Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom has been up since 6:45 am and getting all the things done that need to get done. The pups were fed, Mark got his medicine, breakfast was made, dishes were done, got Mark settled, did the vacuuming and cleaning of the apartment, paid some bills on line, did the grocery shopping, spoke to several people wanting updates on Mark and now I am writing to you. It is already 2 pm and this day is flying by. Mark has had an off day today. Yesterday is was alert, talkative, and wanting to do things but just physically couldn't and today is a day where he wants to do nothing and he is having a hard time staying awake. Mom called his PCP and chatted with his Secretary in regards to all that went on from Sunday to today. Mark either will be seeing his PCP tomorrow morning or no later than Friday morning. She is calling the hospital where Mark was to get all the lab and test results and she will be calling me back with what day and time. Mark was happy that I did that for him. I think it is for the best that he is seen for a follow-up and also to get a second opinion to what his Primary doctor thinks it could be. So many people are messaging Mom to ask if it is a staff infection, a tick bite, a panic attack, anxiety attack, lyme disease, measles. I guess all the symptoms that Mark had on Sunday are all the same as what I just listed you. Mark was pretty sure that the ER doctor said it was nothing cardiac, blood related or life threatening. I was not in the room when that was said so Mom has no idea. Mom is only going off what I was told by Mark but I will have a clearer idea for this next visit. I honestly have not had to care for someone like this since you my sweet precious son. It brings back so much and I find myself doubting all that I am doing for Mark. I feel I am doing the best I can with what I am able to do for him. I know he is bored, frustrated, and his temper cuts in every once in awhile and then he stops. I hope he knows that I am doing everything I can and the best that I can for him. Mom really has not been able to do much for herself the last few days. I am either getting stuff for Mark, helping him walk around or doing something for the pups. It is fine though. It is keeping me on my toes and keeping me busy that is for sure. I definitely am not bored at all. After Mom writes to you I will migrate into the bedroom and sit with Mark until it is time for Mom to make dinner. After dinner I will do the dishes and then it is usually the time where everyone calls to check in on Mark to see how he is doing. Usually that consists of about 5 or 6 calls. By the time they are all finished, it is after 7:30 pm or later and Mark and I watch TV until around 10 pm and then call it a night and go to bed. We haven't been sitting in the living room at all since Saturday night because it is too hard for Mark to sit on the couch. Mom will light the candle back up for you when Mark is able to be out and not bedridden. Mom still whispers to you every night though so I hope you are hearing me. I hope that you are smiling and that you see me smile back to you. I love you so much. I love you unconditionally. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. To infinity and beyond. Mom wants to continue to ask you to watch over us all. Keep us safe and healthy please. Thank you, Tyler. It really means a lot to me every day that you do and you are near but especially during these trying times that we are in. Mom will be whispering to you in a little bit again so smile for me and I will smile to you. Thank you so much for the beautiful painting in the sky last night. It was gorgeous! I was surprised that we got one because of all the heavy rain and thunderstorms that we got yesterday. I sure hope I get to see another one tonight as well. I will be looking for sure!
Not much at all for updates as far as our family is concerned. Everyone is checking in nightly and they are all doing well. I think everyone is happy to see the rain going away, the sun shining more and the temps getting warmer. We are still working on things for the Fall. Mark will be looking again in the next few days when he is able to get on his computer and see things better. Mom still has her fingers crossed that something comes up and fast! I am praying like crazy and I am making wishes that this all happens for us. I know you are watching over us for this too. Thank you so much. Hopefully Mom will have some updates for you on all this and sooner rather than later.
It is almost 3 pm and Mom wants to go in and sit with Mark as I am sure he is bored plus his next round of meds are to be given to him in a few minutes. Mom will be back tomorrow again with an update and another letter to you. Have fun tonight while Mom is sleeping and I hope you get to do all that you need and want to do tonight. I miss you so much. Always know that you are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for today:
I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile. For in the gospel a righteousness from God is revealed, a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written: “The righteous will live by faith.”" Romans 1:16-17, NIV
Lord our God, you have revealed your righteousness to us in the gospel, your righteousness that comes to us through faith and continues in faith. Grant that we may understand your righteousness and live by it even in a crooked generation. Then to our joy the gospel will bear fruit. Protect us in the midst of temptation and conflicting opinions so that we are raised above them and remain free, with our thoughts on you and your true and loving righteousness. Your righteousness gives us hope for the many, many people who still need help to realize that their lives are not of passing value but of eternal worth. Amen.
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