Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? Mom is driving back home after being in NH for the last 3 days.  Well, today was the day... Grandpa & Debbie got married! Mom will post some pictures of the wedding on your letter tomorrow night. It is 5:37 pm right now & we are just getting on the road to go home. We will get back there around 8 pm tonight. It will have made it a very long but happy day! Our time in NH was wonderful. So nice to see everyone. I miss our family very much! We talked about you a lot today.... did you hear us? Mom is sorry that I did not write to you last night but our cousin, Kathy & Auntie Kristi stopped by the hotel to say hello. They stayed later than expected. It was 10 pm when we said goodbye... lol! It was nice visiting with them as it has been almost 2 years since I have seen Kristi & 5 months since seeing Kathy! Mom stopped by to visit with you & I dropped off the Goofy Pez to you. Hope you have seen it & made you smile! I smiled & talked to you for a bit while I cleaned your bench off. Mom misses you my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
 Unfortunately Mom has to stop writing as it is getting too dark to write. The sun sets now at 6 pm. We will be turning the clocks back in a couple weeks & then it will be dark at 4 pm... ugh! Anyways... have fun tonight while Mom gets some much needed sleep! Come be with me if you can! I promise to write a longer letter tomorrow with all kinds of details for you. Remember you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings! You are my shining star & forever will live inside my heart, mind, body & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler, 
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mark & Mom are in NH right now. The drive here usually is a nice one but today was really anything but that. We ran into a lot of construction & with all the traffic added to that made for a long drive today. Usually it takes about 2 1/2 hours to get here but today was almost 4 hours. Mark wasn't feeling good, the dogs were restless & Mom was pretty tired as I didn't sleep that great last night. To say the least, everyone is relaxing in the hotel right now. In a few minutes Mom will need to feed the pups & our dinner will be arriving l as well. Tonight will be eating dinner, taking a jacuzzi & then watching a little TV & then getting some much needed sleep. Friday will be a busy day with Grandpa & Debbie. We need to be getting the hall decorated, food prepped & anything else that is last minute for the wedding. We all will be up very early in the morning & going to bed really late & then doing it all over again for Saturday. 
 There is really nothing to update you on but there will be in the next few days for sure. Seeing how Mom is not on her computer or her laptop & I am on my cell phone writing to you, I am not able to write you the prayers for the day or an inspirational saying. I am so sorry about that. I will try to think of something for tomorrows letter to you though. Hope that is alright but I am not sure what to do. Mom is hoping that your evening will be all that you need & want it to be. Please be with Mom tonight so I can get some sleep. Thank you so much my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero, the wind beneath my wings & my shining star. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will whisper to you later tonight as I always do. Smile when you hear my voice & I will smile back to you! 
 Mom will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then.....good night & sweet dreams. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! how are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom wants to start off by saying thank you so much for helping me out with getting some much needed sleep last night. I was in bed at 9:30 pm & fast asleep by 10 pm. Mark stayed up & watched some TV & he was telling me this morning that I must have been really tired because I was snoring...lol! Anyways, Mom was so grateful when I woke up that I got the rest that I needed so that I could do all the things I needed to today. Thank you my sweet precious son! If you could help Momma out again tonight that would be super. The next 3 days are going to be crazy busy for us all. We are getting up in the morning & heading to NH for the wedding on Saturday. Can't believe it is 3 days away! Mark & Mom were crazy busy running around today getting all the last minute things done. Mark got his hair cut, Mom got her nails done, & then we got a few odds & ends that were needed. We will pack the SUV later this evening & be ready to head on the road by 10 am tomorrow morning. Please be with us during our trip. I know you always are but I still like to ask. Thank you so much! Tonight will be dinner & a lot of relaxing & then going to bed to get a good night sleep. Mom is not planning on talking on the phone at all tonight either. Didn't talk to anyone last night so I have no updates for you. I have a few things to still do before I get the dinner routine started but Mom wanted to at least write you a quick letter to tell you how much I miss you & that I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are always on my mind...day & night. You are the first one I say good morning to & the last one I say goodnight too. It has been that way now for almost 4 1/2 years. Mom will whisper to you later this evening so be listening for my voice. Lets smile together, k? Mom always wants you to know that you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are my shining star & you live forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul. 
 Mom is hoping that tonight I will get to see a painting in the sky from you. The weather the last 3 days have been close to 90 degrees. Hot, humid, sunny & blue skies. Mom has been enjoying it so much! The next few days are only going to be in the 60's. Big drop in temps but still okay as it is Fall after all! Mom will look tonight to see if I can see any stars & the moon shining bright. Hope so! Gt those brushes ready, Tyler! Thanks pumpkin! Hope that your evening later will be everything that you need & want it to be. May you have the time later to come visit mom while I am sleeping. Have fun wherever you go! I know you go so many places so enjoy it all. Mom needs to get going so that I can finish everything up & relax for the night but before I go I wanted to give you the prayers for the day so here they are:
  May the Lord lead you beside still waters and restore your soul. May time in His presence renew your perspective. May the power of His Word reignite your prayers. May the wonder of His love overwhelm you and make you strong. And may the nearness of His hand remind you that you're never alone, never without help, and always near to His heart. Raise your arms, open your hands, and receive all God has for you this day! He loves you and He's with you! Embrace a thankful heart this day!
  May Jesus help you guard your heart with all diligence. May you instantly discern the source of your thoughts and emotions so you’ll know what to uproot and what to nurture. May you rightly divide truth from lie, life from death, and love from selfishness. May you become a fierce warrior with your shield and sword and refuse to give the enemy even an inch of your land or even a minute of your day. It is FOR freedom that Christ has set you free! May you begin to see fresh life spring up from within your soul as you tend more diligently to the issues of your heart. Have a blessed night.
 Mom will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you but it will probably be a short one as I will not be bring my laptop & will have to write to you using my cell phone but Mom promises to write to you! Until then.... good night & sweet dreams. I love you more than all the stars in the sky!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing pretty good today considering again I did not get a lot of sleep last night. Not sure what is going on with that but I am in need of a good night sleep tonight so if you can help Mom out that would be great. Thank you. Today has been another fun day for Mark & Mom as we got up this morning, got ready, took the pups for a walk & then headed out for a few hours. We went to one of the several stores that Mom loves to shop at. It is about 20 minutes away so that is not too far away. Mom was able to pick up a couple Fall/ Autumn wreaths for the doors. One that goes out to our balcony & the other one that goes to the building. They are really festive & glittery. Mom also got a few other decorations, candle holders, etc... to decorate the balcony with. When the other things come in that I purchase & everything is up & ready Mom will take a picture of it & post it on here. I should be able to do that sometime next week. Mom has not decorated for any holiday other than Christmas since you passed away. I forgot just how much I love it. I got decorations that will go from Halloween to Thanksgiving so I won't have to take them down until I decorate for Christmas time. I guess a little at a time, right? I hope that you are stopping in to see everything from time to time. Mom also got you a Pez dispenser that is Goofy to put down at your resting place. I thought you would get a kick out of it. I remember just how much you liked them. Mark likes them too. I tried the candy as it has been years since I did & nope...not for Mom... way too sweet for me...lol! Mom will bring Goofy to you this weekend when I am there. I hope when you see it, it will make you smile. I know it did for Mom. Tomorrow will be another day that will be busy as Mark is going for a haircut & I am going to get my nails done for the wedding. We have a few other errands as well to do & then it will be coming home, packing the vehicle up as we head out Thursday morning. This week is flying by for sure. In 4 days Grandpa & Debbie will be married. Hope you will be there with us to celebrate their special day. Send Mom a sign to let me know you are there if you can. Thanks my sweet precious son! 
 Last night was quiet here. Mark's brother was suppose to call but never did. The phone never rang at all. We sat up & watched the Cowboys vs Cardinals game. It was a good game but in  the end the Cowboys won 28 - 17. that made both Mom & Mark happy! Your football teams are doing well too. Patriots & Green Bay Packers are winning their games but the Dolphins are struggling a bit. It is early in the season so one never knows what will happen. Mom will keep you posted though. Tonight will be another laid back night. We will probably watch some TV & sit out on the balcony for a bit & then head to bed so that we can get up early. Mom is not expecting to chat with anyone tonight so I probably won't have any updates for you until Thursday evening. Mom will bring her laptop so that I can write to you while I am away. The only day I won't have a chance to is Saturday unless I do it really early in the morning. That will be an early day & then we are driving home that night. We won't get back until late so Mom will not have her computer on at all that day. I will be back to write to you on Sunday though when Mark is at his class. That way I can tell you all about the wedding & how everyone is doing. Just wanted to give you the heads up & all the wonderful folks that continue to follow Mom's letters to you. 
 Mom is hoping that your evening is filled with everything that you need & want it to be. May you have the time to have some fun while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Mom would love that. Thank you. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Please smile when you hear Mom & I will be sure to smile back to you. Please always know that you are in my thoughts & prayers each & every day. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You will always be my hero, my wind beneath my wings, my shining star! I miss you more than words could ever say & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Before I go for the night, here is the prayers for the day. Hope you enjoy them! 
 May the Lord Himself give you a fresh perspective on your life. May you begin to see your troubles--tough as they are--as momentary. In fact, may you wrap your arms around the promise that those very troubles are achieving for you, an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. Jesus is deeply invested in your journey and intends to get you safely home. He goes before you, He has your back, and He puts His hand of blessing upon your head. May He give you a glimpse of glory, a peek into the eternal significance of your life because He is doing a glorious work in and through you! You matter deeply to Him. May your spirit be renewed in His presence today!
  May you step back tonight and give time and space to consider this truth: No circumstance, no enemy, no opposition can keep you from God's best purpose for you! Your unbelief is the only roadblock you have to deal with. God can do in a moment what takes us years to accomplish. Consider afresh what impossible things Jesus wants to do in and through you. Kneel, if you can. Open your hands. Look past your frustrations and consider His promises. Tonight, may Jesus find faith and expectancy in your heart. And may He download fresh insights while you sleep. Jesus bless you!
 Here is a saying for the day as well: : Ships don't sink because of the water around them; ships sink because of the water that gets in them. Don't let what's happening around you get inside you & weigh you down. "
 Mom needs to get going as it is that time of the day for us to get our night routine started. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then good night & sweet dreams. I love you more than all the stars in the sky.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom has been having a good day for the 1st time in many months considering Mom didn't really sleep well last night because Mark was up & couldn't sleep. We did get a few hours sleep & woke up at 8:30 am. Mom got right up, fed the pups, made coffee, got ready, took the pups for a walk & then left to run errands for the day. We got home at 3 pm & now Mark is playing a video game & Mom is writing to you. It really is nice to have Mark on vacation for a couple weeks. We will be doing a few things during the day time to get out & just enjoy the time together & then other days we will really be doing nothing at all. Mark has a few things he has to do & Mom will have to get in some study time while he is occupied. All in all it will be a couple of good weeks. 
 Not much really for updates for you other than I spoke to Meme & Grandpa last night & spoke to my friend, Christina today on the phone. Mom is quite worried about her as she is having surgery in October again. They will be removing 8 to 10 lymph nodes from her neck area & having them biopsied. She is stressed out & rightfully so. Mom will be saying prayers for her. She is a two-time Cancer Survivor. She is sweet. You met her a few times but not sure if you would remember her or not. She has been one of the friends that have been there for Mom through it all. She has been here to visit a few times as well. She is one of the only friends besides Uncle Chris that still checks in on me & has time for me as others are always saying they are really busy, etc.... I had that conversation today with Charlie as a matter of fact. We got into it because it has been 4 months since I have seen or heard from him & Marion & it has been a year since they have been here to visit. He said that they have been extra busy this summer. I called bullsh*t  because if people matter to you in your life then you will make time for them & not excuses. I don't think he liked that at all but Mom was not going to sugar-coat anything & I was just being honest. The way I feel is if someone doesn't want me to answer them with being honest than don't ask me at all. I told him that it really hurt at first but after a month or so I slowly got over it & now I just don't care. That is the truth. I don't think about it at all anymore. Mom goes on day to day. If anyone wants to talk to me than they can call Mom as friendship is a two-way street & not just a one-way. I think my actions are speaking really loudly to that now. I have stuck to my guns & not caved in. I am proud of myself & I am sure that you are proud of Mom as well. Lastly, the days are coming to the point where Mark & I have to make a decision to if we are going to resign our lease here or if we are going to move come the first of the year. We are waiting to hear from the office to what our new lease will say before we make that decision. We love it here but it is getting to the point where it is getting too costly to live in the city. We have been here almost 4 years now. It is the longest place we have lived since leaving NH. we were in Oklahoma for 6 months, Texas for 18 months & now here. It is crazy to think of moving but if that is the best choice for us then that is what we will do. Ever since that issues we had at the beginning of September, Mark & Mom have done so much talking & working on things. We are getting along better & it is more like when we first got together almost 6 years ago! Things happen for reasons. We are both learning from it all. 
 That is all I have for you today but here is a prayer for you:  No matter what you're going through, may you remember that your identity is secure in Christ; it's not up for grabs or changeable with popular opinion. Jesus is sold on the idea of you and loves how He made you! May you trust Him to guide, provide, correct, and redirect you along the way. May you love people, but keep your hope in the Lord. May you see with eyes of faith even when you can't find a reason for hope. Seasons come and seasons go, but God's love for you is abundant, profound, and amazingly real, right here, right now. Walk like you're loved, because you are, beyond your wildest dreams
 Here is a saying for the day as well: Never, ever settle. You may think you aren't gorgeous, smart & have too many insecurities to count, but there is going to be someone in the world who truly loves you for you. Don't ever think that you've got to put up with some boy's/ girls's sh*t because he/ she is the first one in a long time to show some interest. You are beautiful in your own individual way so never lower your standards!
 That saying is so true! Mom wishes that I knew about this when I was growing up. every one has beauty.... just not everyone sees it. Mom never judges a person for their looks, beliefs, actions as I have not walked in their shoes. I treat everyone equal & with the utmost respect. That is how i was brought up & that is how I brought you up. 
 Mom can't believe that this day flew by. It is already 4:45 pm & I need to get dinner going for Mark & I & feed the pups. Mark has a call with his brother in about an hour so I must get going. I will whisper to you later tonight. Smile & Mom will smile back. I hope your evening will be all that you want it to be. Come visit Mom if you can while I sleep tonight. I miss you like crazy & love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... goodnight & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. You are my shining star!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Just a few more days of the " wishes " pictures & then the month of October will be a different Jack picture for you until Halloween. Mom has some cool ones that you will love! My thoughts & prayers still are with all the hurricane victims & their families. Many blessings to them all & to all who read my letters. 

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is doing well. The weather today is in the 80's & it is just beautiful outside. The sun is shining & the skies are blue. Mom is hoping that I get a nice sunset painting from you later this evening! Guess that means you need to get your brushes out for Mom...hint hint! 
 Today has been a very relaxing day for us here. Mom did some housework, cooked a nice brunch for Mark & I & then mark played a game with his brother for a bit while Mom did some online shopping. Mark decided that he was craving pizza for dinner so we have ordered out & that saves Mom time so I don't need to prep anything for dinner & the pups have been fed. All in all it was a nice day. Later I will go out on the balcony & sit for a bit just to enjoy the warm air. Then later will watch some TV & then head to bed. Busy week for us but a fun week. No studying for Mom again & Mark is on vacation! The next couple days will be nice & sunny with cooler temps & then at the end of the week we will be getting some rain but that is ok because we will be in NH & it will be sunny there! 
 Mom spoke to Meme this morning & all is well there. Grandpa will call later this evening when he is out of work. Mom got a chance to speak to Aunt Jacqui this afternoon. It was really nice to touch base with them. Uncle Dick is still not feeling well at all but that goes with the illness that he has. It is just like what Bob has. Mom spoke to them about taking our hotel room for Saturday night as we will not be able to stay there because of Mark's class on Sunday morning. This way they will get a full night sleep & then be rested to make the drive back home in the morning. They were very appreciative of the gesture. I was glad they took us up on the offer & Mom was more than happy to do so for them. They don't have to pay for anything as it is already paid for. It will be great to see them at the wedding on Saturday. It has been 3 years since I have seen them. I love & miss them very much. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world & I miss you beyond words. Did you hear Mom talk about you to Aunt Jacqui? I meant every word that I said if you did hear Mom. Later this evening, Mom will whisper to you again so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will return the smile to you. 
 Here is a prayer for the day for you: Strength For Today: Give me strength for today, Lord, wherever I go. Let no danger daunt me, whatever the foe. Let no task o'ercome me, no trial my heart fret. I would walk with Thee, Lord, in the path Thou hast set. Let no burden o'ercome me, give me strength to bear. Ten I shall have courage, whatever my care. Let no grief o'erwhelm me, wherever I am. Give me strength for today, Lord, strength from Thy hand. Amen.
 Here is a inspirational saying for you today: I am grounded. My Spirit is grounded deep in the Earth. I am calm, strong, centered & peaceful. I am able to let go of fear & trust that I am eternally safe. I am worthy of all things beautiful.
 Mom is hoping that your evening will be filled with fun things while Mom is sleeping tonight. May you have the time & chance to come be with me & visit me in my dreams. Continue to fly high & free in the heavens above. Please watch over us all. Thank you my sweet precious son. You are forever my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my shining star! Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. It is time that I get ready for dinner to arrive. Mom got your favorite pizza. Always thinking of you, Ty! Hope that makes you smile. I know it does Mom. 
 Good night & sweet dreams. I love you more than all the stars in the sky.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is doing okay. Actually I have been really busy all day & I am just getting to prep dinner & it is already 5:20 pm. Mom wanted to at least write to you really quick because I need to get the night routine stuff started so Mark & Mom are not eating at 7 pm tonight. Today the sun came out & there was blue skies. Mom was so happy to see that as we have had 8 days of rain & no sun. The temps were really nice as well. Definitely a Fall day for sure. Mom enjoyed it very much. Mark & Mom went out & ran errands all day long. Usually Mom is doing them during the week but because of the bad weather we have had Mom did not go out anywhere this week. Guess lots of people must have done the same thing as there was so many people on the road. Traffic was really heavy today. It was crazy! That is called " cabin fever " when we have to stay inside so much & not venture outdoors. You, I am sure remember that feeling all too well. We always had " cabin fever " after the winter months. We hated it so much. Winter was the worst for you. It was so difficult to control your body temp & we were pretty limited to what we could do. Mom misses you so much my sweet precious son but I am so happy that you do not have to deal with all those limitations anymore. I am pretty sure that you are always on the go & never slow down at all! Mom wouldn't expect anything less from you! Mom knows you are doing so many wonderful things wherever you are. Mom also knows that you are learning everything you need to know for your next journey. It makes Mom smile in knowing this. Keep it up, Tyler! Mom knows you will do so many great things!
 I am sad to say that Mom still does not have any updates for you at all tonight. The days & nights have been very quiet this week. Lots going on I guess in every ones life. Meme & Bob are doing their own thing, but they are well as I talk to her almost every day. Grandpa & Debbie are getting nervous as their " Big Day " is a week from today! Aunt Beck is pretty busy & so is Bean. Mark is happy that he is on vacation for the next several days as he really needs a break from his job & Mom is doing alright. My shoulder still bothers me but it is better than it was. I will update you on things as soon as I have something new to tell you. 
 Mom is hoping that you evening will be all that you need & want it to be. Please continue to watch over us all as I know you do. Come visit Mom if you have the time tonight while I am sleeping. Thanks pumpkin! I will whisper to you as I always do later this evening when I am headed to bed. Smile when you hear Mom & I will be sure to smile back to you. Before I go, Mom wanted to write you a prayer so here it is:
 Dear Lord, today, please show me the way. Guide me in all that I do & I say. Be in my heart as I make a new start. With you by my side, never to part. Flood me with Light that will make my day bright. In your Mercy & Goodness please steer my course right. Fill me with Your love, Your Spirit, like a dove. My friend, My God, hear my prayers from above. Grace me with faith so that I'll never stray. Dear Lord, today, please show me the way. Amen.
 Here is an inspiration saying for the day: " I am at a place in my life where peace is my priority & negativity cannot exist. "
 Mom will be back tomorrow evening with another letter to you. I need to get going now as the timer just started beeping & I need to finish dinner. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul forever. Until tomorrow.... good night & sweet dreams my bright shining star!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah! 

Last night's sunset in Maine

Last night's sunset in NH

Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! Happy 1st day of Fall. It is the time of year & our favorite season! I sure do miss spending this time with you. It is the time for days that are cooler but the sun is shining warmly on our faces, nights are crisp, sweater weather, apple picking time, for us girls we can wear our cute boots now, hot cider/ hot chocolate time, leaves are turning & falling, times to cuddle in front of a fireplace & watch a movie, go for long longs during the day. There are just so many things to do in the Fall. You & I looked forward to this season every year. We had the opportunity to do so many things as the weather was not hot nor super cold for you. It was just right. We would be outside more. I miss the long walks that we would take especially on a Sunday afternoon. We would just walk & talk. Gosh, Tyler.... I miss our conversations that would would have. You & Mom could talk about everything & anything. We would laugh a lot as well but when needed we would be serious & have those hard talks too. I remember all the times we would go to the tree house at Crotched Mtn. We would spend the afternoon there. It was awesome. Mom has pictures of us there & also pictures of us there with Meme when we took her. Mom cherishes those pictures now. Looking at them & all pictures transports me right back to that day when we were together. They make me smile, laugh, but also some make me sad & cry. I guess that is still the grieving process that will always continue for the rest of my life without you. I just want you to know I think of you all the time. Every hour or more every day. You are there in my heart, mind & soul. You always will be. You were Mom's everything. You were my life & even to this day you still are. I mention your name constantly & Mark is very good about that. He doesn't say anything negative towards me. Most of the time he will smile & say " I am sure " or " I wouldn't doubt it. " You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings my sweet precious son. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Always feel that deep in your soul as well. never not feel it. I truly believe that that is how we stay connected like we do. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you. I miss you like crazy.
 Hope you are doing well on this Friday afternoon. The weather here is still pretty crappy. Day 7 of rain & strong winds & cold....holy smokes.... it is chilly outside. Everyone was posting these gorgeous sunset pictures last night as it was the last night of summer for this year & Mom was like..." Not here... it was cloudy, gray, overcast & day 6 without the sun shining. " The pictures were just unbelievable. I wish I could have seen something like that in person. maybe when this weather clears & the sun finally shines again Mom will be able to get a stunning painting from you. Mom will find the best sunset picture that I can from my friend's posting & put it on here tonight. That way everyone can see the beauty in it. Mom is really hoping that this weekends warms up a bit & the sun finally is shining because all this weather is really hurting my head & my eyes. I don't mind the rain but not all these days right in a row. The wind is just whipping & howling out there. I can hear it over me typing to you. These are days that make it very hard for Mom to do anything as I can't get my sh*t together. Mark is working from home & said that his head is hurting him from this weather too. Not much has been going on with updates. I have spoken to Meme & Grandpa bot last night & today & all is well. Nothing really to report. They were just calling to chit chat with Mom. I will get in touch with them over the weekend just to say hello & then I will be seeing them next week for 3 days! Mark & Mom leave on Wednesday & return on Sunday. It will be nice to get away for a couple day to see everyone. Mom hasn't seen Meme or Bob in 2 months. I really won't be seeing anyone else other than family this time around. Mom is coming to learn that she really doesn't have any friends anymore. I talk to people but the ones that I thought I was really close to just blow me off & have been for a long time now. I was seeing it but just didn't want to admit it as it hurt my feelings. I am now pretty much over it. Yeah it stings at times when I think about it but Mom was tired of being the only one that would try to stay in touch. If I wanted to talk to them I would have to message, text or call first. Not anymore. Just isn't happening. Not putting my energy into that anymore because I always get hurt in the end. Family is what I need & that is what Mom has right now. That is the most important to me....always has. Others will come & go & that is okay....the ones that mean the most to Mom will always stay. Anyways....Mom will take lots of pictures while I am in NH next week. I will share some with you on here as well. 
 Well that is what I have for you today.... here are the prayers for you: May God open the heavens and give you a glimpse of how far you’ve come in this battle. You’re still standing! In Christ, you’re stronger than you know. May you see with eyes of faith the distance you've already traveled! May Jesus speak peace to your soul and strength to your heart. May you understand—on a whole new level—why God has allowed you to endure your storms. He has something for you here…treasures in the darkness that will serve you well in the days ahead. Don’t lose hope. Don’t let go of His promises. Circumstances are changing even now because of your faith. You are part of the conquering army of saints in the world today! 
  May God Himself recover and restore what the enemy has stolen. May He heal family rifts, renew tired relationships, and revive weary faith. May He lift you up and make you strong. May He give you wisdom in boundaries and humility in love. May He show you what's yours and grace you to release what isn't. May you know-beyond a shadow of a doubt that nothing and no one can separate you from God's love. Walk in humble, hopeful faith tonight. And stay in your grace-place. He's got you.
 Here is a saying for the day as well: " A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. "
 Well. Tyler.... it is again that time of day where Mom needs to get going & get things ready for the night routine. Mark will be off the phone soon & work will be done for the day or in his case 2 weeks as he is on vacation. Mom will still have to study some of those days but I will take some time & hit the books when Mark is busy doing something. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then .... Mom will whisper to you later this evening so smile when you here my voice & I will smile back to you. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can & please continue to watch over us all. Thank you. May your evening be everything that you want & need it to be. Continue to soar & fly high. Learn all that you can & want to & have fun. Sweet dreams my shining star. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. Not getting a lot of sleep because of the weather but I am managing the best I can. This morning I was awake early & Mark was off to the office. I was able to accomplish quite a bit while being here alone with the pups. I made breakfast, made the bed, got ready, dusted, vacuumed, cleaned both bathrooms, did laundry, put everything away, took the pups for a nice walk & now I am writing to you! The weather today is not all that bad compared to the last 2 days. The rain has stopped & the sky is not as dark as it has been but the wind is just nasty. We have been in a wind advisory for the last 2 days & will be in it for the next 2 days as well. The winds are 40 mph with gusts up to 50 mph. The trees are just bending & it is pretty rugged out there. Mom is not going to complain at all though because of all the tragedies that are taking place still in Puerto Rico & the Islands. Nothing is as bad as what they have been dealing with the last couple weeks & then to get hit again with another hurricane. Mom saw on the news that many have lost their lives & their towns/cities have been completed destroyed. My heart goes out to them & I am still praying for everyone there. Last night one of Mom's favorite shows came back on after being off the air for 2 years. It is called The Little Couple. Jen & Bill Klein lived in Houston, Texas about 10 minutes from where Mom & Mark lived when we were there. She worked at Texas Children's Hospital that was located in Katy, TX. Anyways... on their premiere of the show Bill went back to Houston ( they now live in Florida ) to help with the aftermath of Hurricane Harvey & watching it made Mom cry. It was awful to see all the destruction that happened & how many families lost everything & have to rebuild. So many animals were displaced from their families as well. I cried so many tears. Mom heard from a friend that lived in the same complex as we did that most of it was destroyed as well. It was a part that got hit really hard. Mom cried because she has lost touch with everyone that we knew & I was thinking about Ms. Betty, Ms. Shirley, Ms. Mary Louise, Sienna, Harmonie, Jayden & their Mom. Mom is hoping that everyone is okay & they are safe. I pray for them daily as well. So much " natural disasters " are happening. I don't know why but I really wish it would stop. Too many deaths of people & animals as well. It hurts my heart, Tyler. I wish there was something I could do but I can't. All I can do is pray for them all & that is what I have been doing & what I still plan to continue to do. Mom just wanted to let anyone know that reads my letters to you that if they have friends & family that were affected by any or all of these hurricanes that they are all in my thoughts & prayers & I am thinking of them all. Many blessings to everyone.
 Not much is really new at all, pumpkin. Mom doesn't have many updates for you. I am so sorry but things have been quite quiet these last several days. Mom did get to touch base with Aunt Beck. Her & John are back from vacation & are doing well. Getting everything all set for the Fall/Winter months ahead & finishing harvesting from their gardens. Bean is well too. I always ask about her when we chat. Meme & Bob are doing the best they can right now as well. Grandpa & Debbie are getting nervous.... 9 days & their big day is here! Everything is going smoothly though which is great. Mom hopefully will have some updates for you in a couple days to come. Mark is working tomorrow & then he is on vacation for 14 days! That will be nice as he needs this time to just relax. We have nothing planned so it will be a go with the flow kind of vacation for us! I am sure there will be an adventure or 2 waiting for us! That is all I have for you today but here are the daily prayers:
 May peace flow like a river through the very depths of your being. May joy rise within you like the morning sun. May strength awaken your heart and sturdy your steps. And may faith swallow up your every fear. God is with you at the break of day. He will not fail you. Though darkness and fear and weakness threaten to overtake you, they will not, they cannot, because you belong to Jesus. He is your stronghold, your high tower, your deliverer, and your defender. He heals, reveals, corrects, and redirects. He’s your very good shepherd and will lead you safely through the storm. Trust Him with your whole heart today.

“But for you who fear my name, the Sun of Righteousness will rise with healing in his wings.[b] And you will go free, leaping with joy like calves let out to pasture (Malachi 4:2 NIV).

 May you begin to live more by faith than you do by sight. May you trust-with your whole heart-that God has already gone ahead of you, cleared the way, established grace, and answered prayers before you even fully understood just what you'd needed. Jesus is profoundly invested in your journey. He merely spoke, and the heavens came to be. He speaks now on your behalf because He loves you and is invested in you. Don't look around for signs. Look up and rejoice because He's got you. Live by faith in this moment, because one day, your faith will become sight and you'll be glad you trusted Him. Have a sturdy-hearted evening. You're mighty in God!

 Here is a saying for the day as well: " Never be ashamed of a scar. It simply means you were stronger than whatever tried to hurt you. "

 It is that time of the day where Mom needs to get going & start doing the night routine. Mom has a bit of prep work to do for dinner tonight & it is 3: 45 pm. We will be eating by 6:30 pm at the rate that I am going...lol! Mom is hoping that you have a peaceful night with doing all that you want & need to accomplish up there in the heavens above & here in the physical world. I hope you have the time to come visit Mom in my dreams. Thank you for watching over us all during this weather & every other day as well. Mom appreciates it so much my sweet precious son. I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul forever. Please never not feel that deep in your soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Listen for my voice tonight when I whisper to you. Smile & Mom will smile back to you. Until tomorrow night.... Good night & sweet dreams my shining star! All my love to you....

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!