Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! Happy Halloween to you in the Heavens above! Today is one of your favorite days of the year. I hope that you will be looking down & watching all the kiddos going out trick or treating tonight. Mom can hear your voice in my head. I miss your voice. I miss you my sweet precious son. Mom is wearing orange today just for you. When I got it out of my closet this morning Mom whispered to you...did you hear me? I hope so. Mom smile & said " this is for you. " Today, the weather is sunny & a bit chilly out. It was nice when I took the pups out for a walk earlier. Mom was looking at all the damage that was done due to the storm Sunday & Monday night. There is a big ole pine tree that came right out of the ground...roots & all. Mom will try to take some pics of it tomorrow if it is still there. It was sad to see. I guess there are several big trees that fell along with many shutters, lights & windows that were broken. NH still has over 300,000 customers without power & no signs of when it will return. Mom is praying for them. I hope that their power will return & soon. 
 Mom has not done all that much today. I got a little bit of sleep last night & woke up early this morning. Mark fed the pups for me before he left for the office this morning. Mom got up, made breakfast, did laundry, got ready. For the most part that is all I have done. Mark will be gone all day & into the evening tomorrow so Mom will do some cleaning in the morning & then I will be finishing my exam that I did yesterday & submitting it & starting on the next chapter of my course. Tomorrow should be a very productive day for Mom. 
 Meme called on her break today & we chatted for a few minutes. She said she was running late so she would touch base with me later tonight. I spoke to Grandpa briefly yesterday & told him I would chat with him tonight after trick or treating was done for him. He did say that all was well on their end. They didn't lose power at all during the storm which was great seeings how some of there neighbors on the hill lost power right off & are among the ones waiting to be restored. Meme said they lost power for a couple of hours yesterday morning around 3 am but it was back on quickly. Mom will have more updates for you on tomorrows letter for sure. I will also try to get in touch with Aunt Beck as well. That is all Mom has for you today. Here are your daily prayers though:
  May God bring fresh hope to your heart today! May He make a way where there's been no way. May He give you wisdom and peace for your next steps. May He protect you where you're vulnerable and establish you in your calling. May you dare to steward your time, treasures, and talents today so you’re ready for what God has for you tomorrow. Blessings on your day today.

To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance. But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away (Matthew 25:29 NLT).

 May you refuse to let your emotions dictate your perspective. You have Jesus. You have His presence. And you have His promises! When what your eyes see is different than what your heart deeply desires, look up and pray. He invites you to walk with Him, talk with Him, and involve Him in every detail of your life. If you're in the 'not-yet' season, take time to worship God because He's God; take time to thank Him too, because He's been good. And dare to ask for the impossible, because He's a wonder-working God. Your story is not over yet. Have a heart-at-rest kind of night. God bless you!

And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns (Philippians 1:6 NLT).

 here is a saying for the day as well: In ordinary life we hardly realize that we receive a great deal more than we give & that it is only with gratitude that life becomes rich.

 Well, Tyler it is going on 4:30 pm & you know what time that is.... time for Mom to get off the computer & feed the pups & also get dinner going for Mark & I. Mom is keeping up with the tradition of having pizza on Halloween night. Remember that was always what we did? It was quick so that Mom didn't have dishes to do & we could get out faster to take you trick or treating. I think that is the only tradition that Mom has kept up with since you passed. I will be lighting a candle tonight as I have been doing now for a couple months now. I will whisper to you as I always do & right before I go to bed tonight. Be listening for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile back to you. I hope that your evening will be filled with fun tonight. Make sure you don't do too much tricking....lol! If you get the chance, come visit Mom in my dreams tonight or stop in too sit by me while I am sleeping. Thanks Tyler! I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my hero, my shining star & the wind beneath my wings. You are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams.

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Mom has lots of pictures to put on here tonight including ones of Princess & Ozzy in their costumes. Enjoy them all & hope they make you smile. 

 Hope I get to see the moon again tonight like I did last night. I smiled & whispered to you! Again.... Happy Halloween Tyler! Mom loves you more than anything in this world....ALWAYS!!!!!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Happy All Hallow's Eve to you! I can't believe that tomorrow is Halloween & even more so, Mom can't believe this is my 5th one without you. I sure do miss doing all the decorations in our house for you, carving pumpkins & cooking the pumpkin seeds for us to eat. I miss getting dressed up & getting you dressed up & taking you out trick or treating when you were younger & then handing out candy to other kids as you got older. Gosh... I just miss it all. Halloween is a fun time of the year but it really is a tough one for Mom. I love it but it pulls at my heart strings because you are not here anymore. Mom hasn't decorated for this holiday in 5 years now. I did some decorating in our apartment this year but it is a Fall/ Autumn theme.... decorations that can go through Halloween & into Thanksgiving. I did however put a large pumpkin & Zero outside our door going into the hallway so that when others come up the stairs they will see it & think it is cute. Simple but it gets the point across! Mom sure will be thinking of you a lot tomorrow all day & evening. We don't get trick or treaters where we live. It is a complex that does not have hardly any children. Mom misses that part as well. Seeing all the other children dressed up in their costumes but I am sure it is for the best that I do miss out on it. That day is tough enough!
 Last night Mom was sick all the way until 10 pm. I was so tired & just wanted to crawl into bed but the rain & wind was horrible that it scared the pups & Ozzy went under the bed. Mom knew she was in for a very long night. Ozzy finally got settled some time after midnight & then Mom laid down & could not sleep. The wind was just howling & so loud. The trees were smacking up against the side of the building which happens to be our bedroom. Mark slept through the whole dang thing. Mom fell asleep around 3 am & was up at 8 am. Not a lot of sleep so that means tonight will be a very early night for me. I am hoping to get some much needed sleep tonight. The wind today has still been high. We are still in a warning until 7 pm tonight I guess. The sun tried to come out but it was pretty cloudy for the most part. This Sunday we turn the clocks back. We gain that hour of sleep back but it gets dark at 4 pm. Short days & long nights. Not looking forward to that for 3 months. Mom didn't do much today at all.... I got ready, made the bed, did a little house cleaning & then made myself breakfast. After that I came right into my office & I did indeed do as I said I would... I did the rest of my exam & I will submit it tomorrow. Mom does not have a lot of confidence in this one but I am just hoping to get a passing grade. I must move forward & charge ahead! After I finished that up, I started writing to you! Mom will finish this letter up to you & then I will be getting our night routine ready with feeding the pups & getting dinner going for Mark & I. It is already 3:50 pm. Today really has flown by. Mom will try to touch base with Meme & Grandpa but I am not sure if either of them have power or not. I have seen pictures & have read that Charlestown & Claremont really got hit with that storm & knocked a lot of places power out. Where we used to live had none, up where Grandpa lives didn't have any either & Unity & other small towns are in really bad shape... they are without power & the electric company said it would be a couple days to restore it. Newport, where Meme travels to work is completely flooded out & roads are closed. There was no school for some & several delays for others. Tress, branches etc... were in roads & block many roads as well. They are not used to any of that so when something like that hits up there...people really freak out. I just want to touch base to make sure everyone is okay. I will try to touch base with Aunt Beck tomorrow as well or in the middle of the week. Mom should have more updates as the week goes on. 
 Here is the daily prayer for the day: May God bring fresh hope to your heart today! May He make a way where there's been no way. May He give you wisdom and peace for your next steps. May He protect you where you're vulnerable and establish you in your calling. May you dare to steward your time, treasures, and talents today so you’re ready for what God has for you tomorrow. Blessings on your day today.
To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance. But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away (Matthew 25:29 NLT). 
 Here are the sayings for the day: Let them judge you. Let them misunderstand you. Let them gossip about you. Their opinions aren't your problems. You stay kind, committed to love & free in your authenticity. No matter what they do or say, don't you doubt your worth or the beauty of your truth. Just keep shining like you always do!
 You are no longer under no obligation to be the same person you were a year, a month or even 15 minutes ago. You have the right to grow. No apologies!
 well, Tyler... that is all Mom has for you today. I will whisper to you as I always do when I light the candle & later when I go to bed. Mom is hoping that your evening is filled with peace, love & anything & everything else you need & want it to be. I hope you have some fun tonight while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams & check in on me while I sleep. Thank you so much my sweet precious son. Mom wants you to always remember that you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are my shining star & you will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you like crazy & I love you more than anything. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. I will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday late afternoon? Mom is doing the best I can today. My fingers don't hurt at all which is great but my tummy is really giving me grief. I have been up since early this morning. I have done quite a few things today that I wanted to get accomplished but it has been in between running to the bathroom. Guess between yesterday & this morning whatever Mom ate has not been agreeing with her at all. Glad we decided to stay home today & not go anywhere! 
 The weather here today has been really chilly. The rain will be coming shortly if it hasn't started already. I guess tonight & all day tomorrow & tomorrow night is going to be really nasty with a rain storm & high winds. Guess they are saying that the winds will be anywhere from 25-40 mph. We definitely have had worse storms than that but still Mom is asking you to please watch over us during the next couple days. I have prayed & whispered to you, God & the Angels to please protect Mark, the pups & I plus our family. I have asked that we are all safe & that we don't lose power due to the storm. NH/VT is going to be getting it worse than us so if you can please be with Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Aunt Beck & John as well. Thank you my sweet precious son! 
 Mom spoke to Meme today & she seems pretty concerned with the weather but her & Bob are doing well. Grandpa called last night but Mom was really not in the mood to talk at all with my headache so I didn't answer the phone. I felt bad & guilty but I will chat with him in a little while & will explain it to him. Mom was reading that all of Washington Street is without power & Walmart sent everyone home & closed the store. That never happens as you know. That is big news for that small town. I wonder if Grandpa got sent home as he was working. Guess I will find out later. Mom will touch base with everyone tomorrow & during the week. Starting Monday ( tomorrow ) Mom is going back to her strict routine of studying every day & getting this class done. I have procrastinated long enough. I need to do this so that I can move forward. Wish me luck because I am going to need it badly! 
 Today, Mom did a lot of things. I was able to make a nice brunch for Mark & I. I prepped dinner for us early by making homemade shepard's pie. After all that was done, I did all the dishes & cleaned up & then I came into my office & I did some shopping online for Christmas...yes you read that right...Christmas...lol! I was pretty proud of myself as I did quite a bit. Mark & Mom only have to order the gift for Grandpa & we are done with the family. Mom ordered about 8 things for Mark as well! I said to Mark... it is not even Halloween & we are almost finished with our shopping. I have a few small things let to get but not much at all & I can do that all on line too! Just need to get the things to wrap the gifts & that is it! Now Mom will need to feed the pups & cook our dinner & settle in with a comfy blanket & watch some football. Cowboys are playing right now! They are winning but the game is super early...lol! 
 Here are a couple prayers for you for the day: On my bad days I seek you, on my good days I thank you, on my great days I praise you, but every day I need you. Thank you God for always being here for me. Amen.
 God gave you shoes to fit you. So just put them on & wear them. Be yourself. Be proud of who you are, don't ever let anyone tell you. you are not beautiful. Amen.
 Here are a couple of Mom's favorite sayings for the day: Life is like a camera.... you focus on what's important. Capture the good times. Develop from the negative & if things don't work out...take another shot!
 No one is better than you, no one is anything less than you, no one is equal to you. Everyone is unique & everyone has his own story in which they are the Hero!
 That is what I have for you tonight for your letter, Tyler. Mom needs to get off the computer for tonight & get things going. I hope that your evening will be everything that you need & want it to be. May you have the time to come be with Mom or visit me in my dreams. I will whisper to you when I light the candles tonight & later when Mom goes to bed. Have fun while I sleep. Continue to fly high & free in the Heavens above. Remember forever you are inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you more than words can ever say & I love you with every beat of my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter but if for some reason I don't write one it is because the storm was that bad & we lost power. I don't think that will happen but I just wanted to let you know just incase. Until our Mom's next letter... good night & sweet dreams. I love you...my shining star!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah! 

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is doing okay. Before I star to write this letter to you I just wanted you to know that it will not be very long tonight due to the fact that my fingers are really sore today. Earlier, Mom went & had her nails done & it is very unusual that my fingers get sore & hurt but they do tonight. I know that while my nail tech was filing my nails she cut me several times under the nail & the fingers I use to type with are extremely sore as well. Mom will be better by tomorrow night for sure. It usually just lasts for a day. On a good note the left pinkie that I ripped the nail off & had it bandaged up for 2 days is doing better. It hurt when she was doing that one too but Mom was a trooper! Other than that the day has been filled with running errands & grocery shopping. Mark & Mom got home around 4 pm. I put everything away, fed the pups & had dinner ourselves. Mom was impressed as it is 5:45 pm & our night routine stuff is finished! Mark is playing a computer game with his brother right now while Mom writes to you & pays some bills after. The rest of the night will be relaxing & watching some TV. Sunday we will not be going anywhere as the weather is going to be pretty bad again. We are in a high wind warning plus a high flood watch from now until Monday morning. The winds are suppose to be up to 50 mph in our area. Please watch over us & keep us safe, Tyler. Thank you so much! 
 Mom has been gone all day long so I have not had the chance to chat with anyone yet. If I don't do it today then I will be sure to catch up with everyone tomorrow. Grandpa did call last night. We got to chat for about 30 minutes or so. Things are good. Debbie is doing okay but her leg & foot are really bothering her. She is still working though. She is a tough nut for sure! Mom will fill you in on everything on tomorrows letter for sure. 
 The prayers that I have for you today is one of Meme's favorite. Here it is:
 God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen.
 Mom really does not have a saying picked out for you today & I am sorry for that. I am pretty unprepared & that is not like me so I ask for your forgiveness. Mom will be sure to write an extra one tomorrow night though. I hope that your evening will be filled with everything you need & want it to be. May you have the chance to come be with Mom tonight. Hope to see you in my dreams my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. I miss you like crazy. You are forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will whisper to you again this evening when I go to bed but I sure hope you heard Mom when I was lighting the candles tonight. I whispered to you like I do each & every night. Hope you smile & Mom will smile back to you. Mom is going to get going for now as my fingers are really hurting & I am just not feeling the greatest. I will be back tomorrow night so until then..... Good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing much better than I was yesterday. I went to bed at 10 pm last night & woke up only once during the night & slept until 7:45 am. I never heard Mark get out of bed to feed the pups or nothing. I was so out of it! Mom basically made dinner for myself last night & then watched a couple of my shows that I had on DVR & that was it. I couldn't keep my eyes open for a minute more. Mom was done...lol! This morning I woke up feeling pretty well rested. I did a few things around the apartment for cleaning... dusting, vacuuming, another load of laundry, got ready, took the pups for a walk, got the mail & boxes from the main office, put all that stuff away & now I am writing to you. mark's friend Rick came over for a couple hours to visit & just left about 30 minutes ago. It was nice seeing him as it has been about 3 months since the last time he was here. Now Mom is writing to you & listening to a phone call that Mark is on. By the sounds of it..... it doesn't sound well. Mark was telling Mom earlier that he got an email asking him to work the weekend. I couldn't believe it. He has been gone for almost 2 weeks straight. He needs a break. I feel so bad for him. mom is just hoping that they do not call him in this weekend like they did once before. That will make him very upset & Mom as well. Guess time will tell on that one. Anything that you might be able to do on your side would be greatly appreciated. Thank you my sweet precious son! 
 Not much for updates for you I am afraid..... Mom will try to have some for you during the weekend! Meme called briefly to say hello & that she would call over the weekend. She was saying she didn't really feel all that great today. Debbie did not feel good last night. Something must be going around up there. 'Tis the season to start having stomach bugs, colds, etc.... Mom was told today that in Claremont, NH a dead body was found in a car. Guess it was on Hewitt Rd. No names were given as of yet. That was very sad to hear. Friends of mine were saying that in Arkansas & Minnesota it is freezing rain & snowing today....yikes! That is way too early for Mom. Today here it is sunny & cool but very nice with blue skies! It is nice to see the sun for a change since it has been raining for the last 4 days straight. Mom can't believe that Tuesday is Halloween. This month flew by for sure. I hope that you like all the Jack pictures that I have posted for you throughout October. Mom has some Thanksgiving & Autumn pictures for you for the month of November & Christmas ones for the month of December. I am going to try & do this monthly for the next year on here. I will find something that is affiliated with the month & go with that. Probably for the month of January it will be pictures of the winter snow & February will be about love, Valentines Day & so forth for the rest of the months. I will still do daily prayers & a saying as well. Mom won't stop that. Hope you continue to like what I do on here. I hope that the folks that read my letters to you continue to find my writing, prayers, sayings & pictures helpful to their own individual grieving or needs that they may have. I hope that Mom can give hope to others that may need it. That is my goal for this blog, for my letters to you.... to continue to heal & inspire others as well along the way. I know that Mom will never know who reads these & where they are located as I don't get the details on that but I do wish everyone many blessings & I thank everyone for their continued support. 
 Here are the prayers for the day: May you step back from the things that frustrate you and consider what God might be saying to you here. Is He asking you to lay down your arms and entrust your soul to Him? Or is He asking you to raise your shield and stand in faith? Either way, you're not at the mercy of your circumstances, you have His mercy and He'll keep you steady and sturdy in your faith. Don't take the bait of offense. Look up and do what Jesus tells you to do! You will overcome! Blessings on your night tonight!

I listen carefully to what God the Lord is saying, for he speaks peace to his faithful people. But let them not return to their foolish ways (Psalm 85:8 NLT).

May you become an expert at caring for your soul. May you know when to tuck yourself under the shadow of God's wing and when to run to the battle line, knowing He'll fight for you. May you know when to rest and know when to work. May you refuse to worry and embrace faith. May you become tenacious when it comes to the promises of God and tender when you think about His love for you. Stay in tune with God and you’ll stay in step with Him. Have a great, great weekend.

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing (Psalm 23:1 NIV).

 Here are your sayings for the day:

 Listen to the wind. It talks. Listen to the silence. It speaks. Listen to your heart. It knows.

 What you think, you become. What you feel, you attract. What you imagine, you create.

 Believe in yourself. Know that there is something inside you that is greater than any obstacle.

 Mom needs to get going for now, Tyler. It is already 4:30 pm & Mom needs to start with prepping dinner for Mark & I plus I need to feed the pups. I lit a candle already & whispered to you so I hope you heard Mom. I will whisper to you again later this evening so smile when you hear me & I will smile right back to you. I love you with all my heart & soul. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero, my wind beneath my wings & my bright shining star. I miss you like crazy & beyond any thing that I could ever explain. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul forever. Mom hopes that your night is filled with all the wonderful things that you would like to do & things that you need to do. If you can, come be with Mom through the night or visit me in my dreams. Thank you, Tyler! Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....good night & sweet dreams!

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am very tired but I am not going to complain as Mom knows that Mark is even more tired than I am.... he has to be. Well, we left Williamstown last night at 6:15 pm. Mark didn't get to the Inn until 6 pm & he decided that driving home was going to be the best solution to our problem as today, Thursday was checkout & that was at 11 am. Mark was suppose to be at his client for just a half day but after yesterday it looked like it would be another full day there again...Mark is basically there until the dang things work so he does not have to go back again. There would be no place for Mom & the pups to go while he was working so we really had no choice but to leave. During our travels last night we got caught in some pretty heavy rainfall. At times it was so bad that neither Mark or Mom could see the road at all. It was scary but Mark did a fantastic job driving. Mom was whispering & praying to you the whole way home. I know you heard me. thank you for watching over us during that drive. It meant so much to me. We got home around 9:30 pm. Mom called Meme & Grandpa just to let them know we were back & why. I will call them later on to chat with them. Mom put all the stuff away & then basically had some water to drink & headed straight for bed. Mark needed to get up at 4 am so he could make the drive back to Williamstown & be there for 9 am. I felt so bad for him. Mom was up at that time too... if he had to be then it was only fair that I was as well. I made coffee & gathered some snacks so that he could eat during the drive. Mom did not go back to sleep. I laid in bed & looked through emails, pinterest & played a couple games until 8 am. Then I got up, gave the pups a bath, made breakfast for myself & then got ready. After that I started to do laundry. That has been my nightmare today. I don't know what got into the laundry but something did ( like a tissue ) & it got all over the clothes. I am having a hard time getting it out of it. I have done 4 cycles of laundry & it still is not working. If it doesn't come out this next time I will have no other option than to throw the stuff away & Mom will be very upset about that. ( Well, mom had to take a quick pause because the laundry was finished & to my surprise all the stuff came off Marks things but not Mom's. I am drying some of them to see if that helps but one of my favorite shirts I think is toast because I can not dry it.... we will see. ) Tomorrow Mom will be doing dusting & vacuum cleaning so that I do not have to do anything over the weekend. I had to cancel a nail appointment yesterday & I rescheduled it for Saturday morning. It is a good thing too... yesterday I broke 2 nails & this afternoon while doing laundry Mom snapped a nail right off.... It was bleeding & everything. I have a couple bandaids on it right now. It is so sore & throbbing. Good thing I have a couple of days to toughen that one up before I go to the salon. Yikes... that is going to hurt but Mom will be just fine! 
 Mom needs to ask another favor of you, Tyler.... Mark has been on the road since early this morning & as you know he is still very very tired....he has been at the college since 9 am & is working his butt off to get things done. As of yesterday we were not sure if he would have to spend the night again tonight & work there on Friday or if he would be driving home after dark this evening. Mom still doesn't know because mark has not called me to tell me. This morning when he left he did not pack an overnight bag but that still really doesn't mean anything at all. Please be with him while he is there & especially if he is driving back tonight. I want him to be safe. It will be raining so that will make his eyes more tired than normal. I just want Mark home safe & sound this evening. Thank you my sweet precious son. Please watch over Mom & the pups as well. Thank you!
 Nothing new to update you on at all. I think I just gave you everything that I know of. I will start to touch base with everyone later this evening or tomorrow. Mom needs to just get some sleep tonight so that I am well rested & ready to start the day in the morning. Our whole routine is off but things will get back to normal in a couple of days. Mom will fill you in when I have anything to share! Here are the daily prayers for the day:
 May you open your hands and entrust your cares to God. Right this minute. Know this: Jesus knows your name, has your address and loves who you are. He will get you where you need to go. He will reach out to the ones you love. He will validate and vindicate you at the proper time. May you see and believe that you're safest when you're at His feet, trusting Him to do what you cannot do for yourself. May your soul find rest in Him today.

Truly my soul finds rest in God; my salvation comes from him (Psalm 62:1 NIV).

 May God give you glimpses of the new beginnings He has for you. May you stay in step with Him and trust Him in the meantime. May God give you joyful contentment in the place He has you now. May you faithfully steward your current assignment, as you wait for God to move you. May you see the treasure of trusting the timing of your dreams to God. He is with you and He cannot, will not, fail you. Sing for joy tonight and trust Him fully with your tomorrows.

Verse: You go before me and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to understand (Psalm 139:5-6 NLT)!

 Mom really doesn't have a saying prepared for today. I am so sorry but I will make it up to you tomorrow by writing a couple of them. My eyes are very tired right now & it is so hard to try to sty awake. I am probably going to get off the computer so that I can just sit on the couch & relax & watch some TV with the pups on my lap. Maybe just relaxing will help Mom out. I hope that your evening will be everything that you need & want it to be. Come be with Mom tonight & visit me on my dreams if you can. I would love that. I know there won't be any stars in the sky shining bright or the moon as it is still raining here & has been all day long. I will light a candle in a bit & whisper to you then & later tonight as well. Smile when you hear Mom. I will smile back to you! 

 I miss you so much, Tyler. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then..... good night & sweet dreams my shining star!

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is feeling about the same as I was yesterday....miserable but I think it is actually worse today because I am so dang tired. Mom probably got about 4 hours of sleep last night & I was up at 6:45 am this morning. This little adventure that Mark & I are on here is not at all what we both thought it would be. I feel really bad for Mark because he is getting crap on both ends.... from his job & from me feeling the way that I do. Mom isn't saying a word but I guess I don't really have to say anything. The pups are giving me such a hard time as well which does not help matters at all. Mark left this morning at 8:45 am & said he would be back here for lunch but never made it. He called & said he would stop by the Inn & say hello but that was all he could do because to get food anywhere here it takes about 20 minutes to get to it & he did not have that kind of time. I told him to just forget it as I did not want to have the pups disturbed as I was having a hard enough time as it was. I guess he will be able to leave tonight at 5 pm or so..... who knows as the guys he is working with just makes things up as they go. Mom has never seen such a disorganized group as this before. They told Mark that he was traveling here on Tuesday, working in the afternoon until 5 pm, Wednesday from 9 am - 5 pm & then Thursday would be traveling back with just working a half day. I guess that is now not the case & Mark will be working a full day again. This is messed up because this means that now Mark & Mom have to travel back tonight & Mark will have to travel back here tomorrow & when they say he can leave he has to travel back home again. You might be asking why & that answer is that they have him scheduled to check out on Thursday & that is by 11 am. If the guys are not going to let him leave at that time then we would have to pay for another night when we are only going to be staying for about 5 extra hours. This whole thing is a mess & Mom really feels so bad. I want to say something but I don't dare to because I don't want to make matters worse. All that Mom knows is that is is a complete disaster & never again will I do this to Mark. All the other times I have accompanied him like this, it has always worked out so well. Yes I am alone a lot of the time but things go really smooth. Guess there is a first time for everything....Please Tyler if there is anything that you can do to help this situation that we are in...work your magic for Mom. We both need your help badly! Thank you.
 Not much for an update for you at all. The night was pretty hectic like the whole day was. Mark got in at 5:30 pm, the weather was horrible as it was raining so heavy you couldn't even see in front of you at all. We went to grab dinner & Mark could hardly see driving so instead of telling Mom that he just complained the whole time. The pups were not wanting to go out in the rain & were giving Mom such a tough time as well. We got back to the hotel about an hour later, our food was cold & neither Mark or Mom really ate anything. We decided to watch TV for a little bit before going to bed. Mark got more sleep than Mom but not by much. I don't know what in this room is making me itch but it is really getting to me. I was itching all night & couldn't sleep & Mom is still itching today. That is not cool. I did speak to Meme & Grandpa for a short bit last night just letting them know that we arrived safely here. I didn't talk long at all because I was just in such a crappy mood. I think that they knew that in my voice though. Mom will contact them when we return home & chat with them longer. Mom will also touch base with Aunt Beck & the rest of the family as well. I will update you on things as I get them. 
 Here are the daily prayers for the day:
  May you--above all else--see yourself as someone Jesus loves. May His affection for you heal you in the deepest ways and inspire you like nothing else ever has. May His saving grace and enabling power compel you to dream with Him, believe in Him, and take crazy-faith-steps because of Him. May every lesser voice and every lying circumstance fall by the wayside so that all you hear is His voice in your ear saying, 'This is the way, walk in it.' Nobody's opinion matters as much as God's. Nobody can save, heal, redeem, and refresh like Jesus. Walk intimately with Him today. His will for you is your best-case-scenario.

Verse: Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us (Ephesians 3:20 NIV).

 May you be mindful to pause regularly and reflect on the many ways God has come through for you. This will strengthen your heart. And, may you cultivate a heart that knows how to rest in God alone. This will nourish your soul. As you look to Jesus and remember His faithfulness, your whole countenance will change, and others will be reminded that there's a God in heaven very much involved in their own lives. He intends to get us safely home. But don't wait 'till then to find rest in Him. Embrace a heart-at-rest kind of night.

 Here are a couple sayings for the day as well: " It's important to remember that  we all have magic inside us. "

 " The more you know who you are & what you want, the less you let things upset you. "

 " Behind you are memories. Before you, all your dreams. Around you, all who love you. Within you, all you need. "

Mom is hoping that your evening tonight will be all that you need & want it to be. May you get the chance to come be with Mom tonight or visit me in my dreams as I try & get some sleep. I will whisper to you as I always do each & every night so be listening for my voice & smile when you hear Mom. I will smile as well. Please continue to watch over us all like I know you do. Please be with Mark & Mom tonight when we travel home tonight as it will be late & please be with Mark all day tomorrow as he drives back here & then home again tomorrow night. Thank you so much my sweet precious son. It means so much to Mom to have you with us & protecting us like you do. 

 Mom won't see anything again shining in the sky as it is overcast & cloudy today & tonight we will be driving right into heavy rain as we make our way back home. I know you will be doing so many wonderful things & you will be shining for someone who needs it. Knowing this makes Mom so happy & proud. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You live forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You 

have been & always will be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you beyond words & I know you can feel that deep inside your soul. Mom will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams later. 

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is miserable to be honest with you. Mark had to go away again for work & he asked Mom if I wanted to go with him this time. He tried prepping me for what the hotel would be like but Mom thought it couldn't be that bad..... oh boy was I so wrong! Mark was completely right. He was not joking. The drive in itself was so long & horrible. It took us almost 4 hours to get here, the weather is terrible so that did not make it any better. It is raining & super windy here. The pups even hate it where we are. They won't clam down or just lay down & relax. Mom tried to study a little bit ago but just gave up as it got dark really fast & the lighting in here is not good at all. The room that we are in is supposed to be on the side where it has been upgraded & Mom can't believe that for a minute. OMG...... it is so nasty. The rugs look like they were just washed & they weren't. Mom won't even take her shoes off at all. There is some kind of an odor...either mold or mildew. Not sure which though. The bed is all lumpy & gross. Mom is seriously thinking of sleeping in my car tonight instead of in here. My skin is all itchy & I just feel dirty & gross. Mark tried to tell Mom that I would be miserable & boy was he right. Next time, if there is a next time, Mom will be more than happy to stay home & be alone then come for this ride & feel the way I do. It is only 4 pm & it feels like it is 10 pm. Mark is working until 7 pm tonight so Mom has to wait 3 more hours until he gets here so that we can go looking for a place to get some food. This room doesn't even have a refrigerator or a microwave.... nothing. We had to bring our own water, ginger ale & snacks. This is just crazy.... Please, Tyler be with Mom & help her get through these next 3 days here. I need you my sweet precious son. Thank you! 
 Mom doesn't have many updates for you as it was an early night for us last night so that we could get on the road early this morning. Mom did get the chance to call Meme & Grandpa to let them know that we would be gone for a few days & if they needed Mom they needed to call me on my cell phone. Everyone seemed to be doing okay so Mom will be touching base with them after we get home on Friday. I know that if something happens they will definitely call me so I will update you on things with our family when I get some!
 Here is the daily prayers for the day: In the days ahead, may you die to the power of others’ opinions that you may live out of the relentless, abundant love God has for you. As people become more cruel and careless with their opinions, may you become more loving and discerning with yours. May you speak with precision, pray with power, and stand in courage. Your life and influence matter deeply in this desperate world. Lean in and learn everything you can from the One who loves you deeply and intends to use you greatly. Have a great day!
May you be quick to identify and let go of any lies you pick up along the way today. May you shake off any offenses that you’re tempted to cling to. May you instead, wrap yourself up in the complete love and affection of Christ. May you forgive yourself and forgive others. May you believe that God's promises are more powerful than your blunders. Embrace God's redemptive plan for your life with hope and expectancy. You’re truly, deeply loved. 
Here is a inspirational saying for you for the day as well: 25 Things To Do For Yourself:
 Go for a hike. Take a day trip to an unfamiliar place. Go for a long drive. Grab dinner at a place you have never been to before. This can feel a bit awkward if you do it for the first time; start with a small place like a coffee shop. Go see a movie. Spend a day in a bookstore. Visit a local museum. Take up a new hobby. Prepare your favorite dessert, just for yourself. Do something for the first time. Volunteer in your community. Make a list of things you are grateful for. Grab a coffee & your Ipod or a book & go people watching in a park. Learn to garden. Go for a long run. Do something you have been putting off for awhile---like printing out pictures & putting them in albums, having a big closet clean-out. Take up photography. Turn off your phone, diffuse some essential oils & listen to music. Meditate. Help someone in need; reach out to someone you haven't spoken to in a while. Do puzzles. order takeout from one of your favorite place. Do something really productive--quiet alone time is a great opportunity to get some things done. Do something really unproductive---like binge watching your favorite sitcom. Wake up ealry & watch the sunrise.
 Mom hopes that your night is filled with all the things you need & want it to be. May you have the chance to come be with Mom tonight & keep us all safe. Thank you my sweet son! I know that I will see nothing shining in the sky tonight as it is nasty out there. No blue skies of sunshine. Just gray & raining with high winds. I know you will be shining bright for someone who needs it though. That makes Mom smile. I will whisper to you later this evening so be listening for my voice. Smile & I will smile back to you. I wish I would have brought a candle to light but I didn't. I will light one for you when we return home on Friday night. I suppose Mom needs to get going so that I can feed the pups & try to get them to eat their dinner tonight. Mom is thinking I might have a tough time with this. Wish me luck! Mom misses you so much. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are my shining star & will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul.  I will be back tomorrow to write to you again. Until then.... good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!