Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Today is one of those days that I just have a hard time with. It is Thanksgiving day. Mom is very blessed and thankful for so many things in my life but today is just a day that I am ready for it to be over with completely. To say the least it has not been an enjoyable day at all. Mom was up early this morning as usual. Pups were fed, coffee was made and some of the prep for our dinner was done. Mom went upstairs to get ready and then back downstairs to finish things up. Meme and I were crazy busy while the Macy's Parade was on in the background. Mark was up and watching the parade and Bob was still sleeping. He woke up at 10 am. He said nothing to any of us. He walked right by, went and sat on the couch until it was time to eat our Thanksgiving Dinner, said nothing then either, finished and got up and went outside. Meme and Mom started cleaning up, doing dishes and putting everything away while Mark and Bob decided to go into the pool. Mom got very upset and decided while everyone was outside, I was going to stay inside where it was quiet and I didn't have to deal with any of the BS. Mom is trying so hard, Tyler. I really am but I have no patience or tolerance left in me. I am praying for someone to guide and help me too as I know I need it. I guess I am tired of busting my hump to get things done and no one really wants to help me. Meme does when she can and I appreciate it so much and I tell her but Bob does absolutely NOTHING! Mark works all the time and does a little something but not much either. I get that as he is the one supporting us all. Bob doesn't even talk to us. He says nothing. He just sleeps, eat, sleeps, eat, watches TV and then goes to bed. It is that way 7 days a week. Mom doesn't know what to do anymore. I have stayed silent as long as I can but I am at my boiling point after today. Mom remembers back to when I was a little girl or when you were with us all. Holidays were about family, being together and enjoying the time we had. There was football and laughing and food. Not anymore. I see pictures of friends that have that still and their families are still close. I envy them in ways. This year I know of a few families that are grieving the loss of their loved ones and I know that pain and wish it on no one. I guess as the years go by everything changes. I am learning to embrace certain things and then I am seeing and needing to learn to be more accepting. I miss you so much. It hurts extra during the holidays. I cried this morning just thinking about it. I had to get up and walk away. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. 
 Aunt Beck called earlier. We didn't stay on the phone that long. She was at John's daughters house for dinner with her family, John, Bean and Justin. Bean said one world to me and that was it. She said nothing to Meme. Aunt Beck said she would call me on Tuesday to chat. I called Grandpa but we didn't chat that long either. I called the home phone and I could tell he was out of breath because he had to run for it because Debbie wouldn't answer it. We spoke for maybe 10 minutes and then we hung up. I told him that I would call him tomorrow night to talk longer. Debbie is not communicating with Mom at all since that big blowup a couple weeks ago. I need to have a chat with Grandpa about this because if she is going to be this way every time there is a disagreement then they will have to rethink their move here. I will update you on that when I do have that talk. It won't be easy but it will be necessary. 
 Tonight was suppose to be about having dinner and then watching a movie all together but I think that will change too. Mom is really not up for it. I think it will be dinner and everyone can do what they want to do. For me it will be closing the door and watching a movie in the bedroom and then going to bed early. Mom is back to not sleeping all that much again. Tomorrow is what they call Black Friday. The biggest shopping day of the year to kick off the Christmas Holiday. Mom usually doesn't go out but I am thinking I might just to get out of the house. Maybe Mark and Mom can have some time away. We never had our date night last week so maybe it can be a date day tomorrow. We shall see.
 Mom will light a candle for you and all our family and friends that are with you. It will be burning bright for everyone. I will whisper to you later as well so smile for Mom and I will smile for you too. Have fun doing all the things you need to do and may want to do. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now, Mom is going to go enjoy some of the sunshine while it is still out. It will be setting in a couple hours as it is already after 3 pm.Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son....good night and sweet dreams later this evening. I love you unconditionally.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

 Watch, then, because you do not know when the master of the house is coming – it might be in the evening or at midnight or before dawn or at sunrise. If he comes suddenly, he must not find you asleep. What I say to you, then, I say to all: Watch! Mark 13:35–37, TEV

Lord Jesus, our Savior, we look upward to heaven, for you will come from heaven in the glory of the Father. May we remain true to our calling, watching and praying every day and every hour, waiting for you, who will bring into order everything on earth. Bless us and bless our land. Grant us the joy to see you working through your servants toward the salvation of the peoples. Be with us and bless us. May your living Word work in our hearts so that every Sunday, every festival, and every day from now on may be a day of joy. Protect us. Bless us. May your name be praised in our hearts! Amen.