Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom is running super late today. It is already 5 pm and we are about to get another nasty thunderstorm. It is very dark here. Mark is still working and Mom just finished up a few things that I was doing. I paid bills and basically just looked at things for my December Box to get ahead. I have been up since 6 am and I am tired. I am not sleeping well at all lately. I thought that I would since all the renters left but I am not. I guess I have a lot of things on my mind right now. Maybe tonight I will soak on another hot bath and relax and then see if that helps me. I am not getting tired until around midnight and then I am up 2-3 times in the early morning before getting up at 7 am. I need to get some solid sleep. Please help Mom with this if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son.

Today is September 11th. It is a day that us Americans will never forget. It is the Anniversary of the attacks in NYC on the Twin Towers and Pentagon. 19 years have passed and still America grieves over the loss of all the men, women, children, animals, fireman and police officers that lost their lives. Mom prayed for them all. I prayed for the families that lost their loved ones. I remember where I was when it came over the radio. I was driving to work. You were in Exeter at the time in school. I called you that evening and we spoke for a long time. I just wanted to rush to be near you but I couldn't. You were 2.5 hours away but it seemed like a life time away from you. I remember crying silently as we were on the phone. You never knew as I didn't want you to. It just doesn't take a day like this to remember that there is good in this world, there is evil in this world. One never knows what will happen. It is a scary place outside right now still. So much is happening. The fires in California are still out of control. Hurricanes are everywhere and could strike us at any time. The Coronavirus is still not under control either. The numbers here are still sky high and yet things are opening up more and more around us. It is crazy. People are scared, they are having panic attacks, anxiety attacks because of all this. Mom prays for everyone. I pray that things get better. The fires stop, the hurricanes go out to sea without making any landfall. I pray that the Coronavirus goes away and no more illness or people losing their lives because of it. One day it will happen. Mom just prays that day will be tomorrow!

Mom spoke to Auntie Donna today for awhile on the phone. She vented, yelled, screams, cried about everything. Mom was there as a listening ear. She apologized but I told her it was ok and not to. She is going through so much. They thought last night was the night that they would be loosing Ron, her Dad but he is still holding on. By the sounds of things it won't be long though. He has not ate in a week and he is so frail. He was 125 lbs and now Donna said he is lucky if he is 100 lbs now. So sad. He is in pain and he is suffering. I know what is going to happen and I wish that someone would tell him it is ok to go. He needs peace. he deserves peace. I think I will get a call over the weekend to say he is gone. It will be sad for everyone left behind but it will be a blessing for him. Mom will let you know when I do. Just watch over Aunt Donna as she will need the strength to get through this. Mom can't be there in person but I can be there for her over the phone, etc... Thank you.

It is now after 5 pm. Mom needs to feed the pups and walk them. I need to make dinner to but I am not really all that hungry right now. I have had a candle burning for you all day. I will light the one in the bedroom tonight as well. I will whisper to you before I fall asleep. Smile for me and I will smile for you. Have fun tonight and come visit me in my dreams if you can. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Please watch over us. Keep us safe and healthy. Fly high and free. I will write to you over the weekend as it is going to be nothing but crap weather and heavy rains. I miss you more than words. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖