Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay today. We are having some issues & troubles with our internet, phone & cable today so Mark & I are trying to trouble shoot what the problem can be. Mom has contacted the cable company as well so hopefully it will get fixed soon. Mom is able to write to you right now because I logged into this when we had internet & started just as the system crashed again. I am hoping to write to you & then when we have connection again I can send it & post it. Just craziness here. Glad it is a slow day for Mark at work because he needs internet access to do his job. Mom is not able to do any school work either as I need the internet for my exam. Guess I will have the day off & work on it tomorrow. 
 The weather today is sunny & the temps are chilly. The skies are blue with big puffy clouds. Mom took the pups for a walk & they enjoyed it outside. Mom is hoping that the weather stays the way that it is so that I am able to go outside with them daily again. They miss it & so do I. Hopefully the night sky will be clear so that maybe I can see the stars & moon shining bright tonight. It has been a couple nights since there has been anything in the sky because of all the rain we have had. Most of the snow banks that we had last week are almost all melted away. That is a great sign but Mom is not going to get all happy just yet. We still have another month of winter & usually February is brutal. Lets hope this year is different! 
 Last night was kind of a tough one for Mom. I wasn't feeling the greatest at all & I called on you to help me out. Thank you for being with me & doing all that you could. Mom also called on Arch Angel Raphael to help out. Mom felt a little better around 8 pm & I was just so exhausted from not feeling good that I went to bed at 10 pm & actually slept all night long. I woke up feeling pretty good this morning & I am doing alright so far. Every once in awhile I get a few nagging pains in my head & then it goes away. Hopefully in the next day or so it will be gone for good. Anything else you can continue to do to help Mom out would be gladly appreciated. Thank you my sweet precious son. Grandpa called last night but I had to just let the phone ring. I felt terrible but I will call him back this evening & explain to him what happened. everyone else seems to be doing alright. Hopefully Mom will have some more updates for you in the next couple of days. Mom does have a couple sayings for you for the day. Here they are:
 " Everything is unfolding PERFECTLY and as you RELAX and find EASE. In your attitude of TRUST KNOWING that WELL-BEING is your BIRTH-RIGHT AMAZING things will happen. Things the likes of which YOU have not seen before....."
 " I'm a SURVIVOR. A living example of what people can go through & survive. "
 "" Don't be afraid to start over. It's a chance to build something better this time! "
 Mom hopes that you have a peaceful & wonderful night tonight doing all the things that are asked of you, need to do & also what you may want to do. Come visit with me in my dreams, be with Mom tonight or both. Mom would love that. I love you. I love you unconditionally. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Always my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be living inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will whisper to you later this evening when I light the candle & also when I go to bed. I will smile when I whisper to you & I hope you smile every time you hear Mom's voice. I miss you beyond any words could ever say to you or anyone but I think you can feel it in your soul & that is all that matters. Mom tries so hard to not be sad that you are no longer here. Some days are better than others though. Bare with me on the days that are not so easy. Mom's life is so different now. Some of it is good & I no longer need to worry about a lot of things like I did before but other parts are made of sadness, loss & emptiness. These are the things that Mom is trying to continue to work on. I guess it will always be a work in progress for me. Just know, Tyler, that I am trying every day & one day it will get better! 
 Mom is going to have to go for now & try to post this letter to you. Hopefully tomorrow will be better & everything will be fixed. Until then.... good night & sweet dreams later this evening. I will write to you again tomorrow. I love you my bright shining star. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah! 

Here are the prayers for the day:
  May this be a breakthrough year for you! You’ve sown a lot of seeds over the years: seeds of kindness, courage, faithfulness, and generosity, seeds of forgiveness, mercy, and grace. May you see a bountiful, record harvest in the days ahead! May God breathe life into your efforts and may you see acceleration all around. May loved ones suddenly engage with God on a deeper level. May your work suddenly become blessed and favored. May your offerings miraculously multiply. And, may you know a deeper rest in those places where you’ve struggled for so long. May God’s breakthrough and blessing be upon your household this year. Blessings on your day today.
 Though most of the world has no clue what your call has cost you, Jesus does. Though few know how valiantly you’ve marched onward, even with a broken heart, Jesus knows. Though others may wrongly assess your struggles, Jesus sees you clearly, loves you dearly, and defends you fearlessly. One day God will vindicate you. One day, He’ll fully restore you. One day, He’ll claim you, bless you, and honor you before a watching world. Though you have troubles in this world, you will overcome them all. A bright future awaits you. Don’t lose heart. Sleep well tonight.

PS  Today is Spencer & Adam's Birthdays. I know you will make it a point to send them a sign or go visit them in your special way today. Mom wished them a Happy Birthday already! I know they were like brothers to you. They still feel that way about you!