Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom just looked at the clock... it is 12:12 pm. I know you are with me right now. Thank you for the sign. It sure did make Mom smile. I whispered to you so I hope you heard me. Such a sweet surprise indeed. The weather today is sunny & cold! I will take it as the sun is shining bright. Mom always feels so much better when it is sunny out than when it rains or snows. That type of weather really affects me a great deal. I guess maybe a move South would be beneficial for Mom..... like I said....maybe in a couple years! Mom is so sorry for the short letter last night but after a full day of studying the time escaped me & before I knew it, it was so late in the day & I hadn't even started to make dinner or feed the pups. That is so not like Mom at all. Today I decided to write to you before I started my studying. That way if I am running late , I already have my letter to you finished.  Mom was up super early this morning. I was right up & ready to go. I got ready, did some laundry, made breakfast, did those dishes & then chatted on the phone with Bonnie. We had a get talk. I sure do miss her. I miss Oklahoma at times. I can't believe that February it will be almost 5 years since we lived there. It seems so much longer than that. Time does fly by that is for sure. it will be 5 years in June since I lost you. There are days it just doesn't seem possible & other days it seems like it has been longer. Mom really misses you. That heartache just never goes away at all. I don't think it ever will either no matter how hard I try. This will remain a part of me forever. Mom noticed when I logged into my blog that to this day I have posted 5700 times. That is between the letters & the pictures that I share with you. That is crazy! Mom still continues to have over 200 followers daily that read my letters to you from all over the world. Mom is forever grateful for this. I always say that I don't know what it is that I write about that makes everyone want to follow me ( and for as long as they have ) but I hope through my way of grieving, I am able to help others along the way as well. Thank you to all who keep with me daily. Many blessings to you all from the bottom of my heart. 
 Last night after dinner Mom was able to chat with Grandpa again. Oh it was so sad to hear how both him & Debbie sounded. Debbie was saying that she had another doctors appointment today & an ENT appointment in the middle of February. I sure hope they are feeling better & very soon. Mom hates to see them so sick. I will call them tonight as well just to check in on them. I will keep you posted, Tyler. Mom also spoke to Meme. She called & we spoke for just a few minutes. She was saying that Bob was doing a little better. He was sleeping a lot & had very little appetite these last few days of him being sick. Meme really isn't doing much better. She is still going to work every day. She is always tired & she also has had no appetite. She was saying that she also was sick to her stomach. That is not good. Mom hopes that they are feeling better & soon as well. Guess there is a lot of that sickness in that area. So many have this nasty flu. I hope it goes away fast. Both Mark & Mom had it last year for 6-8 weeks. It was horrible. The cold & cough just wouldn't go away. Mom also got to speak to Marion & Charlie last night. We were chatting about our get away next weekend. Everyone is looking forward to it. It should be a fun time. The weather is suppose to be good as well. Mom will take lots of pictures & post some on here for you to see. I wish you would be with us but I know you will be in your own special way. Send me a sign, okay? Thank you my sweet precious son! That is all I have for updates for you today. Here are the sayings for the day:
 Hate no one, no matter how much they wronged you. Live humbly, no matter how wealthy you become. Think positively, no matter how hard life is. Give much, even if you've been given little. Forgive all, especially yourself & never stop praying for the best for everyone.
 Don't use your energy to worry, Use your energy to believe!
 Mom really needs to get going now so that I can start my studying. I would like to get at least 3 hours in. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Hope that your evening later will be everything you want & need it to be. Hope you will come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. I will whisper to you just like I do every night so smile for Mom when you hear me & I will smile back to you. I love you more than words can say. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Always my hero & the wind beneath my wings & forever you will live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Good night & sweet dreams later my bright shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Today is the last day of January! No more winter pictures for this year!!!!!! 

Here are the prayers for the day:
  God is doing a new thing. Can you sense it? May you lean in and listen to that still small voice and take your next steps with a heart of faith and expectancy. May Jesus Himself give you a fresh vision for what breakthrough looks like so you will not lose heart or give up when it seems the battle rages on. Soon, and very soon, you will see and know that His promises are true for you. Strengthen yourself in the Lord today. Remind yourself who you are and whose you are. Recite His promises and rehearse His faithfulness. He's been good and He'll be good again. Walk forward in faith. God bless you, dear one.
  May the sense of Jesus' presence be especially tangible to you tonight. May the reality of His love sink deep into your bones. May His voice ring true amidst the chaos of the culture. May you refuse worry, fear, and insecurity because you belong to Him. Jesus has made promises to you that He intends to keep. May the promise of His return compel you to look up and live accordingly. You are precious, honored, and loved by One who saved you. Have a blessed and beautiful night!