Wednesday, July 31, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing ok. I just finished up everything that I needed to today and was about to write to you and all of a sudden out of no where we are getting a pretty good thunder and lightning storm. The rain is coming down as well. It is getting dark here too. It was sunny all day long though. This weather is crazy. The pups are shaking or at least Princess is and Ozzy is either burrowed in his blankets or he is under the bed. Mom is not going to write much to you today for that reason. I don't like being on the computer or any electronics when we get a storm. I know you understand completely. I just wanted you to know that I miss you and I love you with everything I have. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I have your candle lit already and I will whisper to you later tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you.
Mom just looked out the window and saw the brightest and coolest lightning bolt. It was pretty close too. Looks like we might see a rainbow at some point because it is raining but the sun is trying to come out and then it goes back in. It is dark again so maybe not. Mom needs to get going to comfort the pups are they are so scared. I will be back tomorrow though my sweet precious son. I will fill you in on things then. Have fun tonight while I sleep and come visit in my dreams if you can. Until then..... good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing ok. I just finished up everything that I needed to today and was about to write to you and all of a sudden out of no where we are getting a pretty good thunder and lightning storm. The rain is coming down as well. It is getting dark here too. It was sunny all day long though. This weather is crazy. The pups are shaking or at least Princess is and Ozzy is either burrowed in his blankets or he is under the bed. Mom is not going to write much to you today for that reason. I don't like being on the computer or any electronics when we get a storm. I know you understand completely. I just wanted you to know that I miss you and I love you with everything I have. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I have your candle lit already and I will whisper to you later tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you.
Mom just looked out the window and saw the brightest and coolest lightning bolt. It was pretty close too. Looks like we might see a rainbow at some point because it is raining but the sun is trying to come out and then it goes back in. It is dark again so maybe not. Mom needs to get going to comfort the pups are they are so scared. I will be back tomorrow though my sweet precious son. I will fill you in on things then. Have fun tonight while I sleep and come visit in my dreams if you can. Until then..... good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Many, Lord, are asking, "Who will bring us prosperity?" Let the light of your face shine on us. Psalm 4:6, NIV
Lord our God, with all our hearts we come before your countenance. Our hearts shall always be in your presence, asking, longing, and believing that you will guide our affairs aright. Protect us, for you are our God and Father. Protect all who are in danger or who must go into danger. Make known your great love and your living presence to the hearts of the dying. Draw our hearts together so that we may have community in you, our faith and hope set on you alone. Protect us during the night, and help us to be at peace about all our concerns because they are in your hands. Every concern of every person is in your hands. We ourselves are in your hands, Lord God, our Father, and there we want to remain. Your hands can heal and restore everything. Praised be your name! Amen.
Tuesday, July 30, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday early evening? Mom is doing alright. Today has flown by pretty fast for me. I have been busy on the phone most of the day but also emailing and text messaging as well. It is after 4:30 pm. Mark had to go to a customer site today and will be back there again tomorrow as well. He is at PT right now and will be home by 5 pm or a bit after. Mom was able to do a few things around the apartment this morning after lounging in bed for a bit. I made a potato salad to go with dinner as well. I spoke to Auntie Kristina, Aunt Beck and then multiple people in regards to the move. I am now getting around to writing to you and then I will have to get dinner for the pups and then dinner for Mark and I when he gets home.
Yesterday was a hard day for me and last night was even harder. Mom was not a person of many words at all. I stayed quiet for the most part but I did try to talk with Mark but he was busy with work all day and then with his brothers again after dinner for about 90 minutes. He came to bed around 9:30 pm and Mom decided to just go to bed. I wanted to say something but I really just bit my tongue and said nothing. I guess I am just tired of trying to get attention from Mark. It is work all week and then most nights and all weekend long is dedicated to him playing his video games with his brothers. There is about an hour of time for me and that is when we have dinner and then he is right back to his game. It gets sickening and frustrating to me but I am just being quiet and saying nothing. It really doesn't help at all because he really doesn't listen to me and if he does than it does no good. I think a person has to care for it to matter. I have mentioned it to him several times in the past how it bothers me and he does nothing to change so it is time for Mom to change and do something about it. What that plan is I haven't a clue right now but I will and very soon. I keep telling myself that maybe the move will change things for the better but I am not sure. At least then I will not be alone. I will have Meme and Bob to talk to and then 5 months later I will have Grandpa and Debbie as well. I look forward to that because it sure gets lonely not having anyone to talk to a lot of the time. I pray, I pray a lot that something will change. Just know that when you see Mom sad and hurting....I will be okay. I have been through worse. I will try to smile for you though. So days are harder than others but I do try.
A lot of family and friends posted very nice things to Mom's facebook page wishing you a Happy Heavenly Birthday. It was really sweet to read them all and Mom responded to each and every one of them. I hope all the messages that you saw made you smile that smile I miss so much. You are very loved. Mom loves you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Aunt Beck leaves this Saturday for Italy again. She will be gone for 2 weeks. We chatted on the phone for a bit today. She will keep me posted as to when she gets there. Her fight leaves at 10 pm US time and she arrives in Rome, Italy at 12 noon on Sunday. Long flight but she is looking forward to it. She will be exploring places that she didn't get to go to last year. I look forward to seeing pictures of her trip and hearing all about it when she returns home. I know you will be with her while she is traveling alone. Thank you! Meme is stressed out to the max. She is trying her best to work still, pack things up, sort things out and Bob just doesn't seem to be wanting to help her out. I am not sure why but that is what she is telling me. She asked me to chat with Bob to see what is going on. I told her I would but I don't know if it will help. Grandpa and Debbie will be here next Monday and leaving on Tuesday afternoon. It is a quick trip to say hello. It will be nice to see them as last time it was only for 3 hours and then they left to go home. Soon enough we won't have to do that because we will all be together. 73 days for us. It is coming fast! It will be another 7 months for Grandpa and Debbie. I think that is all the updates I have for you today. I am sure there will be more later this week. Thank you for letting me tell you how I feel on here. I know it should not be the place to air my "dirty laundry" but if you were here Mom would talk to you about it so that is why I feel the need to share everything with you. Writing also is like my personal journal. It helps me to not keep things bottled up inside. I thank everyone who continues to read my letters to you and follows me daily on here. After 6 years that sure means a lot to Mom.
I will light your candle right after I finish up here. I will whisper to you later as well so smile to Mom and I will smile to you. Have fun tonight while I get so sleep. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you but for now it is time to feed the pups and get things going for dinner. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. I miss you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday early evening? Mom is doing alright. Today has flown by pretty fast for me. I have been busy on the phone most of the day but also emailing and text messaging as well. It is after 4:30 pm. Mark had to go to a customer site today and will be back there again tomorrow as well. He is at PT right now and will be home by 5 pm or a bit after. Mom was able to do a few things around the apartment this morning after lounging in bed for a bit. I made a potato salad to go with dinner as well. I spoke to Auntie Kristina, Aunt Beck and then multiple people in regards to the move. I am now getting around to writing to you and then I will have to get dinner for the pups and then dinner for Mark and I when he gets home.
Yesterday was a hard day for me and last night was even harder. Mom was not a person of many words at all. I stayed quiet for the most part but I did try to talk with Mark but he was busy with work all day and then with his brothers again after dinner for about 90 minutes. He came to bed around 9:30 pm and Mom decided to just go to bed. I wanted to say something but I really just bit my tongue and said nothing. I guess I am just tired of trying to get attention from Mark. It is work all week and then most nights and all weekend long is dedicated to him playing his video games with his brothers. There is about an hour of time for me and that is when we have dinner and then he is right back to his game. It gets sickening and frustrating to me but I am just being quiet and saying nothing. It really doesn't help at all because he really doesn't listen to me and if he does than it does no good. I think a person has to care for it to matter. I have mentioned it to him several times in the past how it bothers me and he does nothing to change so it is time for Mom to change and do something about it. What that plan is I haven't a clue right now but I will and very soon. I keep telling myself that maybe the move will change things for the better but I am not sure. At least then I will not be alone. I will have Meme and Bob to talk to and then 5 months later I will have Grandpa and Debbie as well. I look forward to that because it sure gets lonely not having anyone to talk to a lot of the time. I pray, I pray a lot that something will change. Just know that when you see Mom sad and hurting....I will be okay. I have been through worse. I will try to smile for you though. So days are harder than others but I do try.
A lot of family and friends posted very nice things to Mom's facebook page wishing you a Happy Heavenly Birthday. It was really sweet to read them all and Mom responded to each and every one of them. I hope all the messages that you saw made you smile that smile I miss so much. You are very loved. Mom loves you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Aunt Beck leaves this Saturday for Italy again. She will be gone for 2 weeks. We chatted on the phone for a bit today. She will keep me posted as to when she gets there. Her fight leaves at 10 pm US time and she arrives in Rome, Italy at 12 noon on Sunday. Long flight but she is looking forward to it. She will be exploring places that she didn't get to go to last year. I look forward to seeing pictures of her trip and hearing all about it when she returns home. I know you will be with her while she is traveling alone. Thank you! Meme is stressed out to the max. She is trying her best to work still, pack things up, sort things out and Bob just doesn't seem to be wanting to help her out. I am not sure why but that is what she is telling me. She asked me to chat with Bob to see what is going on. I told her I would but I don't know if it will help. Grandpa and Debbie will be here next Monday and leaving on Tuesday afternoon. It is a quick trip to say hello. It will be nice to see them as last time it was only for 3 hours and then they left to go home. Soon enough we won't have to do that because we will all be together. 73 days for us. It is coming fast! It will be another 7 months for Grandpa and Debbie. I think that is all the updates I have for you today. I am sure there will be more later this week. Thank you for letting me tell you how I feel on here. I know it should not be the place to air my "dirty laundry" but if you were here Mom would talk to you about it so that is why I feel the need to share everything with you. Writing also is like my personal journal. It helps me to not keep things bottled up inside. I thank everyone who continues to read my letters to you and follows me daily on here. After 6 years that sure means a lot to Mom.
I will light your candle right after I finish up here. I will whisper to you later as well so smile to Mom and I will smile to you. Have fun tonight while I get so sleep. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you but for now it is time to feed the pups and get things going for dinner. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. I miss you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline. 2 Timothy 1:7, NIV
Lord our God, we are your children. Hear all our concerns, we pray, for we want help from you, not from men, not from anything we can think or say. May your power be revealed in our time. We long for a new age, an age of peace in which people are changed. We long for your day, the day when your power will be revealed to poor, broken humankind. Be with us, and give our hearts what will remain with us, the strength and mercy of Jesus Christ. Amen.
Monday, July 29, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! Today is a very special day...it is July 29th and it was your Birthday here in the physical world. You would have turned 29 today. Happy Heavenly Birthday to you my sweet precious son! Mom is doing alright but there are times during the day that I have shed a few tears. It is just one of those days that jabs my heart harder. So hard to believe that you would have been 29.... I have to say that over and over because it just doesn't seem possible that 29 years ago I gave birth to you and you enter this world. Today is the day that you made me your Mom and I am so honored that you chose me so many years before we ever met. I remember the day vivid like it was yesterday. I was in labor with you for so long. I had 13 hours that I walked straight because my contractions were all in the back and it was so painful. I couldn't get comfortable sitting. Aunt Beck, Meme, Auntie Ann and your Dad were there with me. They tried helping but it was really between you and Mom. I went into the hospital around 7 pm on the 28th and was in hard labor for 17 hours (20 hours total). Mom's water never broke so around 11:45 am on the 29th the doctor broke my water and noted that I needed to have an emergency c-section as we were both in distress. I was wheeled down immediately and knocked out. You were born and entered this world at 12:12 pm. I didn't get to see you until about an hour after you were born because I was in recovery. Meme, Aunt Beck, Grandpa Ed and a few others told me that you were beautiful. I remember seeing your precious face the first time. I cried such happy tears. I held you and wondered what kind of a Mom was I going to be. Was I going to get and do everything right? Well that answer through the years was hell no but Mom always tried my best. You were my first priority always. Everything else and everyone else came second. Through the years after you got sick.... it was always you and Mom. We had each other. At times life knocked us down and we stumbled many of times along the way but we always drew strength from one another and we got back up. We both are fighters. Mom thinks back to the last party we had for you. What a fun celebration we had with our family and friends along with Jeremy, Ron and a few others. There were a lot of laughs and pictures taken. You had a great time. You and Mom discussed what we would get for tattoos. Never did I think that you would only be here for 11 more months and then I would have to say goodbye to you. Mom hates to think of that so I won't. Today is hard enough for me so I only want to try and think of memories that make me happy. When Mom got ready this morning... I said that I was going to wear your favorite color....Red. I chose my red sundress just for you. My letter today will be nothing like the usual because I want it to be all about you. I will fill you in on everything on tomorrows letter.
Lots of memories came up on my feed today. Lots of releasing of balloons to you in heaven from past years. Mom stopped doing that because, well, for one it is now illegal to do and second I didn't want to take the chance of hurting innocent animals. You were such an animal lover so I know you will understand what I am saying. On one of the pictures I will post on here today will be of white balloons. Just picture Mom sending those to you. There were a lot of family and friends wishing you a Happy Heavenly Birthday as well. You are so loved and I hope you feel that just not today but every day. We all miss you so much but no one misses you more than Mom does. Maybe Dad, but still not as much as me. I carried you in my body for 10 months because you we so comfortable and didn't want to come out...lol. We always had that special bond. The bond between a mother and her son. I still have that bond but it is in a different way now. I know you are always around me even when I don't see the signs clearly. I know you watch over me and everyone else you love. I thank you for that. Mom knows that you are truly at peace and you are happy and free now. You would never trade that for anything. I know you. Mom doesn't blame you one bit either. I know there will be a day that you will be waiting for me with open arms when my time on this earth is done. I promise you that you will get one long hug because it will have been many many years since our last. I know for Mom, I have many years left here in the physical world, I need to do all that I came here to do and I won't leave until everything is done and I learned all that I needed to but I want you to know that I look forward to that day of reuniting with you and all our family, pets and friends. That will be the day that we will never have to part again. It will be for eternal life.
Your candle was lit early this morning and will stay lit until Mom goes to bed tonight. I wanted it to burn all day for your Birthday. I whispered to you as I lit the candle so I hope you heard Mom and smiled. I will whisper to you again later this evening. I sure hope that throughout your busy day you will have a chance to send me a sign to let me know you are around me today. Maybe a painting in the sky later? I will be looking. I miss you so much, Tyler. No words can ever express just how much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can while I sleep. Thanks pumpkin. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....good night and sweet dreams later tonight. Again, Happy Heavenly Birthday to you, Tyler. 29 years old but forever 22.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is todays prayer:
Hi my sweet son! Today is a very special day...it is July 29th and it was your Birthday here in the physical world. You would have turned 29 today. Happy Heavenly Birthday to you my sweet precious son! Mom is doing alright but there are times during the day that I have shed a few tears. It is just one of those days that jabs my heart harder. So hard to believe that you would have been 29.... I have to say that over and over because it just doesn't seem possible that 29 years ago I gave birth to you and you enter this world. Today is the day that you made me your Mom and I am so honored that you chose me so many years before we ever met. I remember the day vivid like it was yesterday. I was in labor with you for so long. I had 13 hours that I walked straight because my contractions were all in the back and it was so painful. I couldn't get comfortable sitting. Aunt Beck, Meme, Auntie Ann and your Dad were there with me. They tried helping but it was really between you and Mom. I went into the hospital around 7 pm on the 28th and was in hard labor for 17 hours (20 hours total). Mom's water never broke so around 11:45 am on the 29th the doctor broke my water and noted that I needed to have an emergency c-section as we were both in distress. I was wheeled down immediately and knocked out. You were born and entered this world at 12:12 pm. I didn't get to see you until about an hour after you were born because I was in recovery. Meme, Aunt Beck, Grandpa Ed and a few others told me that you were beautiful. I remember seeing your precious face the first time. I cried such happy tears. I held you and wondered what kind of a Mom was I going to be. Was I going to get and do everything right? Well that answer through the years was hell no but Mom always tried my best. You were my first priority always. Everything else and everyone else came second. Through the years after you got sick.... it was always you and Mom. We had each other. At times life knocked us down and we stumbled many of times along the way but we always drew strength from one another and we got back up. We both are fighters. Mom thinks back to the last party we had for you. What a fun celebration we had with our family and friends along with Jeremy, Ron and a few others. There were a lot of laughs and pictures taken. You had a great time. You and Mom discussed what we would get for tattoos. Never did I think that you would only be here for 11 more months and then I would have to say goodbye to you. Mom hates to think of that so I won't. Today is hard enough for me so I only want to try and think of memories that make me happy. When Mom got ready this morning... I said that I was going to wear your favorite color....Red. I chose my red sundress just for you. My letter today will be nothing like the usual because I want it to be all about you. I will fill you in on everything on tomorrows letter.
Lots of memories came up on my feed today. Lots of releasing of balloons to you in heaven from past years. Mom stopped doing that because, well, for one it is now illegal to do and second I didn't want to take the chance of hurting innocent animals. You were such an animal lover so I know you will understand what I am saying. On one of the pictures I will post on here today will be of white balloons. Just picture Mom sending those to you. There were a lot of family and friends wishing you a Happy Heavenly Birthday as well. You are so loved and I hope you feel that just not today but every day. We all miss you so much but no one misses you more than Mom does. Maybe Dad, but still not as much as me. I carried you in my body for 10 months because you we so comfortable and didn't want to come out...lol. We always had that special bond. The bond between a mother and her son. I still have that bond but it is in a different way now. I know you are always around me even when I don't see the signs clearly. I know you watch over me and everyone else you love. I thank you for that. Mom knows that you are truly at peace and you are happy and free now. You would never trade that for anything. I know you. Mom doesn't blame you one bit either. I know there will be a day that you will be waiting for me with open arms when my time on this earth is done. I promise you that you will get one long hug because it will have been many many years since our last. I know for Mom, I have many years left here in the physical world, I need to do all that I came here to do and I won't leave until everything is done and I learned all that I needed to but I want you to know that I look forward to that day of reuniting with you and all our family, pets and friends. That will be the day that we will never have to part again. It will be for eternal life.
Your candle was lit early this morning and will stay lit until Mom goes to bed tonight. I wanted it to burn all day for your Birthday. I whispered to you as I lit the candle so I hope you heard Mom and smiled. I will whisper to you again later this evening. I sure hope that throughout your busy day you will have a chance to send me a sign to let me know you are around me today. Maybe a painting in the sky later? I will be looking. I miss you so much, Tyler. No words can ever express just how much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can while I sleep. Thanks pumpkin. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....good night and sweet dreams later tonight. Again, Happy Heavenly Birthday to you, Tyler. 29 years old but forever 22.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is todays prayer:
True, he died on the cross in weakness, but he lives by the power of God; and we who share his weakness shall by the power of God live with him in your service. 2 Corinthians 13:4, NEB
Lord our God, we thank you for the love you show us so that we may be delivered from weakness and sickness, from sin and misery, and may be given strength to serve you, our Father in heaven. Bless us in all we have on our hearts, that through your mercy the battle of life may be fought aright. Bless us in our times and grant that justice may gain the upper hand and we may live in peace, praising you into all eternity. Protect us, your children, forevermore. May your name be honored, your kingdom come, and your will be done on earth as in heaven. Amen.
Saturday, July 27, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! Mom is hoping that you are doing well on this hot and humid Saturday afternoon! We just got in a bit ago from shopping. I just finished putting everything away and had a quick chance to write to you before I needed to make dinner. It will be a short one though because I still have to feed the pups dinner and get things started for us soon as well. Mom just wanted to write to you and tell you that I was thinking of you and I am missing you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Tonight will be a very early night for us because Mark has to work tomorrow at 8 am and who knows when he will get done. Mom will be doing housework and doing things that don't require a lot of noise. I think I will paint my toe nails too seeings how I just got my nails done today! Then it will be Monday again and it will be a hard day for Mom but I will keep myself busy while Mark is working. Mom will hope to be studying. I will keep you posted on my progress.
Tonight I will whisper to you so smile for Mom and I will smile to you. I will light your candle in a little bit as well. Looks like I will be relaxing for the night watching TV because Mark is already on the computer and playing his game with his brothers. Nothing new though.... story of Mom's life. Work all week and he plays his game all weekend. I think things will change when we move though so Mom is not going to complain at all! Tonight have fun while I sleep and come visit me in my dreams. Mom is going to go for today but I will be back tomorrow with a longer letter to you. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi pumpkin! Mom is hoping that you are doing well on this hot and humid Saturday afternoon! We just got in a bit ago from shopping. I just finished putting everything away and had a quick chance to write to you before I needed to make dinner. It will be a short one though because I still have to feed the pups dinner and get things started for us soon as well. Mom just wanted to write to you and tell you that I was thinking of you and I am missing you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Tonight will be a very early night for us because Mark has to work tomorrow at 8 am and who knows when he will get done. Mom will be doing housework and doing things that don't require a lot of noise. I think I will paint my toe nails too seeings how I just got my nails done today! Then it will be Monday again and it will be a hard day for Mom but I will keep myself busy while Mark is working. Mom will hope to be studying. I will keep you posted on my progress.
Tonight I will whisper to you so smile for Mom and I will smile to you. I will light your candle in a little bit as well. Looks like I will be relaxing for the night watching TV because Mark is already on the computer and playing his game with his brothers. Nothing new though.... story of Mom's life. Work all week and he plays his game all weekend. I think things will change when we move though so Mom is not going to complain at all! Tonight have fun while I sleep and come visit me in my dreams. Mom is going to go for today but I will be back tomorrow with a longer letter to you. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd. John 10:16, NIV
Lord our God, bring us together as one. Give us your Spirit so that we may know you, so that joy may fill our hearts, not only for ourselves but also for others. Root out evil from the earth. Sweep away all that offends you, all lying, deceit, and hate between nations. Grant that all people may come to know you, so that disunity and conflict may be swept away and your eternal kingdom may arise on earth and we may rejoice in it. For your kingdom can come to people even while on earth to bring them happiness and to make them your own children. Yes, Lord God, we want to be your children, your people, held in your hand, so that your name may be honored, your kingdom may come, and your will be done on earth as in heaven. Amen.
Friday, July 26, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? It is almost 5 pm here. This day has flown by so quickly. Mom was up with Mark at 7 am and we fed the pups and I made fresh coffee for him. Mom didn't go back to bed but I did lounged in bed for a bit so that I could wake up. Mark left to run errands early this morning and Mom stayed behind to be able to wake up and relax. After he got home, I did get up, made the bed, and got ready. I got something to eat and then came into the office to make a really tough phone call. Mom did it though. I made the call to our leasing office to tell them that we were not resigning a new lease and that we were moving in less than 80 days. They were so shocked. They are happy for us but they also said that they would miss us. That was so sweet to hear! It is always nice to hear from people that you will be missed. It was a difficult call to make today. It was a reality check that this is going to happen and we are closer for the move to take place. Mom was proud of herself for making that bold move while Mark was working today. I knew I would be the one to make it anyways because I talk to the ladies more than Mark does so I really didn't mind at all. The rest of the day I chatted on the phone with Auntie Kristina and then I made more calls and emails that needed to be done. Mom also chatted with a couple friends of mine that are going through some tough times right now. I tried to give encouraging words to them and also told them I will be here if they need me. Mom will be praying for them and their families. I do every night but extra ones will be said as well.
It is already going on 5:30 pm and Mark is still on a conference call for work and Mom needs to get going so that I can make dinner and get the pups feed. I think Mark will be on the phone for awhile still. He has been all afternoon with this one customer. He is doing a cutover Sunday morning and he is prepping them for it. Tomorrow will be our day to go out and do whatever we want. We have some errands to run and then Mom is getting her nails done but after that it is a day to just have fun and be silly with no phone calls or emails,etc.... Mom will probably not be on her computer at all tomorrow but I will still try to write to you. If not I will write to you on Sunday when Mark is working. I will be doing housework and other stuff during that time as well. Hopefully I will have some updates for you as I have none again today.
Mom started a new candle for you about 3 hours ago. This one will last awhile as it is a big one. The candle stash is going down and that makes us happy. Looks like there will be just 1-2 that I will be packing and the rest will be burned. We have a couple of months yet to go but I still have a few so no worries. I will be burning them daily and nightly for you my sweet precious son. I will whisper to you later this evening so smile for Mom and I will smile for you. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I would love it. Always know that Mom misses you like crazy and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom needs to get going as the pups are going nuts as they want their food...lol Have fun tonight while I get some rest. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? It is almost 5 pm here. This day has flown by so quickly. Mom was up with Mark at 7 am and we fed the pups and I made fresh coffee for him. Mom didn't go back to bed but I did lounged in bed for a bit so that I could wake up. Mark left to run errands early this morning and Mom stayed behind to be able to wake up and relax. After he got home, I did get up, made the bed, and got ready. I got something to eat and then came into the office to make a really tough phone call. Mom did it though. I made the call to our leasing office to tell them that we were not resigning a new lease and that we were moving in less than 80 days. They were so shocked. They are happy for us but they also said that they would miss us. That was so sweet to hear! It is always nice to hear from people that you will be missed. It was a difficult call to make today. It was a reality check that this is going to happen and we are closer for the move to take place. Mom was proud of herself for making that bold move while Mark was working today. I knew I would be the one to make it anyways because I talk to the ladies more than Mark does so I really didn't mind at all. The rest of the day I chatted on the phone with Auntie Kristina and then I made more calls and emails that needed to be done. Mom also chatted with a couple friends of mine that are going through some tough times right now. I tried to give encouraging words to them and also told them I will be here if they need me. Mom will be praying for them and their families. I do every night but extra ones will be said as well.
It is already going on 5:30 pm and Mark is still on a conference call for work and Mom needs to get going so that I can make dinner and get the pups feed. I think Mark will be on the phone for awhile still. He has been all afternoon with this one customer. He is doing a cutover Sunday morning and he is prepping them for it. Tomorrow will be our day to go out and do whatever we want. We have some errands to run and then Mom is getting her nails done but after that it is a day to just have fun and be silly with no phone calls or emails,etc.... Mom will probably not be on her computer at all tomorrow but I will still try to write to you. If not I will write to you on Sunday when Mark is working. I will be doing housework and other stuff during that time as well. Hopefully I will have some updates for you as I have none again today.
Mom started a new candle for you about 3 hours ago. This one will last awhile as it is a big one. The candle stash is going down and that makes us happy. Looks like there will be just 1-2 that I will be packing and the rest will be burned. We have a couple of months yet to go but I still have a few so no worries. I will be burning them daily and nightly for you my sweet precious son. I will whisper to you later this evening so smile for Mom and I will smile for you. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I would love it. Always know that Mom misses you like crazy and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom needs to get going as the pups are going nuts as they want their food...lol Have fun tonight while I get some rest. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Your word, O Lord, is eternal; it stands firm in the heavens. Your faithfulness continues through all generations; you established the earth, and it endures. Your laws endure to this day, for all things serve you. Psalm 119:89–91, NIV
Lord God, we thank you for your Word, greatest and most glorious of all that comes to our human life. Every day we want to find more joy in your help, in what you are doing for us. Again and again we feel and rejoice in the new help, new strength, and new courage for life given by your Word. We seek and seek to find Jesus Christ, the eternal Life. He will surely come to establish your kingdom. Praise to your name, eternal, glorious, almighty God! Be with us poor, lowly people. Strengthen us in spirit, and enable us to persevere until everything is fulfilled that is promised by your Word. Amen.
Thursday, July 25, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom wishes I could say that I am doing good but honestly my stomach has been doing flip flops all afternoon and I am not feeling the greatest. I wanted to stop on by and write to you even if it is just for a few minutes instead of not writing to you at all. It is already after 4 pm and Mom really has not done a darn thing at all. I spoke to Grandpa earlier today. Him and Debbie are coming down for a visit for 1 day at the beginning of August. It will be nice to see them for a few hours. I also spoke to Meme briefly. She was on her lunch break so she said she would call me later tonight. I think everyone ( Mark, Mom, Meme, Bob) are all getting really stressed out now. We are 80 days out from moving and we still have so much to do! I know Mom is feeling it. I am seeing that my temper is coming out and my fuse is short with folks. That is not me at all but I am just going in so many different directions right now. I sure wish I could talk to you and hear your voice. I miss you so much. I think Mom is emotional as well because Monday the 29th you would have been celebrating your 29th Birthday. These kinds of days are never easy for Mom now. It used to be about celebrating you and your special day and now it is another reminder, not like I need more, that you are no longer here. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Your candle has been lit since about 11 am. I whispered to you so I hope you heard Mom. I will whisper to you again later this evening as well. Smile for me and I will smile for you. Mom doesn't have any updates for you at all right now but maybe in a couple days I will. I sure hope you have fun later this evening doing all kinds of neat and wonderful things while Mom is trying to get some sleep. Lately, I keep having nightmares. I hope they stop soon. I don't like them at all. I am hoping to get some study time in tomorrow if I am feeling better! Fingers are crossed. Mom is not going to write a long letter today just because of the time and how I feel. I will be back tomorrow though. I am sorry about today's letter. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is today's prayer:
TODAY, JULY 25, 2019
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom wishes I could say that I am doing good but honestly my stomach has been doing flip flops all afternoon and I am not feeling the greatest. I wanted to stop on by and write to you even if it is just for a few minutes instead of not writing to you at all. It is already after 4 pm and Mom really has not done a darn thing at all. I spoke to Grandpa earlier today. Him and Debbie are coming down for a visit for 1 day at the beginning of August. It will be nice to see them for a few hours. I also spoke to Meme briefly. She was on her lunch break so she said she would call me later tonight. I think everyone ( Mark, Mom, Meme, Bob) are all getting really stressed out now. We are 80 days out from moving and we still have so much to do! I know Mom is feeling it. I am seeing that my temper is coming out and my fuse is short with folks. That is not me at all but I am just going in so many different directions right now. I sure wish I could talk to you and hear your voice. I miss you so much. I think Mom is emotional as well because Monday the 29th you would have been celebrating your 29th Birthday. These kinds of days are never easy for Mom now. It used to be about celebrating you and your special day and now it is another reminder, not like I need more, that you are no longer here. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Your candle has been lit since about 11 am. I whispered to you so I hope you heard Mom. I will whisper to you again later this evening as well. Smile for me and I will smile for you. Mom doesn't have any updates for you at all right now but maybe in a couple days I will. I sure hope you have fun later this evening doing all kinds of neat and wonderful things while Mom is trying to get some sleep. Lately, I keep having nightmares. I hope they stop soon. I don't like them at all. I am hoping to get some study time in tomorrow if I am feeling better! Fingers are crossed. Mom is not going to write a long letter today just because of the time and how I feel. I will be back tomorrow though. I am sorry about today's letter. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is today's prayer:
TODAY, JULY 25, 2019
May the favor of the Lord our God rest on us; establish the work of our hands for us – yes, establish the work of our hands. Psalm 90:17, NIV
Dear Father in heaven, Creator of what is good, beautiful, and full of joy so that all may work in harmony with you, we thank you for all the good that comes to us. May we be your children, joined together to serve you. May our life bring joy to others, and may we do good without ceasing through your great, strong love, which moves us, strengthens us, and helps us every day, however hard life may be. May your name be praised throughout the world. May your kingdom come and your will be done on earth as in heaven. Amen.
Wednesday, July 24, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright today. Been up since 7:30 am and I have got a lot accomplished already. Mom was able to do laundry, fold it and put it away, mopped the floors, dusted, vacuumed the floors, got ready and have something to eat all by 12 noon. Now I have been taking phone calls, sending emails and text messages too. I decided to take a break from it and write to you. I am sorry that you didn't get a letter yesterday but honestly, Mom was in no mood to do anything let alone get on her computer and write when my head was not in the right place. Yesterday just seemed like a bad day from start to finish. Nothing seemed to go right and Mom was just in a bad mood. It seems that we get 10 steps ahead of the whole house process just to have 5 steps taken back right after. This whole buying a house process is long and not easy at all. There is so much to know and so many fees, etc.... It definitely is a learning experience for the both of us that is for sure. Grandpa even called last night and Mom let the answering machine go. I just didn't want him to know how "ugly" of a mood I was in. I will return his call tonight though. I did feel bad but he didn't need to hear my frustrations. Mark was busy playing all night long on his computer to even bother to realize I was upset. I sat quietly and just watched TV with the pups cuddled up next to me. I can tell you that today is a better day. Mom was able to get some solid sleep last night and I woke up feeling better. I don't usually have days like yesterday but when I do I like to just take the day and chill out. I know you understand me and I know I don't have to explain myself but I wanted to. I know you see everything now. You know what I have been dealing with and going through for the last 8 weeks. I know you don't judge me and you are probably mad at me for coming down so hard on myself. The guilt is real and I try so hard to just relax but you know that is not Mom. I am better than I ever was before but I am definitely not where I need to be. I still have a lot of work to do in this category. Anyways..... Today is such a beautiful day weather wise. The sun is shining bright, the door is open and the AC has not turned on at all! The sky is blue and hardly any clouds. Just a gorgeous summer day! Mom is hoping that I might see a painting in the sky tonight. I will be looking! Not much for updates for you in the last couple of days. I have spoken to Meme but nothing new there. She is stressed out about selling things, packing things, work, Bob, Skittles, etc.... I wish I could help her in a way but I know that she has to do all this on her own. It is a learning thing for her as well as for us all. We have a bit of a heads up on it as we moved last year and we have moved long distance twice now but it still won't be easy at all. Mark and Mom will start the process in about 1 month. Wish us luck with that! Mom will update you on things when I get to know.
With a new move, a new home, a new state to live in...Mom was thinking of changing things up a bit and has decided to cut her hair. I have had long hair for over 35 years but I think it is time to shake things up. I am looking at new styles that would look good on me. Anything that you can think of send my way! I need all the help I can get...lol! That is all I have for you today. Your candle was lit about 3 hours ago. I will whisper to you later tonight like I always do. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. I love you more than all the stars in the sky at night. I miss you more than words can say. You will forever be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you, I promise! Have fun tonight while Mom sleeps. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright today. Been up since 7:30 am and I have got a lot accomplished already. Mom was able to do laundry, fold it and put it away, mopped the floors, dusted, vacuumed the floors, got ready and have something to eat all by 12 noon. Now I have been taking phone calls, sending emails and text messages too. I decided to take a break from it and write to you. I am sorry that you didn't get a letter yesterday but honestly, Mom was in no mood to do anything let alone get on her computer and write when my head was not in the right place. Yesterday just seemed like a bad day from start to finish. Nothing seemed to go right and Mom was just in a bad mood. It seems that we get 10 steps ahead of the whole house process just to have 5 steps taken back right after. This whole buying a house process is long and not easy at all. There is so much to know and so many fees, etc.... It definitely is a learning experience for the both of us that is for sure. Grandpa even called last night and Mom let the answering machine go. I just didn't want him to know how "ugly" of a mood I was in. I will return his call tonight though. I did feel bad but he didn't need to hear my frustrations. Mark was busy playing all night long on his computer to even bother to realize I was upset. I sat quietly and just watched TV with the pups cuddled up next to me. I can tell you that today is a better day. Mom was able to get some solid sleep last night and I woke up feeling better. I don't usually have days like yesterday but when I do I like to just take the day and chill out. I know you understand me and I know I don't have to explain myself but I wanted to. I know you see everything now. You know what I have been dealing with and going through for the last 8 weeks. I know you don't judge me and you are probably mad at me for coming down so hard on myself. The guilt is real and I try so hard to just relax but you know that is not Mom. I am better than I ever was before but I am definitely not where I need to be. I still have a lot of work to do in this category. Anyways..... Today is such a beautiful day weather wise. The sun is shining bright, the door is open and the AC has not turned on at all! The sky is blue and hardly any clouds. Just a gorgeous summer day! Mom is hoping that I might see a painting in the sky tonight. I will be looking! Not much for updates for you in the last couple of days. I have spoken to Meme but nothing new there. She is stressed out about selling things, packing things, work, Bob, Skittles, etc.... I wish I could help her in a way but I know that she has to do all this on her own. It is a learning thing for her as well as for us all. We have a bit of a heads up on it as we moved last year and we have moved long distance twice now but it still won't be easy at all. Mark and Mom will start the process in about 1 month. Wish us luck with that! Mom will update you on things when I get to know.
With a new move, a new home, a new state to live in...Mom was thinking of changing things up a bit and has decided to cut her hair. I have had long hair for over 35 years but I think it is time to shake things up. I am looking at new styles that would look good on me. Anything that you can think of send my way! I need all the help I can get...lol! That is all I have for you today. Your candle was lit about 3 hours ago. I will whisper to you later tonight like I always do. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. I love you more than all the stars in the sky at night. I miss you more than words can say. You will forever be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you, I promise! Have fun tonight while Mom sleeps. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. Hebrews 10:35–36, NIV
Lord our God, we bow down before you in this time when you have brought us hardships and judgment. Change this earthly age, we beseech you. Bring in something from heaven so that your will may be done and your mercy come to all nations. Strengthen us on all our ways, we pray. We thank you for all you have done for us. May your name be praised and glorified at all times. We want to follow you and to remain in your heavenly life. Amen.
Monday, July 22, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! Happy Monday to you. Hope you are doing all kinds of neat things wherever you may be. Today has been a pretty good day for Mom considering that I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. I was able to do some housework, collect the garbage, sort out some stuff to donate, do laundry and now I am writing to you. A few emails came in today with good news so that was awesome! The rest of my day will be doing this letter and then doing a bit of relaxing. Mark has been working all day and now he is gone to his PT appointment. He will be back in an hour or so.
The weather was really brutal Friday-Sunday and today it is as well but we are going to be getting some rain again here soon. It rained earlier as well. Tomorrow looks like the same thing except we will be 30 degrees cooler. Mom has her nail appointment in the morning and I will be going to do a bit of shopping after but I will be back in the afternoon to write to you so don't you worry!
Last night Mom spoke to Meme for a while and then we had dinner, did the dishes, and then Mark and Mom played a video game together....Angry Birds....lol! We had so much fun and we laughed. It was a good time. We decided to go to bed around 10 pm so we could get some sleep. Mark slept well and so did the pups but as I said above, Mom didn't. I will tonight though.
I spoke to Debbie for a bit today. It was nice to catch up with her. Grandpa had a rough night of no sleep so he was still sleeping at noon time. Poor guy. He has to take a sleeping pill and when he takes it, he fights it and ends up staying awake. Hopefully in the next few months he can start getting better sleep and relax a lot more after he retires and then moves. Bob was not doing better at all yesterday. I kindly reminded him that he needs to stay hydrated and eat plus also take care of himself. He really worries all of us a lot of the time. Everyone else seems good. I will touch base with Aunt Beck this week as I believe that next week she is on a plane to Italy for a couple weeks! Never heard from Bean and I messaged her again. Oh well. Not much I can do about it. Mom will update you as I know of things.
Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to do the rest of my studying as everything with the home should be at a stand still for now until the appraisal and then closing. Not much left to do except book a few things and that won't happen until the beginning of September or when we leave. This is really getting real now. The countdown is at 81 days....less than 3 months now. That is crazy. We started this whole process back in April. At that point we had over 7 months. Time is flying that is for sure.
Mom has started a new candle today for you and it has been burning bight for the last 3 hours. That is the last of the smaller candles that I have, The rest are bigger but I honestly do not have many at all now which is great. I do believe they will all be gone except one before we start packing things. Mom is keeping a candle so that I can light it the very first night we get there for you. We won't have our belongings yet but I will have that candle....lol! I think Mom is planning to start packing things up in the middle of August of all the things we do not use or touch on a daily basis. Going to get a head start so there is no stress. First of September we will be starting to put our stuff we want to sell up on a few sites. Hopefully we can sell it to make a few dollars for our flights and rental car. We will see!
Well, Mom is going to finish this letter up to you and go sit with the pups as they are going crazy because Mark is gone. If Mom sits with them they are better. I will whisper to you later so smile for me and I will smile to you. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Have fun while I get some much needed sleep! I miss you like crazy, Tyler. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow my sweet precious son..... good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi pumpkin! Happy Monday to you. Hope you are doing all kinds of neat things wherever you may be. Today has been a pretty good day for Mom considering that I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. I was able to do some housework, collect the garbage, sort out some stuff to donate, do laundry and now I am writing to you. A few emails came in today with good news so that was awesome! The rest of my day will be doing this letter and then doing a bit of relaxing. Mark has been working all day and now he is gone to his PT appointment. He will be back in an hour or so.
The weather was really brutal Friday-Sunday and today it is as well but we are going to be getting some rain again here soon. It rained earlier as well. Tomorrow looks like the same thing except we will be 30 degrees cooler. Mom has her nail appointment in the morning and I will be going to do a bit of shopping after but I will be back in the afternoon to write to you so don't you worry!
Last night Mom spoke to Meme for a while and then we had dinner, did the dishes, and then Mark and Mom played a video game together....Angry Birds....lol! We had so much fun and we laughed. It was a good time. We decided to go to bed around 10 pm so we could get some sleep. Mark slept well and so did the pups but as I said above, Mom didn't. I will tonight though.
I spoke to Debbie for a bit today. It was nice to catch up with her. Grandpa had a rough night of no sleep so he was still sleeping at noon time. Poor guy. He has to take a sleeping pill and when he takes it, he fights it and ends up staying awake. Hopefully in the next few months he can start getting better sleep and relax a lot more after he retires and then moves. Bob was not doing better at all yesterday. I kindly reminded him that he needs to stay hydrated and eat plus also take care of himself. He really worries all of us a lot of the time. Everyone else seems good. I will touch base with Aunt Beck this week as I believe that next week she is on a plane to Italy for a couple weeks! Never heard from Bean and I messaged her again. Oh well. Not much I can do about it. Mom will update you as I know of things.
Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to do the rest of my studying as everything with the home should be at a stand still for now until the appraisal and then closing. Not much left to do except book a few things and that won't happen until the beginning of September or when we leave. This is really getting real now. The countdown is at 81 days....less than 3 months now. That is crazy. We started this whole process back in April. At that point we had over 7 months. Time is flying that is for sure.
Mom has started a new candle today for you and it has been burning bight for the last 3 hours. That is the last of the smaller candles that I have, The rest are bigger but I honestly do not have many at all now which is great. I do believe they will all be gone except one before we start packing things. Mom is keeping a candle so that I can light it the very first night we get there for you. We won't have our belongings yet but I will have that candle....lol! I think Mom is planning to start packing things up in the middle of August of all the things we do not use or touch on a daily basis. Going to get a head start so there is no stress. First of September we will be starting to put our stuff we want to sell up on a few sites. Hopefully we can sell it to make a few dollars for our flights and rental car. We will see!
Well, Mom is going to finish this letter up to you and go sit with the pups as they are going crazy because Mark is gone. If Mom sits with them they are better. I will whisper to you later so smile for me and I will smile to you. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Have fun while I get some much needed sleep! I miss you like crazy, Tyler. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow my sweet precious son..... good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
You are those who have stood by me in my trials. And I confer on you a kingdom, just as my Father conferred one on me, so that you may eat and drink at my table in my kingdom Luke 22:28–30a, NIV
Lord our God, we thank you that we may be your children and that we may hope in your Spirit. Your Spirit rules us as people whom you want to draw to yourself, as people who may serve you in their lives here on earth. Grant that we may be childlike, so that your Spirit can rule us more and more and what is good may come to many people in all places. May many come to know that their lives are not merely temporal. May they realize that they can live and act in you, and through you may experience the good that is to come to all nations on earth. Amen.
Sunday, July 21, 2019
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday morning? Mom is so sorry that I have not written to you in 2 days. That never happens at all but Friday was so busy. Mom was on the phone, emailing, texting like crazy about the house and before I knew it it was after 5 pm and Mom and Mark didn't eat until almost 7 pm that night. It was crazy busy. I relaxed Friday night while Mark played his computer game with his brothers and then I went to bed at 10 pm because I was so tired. Saturday was a day where Mom did a few things around the apartment, made a salad to go with dinner and then I actually talked on the phone with Marion and Charlie for over 2 hours. By that time it was 2 pm and Mom took a shower and then lounged on the couch all day long. I never turned on or went into my office at all. I need one day a week to do nothing so that I can recharge. Saturday seems to be that day. Mark literally played his video game again with his brothers all day from 11 am - 5 pm. Today, Mom was suppose to go grocery shopping and get her nails done but I had to cancel my appointment because Meme called and we chatted for far too long and I hadn't even gotten ready so I would have never made it in time...lol. I didn't mind. Meme needed to talk so I was there for her. I remade my appointment for Tuesday so it is no biggie and I got up this morning and did the grocery shopping online and they will be delivered tonight. It all worked out. The last 3 days have been so brutally hot. The temp is 99 degrees but with the dew point over 70 and the humidity the heat index is 109-110 degrees. It really is nasty. It will break tomorrow though and be around 85 degrees and Tuesday it will be only 69 degrees. Both of those days it will be raining though. We need it after all this hot sun! We have all our blinds closed in the apartment to keep the sun from coming in. The AC has been running overtime that is for sure. We haven't been using any lights, the stove or anything to make things hotter. We are staying as cool as we can though. The pups are quiet. Friday night there was the most amazing sunset. Mom took a ton of pictures and I was just in awe of the colors that were in the sky. You were definitely busy with your paint brushes. Mom will post a picture or 2 on here today. I looked last night but there was really no sunset at all. It was hazy from the heat. I will look again tonight to see if there is anything but I can bet it will be like last night too. It is okay because Friday's was stunning. Thank you for that. I think Mom needed it after her busy week. I enjoyed every minute of watching the colors change. It made me smile!
Mom really has nothing to do today at all. I have vacuuming the floors but that will take about 10 minutes. The rest of the day will be again relaxing and doing nothing at all! Tomorrow is Monday so it will be back to the grind with Mark working, Mom getting things together for the home and trying to get some studying in as well. One lesson to go, 6 projects and the final. I would love to see it done this week but I know that won't happen. Mom is going to try though. I know you will be with me so that will help! Tonight will be a night of possible skyping with Tubal and Karen and then watching TV. Not much, laying low and staying cool. Oh yeah... I have groceries coming too.... no biggie!
Meme did her yard sale yesterday. She said not many came because of the weather and I can believe that. I wouldn't be out in it if I didn't have to be! She said she sold a few things. She was discouraged but I told her not to be. She will be donating all her furniture to a place that sells it and donates that money to CHAD at Dartmouth Hospital. I think that is so sweet and I know you are smiling about that. The other odds and ends that didn't sell she is going to see if someone will buy it in bulk and if not then she will donate that stuff too to another place for charity. Mom is very proud of her. She is working hard and doing good. She gets angry and frustrated but I keep reminding her of the end result and where we will be! Bob had a very rough day yesterday. He didn't eat that much and he passed out on Meme 2 times. That was scary for her. Both times it happened someone was there looking at their stuff and they helped Meme. I sure hope that he knows what he is doing with wanting this next surgery and I am praying that it will help him in the long run. I know you are with them, Tyler and Mom thanks you from the bottom of my heart. Soon I will be there to help her and she won't be alone. That will make me feel better. I guess Skittles is not doing good either. Meme said that he is not eating, he is having tummy issues and he is losing weight rapidly. That doesn't sound good at all. Mom is wondering if he is going to make the trip in October or if we will be saying our goodbyes to him before. He is 14 years old and he has back issues and breathing issues because of allergies. If it is his time to cross the rainbow bridge then I hope you come and get him so that he will be with you, Daisy, Spencer, Baxter, Ziggy, Snapples, Max and Snickers. He deserves to run free and be healthy and happy just like you all are now. He will be missed when he does leave us but we know it will be better in the long run for him. Mom doesn't want to see him suffer anymore than he is already. Do what you feel is right for that little guy, Tyler. We all trust you. Thanks pumpkin.
Mom will light your candle in a bit. Looks like another one will need to be started because this one is almost done. That will be the 3rd candle in 2 weeks. Not bad. Mom is burning them so I don't have to pack them...lol. I will whisper to you later tonight as well so smile when you hear Mom and I will smile back to you. Have fun tonight when the stars come out and Mom is sleeping. Visit me in my dreams if you can. I miss you beyond anything in this world and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back again tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.....enjoy your day doing all the things you love and need to do and tonight I will whisper to you good night and sweet dreams. Mom is off to do the little bit that I have to and then I am going to relax all day and night. Until tomorrow my sweet precious son.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday morning? Mom is so sorry that I have not written to you in 2 days. That never happens at all but Friday was so busy. Mom was on the phone, emailing, texting like crazy about the house and before I knew it it was after 5 pm and Mom and Mark didn't eat until almost 7 pm that night. It was crazy busy. I relaxed Friday night while Mark played his computer game with his brothers and then I went to bed at 10 pm because I was so tired. Saturday was a day where Mom did a few things around the apartment, made a salad to go with dinner and then I actually talked on the phone with Marion and Charlie for over 2 hours. By that time it was 2 pm and Mom took a shower and then lounged on the couch all day long. I never turned on or went into my office at all. I need one day a week to do nothing so that I can recharge. Saturday seems to be that day. Mark literally played his video game again with his brothers all day from 11 am - 5 pm. Today, Mom was suppose to go grocery shopping and get her nails done but I had to cancel my appointment because Meme called and we chatted for far too long and I hadn't even gotten ready so I would have never made it in time...lol. I didn't mind. Meme needed to talk so I was there for her. I remade my appointment for Tuesday so it is no biggie and I got up this morning and did the grocery shopping online and they will be delivered tonight. It all worked out. The last 3 days have been so brutally hot. The temp is 99 degrees but with the dew point over 70 and the humidity the heat index is 109-110 degrees. It really is nasty. It will break tomorrow though and be around 85 degrees and Tuesday it will be only 69 degrees. Both of those days it will be raining though. We need it after all this hot sun! We have all our blinds closed in the apartment to keep the sun from coming in. The AC has been running overtime that is for sure. We haven't been using any lights, the stove or anything to make things hotter. We are staying as cool as we can though. The pups are quiet. Friday night there was the most amazing sunset. Mom took a ton of pictures and I was just in awe of the colors that were in the sky. You were definitely busy with your paint brushes. Mom will post a picture or 2 on here today. I looked last night but there was really no sunset at all. It was hazy from the heat. I will look again tonight to see if there is anything but I can bet it will be like last night too. It is okay because Friday's was stunning. Thank you for that. I think Mom needed it after her busy week. I enjoyed every minute of watching the colors change. It made me smile!
Mom really has nothing to do today at all. I have vacuuming the floors but that will take about 10 minutes. The rest of the day will be again relaxing and doing nothing at all! Tomorrow is Monday so it will be back to the grind with Mark working, Mom getting things together for the home and trying to get some studying in as well. One lesson to go, 6 projects and the final. I would love to see it done this week but I know that won't happen. Mom is going to try though. I know you will be with me so that will help! Tonight will be a night of possible skyping with Tubal and Karen and then watching TV. Not much, laying low and staying cool. Oh yeah... I have groceries coming too.... no biggie!
Meme did her yard sale yesterday. She said not many came because of the weather and I can believe that. I wouldn't be out in it if I didn't have to be! She said she sold a few things. She was discouraged but I told her not to be. She will be donating all her furniture to a place that sells it and donates that money to CHAD at Dartmouth Hospital. I think that is so sweet and I know you are smiling about that. The other odds and ends that didn't sell she is going to see if someone will buy it in bulk and if not then she will donate that stuff too to another place for charity. Mom is very proud of her. She is working hard and doing good. She gets angry and frustrated but I keep reminding her of the end result and where we will be! Bob had a very rough day yesterday. He didn't eat that much and he passed out on Meme 2 times. That was scary for her. Both times it happened someone was there looking at their stuff and they helped Meme. I sure hope that he knows what he is doing with wanting this next surgery and I am praying that it will help him in the long run. I know you are with them, Tyler and Mom thanks you from the bottom of my heart. Soon I will be there to help her and she won't be alone. That will make me feel better. I guess Skittles is not doing good either. Meme said that he is not eating, he is having tummy issues and he is losing weight rapidly. That doesn't sound good at all. Mom is wondering if he is going to make the trip in October or if we will be saying our goodbyes to him before. He is 14 years old and he has back issues and breathing issues because of allergies. If it is his time to cross the rainbow bridge then I hope you come and get him so that he will be with you, Daisy, Spencer, Baxter, Ziggy, Snapples, Max and Snickers. He deserves to run free and be healthy and happy just like you all are now. He will be missed when he does leave us but we know it will be better in the long run for him. Mom doesn't want to see him suffer anymore than he is already. Do what you feel is right for that little guy, Tyler. We all trust you. Thanks pumpkin.
Mom will light your candle in a bit. Looks like another one will need to be started because this one is almost done. That will be the 3rd candle in 2 weeks. Not bad. Mom is burning them so I don't have to pack them...lol. I will whisper to you later tonight as well so smile when you hear Mom and I will smile back to you. Have fun tonight when the stars come out and Mom is sleeping. Visit me in my dreams if you can. I miss you beyond anything in this world and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back again tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.....enjoy your day doing all the things you love and need to do and tonight I will whisper to you good night and sweet dreams. Mom is off to do the little bit that I have to and then I am going to relax all day and night. Until tomorrow my sweet precious son.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God. Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young – a place near your altar, Lord Almighty, my King and my God. Blessed are those who dwell in your house; they are ever praising you. Psalm 84:2–4, NIV
Lord God, our souls long for you and for your glory, for the day when it shall be said, "All is accomplished! Now your kingdom comes. Now your day appears. When we look back on all that has happened to us, everything becomes clear." We thank you that we can live without fear, again and again refreshed and renewed, waiting for the good you give on earth. Show us the way we have to go. Grant your blessing in our hearts so that in need and death, in fear and distress, we may always have light and strength. You are our salvation, Lord our God. From you comes the salvation of our souls. We trust you today and every day. We praise your name, and in you we hope for the day you hold in readiness for the whole world, the day when light will dawn in every heart. Amen.
Thursday, July 18, 2019
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