Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I have a bit of time so I thought that I would write to you know before things get all crazy again. These last 15 days have felt like a year. It is indescribable to say the least. Nothing seems to be going right at all. The flight to here was great and after that things have just been awful. One thing after another. Everyone around the area is so nice and friendly. That is a breathe of fresh air. When we arrived at our new home it was nothing like what the pictures showed. All of us we in shock about this. All the furniture that we wanted to donate was still in the house except the beds were gone. I couldn't understand why no one wanted the perfectly good furniture but after I saw it, I was like "oh I completely understand" now. It was all junk. Things were broken and very worn and used for a 5 year old home. It was overwhelming for the first week here. Boxes everywhere and just stuff hanging out. We had the movers here, 1-800-GOT-JUNK was here as well removing all the furniture. It took Mom 5 days to put all out stuff away and get settled and Meme is still doing hers. She just has so much stuff. The incident with Skittles happened a week ago today. He is not getting any better and hasn't and last night and today you can really see the decline in him. It is heart wrenching and it hurts Mom to see it. I know it is not my choice at all but I am so sad because this should have never happened. Poor little Skittles is the one suffering now and it just is not right. I know Meme knows what needs to be done but she is not wanting to do it. She needs to know that he is in pain and she has to let him go. He wants to be able to run and jump and play again. He doesn't want to be sick anymore. I know Mom asked you before, the night that this all happened to take Skittles home to be with you, Daisy, Baxter, Ziggy, Snapples, Max and Snickers. I know you will take good care of him for all of us. I think maybe in some ways, Meme is hoping he will go on his own so she doesn't have to do it. If you know this is the case, please come for the little guy. I will miss him very much but I know he will be happier. Thank you so much my sweet precious son.
Mom spoke to Aunt Beck yesterday. Second time since the move. She told me something. She said you have been working with her closely and you are not happy with all the negative things that are being said and done in this house. It is upsetting you. Mom wants you to know that it is very upsetting to me as well. This whole thing has been very hard and really harder than what I thought it would be. Everyone is at each others throats all the time. It is tense in here and I am not sure what to do. I can only control my behavior. I try to make peace with every one but I am not sure they are wanting it. Basically it is "damned if I do and damned if I don't". Please know Mom is trying like h*ll to do her best and that is all I can do as I am just one person. I want you to know that I hear you loud and clear though and I will continue every day to do my best at this and to get things where they need to be. I love you so much. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. I miss you like crazy too. More than words can say.
Mom hasn't really spoken to anyone else at all in the last couple weeks....not even Grandpa. That makes me sad. I will call and Debbie doesn't hand the phone over to him. Mom is just going to call his cell phone from now on so I can talk to him. Mark is not taking care of himself at all. He is losing weight fast again. He is not doing his exercises for PT and he is working all kinds of crazy hours. I am worried about him again but I say nothing at all. Bob sleeps and eats and watches tv all the time. He says nothing to us at all. There are things to do but he won't do them. He uses his medical condition at times to get away with things but Mom sees right through it. That is frustrating as all heck. Meme is a mess. She is tired, stressed out and that worries me as well. I have been trying to help her but I am not sure I really am. I give her all the space she needs. She gets so angry at Bob all the time. As for Mom, I am doing okay. I am not getting as much sleep as I was the first week or so but I am trying. I am hoping and praying (alot) that things start to get better soon. Princess and Ozzy are doing well. They are adjusting to their new home and the environment better than what I thought. I think they like it here. The weather is super nice still. In the lower 90's daily. We have thunderstorms and rain but so far the pups have only gotten scared twice. That is good! Uncle Dick is doing the best he can. We just got word that his surgery for his amputation is set for November 5th. Mom is praying that everything goes well. Tomorrow is the day that we go and get our Florida licenses and register our vehicles. After that Meme and Mark need to establish their banks and then finally everything is finished that we need to do in any time frame. Hopefully next week, Mom will be finally able to go back to studying to finish her degree that she started almost a year ago. I have taken off 7 months from it to take care of Mark twice, and then packing, the move, etc.... It is time to finish it up and get going! I am looking forward to it. It will be nice to get back into a routine again. I think I have finally caught you up on everything that I can think of. Be with us all tomorrow so everything goes smoothly at the DMV. Thanks Tyler!
Mom will whisper to you tonight and I will light a candle for you as well. Mark is working late so Mom will be relaxing in the room and being quiet. Have fun tonight while I try to get some sleep. Come visit me in my dreams and if you can send me some signs. I will be looking for them. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes.....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Praise the Lord, all you nations; extol him, all you peoples. For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the Lord endures forever. Praise the Lord. Psalm 117, NIV
Lord our God, we thank you that we may come to you and that our spirits can reach out for your help and your comfort. May we draw strength from communion with you, our Father. May we realize more fully that we are your children, truly your children, who throughout our pilgrimage are allowed to know you as our refuge and our help. Remember our world, and grant that many hearts awaken and turn to you, looking to you in all the fear and need which sweep over many people in our time. Let your Spirit be revealed to our hearts in quiet, bringing many experiences from you, O Lord our God, and from your kingdom. Protect us every day in the many lands throughout the earth. For the nations are yours; they shall receive life and blessing from you, and at last your kingdom will be revealed in all the world, to the eternal glory of your name. Amen.
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