 Corinthians 13:14, RSV
Lord our God, our Father in heaven, we thank you for letting us receive so much that is good in all circumstances on earth. We thank you that we can have joy in life in spite of our shortcomings, mistakes, and worries. You bless us with heavenly gifts, so that rejoicing, we can walk on earth as if in heaven. Keep the gifts of your Spirit alive in us. Keep alive in us everything that Jesus Christ was, everything he is, and everything he will be on earth for all people. Amen.
Sunday, May 26, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I am just so dang tired. I am sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but I had a rough night with Mark and the pups on Friday night and we had a very rough night last night as well. Went to bed at 10:30 pm and up at 12 midnight with the pups because of thunderstorms until about 2 am and then up at 6 am and again at 7 am to feed them. Mark had a very rough day yesterday and last night. Mom thought that I was going to have to call an ambulance again for him. The steroids that he is on are making him pretty sick. Lots of acid reflex, blurry vision and then last night his lower back stiffened up and he could not walk at all. That happened around 8 pm. Grandpa called around that time to check up on us and we spoke for a brief few minutes. Mom is hoping that today will be a better day but it has not started out that way. Mark had to take the medicine at 9 am and about 30 minutes later he was feeling the way he did last night. Mom had a nail appointment scheduled for today but I cancelled it because I didn't want to leave Mark alone and there was no way he was making it to the appointment with me. That is okay though. I will reschedule it for later this week. Today will be another day of laying low and hanging in. Mom has all the housework done, laundry done, garbage thrown out, boxes broken down so I am able to relax all day as well and it will be nice as my body needs it from all the stuff that has happened during the week. I wanted to hop on my computer to write to you quickly while Mark is resting. I never turned on my computer yesterday at all and after this I will be getting off the computer again. Mom just doesn't seem to have a lot of time to herself. I am constantly busy doing things for Mark or the pups. I know it will get better in time. Both Mark and I have to have patience with this whole ordeal. It is a lesson that we need to learn.
No real updates on anything with the family. Everyone checks in daily with us though. That is so sweet and thoughtful. We really appreciate it a great deal. Meme is still doing some packing and also getting rid of things. She seems to be happy and pleased with her progress. I am happy for her. Bob is still having it rough but he will be going to the counseling center this week. I sure hope it helps him out. It is very hard to watch him be so depressed. Aunt Beck is crazy busy and I guess Bean is doing well. Grandpa and Debbie are good. They have their 3 day weekend so they are enjoying their time. The weather here has been nice during the day and thunderstorms at night. Wish it was reverse so that the pups didn't keep us up at night. Today, the weather is warm. It will be 88 degrees by 12 noon which is now..lol. The skies are blue and the sun is bright. No complaints here at all. Wish we could go out and enjoy the weather but we will have many more days to do that so we are not concerned at all.
Mom is praying for all those that are in Oklahoma. The weather there has been horrible. It is tornado season there now and for the last week they have had tornado sirens going off constantly.... every night. One touched down last night. Floods everywhere as well and bad thunderstorms too. The tornado hit where Mom and Mark used to live in Tulsa. It is such a scary thing to go through. I was never happier to leave that area when we went through the one we did. Hopefully the weather will settle down for us all and soon.
Mom will be lightning a new candle for you tonight. The other one was not burning right so I had to through it away. This one is Fresh Cut Lilacs. I love that smell and it is so fitting for Spring time! I will whisper to you later this evening when I go to bed. Smile for Mom and I will smile for you. Have fun when I get some much needed sleep tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you as well. For now, Mom needs to go check on Mark and also go and relax. I may have a nice nap too. I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I am just so dang tired. I am sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but I had a rough night with Mark and the pups on Friday night and we had a very rough night last night as well. Went to bed at 10:30 pm and up at 12 midnight with the pups because of thunderstorms until about 2 am and then up at 6 am and again at 7 am to feed them. Mark had a very rough day yesterday and last night. Mom thought that I was going to have to call an ambulance again for him. The steroids that he is on are making him pretty sick. Lots of acid reflex, blurry vision and then last night his lower back stiffened up and he could not walk at all. That happened around 8 pm. Grandpa called around that time to check up on us and we spoke for a brief few minutes. Mom is hoping that today will be a better day but it has not started out that way. Mark had to take the medicine at 9 am and about 30 minutes later he was feeling the way he did last night. Mom had a nail appointment scheduled for today but I cancelled it because I didn't want to leave Mark alone and there was no way he was making it to the appointment with me. That is okay though. I will reschedule it for later this week. Today will be another day of laying low and hanging in. Mom has all the housework done, laundry done, garbage thrown out, boxes broken down so I am able to relax all day as well and it will be nice as my body needs it from all the stuff that has happened during the week. I wanted to hop on my computer to write to you quickly while Mark is resting. I never turned on my computer yesterday at all and after this I will be getting off the computer again. Mom just doesn't seem to have a lot of time to herself. I am constantly busy doing things for Mark or the pups. I know it will get better in time. Both Mark and I have to have patience with this whole ordeal. It is a lesson that we need to learn.
No real updates on anything with the family. Everyone checks in daily with us though. That is so sweet and thoughtful. We really appreciate it a great deal. Meme is still doing some packing and also getting rid of things. She seems to be happy and pleased with her progress. I am happy for her. Bob is still having it rough but he will be going to the counseling center this week. I sure hope it helps him out. It is very hard to watch him be so depressed. Aunt Beck is crazy busy and I guess Bean is doing well. Grandpa and Debbie are good. They have their 3 day weekend so they are enjoying their time. The weather here has been nice during the day and thunderstorms at night. Wish it was reverse so that the pups didn't keep us up at night. Today, the weather is warm. It will be 88 degrees by 12 noon which is now..lol. The skies are blue and the sun is bright. No complaints here at all. Wish we could go out and enjoy the weather but we will have many more days to do that so we are not concerned at all.
Mom is praying for all those that are in Oklahoma. The weather there has been horrible. It is tornado season there now and for the last week they have had tornado sirens going off constantly.... every night. One touched down last night. Floods everywhere as well and bad thunderstorms too. The tornado hit where Mom and Mark used to live in Tulsa. It is such a scary thing to go through. I was never happier to leave that area when we went through the one we did. Hopefully the weather will settle down for us all and soon.
Mom will be lightning a new candle for you tonight. The other one was not burning right so I had to through it away. This one is Fresh Cut Lilacs. I love that smell and it is so fitting for Spring time! I will whisper to you later this evening when I go to bed. Smile for Mom and I will smile for you. Have fun when I get some much needed sleep tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you as well. For now, Mom needs to go check on Mark and also go and relax. I may have a nice nap too. I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 5:3, NIV
Dear Father in heaven, we thank you for wanting to give us happiness and for holding our earthly life firmly in your hands. May we have the confidence that we are in your hands. Grant us the light of faith. Let this light of faith guide us in material things and help us to wait in patience until the doors open for us to pass through according to your pleasure. So bless us all. Bless our life. May we grow joyful and free of heart through all that Jesus Christ gives. On the foundation he establishes for us may your divine working, your fatherly love, lift and support us throughout our lives. Amen.
Friday, May 24, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. Last night was not a good night sleep at all due to the thunderstorms that we had from 12 midnight -2 am. The pups were all over the place and they were shaking. It kept both Mark and Mom awake. I was up at 6 am and then again at 7 am. Got the pups fed, coffee made, and then I jumped right in the shower to get ready. Mark's appointment was at 8:30 am. We got home at 1:30 pm this afternoon. We had a bit of running around and waiting for his prescriptions to get filled. We made it home, Mark took his medicine and we had lunch. Now he is relaxing and Mom needed to make phone calls to get appointments made for him. Here is the update from the doctor's visit:
OK....What we know is that it he did not have a stroke and has now been rediagnosed with Cervical Radiculopathy. PT is needed to help with the range of motion in his arms, hands, neck and head. Mark will also be needing to wear a heart monitor ( Holter Monitor) starting on June 5th for 7 days just to see his heart activity and to also rule out any cardiac issues. He is on a couple medicines right now, 30 mg daily of a muscle relaxer and also 60 mg a day of Prednisone. The doctor asked him if he was having any memory issues and Mark told him yes. This doctor and I are quite concerned at this piece the most. Mark was given a couple small memory tests in the office today and when the time came he could not remember any of it. The doctor is thinking that there could be something neurological going on and is not ruling anything out at this point. For the time being until further notice, Mark is out of work and is not able to drive. We will be taking things day to day and staying positive through it all. He has several doctor's appointments in the next 2 weeks and will know more each time we go to one of these.
Sounds like the next several weeks we will be busy with doing a lot of running around. Mom promises everyone that I will be taking care of myself through all this as well as taking care of Mark and the pups. I am pretty sure that we will either be out of the house for doctor visits or home just relaxing and taking it easy. Mom has decided that my schooling needs to be put on hold during this time. If Mark is sleeping than I may get some studying in but for the most part I will be taking a break from it. I am alright with that and will be contacting the school after this holiday weekend. I am sure that they will completely understand. Mom is about 75% finished with the course so I am sure they will have no problem with it. I will keep you posted on that and if anything changes.
Mom will be writing to you daily still but I am just not sure when. It could be in the afternoons or in the evenings. It will depend on the day and what is going on. I know you see everything so I am not concerned. You know where Mom is and what I am doing. Thank you for being by our side through all this and I am asking that you continue to be. Mom needs you pumpkin. I miss you so much and I wish I could talk to you. I wish I could hear your voice telling me that we have this and everything will be okay. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
I know this letter is short today but Mom is just so exhausted and I need to just go and relax plus I will be needing to get medicine ready for Mark and also get the night routine stuff started as it is already after 3 pm. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you and a few more updates as to what is happening outside of here. I will light your candle in a bit and I will whisper to you later this evening. Smile for Mom and I will smile to you. Have fun tonight while I get some much needed sleep along with Mark tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Until tomorrow....good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Thank you for everything. Mom appreciates it so much...more than words can express.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. Last night was not a good night sleep at all due to the thunderstorms that we had from 12 midnight -2 am. The pups were all over the place and they were shaking. It kept both Mark and Mom awake. I was up at 6 am and then again at 7 am. Got the pups fed, coffee made, and then I jumped right in the shower to get ready. Mark's appointment was at 8:30 am. We got home at 1:30 pm this afternoon. We had a bit of running around and waiting for his prescriptions to get filled. We made it home, Mark took his medicine and we had lunch. Now he is relaxing and Mom needed to make phone calls to get appointments made for him. Here is the update from the doctor's visit:
OK....What we know is that it he did not have a stroke and has now been rediagnosed with Cervical Radiculopathy. PT is needed to help with the range of motion in his arms, hands, neck and head. Mark will also be needing to wear a heart monitor ( Holter Monitor) starting on June 5th for 7 days just to see his heart activity and to also rule out any cardiac issues. He is on a couple medicines right now, 30 mg daily of a muscle relaxer and also 60 mg a day of Prednisone. The doctor asked him if he was having any memory issues and Mark told him yes. This doctor and I are quite concerned at this piece the most. Mark was given a couple small memory tests in the office today and when the time came he could not remember any of it. The doctor is thinking that there could be something neurological going on and is not ruling anything out at this point. For the time being until further notice, Mark is out of work and is not able to drive. We will be taking things day to day and staying positive through it all. He has several doctor's appointments in the next 2 weeks and will know more each time we go to one of these.
Sounds like the next several weeks we will be busy with doing a lot of running around. Mom promises everyone that I will be taking care of myself through all this as well as taking care of Mark and the pups. I am pretty sure that we will either be out of the house for doctor visits or home just relaxing and taking it easy. Mom has decided that my schooling needs to be put on hold during this time. If Mark is sleeping than I may get some studying in but for the most part I will be taking a break from it. I am alright with that and will be contacting the school after this holiday weekend. I am sure that they will completely understand. Mom is about 75% finished with the course so I am sure they will have no problem with it. I will keep you posted on that and if anything changes.
Mom will be writing to you daily still but I am just not sure when. It could be in the afternoons or in the evenings. It will depend on the day and what is going on. I know you see everything so I am not concerned. You know where Mom is and what I am doing. Thank you for being by our side through all this and I am asking that you continue to be. Mom needs you pumpkin. I miss you so much and I wish I could talk to you. I wish I could hear your voice telling me that we have this and everything will be okay. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
I know this letter is short today but Mom is just so exhausted and I need to just go and relax plus I will be needing to get medicine ready for Mark and also get the night routine stuff started as it is already after 3 pm. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you and a few more updates as to what is happening outside of here. I will light your candle in a bit and I will whisper to you later this evening. Smile for Mom and I will smile to you. Have fun tonight while I get some much needed sleep along with Mark tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Until tomorrow....good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Thank you for everything. Mom appreciates it so much...more than words can express.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
TODAY, MAY 24, 2019
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim release to the captives and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed, to proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord. Luke 4:18-19, RSV
We thank you, dear Father in heaven, for the many times you let us experience that we do not need to despair because of darkness, weakness, or sickness. You hear the desires of our hearts. You love us for all that we love when we love the Savior and when we praise his name. Let us remain in this spirit. Come to us with many proofs of your power, to the glory of your name. Come in the inner quiet of heart through which we are able to grasp what it means for us that you are our Father in Jesus Christ. Amen.e Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim release to the captives and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed, to proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord. Luke 4:18-19, RSV
Thursday, May 23, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is doing alright but again I get pretty tired fast these last few days. I was up again at 6:30 am and didn't go back to sleep. I stayed awake, got up and fed the pups and got coffee for Mark. He stayed in bed for a bit and I lounged for about an hour before it was time to get his meds together. Mom made a nice breakfast, did the dishes and then got ready. After that Mark was settled down for a bit so I came in and poked around on my computer. I should have taken the time to do some studying but I didn't. Guess I just need the break. I will start back up either over the weekend or next week. It is a holiday weekend. Mostly everyone has 3 days off for Memorial Day. That mean tourist season is here until Labor Day. The traffic will be heavier than it already is. We stay away from tourist attractions and off the highway as much as possible this time of year. I know both Mark and I will be glad when we don't have to deal with this traffic stuff any longer. We are still looking at relocating in the Fall. Mark actually did a couple more job apps today and checked into the loan situation again as it has been over a year since we have done anything with it. Mom is keeping in touch with the realtor as well and we have found a house that we really like. We are crossing our fingers and toes for Mark to find work and that we can get this home. Please if there is anything that you can do on your end, pumpkin, we would all appreciate it so much. Everyone is eager to move as well.
The phones were quiet last night as far as our family calling. A couple people called on Mark's side plus his boss called to see how he was doing. We thought that was thoughtful. Everyone is awaiting to see what the doctors tell him tomorrow when we go. We again are hoping and praying for good news. We looked up what the ER diagnosed Mark with and Mom is hoping that it is wrong. Mark wishes that he never looked it up. It states that it is hereditary and that it is not common at all....a very rare neurological disease. Nothing has to happen for it to start and that it is something that will never go away. I think that Mark will be out of work for some time and that he will need physical therapy plus he will have to go to a Neurologist. Guess we shall see if Mom is right. I will let you know the updates when I write to you tomorrow.
The weather today started out nice. It was partly sunny and blue skies and then by the afternoon it clouded up and looks like we are in for some rain. They said perhaps a thunderstorm this evening as well but I hope not. We need to get a good night sleep so we can get up early in the morning for the appointment and not have to deal with both pups keeping us awake and shaking. Mom will whisper to you later this evening so smile for me and I will smile for you. I am not sure if I will be lighting the candle tonight though. We have been eating dinner and then going in the bedroom and sitting up watching TV because it is easier for Mark. We have not sat in the living room for over 5 days. It is crazy. Mom does what is best and easiest for Mark. He is in enough pain and it is hard for Mom to watch it. I sure hope that your evening will be everything that you need and want it to be. Have fun while we sleep tonight. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight if you can. Thanks Tyler.
Mom needs to get going for now though as it is after 5 pm and I have to feed the pups and get dinner going, plus do Mark's meds again, etc.... I miss you and love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are mu hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you are inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is doing alright but again I get pretty tired fast these last few days. I was up again at 6:30 am and didn't go back to sleep. I stayed awake, got up and fed the pups and got coffee for Mark. He stayed in bed for a bit and I lounged for about an hour before it was time to get his meds together. Mom made a nice breakfast, did the dishes and then got ready. After that Mark was settled down for a bit so I came in and poked around on my computer. I should have taken the time to do some studying but I didn't. Guess I just need the break. I will start back up either over the weekend or next week. It is a holiday weekend. Mostly everyone has 3 days off for Memorial Day. That mean tourist season is here until Labor Day. The traffic will be heavier than it already is. We stay away from tourist attractions and off the highway as much as possible this time of year. I know both Mark and I will be glad when we don't have to deal with this traffic stuff any longer. We are still looking at relocating in the Fall. Mark actually did a couple more job apps today and checked into the loan situation again as it has been over a year since we have done anything with it. Mom is keeping in touch with the realtor as well and we have found a house that we really like. We are crossing our fingers and toes for Mark to find work and that we can get this home. Please if there is anything that you can do on your end, pumpkin, we would all appreciate it so much. Everyone is eager to move as well.
The phones were quiet last night as far as our family calling. A couple people called on Mark's side plus his boss called to see how he was doing. We thought that was thoughtful. Everyone is awaiting to see what the doctors tell him tomorrow when we go. We again are hoping and praying for good news. We looked up what the ER diagnosed Mark with and Mom is hoping that it is wrong. Mark wishes that he never looked it up. It states that it is hereditary and that it is not common at all....a very rare neurological disease. Nothing has to happen for it to start and that it is something that will never go away. I think that Mark will be out of work for some time and that he will need physical therapy plus he will have to go to a Neurologist. Guess we shall see if Mom is right. I will let you know the updates when I write to you tomorrow.
The weather today started out nice. It was partly sunny and blue skies and then by the afternoon it clouded up and looks like we are in for some rain. They said perhaps a thunderstorm this evening as well but I hope not. We need to get a good night sleep so we can get up early in the morning for the appointment and not have to deal with both pups keeping us awake and shaking. Mom will whisper to you later this evening so smile for me and I will smile for you. I am not sure if I will be lighting the candle tonight though. We have been eating dinner and then going in the bedroom and sitting up watching TV because it is easier for Mark. We have not sat in the living room for over 5 days. It is crazy. Mom does what is best and easiest for Mark. He is in enough pain and it is hard for Mom to watch it. I sure hope that your evening will be everything that you need and want it to be. Have fun while we sleep tonight. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight if you can. Thanks Tyler.
Mom needs to get going for now though as it is after 5 pm and I have to feed the pups and get dinner going, plus do Mark's meds again, etc.... I miss you and love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are mu hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you are inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. Sanctify them by the truth; your word is truth. John 17:16-17, NIV
Dear God and Father of us all, sanctify us in your truth. Your Word is truth. We come before your presence and ask you to touch us with your Spirit, to shape our lives in the truth and in the joy of your name. Touch us with your Spirit, that we may carry out our tasks in your service. May your face shine on us and on all needy people who turn to you. May your power be given ever more fully, and may your cause become great in the world until at last it brings new life to all nations. Amen.
Wednesday, May 22, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I am not going to lie, I am exhausted. I was up again at 6 am and stayed awake. I was out of bed at 7 am feeding the pups and checking in on Mark. He woke up at 8 am. We both got right up and Mom did a bit of house cleaning, laundry and gathering the garbage while Mark decided to try taking a shower. He did really good and only needed a little bit of help. After he was all done and settled, Mom took her shower and got ready. I did a few more things around the apartment and then got us some lunch. Mark is trying to stay awake today and not sleep as much as he did yesterday. He is even sitting in his computer chair and using his computer. He said that he is doing alright but it is some sore. He just wanted to try it out. He is just getting so bored with sitting in bed and watching TV all day and then sleeping all night. Mark is just not used to this at all. He is always on the go and never stops at all until later in the evening, after dinner. This is very new to him and he is just having a hard time all around. Progress is being made daily but not as fast as he would like it to be. I told him yesterday that everything happens for a reason and this reason could be for him to start slowing down and not over doing it anymore like he has been for so long. Mom believes that this is to an extent, a wake up call for him. I just hope he listens and doesn't try to over do things too fast and it winds up worse than where he was last Sunday. I know he is a grown man and all but he is stubborn, like us and it is hard to keep him down for too long. He does have a doctors appointment on Friday morning so that should tell us a bit more of what is going on, and what to expect from here on. I sure hope it is all good news. Mom is keeping her fingers crossed still. We have alot of people here praying for us and I know we have a lot of Angels watching over us and being by our side through all this. Thank you so much.
Mom is doing pretty good through all this. Better than what I expected. I am exhausted at the end of the day though and usually I am ready for bed around 9:30 pm. My days are filled with making sure that Mark is settled and as comfortable as he can be and then I go do what I need to do and then check in on him again, give his meds to him and so on until it is time to go to bed at night. Today, is the first day in 4 days that I have had more free time to myself and I am just relaxing a bit. I did a bunch of things already as I said above and now I am waiting for the groceries to show up. I have about and hour before they could be delivered. Mom will be shutting down her computer after this and just probably do nothing for that short time before I have to get dinner going and feed the pups again. Tonight will be mainly the same as the last 3 nights. Crawling into bed and watching TV for a bit before falling asleep. I am very okay with that. Mark and Mom are doing the best we can and making the most out of this whole ordeal. We are staying positive and that is all that matters.
Other updates that I have for you is that today is Uncle Dick and Aunt Jacqui's 48th Wedding Anniversary. Yesterday was Uncle Dick's Birthday. Our cousin's daughter is still at DHMC. After 2 1/2 weeks of being there... she has had 11 blood transfusions, 11 platelet transfusions, 3 bone marrow biopsies, 2 spinal taps and 4 rounds of 2 kinds of chemo. She is doing her best and looks good. She has a smile on her face through it all and she is even doing school work. She is a trooper that is for sure! Grandpa and Debbie are well. Aunt Beck is too. Still never heard from Bean at all so I assume that she is well. Meme is doing okay. She called last night as she is concerned for Bob. His depression is getting worse and he is asking for help but his doctor isn't doing anything about it. I guess Meme called the Counseling Place, where you used to go and Bob was suppose to go there today to make an appointment. I sure hope it all works out because he needs the help. His depression shows and you can see it. He has stated to Meme that he is not sure how much longer he can handle it. That is scary to hear as I went through that with you a few times. Mom is praying for them both. I know you are with them as well and I thank you for that my sweet precious son. It means so much to me. I wish you were here. I miss you so much and I miss being able to talk to you. Next month...28 days from now it will be 6 years that you went away. 6 years of Mom missing you and having a broken heart. I love you so much. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will forever be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will light your candle today for a few hours so know it is shining bright for you and for Mark. I will whisper to you later tonight as well. Smile when you hear Mom and I will smile to you. Have fun while I sleep tonight and come visit in my dreams if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now Mom is going to relax before I have to do all the night routine stuff. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I am not going to lie, I am exhausted. I was up again at 6 am and stayed awake. I was out of bed at 7 am feeding the pups and checking in on Mark. He woke up at 8 am. We both got right up and Mom did a bit of house cleaning, laundry and gathering the garbage while Mark decided to try taking a shower. He did really good and only needed a little bit of help. After he was all done and settled, Mom took her shower and got ready. I did a few more things around the apartment and then got us some lunch. Mark is trying to stay awake today and not sleep as much as he did yesterday. He is even sitting in his computer chair and using his computer. He said that he is doing alright but it is some sore. He just wanted to try it out. He is just getting so bored with sitting in bed and watching TV all day and then sleeping all night. Mark is just not used to this at all. He is always on the go and never stops at all until later in the evening, after dinner. This is very new to him and he is just having a hard time all around. Progress is being made daily but not as fast as he would like it to be. I told him yesterday that everything happens for a reason and this reason could be for him to start slowing down and not over doing it anymore like he has been for so long. Mom believes that this is to an extent, a wake up call for him. I just hope he listens and doesn't try to over do things too fast and it winds up worse than where he was last Sunday. I know he is a grown man and all but he is stubborn, like us and it is hard to keep him down for too long. He does have a doctors appointment on Friday morning so that should tell us a bit more of what is going on, and what to expect from here on. I sure hope it is all good news. Mom is keeping her fingers crossed still. We have alot of people here praying for us and I know we have a lot of Angels watching over us and being by our side through all this. Thank you so much.
Mom is doing pretty good through all this. Better than what I expected. I am exhausted at the end of the day though and usually I am ready for bed around 9:30 pm. My days are filled with making sure that Mark is settled and as comfortable as he can be and then I go do what I need to do and then check in on him again, give his meds to him and so on until it is time to go to bed at night. Today, is the first day in 4 days that I have had more free time to myself and I am just relaxing a bit. I did a bunch of things already as I said above and now I am waiting for the groceries to show up. I have about and hour before they could be delivered. Mom will be shutting down her computer after this and just probably do nothing for that short time before I have to get dinner going and feed the pups again. Tonight will be mainly the same as the last 3 nights. Crawling into bed and watching TV for a bit before falling asleep. I am very okay with that. Mark and Mom are doing the best we can and making the most out of this whole ordeal. We are staying positive and that is all that matters.
Other updates that I have for you is that today is Uncle Dick and Aunt Jacqui's 48th Wedding Anniversary. Yesterday was Uncle Dick's Birthday. Our cousin's daughter is still at DHMC. After 2 1/2 weeks of being there... she has had 11 blood transfusions, 11 platelet transfusions, 3 bone marrow biopsies, 2 spinal taps and 4 rounds of 2 kinds of chemo. She is doing her best and looks good. She has a smile on her face through it all and she is even doing school work. She is a trooper that is for sure! Grandpa and Debbie are well. Aunt Beck is too. Still never heard from Bean at all so I assume that she is well. Meme is doing okay. She called last night as she is concerned for Bob. His depression is getting worse and he is asking for help but his doctor isn't doing anything about it. I guess Meme called the Counseling Place, where you used to go and Bob was suppose to go there today to make an appointment. I sure hope it all works out because he needs the help. His depression shows and you can see it. He has stated to Meme that he is not sure how much longer he can handle it. That is scary to hear as I went through that with you a few times. Mom is praying for them both. I know you are with them as well and I thank you for that my sweet precious son. It means so much to me. I wish you were here. I miss you so much and I miss being able to talk to you. Next month...28 days from now it will be 6 years that you went away. 6 years of Mom missing you and having a broken heart. I love you so much. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will forever be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will light your candle today for a few hours so know it is shining bright for you and for Mark. I will whisper to you later tonight as well. Smile when you hear Mom and I will smile to you. Have fun while I sleep tonight and come visit in my dreams if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now Mom is going to relax before I have to do all the night routine stuff. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
I will declare your name to my brothers; in the congregation I will praise you. Psalm 22:22, NIV
Lord our God, Almighty Father in heaven, we stand before you as your children, whom you want to protect through the need of our time, through all sin and death. We praise you for giving us so much peace in an age full of trouble, and for granting us the assurance of your help. Even when we suffer, we do not want to remain in the darkness of suffering but want to rise up to praise and glorify you. For your kingdom is coming; it is already at hand. Your kingdom comforts and helps us and points the way for the whole world, that your will may be done on earth as in heaven. Amen.
Tuesday, May 21, 2019
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