Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is so sorry that I have not written you a letter in 2 days. It has been super busy. I have wanted to but by the time I could it was after 7 pm and even though that was not late, I was exhausted. I will explain to you what has been going on....

Wednesday ~ Mom and Mark were up our usual time. Pups were taken care of and walked. Mom stayed home all day as I have to get a bunch of stuff done. I have to make sure the house was clean because the photographer was coming Thursday to take the pictures for the realtor. I also helped Meme a bit until she started yelling at me again. She did a pretty good job clearing out her space in her room and Bob's but they didn't get the other room done at all. Mark worked all day and also into the night. He finished about 9 pm. Mom took the evening and relaxed with the pups. I think we all were in bed by 9:30 pm.

Thursday ~ Up bright and early and ready to go. Mom helped Meme as much as I could before she started yelling again and I had to get ready. The photographer got here right at 10 am sharp Mark was working, Bob was in his room with Rocky while Meme was starting on the other room that didn't get done. Mom was the one who went around with Mike and helped him with whatever he needed. It was nice to catch up with them and hear how everyone was. I haven't seen him since they moved and that was 6 months ago. Pictures were all done by 12:30 pm. Mom had just enough time to get things together before I had to head out to my 1:15 pm appointment. After that, I went to the store and grabbed a few things for my February boxes and then came home. I think that was around 3:30 pm. Mom made dinner around 5:30 pm and we ate and then cleaned up and headed upstairs. Once again, Mark had work to do so Mom stayed in the room with the pups. He was done at 8:30 pm and he was asleep by 9 pm as he was so tired. I fell asleep around 10:30 pm. 

Friday ~ Today! Mom was up at the usual time. Pups were fed and walked. I was done and ready by 8:15 am and making breakfast. Did the clean up and off to my office I went. Mark was already working and Meme and Bob were gone. I spoke to Auntie Kristina for a bit and then started looking for houses. The realtor called this afternoon to tell us that the listing went up. She asked if we had seen it yet and I told her no we hadn't. Mom looked. I thought that I was just going to see the pictures that were taken and a write up and I did, but what I wasn't expecting to see was that there were 252 views, 10 saves and one agent that called our realtor wanting a video tour of our house for his clients that were out of town. This news just blows my mind. The house has been listed for 18 hours. Our realtor thinks that we will not have any issues selling this house and fast. That is a good thing! Meme and Bob are almost all packed and ready to go except their closets and kitchen stuff. Mom has everything to do...lol. I can pack this in a week so I am not worried! What we need help with and we are worried about is that we have no places to go and look at. Tyler, if you can help us with this...we need it. Mom needs it. We need to find a home that we can move to. It needs to be near where we are so that all that we have established is not a huge distance away. This is all happening super fast but in a very good way. Thank you for all you can do. It means so much to us all. We just want a nice home where it is quiet and not super loud neighbors. A place that is big like this or bigger if possible. Does that even exist?  I sure hope so. Mom will keep you posted. I will try very hard to write to you daily but I have a feeling that Mom is going to be very busy the next couple weeks plus I have boxes to put together as well. Be with me, help me and send me signs along the way to tell me that everything will work out and everything will be ok. Thank you my sweet precious son. 

Today is always Ozzy's 6th Birthday. He got eggs and sausage for breakfast as a treat and he will get something later as well. It has been a sunny and relaxing day for him. We played for a bit as well and we will play again tonight too. When we go out this weekend, we will get him some special treats like we do every year. 

Tomorrow we will be having someone come and video our house. That will be at 10 am and then Mark and I will be going to get boxes and bubble wrap and tape to start our packing. 15 months here and we are doing it again...ugh... it is for the best though. We need out of here. The renters are too disrespectful and Mom can't handle it anymore. Cars are being stolen from driveways and things are getting violent here. We can't live like that. Sunday we are going to go look a house or two. I think all next week will be about curating my boxes and then packing a little bit at a time when I can. My class will have to wait and I will need to pay for an extension. I am ok with that. I have to do what I have to do. Mom will fill you in on things as they come along. I miss you bunches. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in our hearts, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back over the weekend. Until then...come visit me in my dreams if you can. I will light the candle or warmer for you and will whisper to you like I do every night. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Please watch over us and keep us safe and healthy. Thank you, pumpkin. I love you with all my heart. Good night and sweet dreams later.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💛

 

 Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday morning? Mom is writing to you now because I am not sure if I will get a chance to write to you after I get back from my nail appointment. I just didn't want to miss the chance to write to you now. It may be a shorter letter as I have roughly 30 minutes before I need to leave but I will do the best that I can.

Today is a pretty quiet day here. Mark is at the office today. Bob is just doing what he does best...sitting in his chair and sleeping. Meme is packing things up per the realtor's request. She really is not saying much to me at all. She is still pretty pissed off at me because of it. This whole thing is not my fault and I will not feel guilty for what the realtor said. She has a hoarding issue and it needs to stop....period. I have tried so hard in the last 15 months to tell Meme this and she wouldn't listen to me. Mom just doesn't know what to do. I am sorry that she and Bob have been called out on this issue again but I will not be the blame for it at all. Mom is strictly doing what the realtor said to do so that we can get the hell out of here and soon. 

Mom has been wake since 6:30 am. I didn't sleep all that well last night either. The pups were up and  Mark was snoring a lot. I hope that tonight I will get some descent sleep. Mom is going to start going trough her stuff in her office tomorrow. I know that there are things I can donate and get rid of and then there are things that I can start packing away for now. My office and the living room will be the hardest as that is where most of the glass is. Mark and I have decided to leave almost all the furniture when we sell this place. That way it won't be a lot of extra work and also we will save on the moving costs...yes we will have to furnish another whole house but we can do that little by little again. Our offices and bedroom will be first and then it will be the living rooms, etc... There is a lot to do and a lot to process but we will get through this together just like we always do. Mom and Mark are keeping our fingers crossed that we will be able to get out of this house and into another one in 3 months. That is the goal. If you can help in any way that would be super. Thank you my sweet precious son. It will mean a lot to us. We have to get out of this hell hole for the sake of all our sanity and also to be less stressed out. When there are no renters here it is an awesome place to live but when the renters are here it is the absolute worst. Mom can't take it anymore. I know you see it all the time and what I go through. I want you to know that I am fine and I will get through all this one day at a time. Better things are coming that is for sure. I really just wish that I wasn't being blamed for everything when none of this is my fault at all. It hurts but I will be damned if I show it.

Later today when Mom gets home, I am pretty sure I will be prepping dinner for tonight. That will take a bit and then I will just relax and write out a few things that I need to for the realtor and then send it her way. Tonight will be quiet once again. Mark has stuff that he needs to do and I will remain quiet and snuggle up with the pups. It is another cold front here again so I will not against it. I will just watch a movie and keep to myself. Mark will filter in for about an hour before he falls asleep. Tomorrow will already be Wednesday...half way through the work week. Not much else though. Mom is going to stop calling everyone and see how long it takes for them to contact me. I have a lot to do so I need that extra time to get it all done. 

I do need to get going though. I need to get things ready and the pups downstairs. I will be leaving in about 15 minutes. Have fun today doing things that you need to do and later tonight when I am sleeping...hope you come visit me in my dreams. I will light a candle and whisper to you later in the evening before I go to bed. Smile for me when you do hear me and I will smile to you as well. I miss you terribly. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Please watch over us and keep us all safe and healthy. Thank you, pumpkin. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later. Fly high and free!

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💛

 

 Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? It is definitely a Monday that is for sure. Mom has been up since 6:30 am. I had so much to do today and honestly I did not do any of it. I am sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but it was a busy day just as I thought it would be. Let me explain to you what happened:

Sunday: Up at the usual time. Pups were walked and fed. Mom made her way upstairs to fold laundry and also to get things ready for the realtor to come in the afternoon. I was ready and so was Mark. She was right on time. 12 noon. The pups went so crazy that Mark had to go upstairs and close his door. I was the one who spoke to the realtor for 2 hours until Mark could join us for the last hour. Yup...3 hours for the visit. Started at 12 noon and then went until 3 pm. A lot of info to take in. starting this process all over again is exhausting to Mom. I am the one who will get the brunt of it all. The calls, texts, emails...etc...while everyone else sits and just watches. Now, Mom knows that Mark will be working but still, I shouldn't have to do it all on my own....anyways.... There was a lot of good information to come out of this meeting. We hired her on the spot and we have the photographer coming to take the pictures on Thursday morning at 10 am. Everything is all set and ready for staging for Mark and I but Meme and Bob have a lot of work ahead of them. They have 3 rooms and the realtor told them there was too much stuff and it was cluttered so they had to pack 80% of their belongings and put them somewhere. Meme was so mad. She is angry at Mom. I had no part in her hoarding and if anything I kept telling her to stop but she didn't listen. With that said, they are the ones right now that need to do something or the photographer can't take the pictures and there is no need for a realtor because she can't show the house like that. Meme and Bob were told that 4 times in NH too when they were trying to sell their house. When there are that many who are saying the same thing... you would think that they would get the hint and know...but nope. Everyone else is to blame and not either of them. Mark and Mom have to sit down with them later to let them know that this needs to be done and there will be no way that they will stop us from moving. The other issue is that the houses that we are seeing are a lot smaller than this one. We knew that though as rentals are bigger then single family homes. The problem is, is that most of these homes will be a good size for Mark and Mom but not all 4 of us. Meme is beyond angry at that. She said earlier that it was all Mom's fault for having them move, she should have stayed in NH and in their house. I am sorry but I will not let her do this to me. I am not the blame or the reason for this. I will not try to have her guilt get to me. I am done with that! Not happening. It is not my fault that the houses out there are not big. I think she got pretty comfortable with paying nothing for 10 months and then paying very little the last 5 months. She doesn't want to pay for a place or utilities, etc.... No ones wants to but that is life...we all have to. I don't know what to do in any of this situation. I am stressed to the max. I don't know what to do or how I am going to do this all...pack, school, my business plus every day stuff and then move to another location, learn everything all over again as to where things are, unpack and then proceed forward. I need help, Tyler. In so many ways, I need help. I tried calling a few friends but either no one was home or half way through the conversation they needed to get off the phone because either there was a call from someone else they wanted to take or they wanted to go outside to get some fresh air...seriously? I am always there for others when they need me....guess what? Not anymore! I am done being used by so many people. This is day 4 of a new year and it will be a huge change! Most people won't like the change but they will have to live with that as they made their bed, now they have to lie in it. 

Other things that are going on.... Bob is not doing well at all. He is at a doctor appointment right now for an echocardiogram. He has an appointment on Wednesday and 2 appointments next week as well. They need to find out what is going on with him. He is sleeping all the time. More than before. He can't keep his eyes open at all and never mind him trying to talk to anyone because he just sits there and says nothing. Mark is back to work at all 3 jobs and is feeling the stress of that. As I said Mom is beyond stressed and Meme and just pissed at me and the world right now. Other than that...things are just peachy...lol. 

Mom spoke to Grandpa. He shared his concerns with Mom. He had valid points for sure. I listened and told him that I would express these to Mark and I did do that. Grandpa and Debbie are doing well though, I guess. They don't really say much at all. I told them I would call them this week to check in. Spoke to Aunt Beck today. She is crazy busy. Bean is in her new apartment. That is great. Mom heard it is a small but cute place for the 2 of them. I am happy for her. we skyped with Tubal and Karen last night. All is well there I suppose. That is all the updates I have for you.  I will keep you posted. 

It is 3:45 pm. Mom needs to get her butt in gear and finish things up and then get the night routine started. I need to prep dinner as that will take a bit to do tonight. I will light a candle for you and whisper to you later tonight. smile for me and I will smile for you my sweet precious son. I miss you more than words can say and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will forever be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you after my nail appointment. Until then...have fun while I sleep tonight and come visit me in my dreams if you can.  Please continue to watch over us and keep us safe and healthy. It is getting worse here for the Covid cases (52,000 new cases in 3 days) and we have a confirmed case for the Covid variant now too... this is far more contagious and you can catch this easier than the other. Super scary. 

Fly high and free pumpkin. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💜 

 

 Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? Mom, first of all needs to apologize to you for not writing yesterday. I always write on a holiday and never miss one and I did. I missed New Years Day for you. Happy 2021 a day late in Heaven. These last few days have been pretty tough on Mom. I am angry, tired, stressed out and just not myself. I will explain things in a minute. I am so sorry and angry that I couldn't write to you. I know you see Mom and you understand but I am still mad at myself.....

Lets see...New Years Eve was a complete bust for us here. Around 5 pm all hell broke loose. Renters were lighting off fireworks, they were partying, yelling, screaming, etc... one set of the renters next to us decided to be rude and mean to Mom and I didn't step down. I was so angry I let them have it too. I am so tried of the whole "Black Lives Matter" stuff....All lives matter...period! Things got worse after 9 pm and it continued until 2 am New Years Day. Mom averaged about 5 hours of sleep and that is it. Meme and Bob went to bed at 8:30 pm. Mark and Mom stayed up until midnight and said Happy New Year but that was about it. No toasting, no celebrating. The renters sure ruined it for us.

Yesterday, New Years Day....Mom was up at 7 am. We fed the pups and walked them and then Mom started taking down the decorations. all of it was down, put away, swept, dusted and vacuumed. Took Mom from 8 am until 2 pm to do it all but it is completed. Everything is neatly tucked away for this year...in 10 months...lol! After that, Mom made a couple calls. I found out that a lady that we both knew in Windy Acres...her husband is in ICU with Covid and she has it now. Mom was on the phone with her and she was so sick she had to get off the phone. She was vomiting. I felt so bad for her. I will check in with her real quick today. I am sending prayers her way for sure. By the time I got off the phone with my 2 calls it was 3:30 pm. Mom got ready and then headed downstairs to feed the pups and get dinner for us. In between though, Mom got a visit from the Sheriff.  I spent about 20 minutes outside talking to him about the renters on both sides of us for the last 12 days. Lots of insight on Mom's end but lots of insight that I gave this officer as well. Last night we had all intentions of watching a movie with Meme and Bob but Bob didn't want to. They went to bed at 6:30 pm. Mom called Grandpa and Debbie to say Happy New Year. Chatted with them for about an hour and then we made our way upstairs. We watched tv for a couple hours and we went to bed. We were exhausted. Mom never got on her computer at all. I was so tired to try and do a letter to you on the phone. again, I am so sorry.

Saturday...today... Mom and Mark were up at the usual time. Pups were fed and walked. Mom did a few things around the house, did laundry, got ready and hopped on the computer. I checked emails and sent messages out that I needed to. It is after 2:30 pm now. Mark is on his computer, Meme is downstairs and Bob has his tv on and he is sleeping. That guy is sleeping all the time. He does nothing at all. It is really getting to Mom. We were going to go out for the day but we decided not to as Ozzy has been sick. I wanted to stay home with him. We will go out tomorrow. We have a meeting set at 12 noon with a realtor. We are done with all the BS around here. We are moving and there is no turning back. When will be the question and where but we are. Mom will keep you posted on what is said. 

Tonight will be about watching a movie, feeding the pups and having dinner ourselves. We will be watching a marathon of Dr Who later...3 hours worth...lol. We will hopefully get a good night sleep for a change and then get up in the morning feeling well rested. Mom will have a candle lit for you downstairs and also upstairs later. I will whisper to you before I fall asleep. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much and I love you with all my heart. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will probably write you a small letter tomorrow if I don't get back late but if I do then I will be back first thing Monday morning. Please continue to keep us safe and healthy. Thank you. Have fun tonight while I am sleeping. Come visit if you can. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖

PS. I know the pics will be a day late but I still wanted to share them with you.