Sunday, November 17, 2019

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. It is so cold here today...lol. It is only 57 degrees. That is almost 35 degrees colder than what we have been used to in the last 5 weeks. I didn't think our bodies would acclimate so quickly but it has. This week it will get into the low 70's and then the following week it will be back in the 80's. That will be super nice. 
 Mom is so sorry that I didn't write to you last night but yesterday we all went out and did errands and then we went to Walmart and grocery shopping. We got home, had dinner, did a few odds and ends and Meme and Bob went to bed around 8 pm and mark and Mom watched a bit of TV and then we called it a night at 10 pm. Sometimes it is nice not to have to turn on any electronics. Saturday seems to be the day to do that so Mom will probably write you a short letter that day from her cell phone. Today, we did a few things in the morning and then we went out to brunch. We just got back home and Mom did laundry and vacuumed the entire house. Meme is cooking her famous pot roast and that is what we are having for dinner tonight with mashed potatoes, veggies and rolls. Mark is on the phone with his brother and of course, Bob is watching TV. Mom doesn't even watch TV hardly anymore and really I don't miss it. I think I just get upset when that is the only thing he does every day of the week besides eating and sleeping. We are all trying to get him to do things, anything during the week and he just doesn't want to at all. Mom is just getting really tired of it and I am not sure what to do. I voice it out loud but nothing changes. I love having them here with us but sometimes it is just tough for us all and I think we all would just like to go back to living alone. We are all trying hard to adjust to cohabituating. We will probably get the hang of it and then Grandpa and Debbie will be down here and we will all have to get used to 2 extra people....lol. Then the dynamics will change again. That won't happen for another 5 months though. Mom misses Grandpa a lot. Sometimes I wish he was here now so it would be easier and other times I am glad that he is not because neither of them had to deal with all the BS that has gone on in 5 weeks. Meme is doing a really good job though of going through all her stuff. She is finally down to the last little bit. I think that maybe she can get it done by this week and then both of Grandpa and Debbie's rooms will be empty for them. I am proud of everything that Meme has done. I know it wasn't easy and she threw out a lot of things here but it was necessary for her to do. I know she has things downstairs that she needs to do as well but that will be done in time. I wish she would have taken my advice and not packed it all. That way she would have had to never dealt with everything she has for the last month. Lessoned learned for her and for Mom. 
 Things for Mark and I are getting better. We have had a chance to chat about everything that happened this week and we have decided to change the way we do things. We need to and we need to be on the same page again. We will get there. I know we will. It will take effort and time. We got this. We are starting this week by choosing a date night for just him and I. That will be very nice. We will go out and do something, whether it is something small or big. Regardless, we will have a few hours together. Mom will keep you posted on all that.
 Not much else is going on. Uncle Dick is hanging in there. He will be in rehab for another 4 weeks. Cassie is still fighting and staying strong. I pray for everyone each night. I guess everyone else is doing well. I don't really talk to anyone. If I do I have to be the one to call. That is getting old again....just like before. We shall see just how much longer Mom will deal with it again. I would like to give the benefit of the doubt but I think I know better! 
 Tonight will be all about relaxing, watching some football and then eating dinner later on. Then it will be time to call Grandpa and then bed as tomorrow is Monday again. That means it is all about mark working, Mom getting her studies done and getting through this week. Next week is Thanksgiving. That is crazy just thinking about that. We are just 1 month and 8 days from Christmas and just 45 days from a brand new year. Soon it will be 2020. It will be 8 holidays without you and 7 years since I lost you my sweet precious son. I miss you beyond anything in this world. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be lighting your candle in a bit. I will whisper to you later this evening as well. Smile for me and I will smile for you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you after I do some studying. Have fun while I get some sleep and maybe if you can, you can come visit me in my dreams. I know you are busy but I would love it. Thank you, pumpkin. Mom needs to get going for now. Laundry is done and it is time to fold it plus soon it will be time to feed the pups. I will fill you in on who won the football games on tomorrows letter. I am sure the Patriots will win and the Cowboys will lose....lol. We shall see though! Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

What answer shall be given to the envoys of that nation? "The Lord has established Zion, and in her his afflicted people will find refuge." Isaiah 14:32, NIV

Lord our God, you are our refuge. We wait for you, for your purpose will never fail and your promise will be fulfilled. This we may firmly believe, and from this we may draw strength every day. Even when our life brings sorrow, we do not want to grieve. We want to hope and believe and endure until your day comes. Your kingdom will come on earth, and in the meantime you are watching over your people. In the midst of the world's daily affairs there will be people who hope in you, who belong to you, and who are firmly rooted in the grace of Jesus Christ until the time is fulfilled. Amen.

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