Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is not doing really in a good mood right now. I just found out that Mark has to leave tomorrow afternoon & will be gone all week long. I am so sick of his job right now it is not funny. None of his co- workers ever have to do what Mark does. He is always getting the sh*t end of the stick. No one cares about it but Mom but I guess I will have to learn not to friggin care at all anymore. Maybe someday Mark will actually say something about all this bullsh*t but honestly he hasn't yet so I don't foresee it in the future either. Guess he doesn't care that he is getting walked all over. Anyways.... Mom shouldn't be talking about it on here but I am just so angry right now. 
 The weather today was again crappy, overcast & looked like rain all day. The temp never got above 57 degrees. To say the least it is enough where the sun has not been shining for 4 days now & Mom can feel the effects of it. I guess starting tomorrow the weather is suppose to be cool temps like today but it is suppose to be no rain & all sunshine. Mom is hoping so as I really need to have something go right. Please be with Mom the next few days while I am here. Mom needs you so much right now. Thank you my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I wish that I could talk to you right now. I know that you would calm Mom down by talking to me. I miss those times. I miss you so much! More than words can say. Mom hopes that you never will forget that. I hope you can feel that deep down in your soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. 
 Mom doesn't have any updates for you at all today. No one called last night & the only call that Mom got today was from Meme on her break. She was telling me that Jennifer ( Bob's daughter ) was suppose to take the 2 girls ( Bob's grand babies ) to see him today & visit for a bit but she called him at 9 am this morning & said that 1 of the girls was sick last night & they wouldn't be going over. Bob was so upset & disappointed. He has not seen Jennifer or the grand babies in 4 years. That was so sad to hear. I wish she wouldn't do that to him. I really hope that she makes it a point to go visit him & soon. He really wants a relationship with all of them & she just doesn't seem to care. She will regret it one day that is for sure. Aunt Beck did not call me back yet & I didn't try calling her either as Mom was trying to study all afternoon but I was having a hard time concentrating on it. My tummy has been upset since last night & still kind of yucky today too. I will try again tomorrow as I will have nothing better to do for the next 3 days. Mom's head hurts as well. I have a headache but it is from the stress. Again, please be with Mom. Thank you, Tyler. Hopefully I will have some updates for you later in the week. I will keep you posted as I usually do when I get information about our family & friends. 
 Here are a couple prayers for the day: Glory be to the Father, to the Son and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now and ever shall be. World without end. Amen. 
  May Jesus give you a new appreciation for how far you’ve come: the insight you now possess, the strength you’ve gained, and the maturity you’ve gleaned, all because of your battles. You are still standing! May you be strengthened and encouraged with each step you take today. May you take a fresh and firm grip on God’s promises to you. May you refuse discouragement and the bait of offense—they’ll only drain you. Guard your steps in this “not-yet” season, renew your mind, and keep marching. Jesus will bring the victory at just the right time.
 Here are a couple sayings for the day as well:
 Letting Go: Letting go gives us the freedom & the freedom is the only condition for happiness. If, in our heart, we still cling to anything----anger, anxiety or possessions---we cannot be free.
 5 Things to quit right now: 1. Trying to please everyone. 2. Fearing change. 3. Living in the past. 4. Putting yourself down. 5. Overthinking.
 Guess Mom really needs to start with the 5 things to quit right now. No one gets anywhere if they are the only ones who care. That seems to be me all the time & that needs to stop. If no one else is going to care than neither am I anymore. I can't or it will drive me crazy & just really stress me out to no end. You know Mom can't deal with either. Guess there is no better time than now to start this! I will let you know how I do with it! 
 Mom hopes that your night is filled with peace, love & happiness. May you get the chance to do all that you need & want to do. Have fun while Mom is trying to sleep tonight. If you can come visit me in my dreams or come be with Mom. Thank you my sweet precious son. I will whisper to you tonight as I light my candle & also when I head to bed tonight. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile back to you. I love you more than all the stars in the sky. To infinity & beyond. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Mom has to get going so I can feed the pups & finish prepping & making out dinner as well. Looks like tonight will be a very quiet night here. Mom doesn't have much to say that is for sure. Good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!