Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is doing okay tonight. It is going on 8 pm and Mom is in bed cuddled with the pups while Meme is watching a movie, Mark is soaking in the tub and Bob is sleeping. Today was a relaxing day. We all did a few things during the morning, Meme did laundry during the day while Mark and I went swimming and sat outside in the sun and Bob slept. Mom was in the pool for over an hour and then sat in the sun for over 2 hours. Mark stayed out longer and chatted with his brothers on the phone. Meme and Mom made fried wontons this afternoon, then we fed the pups, took them for their walk and then we made our dinner. Clean up was done, and then Mark and I went out back again and sat for about 30 minutes before coming inside for the night. It was nice out today. Middle 80's for the temp. We put the pool heater on so the water was super nice. Mom enjoyed the down time and the relaxing. It is exactly what we need after busy days during the week. Now it is time to just mellow out before it is time to fall asleep. Think I will be out early tonight. The pups are both snoring...lol. They are tired. Hope we all get some good sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can tonight. Have fun while Mom is sleeping. Bob had a rough day today. He took his night meds this morning. Not good. He literally slept all day. Up at 10:30 am, ate breakfast then back to sleep until 5 pm tonight and ate dinner, then back to bed 15 minutes later. He was sleeping again at 6:15 pm. Something is definitely off with him. He is not talking, doing anything for the last 5 days. He has a phone call with his doctor on Monday. Hopefully they can get some answers. Things here must change and fast. You see it, you know what Mom is talking about. Please continue to watch over us all. Mom really needs you by her side my sweet precious son. Thank you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Mom is going to relax and watch a movie now that Mark is out of the tub. I have your candle lit and I will whisper to you later tonight. Smile for me and I will smile back to you. I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart,mind,body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams pumpkin.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🥰
Saturday, April 4, 2020
Friday, April 3, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is alright. I have been crazy busy all day today. I was up at 6 am when I heard a very loud bang noise. Bob fell out of bed this morning again. I did manage to fall back asleep for a short bit and I was up again at 7:30 am. Pups were fed, coffee was made, walks got in and then Mom relaxed for a short few minutes and chatted with Meme before I decided that I was going to go venture out today to get all the essentials that we needed for the next 3 weeks. I was showered and ready by 9:30 am. Meme wanted to go so I let her come with me. we were gone for about 2.5 hours. we went to 2 different stores and we were in there for about 1.5 hours. The rest of the time was driving. we got everything we needed except for cleaning supplies. There still is no Lysol wipes or anything but we managed to get water and toilet paper so that is a good thing. We got home and we put everything away. It took Mom almost 1.5 hours to do this. Everything needed to be rearranged to fit. That was a chore in itself! After I did that, I came upstairs and took another shower and then did all the laundry including the clothes that I was wearing out today. I finished that up and made a call and spoke to a friend for about 20 minutes. Now I am writing to you. It is quiet. Meme is knitting and watching a movie, Mark has been on a call all day long since 9 am and Bob is back in his room sleeping again. He will be up in a little bit for dinner and then go back to bed for the night. Last night was another rough one. We were watching the news, Mark was outside and Meme said something to him in regards to covering his mouth when he sneezed and he went off the deep end and was swearing, etc... I was like...ok...tv is going off and I am going outside. Meme went to her bedroom to watch tv and Bob went to his room. I told her I was not pleased at all with his outburst and I am not going to tolerate it for much longer. Yup, he is sick but he needs to do all the things we are to stay safe...period! He doesn't want to then he can stay in his room. He wants people to feel sorry for him and I am not that person at all. He is not doing what he can for himself so until that happens I think it will be pretty quiet here. He still doesn't say anything at all. Maybe 5 words here and there. He stopped playing his game now. That was the one he was playing all day and all night. He hasn't done it now for 3 days. He is sleeping all the time again. No exercise whatsoever which is not good. I don't know, Ty but things are not looking good for Bob. Meme told me today when we were out that if this keeps up and he continues to not do what is needed and acts the way he is to her and all of us then he will be needing to be placed somewhere because she is getting to the point where she can no longer handle it. I said nothing. I just listened. That is not for me to say. That is between her and him. The night for Mark and I was good. It was relaxing for the most part. Mom wasn't feeling that great in the beginning but after about an hour or so I was doing just fine. Mark watched tv and Mom played on her phone. Looking at emails, looking at stuff for my box and then playing a game. We both called it a night around 10 pm. Tonight I believe will be quiet as well. I am sure Mark is tired from his conference call that has lasted over 8 hours now. I think we will sit outside for a bit and then watch a movie. It is Friday and it is April 3rd. We are in Day 9 of lockdown. It is still going ok but lots of people were in the stores when we were. That was the 1st time out in 10 days for me. We got the essentials that we needed and that was it! Mom wasn't taking any chances at all. I am tired though as we rushed around the stores. I think it will be an early night for me...lol. This weekend will be sitting by the pool. Grilling dinner and that is about it. We have done that the last 2 weekends as well. The weather will be much cooler so the pool will not be 80 degrees but I will still go swimming! I need to get my laps in and relax after this long week! I will write to you probably from my cell phone and during the evening as I have not been going on my computer on Saturday or Sunday. I will write to you though. Mom promises you! I will light your candle later tonight as well and I will whisper to you before I go to bed. Please continue to be with Mom and watch over us all. Thank you my sweet precious son. It means a lot to me. I know you are really busy but try to have some fun while I am sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I know you did last night but it was confusing. First you were little and healthy, then you got sick and then it went to your graduation. Very confusing but Mom loved seeing your face and hearing your voice. I miss all that. I miss you. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom needs to start prepping for the night routine. It is after 4:30 pm and I have no idea what is for dinner tonight. The pups will get fed and then we will go for a nice walk after. Continue to shine bright and light the path for Mom. Keep us all safe from this virus that is taken the world by storm right now. Thank you. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is alright. I have been crazy busy all day today. I was up at 6 am when I heard a very loud bang noise. Bob fell out of bed this morning again. I did manage to fall back asleep for a short bit and I was up again at 7:30 am. Pups were fed, coffee was made, walks got in and then Mom relaxed for a short few minutes and chatted with Meme before I decided that I was going to go venture out today to get all the essentials that we needed for the next 3 weeks. I was showered and ready by 9:30 am. Meme wanted to go so I let her come with me. we were gone for about 2.5 hours. we went to 2 different stores and we were in there for about 1.5 hours. The rest of the time was driving. we got everything we needed except for cleaning supplies. There still is no Lysol wipes or anything but we managed to get water and toilet paper so that is a good thing. We got home and we put everything away. It took Mom almost 1.5 hours to do this. Everything needed to be rearranged to fit. That was a chore in itself! After I did that, I came upstairs and took another shower and then did all the laundry including the clothes that I was wearing out today. I finished that up and made a call and spoke to a friend for about 20 minutes. Now I am writing to you. It is quiet. Meme is knitting and watching a movie, Mark has been on a call all day long since 9 am and Bob is back in his room sleeping again. He will be up in a little bit for dinner and then go back to bed for the night. Last night was another rough one. We were watching the news, Mark was outside and Meme said something to him in regards to covering his mouth when he sneezed and he went off the deep end and was swearing, etc... I was like...ok...tv is going off and I am going outside. Meme went to her bedroom to watch tv and Bob went to his room. I told her I was not pleased at all with his outburst and I am not going to tolerate it for much longer. Yup, he is sick but he needs to do all the things we are to stay safe...period! He doesn't want to then he can stay in his room. He wants people to feel sorry for him and I am not that person at all. He is not doing what he can for himself so until that happens I think it will be pretty quiet here. He still doesn't say anything at all. Maybe 5 words here and there. He stopped playing his game now. That was the one he was playing all day and all night. He hasn't done it now for 3 days. He is sleeping all the time again. No exercise whatsoever which is not good. I don't know, Ty but things are not looking good for Bob. Meme told me today when we were out that if this keeps up and he continues to not do what is needed and acts the way he is to her and all of us then he will be needing to be placed somewhere because she is getting to the point where she can no longer handle it. I said nothing. I just listened. That is not for me to say. That is between her and him. The night for Mark and I was good. It was relaxing for the most part. Mom wasn't feeling that great in the beginning but after about an hour or so I was doing just fine. Mark watched tv and Mom played on her phone. Looking at emails, looking at stuff for my box and then playing a game. We both called it a night around 10 pm. Tonight I believe will be quiet as well. I am sure Mark is tired from his conference call that has lasted over 8 hours now. I think we will sit outside for a bit and then watch a movie. It is Friday and it is April 3rd. We are in Day 9 of lockdown. It is still going ok but lots of people were in the stores when we were. That was the 1st time out in 10 days for me. We got the essentials that we needed and that was it! Mom wasn't taking any chances at all. I am tired though as we rushed around the stores. I think it will be an early night for me...lol. This weekend will be sitting by the pool. Grilling dinner and that is about it. We have done that the last 2 weekends as well. The weather will be much cooler so the pool will not be 80 degrees but I will still go swimming! I need to get my laps in and relax after this long week! I will write to you probably from my cell phone and during the evening as I have not been going on my computer on Saturday or Sunday. I will write to you though. Mom promises you! I will light your candle later tonight as well and I will whisper to you before I go to bed. Please continue to be with Mom and watch over us all. Thank you my sweet precious son. It means a lot to me. I know you are really busy but try to have some fun while I am sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I know you did last night but it was confusing. First you were little and healthy, then you got sick and then it went to your graduation. Very confusing but Mom loved seeing your face and hearing your voice. I miss all that. I miss you. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom needs to start prepping for the night routine. It is after 4:30 pm and I have no idea what is for dinner tonight. The pups will get fed and then we will go for a nice walk after. Continue to shine bright and light the path for Mom. Keep us all safe from this virus that is taken the world by storm right now. Thank you. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Thursday, April 2, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is alright today. I need to apologize to you and all the readers that read my letter yesterday. Mom was just in a really bad mood and I vented on here when I shouldn't have. I know that if we could still talk we would have been discussing why Mom was not happy yesterday but because we can't and I wasn't trying to write you your letter, well...it all came out on here. I am so sorry pumpkin. I will try very hard not to do that again. If I am upset and angry like I was I will write to you to say that I am in that kind of a mood and will write to you the next day.
Mom was up early this morning. same time as always with the pups. They were fed, got their morning walk in and then coffee was made, dishes put away and then Mom relaxed for a little bit before starting her day. I came upstairs around 10 am and made the bed, took a shower and then got ready. I chatted with Meme while breakfast was cooking and then I headed upstairs to my office for the day. I was able to do a few things on the computer along with phone calls and emails to help Meme out. Everything else was good for the most part. Things were quiet though. Bob slept until 10 am, had breakfast and then went back to bed and just woke up...it is 4:45 pm. Yup, he slept all day long. Meme said that she was going to leave him alone. She filled me in on a couple things that happened yesterday while Mark and I were walking the pups after they had their dinner. I guess he got pretty mean with his words. He is lucky that I didn't hear that because I would have made a phone call and he would have been out of this house in record time. I will not tolerate what she told me. I will not endanger anyone in this house. It is bad enough that we are in the whole Coronavirus lockdown now. None of need to have anything extra added.
Yesterday was a bad day indeed. Tempers were flaring from everyone and we are all very stressed out. The unknown is scary and the reading and watching the news is making it scarier these days. everyone was alright by dinner time, well except Bob. Today this are back to as normal as they can be. Meme has kept to herself for the most part and Mark has been on the phones all day long. Mom, like I said has kept busy with things and paying this weeks bills. It is almost time to go feed the pups and then go for a walk with them before Mark and Mom have dinner. Tonight will be all about watching the news for a bit and then relaxing for the night. We are in lockdown as of 12 midnight tonight for the 30 days....May 3rd and then there will be another evaluation on things in the world. Things could be better by then or things could still be bad. No one knows at this point right now. It is all a waiting game. Please watch over us like you are doing. I know Aunt Beck is doing a lot of healing work for us as well. I am sure you are helping her too. Thank you for everything. Mom appreciates it so much. I miss you beyond words and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my winds. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will light your candle later and I will whisper to you later tonight before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile back to you. Have fun if you can while I get some sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks! I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Right now I have to start the night stuff or there will be 2 unhappy pups and a hungry husband...lol. Before I go I want to post something that I saw earlier on social media. It hits home but it is what is going on in this world that we are living in. Here it is:
Just so I NEVER forget..... April 2, 2020
Gas price a mile from home was $1.79
School cancelled - yes cancelled
Self-distancing measures on the rise.
Tape on the floors at grocery stores and others to help distance shoppers (6ft) from each other.
Limited number of people inside stores, therefore, lineups outside the store doors.
Non-essential stores and businesses mandated closed.
Parks, trails, beaches and entire cities locked up.
Entire sports seasons cancelled.
Concerts, tours, festivals, entertainment events - cancelled.
Weddings, family celebrations, holiday gatherings - cancelled.
No masses, churches are closed.
No gatherings of 50 or more, then 20 or more, now 5 or more.
Don't socialize with anyone outside of your home.
Children's outdoor play parks are closed.
We are to distance from each other.
Shortage of masks, gowns, gloves for our front-line workers.
Shortage of ventilators for the critically ill.
Panic buying sets in and we have no toilet paper, no disinfecting supplies, no paper towel no laundry soap, no hand sanitizer.
Shelves are bare.
Manufacturers, distilleries and other businesses switch their lines to help make visors, masks, hand sanitizer and PPE.
Government closes the border to all non-essential travel.
Fines are established for breaking the rules.
Stadiums and recreation facilities open up for the overflow of Covid-19 patients.
Press conferences daily from the President. Daily updates on new cases, recoveries, and deaths.
Government incentives to stay home.
Barely anyone on the roads.
People wearing masks and gloves outside.
Essential service workers are terrified to go to work.
Medical field workers are afraid to go home to their families.
This is the Novel Coronavirus (Covid-19) Pandemic, declared March 11th, 2020.
Why, you ask, do I write this status?
One day it will show up in my memory feed, and it will be a yearly reminder that life is precious and not to take the things we dearly love for granted.
We have so much!
Be thankful. Be grateful.
Be kind to each other - love one another - support everyone.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is alright today. I need to apologize to you and all the readers that read my letter yesterday. Mom was just in a really bad mood and I vented on here when I shouldn't have. I know that if we could still talk we would have been discussing why Mom was not happy yesterday but because we can't and I wasn't trying to write you your letter, well...it all came out on here. I am so sorry pumpkin. I will try very hard not to do that again. If I am upset and angry like I was I will write to you to say that I am in that kind of a mood and will write to you the next day.
Mom was up early this morning. same time as always with the pups. They were fed, got their morning walk in and then coffee was made, dishes put away and then Mom relaxed for a little bit before starting her day. I came upstairs around 10 am and made the bed, took a shower and then got ready. I chatted with Meme while breakfast was cooking and then I headed upstairs to my office for the day. I was able to do a few things on the computer along with phone calls and emails to help Meme out. Everything else was good for the most part. Things were quiet though. Bob slept until 10 am, had breakfast and then went back to bed and just woke up...it is 4:45 pm. Yup, he slept all day long. Meme said that she was going to leave him alone. She filled me in on a couple things that happened yesterday while Mark and I were walking the pups after they had their dinner. I guess he got pretty mean with his words. He is lucky that I didn't hear that because I would have made a phone call and he would have been out of this house in record time. I will not tolerate what she told me. I will not endanger anyone in this house. It is bad enough that we are in the whole Coronavirus lockdown now. None of need to have anything extra added.
Yesterday was a bad day indeed. Tempers were flaring from everyone and we are all very stressed out. The unknown is scary and the reading and watching the news is making it scarier these days. everyone was alright by dinner time, well except Bob. Today this are back to as normal as they can be. Meme has kept to herself for the most part and Mark has been on the phones all day long. Mom, like I said has kept busy with things and paying this weeks bills. It is almost time to go feed the pups and then go for a walk with them before Mark and Mom have dinner. Tonight will be all about watching the news for a bit and then relaxing for the night. We are in lockdown as of 12 midnight tonight for the 30 days....May 3rd and then there will be another evaluation on things in the world. Things could be better by then or things could still be bad. No one knows at this point right now. It is all a waiting game. Please watch over us like you are doing. I know Aunt Beck is doing a lot of healing work for us as well. I am sure you are helping her too. Thank you for everything. Mom appreciates it so much. I miss you beyond words and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my winds. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will light your candle later and I will whisper to you later tonight before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile back to you. Have fun if you can while I get some sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks! I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Right now I have to start the night stuff or there will be 2 unhappy pups and a hungry husband...lol. Before I go I want to post something that I saw earlier on social media. It hits home but it is what is going on in this world that we are living in. Here it is:
Just so I NEVER forget..... April 2, 2020
Gas price a mile from home was $1.79
School cancelled - yes cancelled
Self-distancing measures on the rise.
Tape on the floors at grocery stores and others to help distance shoppers (6ft) from each other.
Limited number of people inside stores, therefore, lineups outside the store doors.
Non-essential stores and businesses mandated closed.
Parks, trails, beaches and entire cities locked up.
Entire sports seasons cancelled.
Concerts, tours, festivals, entertainment events - cancelled.
Weddings, family celebrations, holiday gatherings - cancelled.
No masses, churches are closed.
No gatherings of 50 or more, then 20 or more, now 5 or more.
Don't socialize with anyone outside of your home.
Children's outdoor play parks are closed.
We are to distance from each other.
Shortage of masks, gowns, gloves for our front-line workers.
Shortage of ventilators for the critically ill.
Panic buying sets in and we have no toilet paper, no disinfecting supplies, no paper towel no laundry soap, no hand sanitizer.
Shelves are bare.
Manufacturers, distilleries and other businesses switch their lines to help make visors, masks, hand sanitizer and PPE.
Government closes the border to all non-essential travel.
Fines are established for breaking the rules.
Stadiums and recreation facilities open up for the overflow of Covid-19 patients.
Press conferences daily from the President. Daily updates on new cases, recoveries, and deaths.
Government incentives to stay home.
Barely anyone on the roads.
People wearing masks and gloves outside.
Essential service workers are terrified to go to work.
Medical field workers are afraid to go home to their families.
This is the Novel Coronavirus (Covid-19) Pandemic, declared March 11th, 2020.
Why, you ask, do I write this status?
One day it will show up in my memory feed, and it will be a yearly reminder that life is precious and not to take the things we dearly love for granted.
We have so much!
Be thankful. Be grateful.
Be kind to each other - love one another - support everyone.
We are all one!
Mom is praying for everyone right now in the world. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Wednesday, April 1, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! how are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom has had better days but I am alright. This morning did not start off well. Mark and I got into an argument over how often we can go out of the house with the Coronavirus. I made it very clear how I felt about how no one is taking it seriously including Meme. She came down the stairs and was yelling at me. I gave it right back to her. I told her that I didn't appreciate it at all that she didn't care and I didn't care for her attitude at all. She was angry at me and I don't care. She left the house this morning because she felt that she had the need to just go to the post office after being locked down in the house for 5 days. She knows that there is a rule right now that she is not to leave the house at all for anything...no matter what. She is not listening to us, what our Governor is saying and she just wants to do her own thing. This is not okay with Mom at all. This has been a struggle and a fight since all this started. I am not going to apologize for taking serious actions regarding this at all. I just told Mark that I will crack down even more if I have to. I am not going to stay safe to protect everyone and not have everyone follow suit with it. This afternoon our Governor held a press conference saying that all Florida residents are in a "stay at home" rule for 30 days. That means that no one goes out unless they have to...life or death situation. You can go to the grocery store once every couple weeks and that is it. She is still not getting it. Mom is so angry with her right now I am about to spit bullets at her. Bob had a temper issue earlier today as well. I was outside and heard nothing but Meme and Mark were in the house. He is angry that no one understands his condition, etc.... I feel for him but not when he is doing nothing to help himself at all. He is always sleeping, playing video games, eating a lot of unhealthy foods, etc... I can't feel sorry for anyone who is not doing what their doctors are telling them to do. Eat less or eat healthier, get good sleep, exercise on a regular basis. He is not doing any of that. I told Meme that he better watch his attitude because if he blows up like I guess he did this afternoon, I won't tolerate it at all. He is not contributing to anything in this house....money wise or helping around with cleaning. When we came up with this idea of co-habituating together, Mom never thought it would be this hard or this bad. It is bat sh*t crazy and neither Mark or I deserve it since we did this out of the kindness of our hearts. Their is no gratitude at all. Things better start getting better or their will be two less people living in this house in a month or so. Mom can't have them not following the rules that are being instated where we live, we can't have one just not care about anything at all and then blow up and thinks it is fine to do and we can't have this stress on our marriage at all. Mark busts his butt to keep a roof over our head and Mom busts hers to make sure that everything gets done and this house is clean. Everything is pretty clear and basic so I don't understand why there is confusion with anyone. Tyler.... I swear Mom is going to lose it in the next few days and it is not going to be pretty at all. You have seen it before and you know that is not a good thing for Mom or anyone who crosses my path. Okay... Mom has vented enough on this and this is not what my letters to you are suppose to be about. I know Mom always said that she would keep it real and honest and this is just me being exactly that way.
Anyways.... I have had a very busy day today. I have been up since 7 am. I have made myself busy all day long. I have gotten ready, had breakfast, made the bed, done the dishes, walked the pups, had several phone conversations and emails. It is now after 5 pm and Mom has still not fed the pups or walked them and gotten dinner going for Mark and I. Thank god that it is leftover night! We will be having homemade mac n cheese with garlic bread! Yummy stuff. I am excited about that!!!! Mom will light your candle in a bit when I am settling in for the night. I will whisper to you later this evening when I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to you. I really do miss that smile and voice of yours. I wish that Mom could hear you and see you as I really could use your advice. I am sure that you will show me signs in the way that you can. I will be looking for them. Have fun doing things that you would like to do after you do the things that are needed. I know you are busy and doing great things right now. Mom is proud! Please continue to watch over us all. Mom needs you more than ever. Thank you my sweet precious son. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you and I promise it won't be a venting session. I will make sure to update you on things and to keep it the way I usually do. I miss you more than anything in this world. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams pumpkin.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Hi my sweet son! how are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom has had better days but I am alright. This morning did not start off well. Mark and I got into an argument over how often we can go out of the house with the Coronavirus. I made it very clear how I felt about how no one is taking it seriously including Meme. She came down the stairs and was yelling at me. I gave it right back to her. I told her that I didn't appreciate it at all that she didn't care and I didn't care for her attitude at all. She was angry at me and I don't care. She left the house this morning because she felt that she had the need to just go to the post office after being locked down in the house for 5 days. She knows that there is a rule right now that she is not to leave the house at all for anything...no matter what. She is not listening to us, what our Governor is saying and she just wants to do her own thing. This is not okay with Mom at all. This has been a struggle and a fight since all this started. I am not going to apologize for taking serious actions regarding this at all. I just told Mark that I will crack down even more if I have to. I am not going to stay safe to protect everyone and not have everyone follow suit with it. This afternoon our Governor held a press conference saying that all Florida residents are in a "stay at home" rule for 30 days. That means that no one goes out unless they have to...life or death situation. You can go to the grocery store once every couple weeks and that is it. She is still not getting it. Mom is so angry with her right now I am about to spit bullets at her. Bob had a temper issue earlier today as well. I was outside and heard nothing but Meme and Mark were in the house. He is angry that no one understands his condition, etc.... I feel for him but not when he is doing nothing to help himself at all. He is always sleeping, playing video games, eating a lot of unhealthy foods, etc... I can't feel sorry for anyone who is not doing what their doctors are telling them to do. Eat less or eat healthier, get good sleep, exercise on a regular basis. He is not doing any of that. I told Meme that he better watch his attitude because if he blows up like I guess he did this afternoon, I won't tolerate it at all. He is not contributing to anything in this house....money wise or helping around with cleaning. When we came up with this idea of co-habituating together, Mom never thought it would be this hard or this bad. It is bat sh*t crazy and neither Mark or I deserve it since we did this out of the kindness of our hearts. Their is no gratitude at all. Things better start getting better or their will be two less people living in this house in a month or so. Mom can't have them not following the rules that are being instated where we live, we can't have one just not care about anything at all and then blow up and thinks it is fine to do and we can't have this stress on our marriage at all. Mark busts his butt to keep a roof over our head and Mom busts hers to make sure that everything gets done and this house is clean. Everything is pretty clear and basic so I don't understand why there is confusion with anyone. Tyler.... I swear Mom is going to lose it in the next few days and it is not going to be pretty at all. You have seen it before and you know that is not a good thing for Mom or anyone who crosses my path. Okay... Mom has vented enough on this and this is not what my letters to you are suppose to be about. I know Mom always said that she would keep it real and honest and this is just me being exactly that way.
Anyways.... I have had a very busy day today. I have been up since 7 am. I have made myself busy all day long. I have gotten ready, had breakfast, made the bed, done the dishes, walked the pups, had several phone conversations and emails. It is now after 5 pm and Mom has still not fed the pups or walked them and gotten dinner going for Mark and I. Thank god that it is leftover night! We will be having homemade mac n cheese with garlic bread! Yummy stuff. I am excited about that!!!! Mom will light your candle in a bit when I am settling in for the night. I will whisper to you later this evening when I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to you. I really do miss that smile and voice of yours. I wish that Mom could hear you and see you as I really could use your advice. I am sure that you will show me signs in the way that you can. I will be looking for them. Have fun doing things that you would like to do after you do the things that are needed. I know you are busy and doing great things right now. Mom is proud! Please continue to watch over us all. Mom needs you more than ever. Thank you my sweet precious son. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you and I promise it won't be a venting session. I will make sure to update you on things and to keep it the way I usually do. I miss you more than anything in this world. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams pumpkin.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
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