Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday early evening? Mom is doing alright. Today has flown by pretty fast for me. I have been busy on the phone most of the day but also emailing and text messaging as well. It is after 4:30 pm. Mark had to go to a customer site today and will be back there again tomorrow as well. He is at PT right now and will be home by 5 pm or a bit after. Mom was able to do a few things around the apartment this morning after lounging in bed for a bit. I made a potato salad to go with dinner as well. I spoke to Auntie Kristina, Aunt Beck and then multiple people in regards to the move. I am now getting around to writing to you and then I will have to get dinner for the pups and then dinner for Mark and I when he gets home.
Yesterday was a hard day for me and last night was even harder. Mom was not a person of many words at all. I stayed quiet for the most part but I did try to talk with Mark but he was busy with work all day and then with his brothers again after dinner for about 90 minutes. He came to bed around 9:30 pm and Mom decided to just go to bed. I wanted to say something but I really just bit my tongue and said nothing. I guess I am just tired of trying to get attention from Mark. It is work all week and then most nights and all weekend long is dedicated to him playing his video games with his brothers. There is about an hour of time for me and that is when we have dinner and then he is right back to his game. It gets sickening and frustrating to me but I am just being quiet and saying nothing. It really doesn't help at all because he really doesn't listen to me and if he does than it does no good. I think a person has to care for it to matter. I have mentioned it to him several times in the past how it bothers me and he does nothing to change so it is time for Mom to change and do something about it. What that plan is I haven't a clue right now but I will and very soon. I keep telling myself that maybe the move will change things for the better but I am not sure. At least then I will not be alone. I will have Meme and Bob to talk to and then 5 months later I will have Grandpa and Debbie as well. I look forward to that because it sure gets lonely not having anyone to talk to a lot of the time. I pray, I pray a lot that something will change. Just know that when you see Mom sad and hurting....I will be okay. I have been through worse. I will try to smile for you though. So days are harder than others but I do try.
A lot of family and friends posted very nice things to Mom's facebook page wishing you a Happy Heavenly Birthday. It was really sweet to read them all and Mom responded to each and every one of them. I hope all the messages that you saw made you smile that smile I miss so much. You are very loved. Mom loves you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Aunt Beck leaves this Saturday for Italy again. She will be gone for 2 weeks. We chatted on the phone for a bit today. She will keep me posted as to when she gets there. Her fight leaves at 10 pm US time and she arrives in Rome, Italy at 12 noon on Sunday. Long flight but she is looking forward to it. She will be exploring places that she didn't get to go to last year. I look forward to seeing pictures of her trip and hearing all about it when she returns home. I know you will be with her while she is traveling alone. Thank you! Meme is stressed out to the max. She is trying her best to work still, pack things up, sort things out and Bob just doesn't seem to be wanting to help her out. I am not sure why but that is what she is telling me. She asked me to chat with Bob to see what is going on. I told her I would but I don't know if it will help. Grandpa and Debbie will be here next Monday and leaving on Tuesday afternoon. It is a quick trip to say hello. It will be nice to see them as last time it was only for 3 hours and then they left to go home. Soon enough we won't have to do that because we will all be together. 73 days for us. It is coming fast! It will be another 7 months for Grandpa and Debbie. I think that is all the updates I have for you today. I am sure there will be more later this week. Thank you for letting me tell you how I feel on here. I know it should not be the place to air my "dirty laundry" but if you were here Mom would talk to you about it so that is why I feel the need to share everything with you. Writing also is like my personal journal. It helps me to not keep things bottled up inside. I thank everyone who continues to read my letters to you and follows me daily on here. After 6 years that sure means a lot to Mom.
I will light your candle right after I finish up here. I will whisper to you later as well so smile to Mom and I will smile to you. Have fun tonight while I get so sleep. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you but for now it is time to feed the pups and get things going for dinner. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. I miss you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline. 2 Timothy 1:7, NIV
Lord our God, we are your children. Hear all our concerns, we pray, for we want help from you, not from men, not from anything we can think or say. May your power be revealed in our time. We long for a new age, an age of peace in which people are changed. We long for your day, the day when your power will be revealed to poor, broken humankind. Be with us, and give our hearts what will remain with us, the strength and mercy of Jesus Christ. Amen.
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