Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is hoping that you are busy doing all kinds of things that you are asked of & things that you want to do as well. Mom is hoping that you are in the sun & have the warmth beaming down on your face like you always loved. Today has been a better day for Mom but still not the greatest. As you could probably already see, Mom has not been feeling well since Monday afternoon. Last night Mom went to bed real early as I was just so tired from the night before from not sleeping. Mom is really sorry that I didn't write to you at all last night. Even though I didn't I don't want you to think that you were not on my mind because that is the furthest from the truth. Mom whispered to you last night before I went to bed...could you hear me? Sure do hope so my sweet precious son. Mom thinks of you all the time, I look at your pictures constantly throughout the day. Sometimes Mom laughs, sometimes I cry, & sometimes both. Mom misses you so much it hurts like h*ll. No words could ever describe the pain that Mom goes through every day since you passed. I love you so much. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Please always remember & know this.
 For updates~ Spoke to Grandpa... both him & Deb are doing well. Working as usual but they are good. Going to call meme tonight as I have not heard from her in about a week. Not sure what that is all about. Going to call Aunt Beck too. Haven't heard how John is doing since his surgery a couple weeks ago. I know that she has been quit busy though. Guess everyone else is ok. Mom tries to keep up with everyone via facebook but sometimes I am just too busy to see it all. I know that you do & that you are watching over us all & that makes me so happy! Mark is working hard as usual. Been a busy week for him so far & the next 2 days will be no different. We are going to try & get up to NH this weekend but still unsure of that. If not this coming weekend, next weekend for sure. It has been 6 weeks since we were there. Doesn't seem possible but time is definitely going by really fast. Mom enrolled in more college classes for another 2 certifications. This time it is Medical Coding & Billing. I have read the 1st 2 chapters already & have done 2 quizzes. Got a 100 on the 1st one & a 90 on the 2nd one ( I got 2 answers wrong ). So that is an A & a B so far... with a GPA of 95. Today, I was going to study but decided to put together the desk that I ordered. It finally came in. It took me 2 1/2 hours to do it but Mom can say that she put it all together by herself! I was so proud! Hey... it didn't even fall apart when it was moved so Mom did something right...lol! Think that is all the updates for today.
 Here are the daily prayers that I need to catch up on. August 18~ I said, days should speak, & multitude of years should teach wisdom. Dear God, help me see that aging, like being born, happens one day at a time. Calm my fears that it will overtake & overwhelm me. Help me briefly mourn youth as only a butterfly cocoon that must crumble to set the new creature free.
 August 19~ When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance. Whether we admit it or not, we all long to feel welcomed & accepted by others. Just as Jesus connected with people outside his circle of disciples, we need to connect with people outside our comfort zone & mirror God's acceptance of all people. Heavenly Father, help me to reach out to all those you would put in my path.
 Mom is caught up on now, once again. I am hoping that now that I have my new desk & a place to study, work, etc... I will be writing more to you in a more comfortable area. That is a goal of mine! Anyways, it is now 5pm & Mom needs to get going & start making dinner & feed the pups too. Mom hopes that you have a wonderful evening doing what you love to do & need to continue to do while I sleep at night. If you get the chance to rest, may you close our eyes & have the sweetest dreams possible. Mom hopes to see you in her dreams tonight as well when I fall asleep. Fly high & free, Tyler. Miss you so much & I love you beyond words. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Give Daisey,  Max, Snickers, Baxter, Spencer, Snapples, Ziggy & Friskie hugs & kisses from me. Miss them all too.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo, Muah!