Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you doing tonight? I am doing well but it is soooo cold here. The temp today was 36 degrees. I guess this week is suppose to be really cold.... no higher than 40 degrees. I am so not use to this weather. Send me some sunshine, Tyler :) Thanks pumpkin! 
 Today was a good day. I got to go out and do some shopping. It was so busy as I knew it would be due to the Holiday is approaching us in  few weeks. Look around for gifts for family but didn't see much. I did grocery shopping instead. Guess I am just having a hard time getting into the spirit because you are not here with me. Everyone says the first year is the hardest and boy were they right! I will hang in there though. I won't let you down.
 Spoke to Meme tonight. She told me that she spoke to Aunt Becky this morning. I guess from what I was told you were here with Mom this week. Aunt Becky said that you were standing behind or next to me, kind of on your profile and you had 1 hand on my back and the other hand over my heart. Thank you so much for that. I know that I have asked for you a lot this week due to missing you and all the things going on with Amy. It shows Mom that you really do know where I am and that just warms my heat and makes me smile. Thank you :)
 Didn't hear from Dave today at all. We do know that Amy's Mom is in NH and having to make some tough decisions. The only other thing that we know is that there were no changes in Amy as of yesterday. Doctors are still saying the same things. Please continue to be with her and guide her to what happens next in her journey... whether it is here on this Earth or in Heaven. I pray that things happen the way they are suppose to be. I want her to be happy no matter where that is suppose to be.
 I have one more request for you. I have spoken to you about one of my friend's son, Lucas before. He has had a rough couple of days/ nights and I was hoping and wondering if you could watch over him too. He is a special young man. Another Angel from above. Please watch over his Mom too. Her name is Laura. She needs to stay strong for her precious son and for herself. Thank you so much, Tyler. I wish you were here with Mom and I could turn the hands of time back but because I can't I feel so comfortable and honored to have you as my sweet Angel watching over me. I miss you so and I love you beyond words.
 I walked the dogs earlier and there were no stars because of all the clouds. I did however whisper to you. I hope you heard Mom. I know you are shining bright. I hope to see my star in the sky very soon. 
 Please watch over Mom and all our family & friends. Have a wonderful night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweetheart. How are you doing today? I hope you are well. Today is so cold and rainy. The weather is so crazy here. Never know what your going to get..lol. I hope you like the poem that I posted on here. I know that if you could say those words to all of us you would. I miss you so much and so many others do too. 
 Amy is still hanging on. I know Dave said that her Mom was flying into NH today to go see her daughter at DHMC. I know by the things that Dave told Mark on the phone things are not good. The doctors have said that there was nothing more that they could do for her. There were no signs at all that things were getting any better. It makes me so sad. Hearing all this just makes me go back to what the doctors said to Mom. I know that she is hanging on for her own reasons but I wish she wouldn't make herself suffer anymore. I wish that she would release herself and set herself free. It is bittersweet. Amy will be better off though. No more illnesses and seizures. She will be reunited with her Dad and her daughter from long ago. Please help her when she gets to Heaven. Show her the ropes. Thanks pumpkin.
 I did hear another thing on FB today from one of the nurses at Crotched Mtn. I see that another resident has passed on. I don't know when it happened but Rickie is pain free now. He is no longer confined like you and Ron now. Such sad news but I know that he is better off with you in Heaven. I guess these last few months were hard on him medically. When you see him tell him that I said hello. Now you all can watch movies and play video games together.. just like old times. 
 The clouds are so heavy and thick today so it sucks that I won't see the stars in the sky tonight. I will know that you, my bright star will be shining brightly and watching over us all. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening my precious son. I love you with all my heart and soul. To the moon and back and all away around the world :) I miss you.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

I saw this poem and wanted to print it on here for you. I know if you could you would say this to me , the rest of your family, and your friends. I hope you like it. I love you, Mom

I just wanted you to know 
that even though I'm not there.. 
and I left you not to long ago 
I know that it doesn't seem fair 

I left without warning
even though you may have known
I look down at all my loved ones mourning
and leave white feathers so that my love is shown

I need you to know, that I'm always there
no matter what, no matter where
I'm listening to every word you speak
you are so strong its amazing
Its ok to ask for some guidance, it doesn't mean that you're weak
sometimes you need to cry
and I'll be there, watching you
maybe not exactly where you'd like me to be
just look up, I'm in the sky

I know right now its rough
but its something you'll all get through
I know you want answers,
and I know sometimes you blame yourself
just know that you did everything you could for me,
and I appreciate it with everything I have
which is something I should have showed you
your my rock, my everything
your someone I will forever miss
your amazing, and your doing great
there may be some things in life
you need to start to appreciate
but just know that I love you
and that I'm doing just fine
better than ever, I'm flying up high
don't be sad anymore
because I am happy
right up here in this beautiful blue sky
I got my angel wings
and my brown spikey hair
and all day I get to sit here and stare
at all the ones I love, living life
just know that you will never be alone
I will always be with you
I will continue to make my presence known

I love you all with all my heart
and I know my death didn't seem fair
no matter what, no matter where
for all of you, I will always be there