Dear Tyler, 

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is doing better than yesterday but still not 100% yet. I am sorry I didn't write to you last night but Mom was so sick. I went to bed at 5:30pm. I knew something was off in the afternoon. I took a nap and when Mom woke up every hour just got worse and worse. I tried sleeping last night but no real luck as I was so uncomfortable. Mom was up at 7 am and came downstairs to feed the pups. I stayed downstairs for awhile and Mark suggested for me to take a hot shower. I felt better after that. I made something to eat and then paid bills. Mark was working, Bob was sitting outside so Mom and Meme decided to watch 2 Christmas movies. I snuggled up in a blanket with Ozzy and enjoyed the down time. Those ended after 3 pm so after that we just sat around before dinner. It was kind of a fend for yourself. Mark made Mom a grill cheese sandwich. It was good. My stomach is still not the best but it's better than last night for sure. Now we are all trying to relax and probably will watch a movie before going to bed. Mom is pretty tired so I hope I get some much needed to sleep. Tomorrow we are all supposed to go out and have a bit of fun. It is going to be 85 degrees. Back in New England they are looking at their first major snow storm. Depending on where you live, the snow totals could be 10-15" . They can have it! Mom will not miss it at all. I just hope that Grandpa, Debbie and the rest of our family and friends are safe. 
 Mom will call Grandpa tomorrow night to say hi. He never calls here anymore and I am not sure why. That saddens Mom. Maybe Mom will be able to get some answers to what is going on with that. Not much else to update you on as Mom has been under the weather. Hopefully I will have some for you in the next couple of days. I just wanted to write to you tonight a quick letter so that two nights didn't go by. Mom is going to end this letter though as I am going to go back to relaxing on the couch before going to bed in a little bit. Mom has lit your candle for the evening. I will whisper to you later this evening so smile for me and I will smile to you. I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart,mind,body and soul. Have fun tonight while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you pumpkin. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you my sweet precious son. Until then...good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Today is one of those days that I just have a hard time with. It is Thanksgiving day. Mom is very blessed and thankful for so many things in my life but today is just a day that I am ready for it to be over with completely. To say the least it has not been an enjoyable day at all. Mom was up early this morning as usual. Pups were fed, coffee was made and some of the prep for our dinner was done. Mom went upstairs to get ready and then back downstairs to finish things up. Meme and I were crazy busy while the Macy's Parade was on in the background. Mark was up and watching the parade and Bob was still sleeping. He woke up at 10 am. He said nothing to any of us. He walked right by, went and sat on the couch until it was time to eat our Thanksgiving Dinner, said nothing then either, finished and got up and went outside. Meme and Mom started cleaning up, doing dishes and putting everything away while Mark and Bob decided to go into the pool. Mom got very upset and decided while everyone was outside, I was going to stay inside where it was quiet and I didn't have to deal with any of the BS. Mom is trying so hard, Tyler. I really am but I have no patience or tolerance left in me. I am praying for someone to guide and help me too as I know I need it. I guess I am tired of busting my hump to get things done and no one really wants to help me. Meme does when she can and I appreciate it so much and I tell her but Bob does absolutely NOTHING! Mark works all the time and does a little something but not much either. I get that as he is the one supporting us all. Bob doesn't even talk to us. He says nothing. He just sleeps, eat, sleeps, eat, watches TV and then goes to bed. It is that way 7 days a week. Mom doesn't know what to do anymore. I have stayed silent as long as I can but I am at my boiling point after today. Mom remembers back to when I was a little girl or when you were with us all. Holidays were about family, being together and enjoying the time we had. There was football and laughing and food. Not anymore. I see pictures of friends that have that still and their families are still close. I envy them in ways. This year I know of a few families that are grieving the loss of their loved ones and I know that pain and wish it on no one. I guess as the years go by everything changes. I am learning to embrace certain things and then I am seeing and needing to learn to be more accepting. I miss you so much. It hurts extra during the holidays. I cried this morning just thinking about it. I had to get up and walk away. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. 
 Aunt Beck called earlier. We didn't stay on the phone that long. She was at John's daughters house for dinner with her family, John, Bean and Justin. Bean said one world to me and that was it. She said nothing to Meme. Aunt Beck said she would call me on Tuesday to chat. I called Grandpa but we didn't chat that long either. I called the home phone and I could tell he was out of breath because he had to run for it because Debbie wouldn't answer it. We spoke for maybe 10 minutes and then we hung up. I told him that I would call him tomorrow night to talk longer. Debbie is not communicating with Mom at all since that big blowup a couple weeks ago. I need to have a chat with Grandpa about this because if she is going to be this way every time there is a disagreement then they will have to rethink their move here. I will update you on that when I do have that talk. It won't be easy but it will be necessary. 
 Tonight was suppose to be about having dinner and then watching a movie all together but I think that will change too. Mom is really not up for it. I think it will be dinner and everyone can do what they want to do. For me it will be closing the door and watching a movie in the bedroom and then going to bed early. Mom is back to not sleeping all that much again. Tomorrow is what they call Black Friday. The biggest shopping day of the year to kick off the Christmas Holiday. Mom usually doesn't go out but I am thinking I might just to get out of the house. Maybe Mark and Mom can have some time away. We never had our date night last week so maybe it can be a date day tomorrow. We shall see.
 Mom will light a candle for you and all our family and friends that are with you. It will be burning bright for everyone. I will whisper to you later as well so smile for Mom and I will smile for you too. Have fun doing all the things you need to do and may want to do. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now, Mom is going to go enjoy some of the sunshine while it is still out. It will be setting in a couple hours as it is already after 3 pm.Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son....good night and sweet dreams later this evening. I love you unconditionally.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

 Watch, then, because you do not know when the master of the house is coming – it might be in the evening or at midnight or before dawn or at sunrise. If he comes suddenly, he must not find you asleep. What I say to you, then, I say to all: Watch! Mark 13:35–37, TEV

Lord Jesus, our Savior, we look upward to heaven, for you will come from heaven in the glory of the Father. May we remain true to our calling, watching and praying every day and every hour, waiting for you, who will bring into order everything on earth. Bless us and bless our land. Grant us the joy to see you working through your servants toward the salvation of the peoples. Be with us and bless us. May your living Word work in our hearts so that every Sunday, every festival, and every day from now on may be a day of joy. Protect us. Bless us. May your name be praised in our hearts! Amen.

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing better today and I am not so tired. I did get a bit of sleep last night which was nice. Hoping for more tonight as well. Today is the day before thanksgiving and it has been pretty quiet around here. Things have been calm for the most part. Mom was up early this morning as usual and I fed the pups and made coffee for everyone. I relaxed for a bit downstairs before making my way upstairs. I was able to put clothes away, make the bed, vacuum the carpets and get ready before Meme and Bob got back home. They went to the bank and post office. Mark has been working all day long. It is nice for him to have a quiet day as well. Everyone is on vacation this week. It is 3 pm right now and it is so silent. The only thing I can hear is Mom typing your letter. Bob is outside, Meme is downstairs and the pups are sleeping. Meme has already started to cook the turkey for tomorrows dinner. She said she will cook it for a few hours today and tonight and then the rest of the way in the morning. We should be eating by noon. Mom is in charge of all the sides. The potatoes, veggies, rolls, etc... That is a piece of cake. I will peel the potatoes in the morning so that I don't have to later on. I am sure we will be watching the Macy's Parade like we do every year. That will be nice. For the last 7 years it has just been Mark and Mom and we treat it like another day. Mom sure will be missing you my sweet precious son! 
 Yesterday, I was so tired while I was writing your letter. I had to get up and do things just so I wouldn't fall asleep. I took the pups for a walk, prepped dinner, did dishes and then fed the pups and took them for another walk. Around 7 pm I vacuumed and everyone decided that they were going to bed. Mark and I watched TV until 10 pm and then Mom fell asleep. I think Meme was in bed at 6:30 pm as she was so tired....lol. Bob went up shortly after. Guess he is back to sleeping all day long and not sleeping at night again. Not good but Mom is saying nothing. I am keeping my Mom shut. Tonight will be about dinner, walking the pups and then watching a TV show before going to bed. I know we will all be up early tomorrow morning...well everyone but Bob. Mom will make coffee and hot cocoa and maybe some muffins or french toast for breakfast. The rest of the day will be about eating, watching football and relaxing. Mom has not forgot the true meaning and I will be sure to count all my blessings as I do daily. I will write to you later that evening when everything is settled down. I will be writing it on my phone because I know I will not be turning my computer on at all. 
 Not much for updates at all. No one has called. Uncle Dick is still at rehab and not home yet. I see pictures of him and he is looking good! I know we will touch base with Aunt Beck, Grandpa and Bean tomorrow so I will let you know how everyone is then because right now I don't know. The issue that Mark and Mom are having has back fired in our face yet again. We thought we had the issue solved and it wasn't. We will be just taking it day to day for now. That is all that we can do. Things will be rough for awhile but we will manage. We always do. Please just be with us and watch over us. Mom and Mark need you now...we need you all the time. Thank you, pumpkin. It means a lot. Mom will still be praying to have things get better as well. I know the power of prayer works and I believe! 
 I am sure that you are busy doing so many things up there and where you are but if you can, come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. Have fun learning, doing things you need to do and also things you want to do. Continue to fly high and free. Give everyone hugs and kisses from Mom. I miss everyone so much! I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are and always will be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom is going to get going for now. I am going to take the pups for a nice walk and then it will be time for dinner. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

Good and upright is the Lord; therefore he instructs sinners in his ways. He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his way. Psalm 25:8–9, NIV

Lord our God, dear Father in heaven, we thank you that we may be your children, led by you. We thank you for guiding us in times of grief and never forsaking us. Now, as of old, you are with us, Lord our God, and you show us the way in every situation. Protect us in this present time, and grant us strength to go on patiently even when our lives hold much suffering and distress. We thank you for your guidance and rejoice in your help for our time. Reveal your hand in power, for soon, very soon, your right hand will change everything. Amen.

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I do have to say that I am really tired today. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night due to having an upset stomach until about 1:30 am. The cramps and pains were horrible. I think I finally fell asleep around 2 am and woke up at 6 am. About 4 hours of sleep and that is definitely not enough for Mom but it will have to do. I will be going to bed very early tonight to make sure that I get some sleep. Mark had to get up early for his cutover but something went wrong and that never happened. Mom fed the pups and made coffee and got the garbage gathered for the guy who will be here in a little bit. I came upstairs about 2 hours later and I called Auntie Kristina. She is doing okay. She was telling me that her dad was not doing well at all these days. He just is not bouncing back from the last time in the hospital. He is retaining a lot of fluid and has massive edema again, he is having trouble breathing due to his CHF and he is shaking a lot more now. He is having trouble with holding utensils and feeding himself. It is so sad but they are the same symptoms that Bob has as well. I told her that I will pray for her dad and the rest of her family. 
 It is after 1 pm and it is pretty quiet today. Mark is busy doing whatever he has to do for work, Bob hasn't slept in 2 nights and he is sitting outside, Meme is quiet as well...not sure why there and the pups are sleeping. Mom has been looking up things for her studies today and getting ideas and writing them down for her 1st project. I have done laundry as well and it is now drying. So far a productive day on my end even with being as tired as I am. Mom will probably relax after this for an hour or so before I need to prep the ham for dinner tonight. We are going to have salads. Something light and something easy. I am not all that hungry really today. I had cereal for brunch with a banana and that was it. I am pretty full right now so I don't even want to think about food for the moment. My eyes are so tired and heavy. I bet if I closed my eyes right here I would fall asleep. Every one else does it so why can't I? I just might do that after this! 
 Last night I spoke to Grandpa. He said he was doing good. It was a tense conversation though. He acted different than usual. He spoke about the weather, his VA appointment and the football game that was on the other night. That was about it. I brought up the conversation that was spoken between Debbie and I the other day but not much was said. Grandpa knows how I feel about it all. I told him I would call on Thanksgiving to say hello. It was a short chat. About 15 minutes and that was it. Debbie never said anything at all in the background and she always does. That was fine with me. Guess we will see how Thursdays call goes. Mom will fill you in on it later that evening. 
 Mom can't believe that thanksgiving is in 2 days. It is crazy to believe that. Christmas is now less than a month and New years is a month and 7 days. This time of the year is suppose to be joyful and fun. For Mom it is harder as this will be my 7 th set of holidays without you. It is not getting easier at all that is for sure. I miss you every minute of every hour of every day and the holidays make it much worse. I miss you like crazy my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I have a new candle to light for you tonight. I lit one last night and I guess that candle was done. When you see it, know that it is burning bright for you and all our family, friends and pets that are with you. I will whisper to you later this evening so smile for mom and I will smile to you. I hope you have fun doing all that you need to do and want to do. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks! Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now I think I am going to lay down and just take a short nap. I hope to feel better afterwards. Until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams later this evening.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is today's prayer:

Oh, that you would rend the heavens and come down, that the mountains would tremble before you! As when fire sets twigs ablaze and causes water to boil, come down to make your name known to your enemies and cause the nations to quake before you! Isaiah 64:1–2, NIV

Lord our God, in our times too you hear the prayers and cries of your children. We need to cry out, for humankind has not become your own but still lives in pain and under judgment, and many thousands have to die or undergo terrible things. They should be yours, every one of them. They should all be your children. So we cry out to you: Reveal and glorify your name on earth so that a new time may come and great wonders may be done by your hand. May your name be honored, your kingdom come, and your will be done on earth as in heaven. Amen.

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? It sure is a Monday! Nothing good comes out of the first day of the week....ugh! Mom actually slept pretty good last night. The pups are starting to recover nicely and they are not itching or scratching as much as they were. That is a good thing. We still don't know about Ozzy's ear infection. He seems to have more energy now so I think the medicine that they gave him is working. Hard to say though as it has only been 3 days. Mom will be monitoring him closely still. 
 I am very sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday. I wanted to but yesterday was a hard day. It started out good but slowly declined quickly. Mom was in the wrong and I made a nasty comment to Meme. She got very upset and went to her room to be alone. She wasn't talking so I decided to go in to speak to her and I noticed that she was crying. She told me that I hurt her feelings and she didn't deserve to be spoken to the way that I did to her. Mom felt really bad after. I did apologize and tried to talk to her but she really didn't want to. I think that was a slap in my own face and an eye opener for Mom. I need to be more understanding and see things through her eyes. She is having a hard time and she is not so young anymore. I am blessed to still have her and Grandpa with me and I need to make things right and better. I thought about that all afternoon and evening. I really wasn't in the mood to write a letter so I just stayed away from all electronics. I went to bed still upset with myself for what I did and a heavy heart. It was on my mind. I did wake up though rested and with a new outlook on things. As long as the house is cleaned and neat to our standards and if it isn't then I will just do it myself, then they can do what they want to. Bob can do nothing all day and I will try to help Meme out as much as I can. When I am not helping her then I will balance my days with school work and other things that need to get done such as cooking, cleaning, laundry and relaxing when I can. I think by having that mind set, things may get better and Meme will be more comfortable and happier. That was the whole goal after all with doing this whole move. 
 Today has been busy in ways. Mom was up at 7 am and I fed the pups and made coffee. I sat downstairs and relaxed for a bit as I was not feeling all that great this morning. I had a sore throat and headache. I feel better now and only a slight sore throat. I came upstairs about an hour later and made the bed, got ready and then went to the post office and to the grocery store. Meme needed a few things so I drove her there. We got back around 1 pm and we had some lunch. Mom came upstairs to her office nook after that and did a couple things that Mark asked me to do. The rest of the time I have been trying to help meme with an email and phone calls. That last 2 hours and we got no where with it so we will try again in the morning. Tuesday should be a fairly slow day where Mom can do some studying. Mark and Mom were hit pretty hard with a few things today. We are asking for help through prayers from you, the Angels and God to help see us through this ordeal. There will be extra prayers indeed too. Something will work out because it needs to or we are in trouble. Thank you for whatever you may be able to do for us my sweet precious son. It means a lot to Mom and Mark. 
 It is already after 4 pm and Mom needs to be getting her butt in gear and head downstairs to prep dinner for us all. Mark is on a conference call right now so he will be finished around 5:30 pm. He has another cutover at 6 am tomorrow morning. Guess for him it will be an early day. He will be done at 2 pm. The rest of the evening will be relaxing and just enjoying everyones company. Mom will light a candle when I go downstairs for you and I will whisper to you later this evening. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Have fun while I sleep tonight. Come visit me if you can. Thanks Ty! Always know that you are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you more than words can ever say or express. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Hopefully tomorrow I will have some updates for you. I called Grandpa but got his voicemail and I haven't heard from anyone else. It is sad but that is just the way it is I suppose. Okay, pumpkin...Mom is going to end this letter for tonight, change into something comfortable and go make dinner. Until tomorrow comes.....good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

 The Lord reigns, let the earth be glad; let the distant shores rejoice... The heavens proclaim his righteousness, and all peoples see his glory. Psalm 97:1, 6, NIV

Lord our God, we turn to you, for you are our help. Hear our prayer, we beseech you; let our cry rise to you so that you may send your mighty help in our generation. Continue to protect us from all evil, from death and destruction. Protect us because we are your children. As your children we turn to you, the almighty God, who can make everything work together for good. Be merciful to us, O Lord God. Help us for your name's sake. Help, Lord, for you alone can bring everything to a good end. So we stand before you in Jesus Christ, holding to every word you have given us and knowing for certain that you hear us. Amen.

Dear Tyler, 

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is doing better than I was a little bit ago. I will explain that it a few minutes on why. Mom was up early this morning and fed the pups and made coffee. Mark and Mom were able to have some quiet time together and we just talked about everything before starting our day. It was really nice! We don't get to do that much anymore. After about 2 hours...we got ready and decided to go to one of Mom's favorite stores. Everyone decided to go. We really had a good and fun time. We had a lot of laughs which was really good. Bob even laughed a lot today. We got some ice cream from a really friendly place. You would have loved it. We got home around 2:30 pm and we did a few things around the house. Meme did laundry and we vacuumed again just like the vet told us to do. Aunt Beck called tonight. That was a really nice surprise. She sounded good. She was happy that things are starting to settled down here. She said Bean was doing wel . She was working a lot of hours though. She will see her on Wednesday. We all had an early dinner tonight. Clean up and dishes were all done by 6 pm. Everyone is watching tv while Mon writes to you. This seems to be a regular thing these days. The pups are sleeping and doing much better today than yesterday. They are still itching and scratching but not half as much as the last few days. Hopefully they will be back to themselves in a couple days! Mom will keep you posted. 
 So, the reason why Mom is doing than earlier is because after we got home, I happened to see something that was written on Facebook by Megan. My heart broke because Mom read that Cassie, your friend lost her battle with cancer earlier this morning. She was such a sweetheart. So strong and a fighter. An inspiration to many just like you my sweet precious son. She was just 28 years old. She leaves behind her Mom, Dad, Sister, a niece and nephew plus several other family members and friends. I wrote something to her sister and something on my timeline. I told Cassie to find you and give you a big hug and kiss from me. She fought for so long. She battled cancer 3 times. She earned those Angel wings today. May she R.I.P. for eternal life now. Fly high and free with the rest of the Angels.  I am sure you will show her the ropes pumpkin. Mom is praying for her family and especially her Mom and Dad. They are now starting the journey of grief that Mom has been traveling since I lost you over 6.5 years ago. This is a journey that I wish no one ever. My heart hurts for everyone 💔
 Mom still has not spoken to Grandpa at all yet. I plan on calling him tomorrow night. We also have a Skype call with Tubal and Karen. We haven't done that in almost 8 weeks. That will be nice. I can't wait to talk to Grandpa. I miss him so much and love him. Mom is still upset with the whole thing but I will let it go. I will update you on things on Monday's letter. The rest of the evening will be relaxing and tomorrow we will be staying home and just doing nothing. Mom will make brunch and a salad for dinner as we will be grilling. Then it will be a day by the pool. This will be the first time since we moved here. It should be a fun day! 
 I think that is all for today though. Mom is going to join them in watching the 2nd episode of the show they are watching. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I will whisper to you later on tonight so smile for me and I will smile to you. I  miss you like crazy and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart,mind,body and soul. Have fun tonight while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you.  Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤🥰🖤🥰

Dear Tyler, 

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom is doing alright. I actually got some sleep last night which was a really nice change. Hoping for the same tonight. Thank you for helping me out my sweet precious son. It means a lot to me. 
 Today, Mom was up at 6 am. I stayed in bed until 7 am though. After that I came downstairs to feed the pups and make coffee. I sat in the sitting room for about an hour. I like doing that in the morning. It is a great way to just relax and gather my thoughts for the day. Around 8:30 am, I went upstairs and did a quick couple things in my office nook and then I got ready. Mom needed to be ready by 10:15 am. I had to drive Meme to her hair appointment. After that we met Mark and Bob at the vets so that Princess and Ozzy could be checked out. We were there all afternoon. We left there around 3 pm. The diagnosis was that both Princess and Ozzy are allergic to some kind of flea bites. The doctor said it is not uncommon here. On top of that, poor Ozzy has an ear infection. They are both on medication and if they don't get better within 3 days then they have to go back to be rechecked. If things are good then Ozzy has a recheck on his ear in 3 weeks. They are completely zonked out right now. They had a hard day for sure. Mark, Meme and Bob are watching their tv show while I am writing to you. It all works out for me. Mom never turned her PC computer on today so I am writing to you on my cell phone. I know it won't be long for us all to go to bed tonight. I think today wiped us all out. Tomorrow is Saturday and we plan on going out for a little bit during the day and then staying home the rest of Saturday and all day Sunday. I think if the weather is good then we are going to hang out by the pool for the first time since we moved here. Mom will write to you regardless of what we do. I will be starting to light a candle for you tomorrow night as well. I will whisper to you later on tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Please always know that I miss you so much. More than words can sa . Mom loves you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart,mind,body and soul. Mom hopes that you have fun tonight while I get so sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can tonight. Thank you. 
 Mom is going to get going for now. I will be back tomorrow so until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤

Dear Tyler, 

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is doing okay. Another busy day here for me with very little sleep again. Mom was wide awake at 5 am this morning and out of bed at 6:30 am. The pups were fed and coffee was made. Mom relaxed for a bit before it was time to head upstairs and get the day started. I was able to speak to Auntie Kristina for a bit. After that I made the bed and then took my shower. Lunchtime was right after that and then I decided to rearrange a few things and thought about moving my office from the nook to a real room but after measuring it out, the nook is 10x11 and the room is 9x12. I would gain a closet and a door to close but that's it and it didn't seem worth it at all. After 3 hours of cleaning, vacuuming and such, Mom decided against it and my nook is cozy. I just wish there was a bigger window for more sunlight but that is okay. Later, Mom paid bills and helped Meme place an order online. I even was able to relax for a few minutes. No one felt like making dinner so we ordered a pizza. It worked and it was good. Now everyone is watching a show on tv while I write to you. It will be over by 7:30  pm and by then Meme and Bob will be ready for bed. Mark and I will probably stay up later before calling it a night. Mom is hoping to get some sleep. Please help me out if you can. Thank you. 
 Mom hasn't spoken to Grandpa in over a week. It really sucks. I miss him a lot. I am still angry at Debbie though. I will call Grandpa this weekend to talk to him. No updates today though for you. Tomorrow Mark and Mom need the take the pups to the vet's. They are itching and scratching. They are all red and sore. They are allergic to something. Mom will let you know tomorrow what was said. Right now they are relaxing and sleeping. 
 Mom hopes that you have fun tonight doing all the things that you need and want to do while I am sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you. I will whisper to you later this evening so smile for me and I will smile to you. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart,mind,body and soul. 
 Mom is going to finish this up as the show is ending soon. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤

Dear Tyler, 

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom is so tired tonight after running around all day long and not sleeping again for the 3red night in a row...ugh! I really hope I get some sleep tonight because I really need it badly. 
Mom went to the post office today, ran errands, grocery shopped and the went and got her nails done. Left at 10 am and got home at 2 pm. After everything was put away it was after 4 pm and I should have been prepping for dinner but I decided not to even eat as I was so dang tired. Mark is on the phone with work still so that sucks. He hasn't even eaten dinner. This job is working him to the core. He works so much and gets paid for petty money. Each week it has been over 70 hours and he gets paid for 40. He is even working weekend too. I hope things let up for him and soon because if not he is well on his way to getting sick agai . His side hurts him like crazy. He needs to take better care of himself or he will land in the hospital again. Mom is done telling him though as he is an adult. Time will tell on this.
 Uncle Dick is being released from rehab on Monday. His insurance is kicking him out. Aunt Jacqui says it's too soon and he is not ready and neither is she for him to be home. She will have to start being ready. He doesn't need to be in rehab anymore. He needs to be home with her and his family. Mom got into a big argument yesterday with Debbie. I asked if her and Grandpa had thought of a date yet to move down here and she said the end of May. I flipped out because first it was March, then April and now May. I told her I was sick of them changing their minds and making the date further out. That was not the plan. We knew it would be a few months between us moving and them but not that much. We were all supposed to chip in and pay for things and that isn't happening. It will be 8 months before that happens. Mom is just at the point where she is about to tell them not to bother. I know it's not Grandpa doing it but Debbie is blaming it on him. Right now I don't even want to talk to her at all. I need to cool off. When I do though they will not like what I have to say but I am not going to lie to them either. The deal was that they got 2 rooms and now that they have broken the deal 3 times, Mom is taking one of the rooms for an office. If they come down then they will have 1 room. They can take it or leave it. I am sure they will be upset but not half of what Mom is 😢 
 It is after 6 pm. Mark is off the phone. Mom is going to spend some time with him before it's bedtime. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Mom is saying extra prayers tonight for Aunt Beck's friend, Kim who lost her Dad last night, my friend, Christina who lost her Dad either yesterday or today from cancer and Kristi and Sam as they lost their furbaby, Sarge this morning. Heavy heats tonight for sure 💔💔💔. 
 Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Know that I miss you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. I love you unconditionally. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Have fun tonight while Mom gets some sleep. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!