Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday late afternoon? Mom can definitely say that is is a Monday and it started out very sh*tty. I slept okay last night. Up just a couple of times which was nice for a change. I woke up at 7:30 am this morning to a text message saying that Auntie Donna's dad, Ron passed away at 4:39 am. I got the pups fed and then I called her home phone and her cell phone but I could only leave a message. I walked the pups and then came upstairs to start the laundry and make the bed. My head was all over the place. My heart was hurting for Aunt Donna and the entire family. I came down to my office with full intentions on getting things done today but honestly, Mom has not done a dang thing. I have checked things out on the computer for my next box, placed an order, emailed a few people and the rest of the time I have been on the phone with Auntie Kristina and also Aunt Donna. We spoke for a bit. She is hurting right now. I have always been here for her through the tough times and she kept saying over and over how she wished that I could be there with her now. That crushed my heart to know that. I wish I could be as well but I just can't. everything is so screwed up for her right now and it all sucks. Ron was a sweet and gentle man. He was always so nice to us, Tyler. He was sick many of times through the years. This time he just couldn't fight it anymore. The cancer rid his entire body and he tried so hard. Towards the end of his days here in the physical world, he wasn't eating or drinking. he was in a lot of pain and he was suffering. He got to the point that he was not remembering anyone either. His dementia was really bad. Aunt Donna, Nan, and the rest of the family didn't want him to go, no one wants to see a family member take their last breath. It is heart wrenching to say the least. Aunt Donna was there though. She witness her dad taking his last breath and leave the physical world behind him. He will be missed. Ron earned his Angel Wings this morning that is for sure. He suffered for far too long and now he doesn't have to. He will be watching over his family and friends from above or from wherever he chooses to be now....just like you. R.I.P. Ron for eternal life. Fly high and free now with the Angels above. I asked Ron to give you a hug and kiss from me when you two see one another. I know he will. He always liked you and Mom. Even with his dementia, he remembered me and would always say...Sheri...Sheri... oh Tyler's Mom. He associated me with you. That brings tears to my eyes because so many people did the very same thing. All of this is bringing up way too much for Mom. It is like me reliving the time that I watched you go. I stayed strong for Aunt Donna on the phone but boy after I hung up I did let the tears flow. I had too. My head has been in a fog all day long. I can't do anything right now. I just hurt for everyone. Tonight I will do the usual of feeding the pups, walking them and then I will come upstairs and just relax. I will take a long hot bubble bath and then crawl into bed and probably zone at the tv for a bit before falling asleep. I know you will be there for Auntie Donna and Mom thanks you for that. I have had a candle burning all day for you, my sweet precious son and for Ron. I will light another candle for you both this evening as well. Mom will whisper to you later this evening so when you hear me, smile and I will smile back to you. I miss you so much. More than words can express. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. 

This weekend was boring and super long. Saturday we did nothing but stay home. It rained and we were in a tornado warning all night. That was scary but we were lucky. Sunday it rained all day too. Mark and Mom went grocery shopping and then came home. We had lunch and then really didn't do a dang thing. The weekend was crappy and glad it is over with! We have 12 days before Grandpa comes. Mom is getting super excited!!! Mark is excited to see them too. I think that Meme is not and Bob could care less. He is back to his mood swings and showed it on Saturday as he got into a yelling match with Meme and continued through Sunday. He is sleeping all the time again and he is not saying anything to anyone again. I told Meme that I was so angry at this as he pulled this crap right before Grandpa and Debbie come. That is not fair to them or Mark and I. I have told Mark that just one time while they are here and someone ruins it for us all then there will be h*ll to pay. It will most likely end in 2 people moving out very quickly. I will not stand for it and I will not tolerate it at all. I guess time will tell though. Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you over the weekend. I could have but I just chose not to get on my computer. Being on it all week long, I just need the break now. I know you understand. I talk about you and to you all the time and I still post to your facebook page daily. You are always on my mind, Tyler. 

I need to get going now so that I can fold the laundry and then get the pups fed. I also need to make dinner for us as well. I will be back tomorrow afternoon to write to you after my nail appointment. Please watch over us all. Keep us healthy and safe. Have fun while Mom sleeps tonight and come visit me in my dreams if you can. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖