Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am a bit tired from not getting much sleep last night but other than that I am doing well. Mom tried to call it a night around 11 pm but poor Princess was so scared that she shook for about an hour so Mom finally got to sleep a little after midnight. Hopefully tonight I will be able to get a little bit more rest. Please continue to be with Mm as I need you. Thank you so much! 
 This morning was chaos for sure. The pups were barking which is nothing unusual but then after they stopped barking I realized that someone was at the front door. It was 10 am & Mom didn't know who it could be. I called down to the office & they told me there were a couple of guys here to replace the smashed mirror in the bathroom. I guess what happened was that they called Mark's cell phone yesterday to let him know about this morning but because Mark never called them Mom didn't get to know until every thing went down. Surprise to Mom but glad that it is finally fixed. We have been waiting for almost 2 years now to have them do it. Anyways... the guys came & replace it. It took about an hour for them to do the work so now it just has to set for 24 hours before we can touch it, clean it, etc.... thank heavens that we have a 2nd bathroom so that I could get ready in...lol! The rest of the morning was spent cleaning out my spare closet in the office & the pantry. Tomorrow I will tackle my closet & donate some shoes that I no longer wear anymore. That way I will be all set for the winter months & not have to worry. I have a few more pieces of clothing to give to Debbie's sister, Pam as well. They will pick them up when they are here on Saturday. It will be nice to have Meme, Bob, Grandpa & Debbie here for the day. I can't wait to see everyone. It is hard to believe that it is going on a month already since the wedding! 
 Mom didn't talk to a single person yesterday on the phone & today everyone is calling me. I was finally able to chat with Aunt Beck twice today & my friend, Gary. That was nice. Mark called Mom finally. He sounds terrible though. He is so tired & run down. Sounds like he has a nasty cold. He was saying that he worked on Monday & Tuesday from 8 am to 7 pm & today he was at the customer site at 5:30 am & is still working. ( It is now 4:08 pm. ) That is crazy. Guess he will be doing a lot of sleeping in the next few days if he can. Guess he will be calling Mom later this evening as well. My chat with Gary was good. We haven't spoken in quite some time. He has been pretty busy & our schedules always seem to collide. He stopped by to visit with you today & he took a picture for Mom. That was sweet of him. I see that the Goofy Pez is still there. Guess someone left you a pine cone & placed it on your bench. Mom will post the picture on here tonight for you to have. Mom's chat with Aunt Beck was nice. We talked about a lot of things but touched base with some things that are going on with Mom. I have felt these feelings but have not expressed them to anyone so when she brought them up, I was not surprised at all nor did I lie about anything. What she said was true. Aunt Beck told Mom that I have many things going on right now & that I feel lonely & abandoned. That is so true. I do feel that way. She said that she could visually see Mom with Armor on my body but the Armor had all different kinds of jagged edges & spikes coming from it. She said that she could feel anger. She told Mom that I needed to let it go & send it to the light so I could heal as it was not doing anything good for me. She also said that if I didn't I would make myself sick. She is very worried & scared for Mom. That was an eye opener for me. I need to do exactly that. I need to let some things go & I need to work on myself again. I need to not get upset or anger at things that I can not physically change. Today when I took my walk with the pups, I looked to the sky to see the sun shining & Mom looked at the leaves changing colors on the trees. I whispered to you & silently said some prayers asking for help. After I did that I honestly felt so much better. Aunt Beck said she did some work on me too this afternoon. I think that was very helpful as well. She will continue to do healing work on me tomorrow too. I think it was exactly what I needed. If you are reading this, Beck... know that I appreciate the talk, the healing work that you are doing & I will be changing my ways, thoughts & attitude on many subjects. Thank you for helping me. Oh yeah... you were not harsh on me at all!
 Tonight will be a relaxing night. I will make dinner & watch some of the TV shows that I have DVR through the week. I think it will be a pretty early night tonight seeings how I was up a lot during the night. Please be with Mom & sit with me so that I can get some much needed rest. Thank you my sweet precious son! Mom hopes the evening will be all that you need & want it to be. Have fun as well! Mom will whisper to you as I always do every night when I light the candle & also when I go to bed. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile right back to you. Remember you forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you like crazy & love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Always feel that deep in your soul.
 Here are the prayers for the day:  May Jesus miraculously deliver you from the fear and anxiety that threatens to overwhelm you. May He set you in a spacious place so you feel less pressed by the enemy of your soul. May He shore you up and strengthen you so you can clearly see things as they are, and not as they seem. May JOY fill your heart—right in the midst of your circumstances—and may PEACE flood your soul. Jesus will never change His mind about you. He loves you. He’s tender with your weaknesses and fierce in your defense. You can rest in His presence. You can trust Him. So trust Him. Have a blessed and beautiful day.
  May you speak life over your life, starting today. Speak to your mountains and tell them to move in Jesus’ Name! Speak to your fears and tell them that Jesus’ love is perfect is greater still. Speak to your soul and remind yourself that God is always good. Speak to any obstacle that blocks your view of the Son and His radiance, and tell it to be tossed into the sea! May your faith combined with God’s goodness move you to a place of grace and peace. And every which way you turn, may you see evidence that God is at work an involved in your life. Sleep well tonight!
 Here is the inspirational saying for the day as well: There's going to be very painful moments in your life that will change your entire world in a matter of minutes. These moments will change YOU. Let them make you stronger, smarter, & kinder. But don't you go & become someone your not. Cry. Scream if you have to. Then you straighten out that crown & keep moving.
 Mom loves that saying! I am not sure if I have posted that on here already but if I did, somehow I guess I needed to repost it again. Just seemed fitting for Mom at this time. Speaking of time.... it is that time of the evening already where Mom needs to get going & feed the pups for the night & also make dinner. I will be back again tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. You are my shining star! I love you.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!