Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? It is definitely a Monday that is for sure. Mom has been up since 6:30 am. I had so much to do today and honestly I did not do any of it. I am sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but it was a busy day just as I thought it would be. Let me explain to you what happened:

Sunday: Up at the usual time. Pups were walked and fed. Mom made her way upstairs to fold laundry and also to get things ready for the realtor to come in the afternoon. I was ready and so was Mark. She was right on time. 12 noon. The pups went so crazy that Mark had to go upstairs and close his door. I was the one who spoke to the realtor for 2 hours until Mark could join us for the last hour. Yup...3 hours for the visit. Started at 12 noon and then went until 3 pm. A lot of info to take in. starting this process all over again is exhausting to Mom. I am the one who will get the brunt of it all. The calls, texts, emails...etc...while everyone else sits and just watches. Now, Mom knows that Mark will be working but still, I shouldn't have to do it all on my own....anyways.... There was a lot of good information to come out of this meeting. We hired her on the spot and we have the photographer coming to take the pictures on Thursday morning at 10 am. Everything is all set and ready for staging for Mark and I but Meme and Bob have a lot of work ahead of them. They have 3 rooms and the realtor told them there was too much stuff and it was cluttered so they had to pack 80% of their belongings and put them somewhere. Meme was so mad. She is angry at Mom. I had no part in her hoarding and if anything I kept telling her to stop but she didn't listen. With that said, they are the ones right now that need to do something or the photographer can't take the pictures and there is no need for a realtor because she can't show the house like that. Meme and Bob were told that 4 times in NH too when they were trying to sell their house. When there are that many who are saying the same thing... you would think that they would get the hint and know...but nope. Everyone else is to blame and not either of them. Mark and Mom have to sit down with them later to let them know that this needs to be done and there will be no way that they will stop us from moving. The other issue is that the houses that we are seeing are a lot smaller than this one. We knew that though as rentals are bigger then single family homes. The problem is, is that most of these homes will be a good size for Mark and Mom but not all 4 of us. Meme is beyond angry at that. She said earlier that it was all Mom's fault for having them move, she should have stayed in NH and in their house. I am sorry but I will not let her do this to me. I am not the blame or the reason for this. I will not try to have her guilt get to me. I am done with that! Not happening. It is not my fault that the houses out there are not big. I think she got pretty comfortable with paying nothing for 10 months and then paying very little the last 5 months. She doesn't want to pay for a place or utilities, etc.... No ones wants to but that is life...we all have to. I don't know what to do in any of this situation. I am stressed to the max. I don't know what to do or how I am going to do this all...pack, school, my business plus every day stuff and then move to another location, learn everything all over again as to where things are, unpack and then proceed forward. I need help, Tyler. In so many ways, I need help. I tried calling a few friends but either no one was home or half way through the conversation they needed to get off the phone because either there was a call from someone else they wanted to take or they wanted to go outside to get some fresh air...seriously? I am always there for others when they need me....guess what? Not anymore! I am done being used by so many people. This is day 4 of a new year and it will be a huge change! Most people won't like the change but they will have to live with that as they made their bed, now they have to lie in it. 

Other things that are going on.... Bob is not doing well at all. He is at a doctor appointment right now for an echocardiogram. He has an appointment on Wednesday and 2 appointments next week as well. They need to find out what is going on with him. He is sleeping all the time. More than before. He can't keep his eyes open at all and never mind him trying to talk to anyone because he just sits there and says nothing. Mark is back to work at all 3 jobs and is feeling the stress of that. As I said Mom is beyond stressed and Meme and just pissed at me and the world right now. Other than that...things are just peachy...lol. 

Mom spoke to Grandpa. He shared his concerns with Mom. He had valid points for sure. I listened and told him that I would express these to Mark and I did do that. Grandpa and Debbie are doing well though, I guess. They don't really say much at all. I told them I would call them this week to check in. Spoke to Aunt Beck today. She is crazy busy. Bean is in her new apartment. That is great. Mom heard it is a small but cute place for the 2 of them. I am happy for her. we skyped with Tubal and Karen last night. All is well there I suppose. That is all the updates I have for you.  I will keep you posted. 

It is 3:45 pm. Mom needs to get her butt in gear and finish things up and then get the night routine started. I need to prep dinner as that will take a bit to do tonight. I will light a candle for you and whisper to you later tonight. smile for me and I will smile for you my sweet precious son. I miss you more than words can say and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will forever be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you after my nail appointment. Until then...have fun while I sleep tonight and come visit me in my dreams if you can.  Please continue to watch over us and keep us safe and healthy. It is getting worse here for the Covid cases (52,000 new cases in 3 days) and we have a confirmed case for the Covid variant now too... this is far more contagious and you can catch this easier than the other. Super scary. 

Fly high and free pumpkin. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💜