Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Well today is your favorite day and holiday...it is Halloween so Happy Halloween to you in heaven again this year. There is not a lot of happiness right now nor cheerfulness in this house as of last week but especially as of last night. After Mom got done writing to you in the early afternoon, Meme called me downstairs and she decided to make the dreaded and awful call to the vets. She decided to see what they had to say about little Skittles. After an exam and check up on things, the doctor stated that he was indeed paralyzed and he would never walk again. He had no deep tissue response in either back legs. He quality of life was slim to none so Meme heard what she needed to when the doctor said that it was time to let Skittles go because he was in pain. The most human thing to do was to say goodbye to him. Mom cried so hard. I left the room so that Mom and Bob could have some a lone time with him. I went in the room after and said my sweet goodbyes to him. He left the physical world very quickly so we all know that it was the right thing to do. We mourn the loss of him but Meme made the choice to give him a new life, a new world where he is free to run and play and he is no longer sick. I can only believe that you were there to take him home like you were for Max and Snickers. I am sure he is happy to see Snapples again. Please take care of him for Meme and Bob. He sure is missed dearly and this place is not the same now with him gone.  There is a big void here and a lot of sadness surrounding us all. Please be with us all as we go through the grieving process. It is never easy for anyone and we all grieve in different ways. For Mom, it brought back all the memories of having to do that to Max and Snickers just 6 months apart. It brought back everything that I felt when I lost you. Mom didn't really sleep last night. I was heart broken for Meme. The crying and wrenching from her and hearing what she was saying will haunt Mom for a very long time. I still hear Skittles little deep husky bark. I miss it. we are all trying to stay busy so our minds don't wander. Meme cries from time to time and then she stops. That is natural and to be expected. I am sure it is hard for her to see Princess and Ozzy now. Mark and Mom are giving them all the space that they need. That is the best that we can do. Anyways....
 Where we live again we will not be getting trick or treaters as it is a gated community. We were hoping but no luck at all. Oh well. Tonight will be a very quiet evening around here. Mark has been working around the clock to get his work done. He worked yesterday from 8 am until 11 pm. Today he started late because we had to go get our licenses. He started at 1 pm and will be working late again. He is so tired and he needs a break. Mom stays out of his way though and says nothing. That is the best that I can do in that situation as well. Mom will watch TV and probably go to bed early tonight. Meme and Bob turn in around 7:30 pm nightly. Tomorrow, Mom needs to go register her car. I have to have a form filled out and grab my Title and then heard back to where I just was today and everything for me will be all done. I think maybe we will go get a bank account for Meme and Bob too. This weekend we are hoping to enjoy Saturday with a day out and Sunday, Mark is working again so Meme and I will be painting the walls. Things are slowly starting to get better here. We are taking it one day at a time though. Mom will probably be lighting a candle in her room at night for you. That is where we spend most of our time these days. I will whisper to you later this evening so smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....good night and sweet dreams. Mom has to sign off now to feed the pups and get dinner going. Have fun tonight and come visit me in my dreams if you can.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

Let those who fear the Lord say: "His love endures forever." When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord; he brought me into a spacious place. The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me? Psalm 118:4–6, NIV

Lord our God, dear Father in heaven, we thank you. How often you rescue us from all fear and distress! How often you hear and answer us! Grant that our hearts may always be eager and joyful because you answer us. There is nothing else for us in this world; you are our one hope, our only hope. You alone can help our times, help the nations, help each person. Nothing else matters to us. Lord our God, for the rest of our life on earth you alone are our help, our comfort, and our strength. Amen.