Friday, January 31, 2020
Dear Tyler
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom has been busy all day but before I get into that I wanted to tell you that I had every intention of writing to you yesterday but I was busy all day and into the night. By the time Mom finished everything it was after 9 pm and I was so tired. I crawled into bed around 9:45 pm and I was asleep by 10:15 pm. I only woke up twice during the night so I knew I was tired....lol
Yesterday, we all were up early and headed to a couple stores. We left at 9: 15 am and got home at 11:30 am. Mom put our stuff away and then took off once again to go grocery shopping. This time I was alone as Mark went to work and Meme and Bob had an appointment. Mom got back home around 1:45 pm and Mark and I had a late lunch. I saw that the 2 boxes that I ordered came in yesterday so after Mark finished work, we decided to put them together. Boy that sure was a comedy hour. We dated at 5:30 pm with the first one and finished around 6:45pm. We ventured upstairs to put the second one together and that was a bit harder. We finished a little after 9 pm. Meme had gone to bed and Bob was sleeping by 7 pm.
Today, Mom was up at 7 am. Fed the pups, went for their walk and then relaxed for a bit before going upstairs to rearrange my office as one of the pieces we put together last night was for my room. I started that process and finished at 1 pm. Came downstairs to get some lunch and then went back up to do a few more things. I got side tracked because Aunt Beck called me. We spoke for about 20 minutes. She told me some very exciting news. I won't share it right now because not a lot of people know as of yet but I know you know and you will be there a lot. I also know that you are happy for her and John as well. We are happy for them too.
Mom is writing to you on her cell phone because I needed to sit in a straight chair. After last night and this morning, Mom's back is hurting her so bad. I didn't want to sit at my computer so I am downstairs with the pups having some quiet time while everyone else is upstairs doing their own thing.
This weekend is going to be busy. Tomorrow we are going out to celebrate Meme's Birthday. It isn't until Monday but that's a work day for Mark so we are doing it a couple days before. Princess' Birthday is the same day as Meme's. I think that is so neat. We will celebrate hers on Monday though. Not sure where we are going though. We are leaving it up to Meme. Stay tuned for the details on Saturdays letter. Sunday is the Superbowl. Kick off is 6:25 pm. Mom has a bet going. I am rooting for KC Chiefs! They play against the 49ers. I will tell you if I won or not on Mondays letter. We are doing all kinds of game foods that day...bbq spare ribs, jalapeno poppers, onion rings, french fries, cheese, crackers and pepperoni, chips, dip and salsa and cake and ice cream for dessert. Should be fun but Mom will be missing you so much. You loved football and we always watch it together.
Updates: Mark, Meme, Mom and the pups are doing alright. Bob had a doctors appointment yesterday. That didn't go so well. What Aunt Beck and I had suspected for a while now had been told to Bob. He has been diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease. He goes back in 2 weeks to see this doctor again and to get more information. Mom will keep you updated as I know of things. Aunt Beck is great and so is Bean. Grandpa and Debbie are doing better. They keep busy and have changed a few things. That is good news and great to hear. Mom assumes that everyone else is doing alright even though we don't hear from them. No news is good news in my opinion. That is all I have for today. I am sure to have more over the next few days.
It is already after 4 pm and Mom needs to start prepping dinner for tonight. We are having stuff shells. Mark is almost done work as well and soon it will be time to feed the pups. Tonight, relaxing is on the agenda. Mom sure hopes that you have a good night doing all the things you need to do and want to do. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart,mind,body and soul. I will whisper to you later tonight and I will light your candle in a little bit. Please watch over us all. Thank you, Tyler. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom has been busy all day but before I get into that I wanted to tell you that I had every intention of writing to you yesterday but I was busy all day and into the night. By the time Mom finished everything it was after 9 pm and I was so tired. I crawled into bed around 9:45 pm and I was asleep by 10:15 pm. I only woke up twice during the night so I knew I was tired....lol
Yesterday, we all were up early and headed to a couple stores. We left at 9: 15 am and got home at 11:30 am. Mom put our stuff away and then took off once again to go grocery shopping. This time I was alone as Mark went to work and Meme and Bob had an appointment. Mom got back home around 1:45 pm and Mark and I had a late lunch. I saw that the 2 boxes that I ordered came in yesterday so after Mark finished work, we decided to put them together. Boy that sure was a comedy hour. We dated at 5:30 pm with the first one and finished around 6:45pm. We ventured upstairs to put the second one together and that was a bit harder. We finished a little after 9 pm. Meme had gone to bed and Bob was sleeping by 7 pm.
Today, Mom was up at 7 am. Fed the pups, went for their walk and then relaxed for a bit before going upstairs to rearrange my office as one of the pieces we put together last night was for my room. I started that process and finished at 1 pm. Came downstairs to get some lunch and then went back up to do a few more things. I got side tracked because Aunt Beck called me. We spoke for about 20 minutes. She told me some very exciting news. I won't share it right now because not a lot of people know as of yet but I know you know and you will be there a lot. I also know that you are happy for her and John as well. We are happy for them too.
Mom is writing to you on her cell phone because I needed to sit in a straight chair. After last night and this morning, Mom's back is hurting her so bad. I didn't want to sit at my computer so I am downstairs with the pups having some quiet time while everyone else is upstairs doing their own thing.
This weekend is going to be busy. Tomorrow we are going out to celebrate Meme's Birthday. It isn't until Monday but that's a work day for Mark so we are doing it a couple days before. Princess' Birthday is the same day as Meme's. I think that is so neat. We will celebrate hers on Monday though. Not sure where we are going though. We are leaving it up to Meme. Stay tuned for the details on Saturdays letter. Sunday is the Superbowl. Kick off is 6:25 pm. Mom has a bet going. I am rooting for KC Chiefs! They play against the 49ers. I will tell you if I won or not on Mondays letter. We are doing all kinds of game foods that day...bbq spare ribs, jalapeno poppers, onion rings, french fries, cheese, crackers and pepperoni, chips, dip and salsa and cake and ice cream for dessert. Should be fun but Mom will be missing you so much. You loved football and we always watch it together.
Updates: Mark, Meme, Mom and the pups are doing alright. Bob had a doctors appointment yesterday. That didn't go so well. What Aunt Beck and I had suspected for a while now had been told to Bob. He has been diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease. He goes back in 2 weeks to see this doctor again and to get more information. Mom will keep you updated as I know of things. Aunt Beck is great and so is Bean. Grandpa and Debbie are doing better. They keep busy and have changed a few things. That is good news and great to hear. Mom assumes that everyone else is doing alright even though we don't hear from them. No news is good news in my opinion. That is all I have for today. I am sure to have more over the next few days.
It is already after 4 pm and Mom needs to start prepping dinner for tonight. We are having stuff shells. Mark is almost done work as well and soon it will be time to feed the pups. Tonight, relaxing is on the agenda. Mom sure hopes that you have a good night doing all the things you need to do and want to do. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart,mind,body and soul. I will whisper to you later tonight and I will light your candle in a little bit. Please watch over us all. Thank you, Tyler. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤
Wednesday, January 29, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay today. It is another fast day though as it is already after 3:30 pm. Mom has been up since 7 am and as usual I fed the pups and got coffee on for Mark and Meme. I lounged downstairs for a bit this morning. I had breakfast early and then I was chatting with Meme before getting ready to start my day. After all that was done, Mom was able to touch base with a very sweet friend of mine, Matt. We talked on the phone for 2 hours. Mom had some lunch afterwards and then the cable guy came to check things out. He was here for about 30 minutes and changed out the service box that we had because it was showing that there was low activity. He showed Mom how to use everything and then he was on his way. Hopefully that will take care of the problem.
Everyone seems to be in a bad mood here. Mark has a headache from the dogs barking. I told him I would take care of them and he said no. I don't feel sorry for him at all. Meme is grumpy for whatever reason. Probably stressing over her house and Bob is sleeping and has been all morning and afternoon. He was up for maybe an hour to eat and that was it. Meme said something about him not feeling well. He was tired??? Not sure. Last night we watched a tv show and then a movie. It didn't get over until 9:45 pm. That is late for Meme and Bob so it might be that he got effected by that. I think tonight will be an early night for them both. Mark will play on his computer while Mom watches and catches up on her shows before bed. Tomorrow morning we are headed out to go to a couple stores. Mark and Mom wanted to do that in the afternoon but Meme wants to go so we have to go in the morning and be back by 1:30 pm so that she can take Bob to his doctors appointment. He is having a consult for another sleep study. He got a call yesterday to go have a pretty important test done and he told them on the phone that he wasn't going and he was refusing. Meme and I talked about this this morning. She was upset with him and I told her that he was an adult and he could do what he wanted even if that meant that others didn't agree with his decisions. We have to respect him for that. That is what Mom did with you when you got of age to make your own choices. I let you, I gave my opinion and when you made your decision, I supported you on it. That is what being an adult is all about. Having your own say in things when it comes to your own life. He goes to his PCP at the end of next month so I am sure she will say something to him but in the meantime it is the waiting game.
Not much else is really knew. Mom touched base with Marion this afternoon as I never hear from her first anymore. She was saying that Charlie spent the night in the hospital. I guess he was not feeling good yesterday morning and he went to the ER. They stayed there for 4-5 hours and then they released him as they found nothing wrong. They got home and a couple hours later he was having stomach pains and trouble breathing to where he really couldn't. Back to the ER again and they admitted him. The doctors still don't know what is happening but he is home now and relaxing. I told her to keep me posted on things but I have my doubts unfortunately that she will. I am not someone she confides in anymore at all. Guess as the saying goes...out of sight, out of mind. It has been that way for 6 years now. It hurts still and it sucks but nothing I can do. I don't really think I will ever see them again anyways. They won't ever come visit us here. They are headed on a cruise in 16 days. We had planned one with them over 3 years ago. They planned it with 4 other couples and excluded Mark and Mom from it. That was a slap in the face. Karma will come back and get them for all that they continue to do. Mom helped them both out so much in the past and to be treated this way by them hurt for a very long time. I know that you see what they are doing. You see it all. Just know that Mom is okay. It sucks from time to time when I get reminded of things but other than that I am handling it better then I have in the past.
No word on Debbie's nephew as of today. He is home I believe though. Mom will fill you in on that when I know. Nothing from Aunt Beck in a few days and I haven't spoken to Bean since Christmas and that was less then 5 minutes and before that it was almost a year. I kind of have given up on that whole thing too. She doesn't call and I don't try anymore. It is a shame but I am not wasting my energy and time on anyone...family or not family on ones that don't bother with me. I learned that lesson many many years ago.
Mom is hoping that you have a wonderful night doing all the things you want to and need to do. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I will be lighting your candle in my room tonight instead of downstairs. I will whisper to you later as well. I miss you beyond words and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon to write to you again. For now it is almost time to fed the pups their dinner, take them for a walk and then get dinner going for Mark and I. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son....please watch over us. Thank you. Good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay today. It is another fast day though as it is already after 3:30 pm. Mom has been up since 7 am and as usual I fed the pups and got coffee on for Mark and Meme. I lounged downstairs for a bit this morning. I had breakfast early and then I was chatting with Meme before getting ready to start my day. After all that was done, Mom was able to touch base with a very sweet friend of mine, Matt. We talked on the phone for 2 hours. Mom had some lunch afterwards and then the cable guy came to check things out. He was here for about 30 minutes and changed out the service box that we had because it was showing that there was low activity. He showed Mom how to use everything and then he was on his way. Hopefully that will take care of the problem.
Everyone seems to be in a bad mood here. Mark has a headache from the dogs barking. I told him I would take care of them and he said no. I don't feel sorry for him at all. Meme is grumpy for whatever reason. Probably stressing over her house and Bob is sleeping and has been all morning and afternoon. He was up for maybe an hour to eat and that was it. Meme said something about him not feeling well. He was tired??? Not sure. Last night we watched a tv show and then a movie. It didn't get over until 9:45 pm. That is late for Meme and Bob so it might be that he got effected by that. I think tonight will be an early night for them both. Mark will play on his computer while Mom watches and catches up on her shows before bed. Tomorrow morning we are headed out to go to a couple stores. Mark and Mom wanted to do that in the afternoon but Meme wants to go so we have to go in the morning and be back by 1:30 pm so that she can take Bob to his doctors appointment. He is having a consult for another sleep study. He got a call yesterday to go have a pretty important test done and he told them on the phone that he wasn't going and he was refusing. Meme and I talked about this this morning. She was upset with him and I told her that he was an adult and he could do what he wanted even if that meant that others didn't agree with his decisions. We have to respect him for that. That is what Mom did with you when you got of age to make your own choices. I let you, I gave my opinion and when you made your decision, I supported you on it. That is what being an adult is all about. Having your own say in things when it comes to your own life. He goes to his PCP at the end of next month so I am sure she will say something to him but in the meantime it is the waiting game.
Not much else is really knew. Mom touched base with Marion this afternoon as I never hear from her first anymore. She was saying that Charlie spent the night in the hospital. I guess he was not feeling good yesterday morning and he went to the ER. They stayed there for 4-5 hours and then they released him as they found nothing wrong. They got home and a couple hours later he was having stomach pains and trouble breathing to where he really couldn't. Back to the ER again and they admitted him. The doctors still don't know what is happening but he is home now and relaxing. I told her to keep me posted on things but I have my doubts unfortunately that she will. I am not someone she confides in anymore at all. Guess as the saying goes...out of sight, out of mind. It has been that way for 6 years now. It hurts still and it sucks but nothing I can do. I don't really think I will ever see them again anyways. They won't ever come visit us here. They are headed on a cruise in 16 days. We had planned one with them over 3 years ago. They planned it with 4 other couples and excluded Mark and Mom from it. That was a slap in the face. Karma will come back and get them for all that they continue to do. Mom helped them both out so much in the past and to be treated this way by them hurt for a very long time. I know that you see what they are doing. You see it all. Just know that Mom is okay. It sucks from time to time when I get reminded of things but other than that I am handling it better then I have in the past.
No word on Debbie's nephew as of today. He is home I believe though. Mom will fill you in on that when I know. Nothing from Aunt Beck in a few days and I haven't spoken to Bean since Christmas and that was less then 5 minutes and before that it was almost a year. I kind of have given up on that whole thing too. She doesn't call and I don't try anymore. It is a shame but I am not wasting my energy and time on anyone...family or not family on ones that don't bother with me. I learned that lesson many many years ago.
Mom is hoping that you have a wonderful night doing all the things you want to and need to do. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I will be lighting your candle in my room tonight instead of downstairs. I will whisper to you later as well. I miss you beyond words and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon to write to you again. For now it is almost time to fed the pups their dinner, take them for a walk and then get dinner going for Mark and I. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son....please watch over us. Thank you. Good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, January 28, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? It is already going on 3:30 pm and this day is just flying by. Things have been super crazy here since we all woke up this morning. I don't know what the heck is going on but last night was night 3 that Mom has been sleeping like crap. I am hoping that tonight breaks that cycle and I get some much needed sleep. We were up and awake at 7 am. The pups were fed and they got their usual morning walk with Mark. Coffee was done and then Mom relaxed and chatted with Meme for a bit. Mom came upstairs to get ready and Meme and Bob went out for a bit to find where his doctors appointment will be on Thursday. Mark has been working all day but he is frustrated as we have been having problems with our internet all day. It has bumped us off line 3 times today and that is not okay because of his line of work. Mom was on the phone with the provider all day today and again another service tech will be out here tomorrow to check things out between 1-5 pm. This is getting tiring. We have been here for not even 4 months and we have had a tech out here 4 times. The problem never gets solved. They know that Mom is getting upset. When this happens it also knocks out our phone. We can't even call 911 if we needed to. Mom is getting tired of paying for something that rarely works. We seem to be having a problem with our pool guy as well. He hasn't been here in 2 weeks now. He did this to us in December and expected a full months pay. Mom is checking into things with him because I refuse to pay him for a full month when he hasn't been here to do the work. Things are crazy and weird that way down here. Guess we will see what is going on in the next couple of days.
Mom and Mark received our freezer today. It is working but this one came in damaged. Not as damaged as the one yesterday but still. Mom has an email out to the seller to see what can be done. It is going to work out fine though. Meme and Bob will have theirs and Mark and Mom will have ours. No more fighting over space for the freezer anymore. No it is the refrigerator and the pantry...lol. we did a few little things around the house as well. Meme has been watching TV all day while knitting and Bob has been in his room sleeping. He has been really shaky today. He received a phone call earlier and I handed him the phone and he dropped it and hung up on the hospital. I think nothing of it but he is really embarrassed about it. I can understand it. He helped Mom with the freezer earlier but he was so shaky that he dropped it and Mom had to catch it. While I was doing that I popped a blood vessel in my hand. I am bruised. It happened instantly. I said nothing at all because of the circumstance. It is really getting to the point where Bob can't do much of anything anymore. His shaking (tremors) are really bad. None of us say anything at all though. There is a lot of cleaning that happens because of it. Mom makes sure that this house is clean. Everything else is going okay though. The weather is beautiful. Middle 70's the next couple of days. Grandpa called again today. He was telling me that things are going really well with Debbie. He seems very happy so that makes me happy. I hope it last though and this doesn't fade out. Debbie was saying that her nephew is sick. Mom is saying prayers for him and hopes he gets better soon. That is all the updates that I have for you today. It is after 5 pm so I need to get going and get the pups fed and dinner going for Mark and I. Meme and Bob are already eating dinner as we speak. Mom will light your candle later and whisper to you tonight before I go to bed. Smile and I will smile too my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you like crazy and will be back tomorrow with another letter. Have fun tonight while I get some sleep. Come visit me if you can. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? It is already going on 3:30 pm and this day is just flying by. Things have been super crazy here since we all woke up this morning. I don't know what the heck is going on but last night was night 3 that Mom has been sleeping like crap. I am hoping that tonight breaks that cycle and I get some much needed sleep. We were up and awake at 7 am. The pups were fed and they got their usual morning walk with Mark. Coffee was done and then Mom relaxed and chatted with Meme for a bit. Mom came upstairs to get ready and Meme and Bob went out for a bit to find where his doctors appointment will be on Thursday. Mark has been working all day but he is frustrated as we have been having problems with our internet all day. It has bumped us off line 3 times today and that is not okay because of his line of work. Mom was on the phone with the provider all day today and again another service tech will be out here tomorrow to check things out between 1-5 pm. This is getting tiring. We have been here for not even 4 months and we have had a tech out here 4 times. The problem never gets solved. They know that Mom is getting upset. When this happens it also knocks out our phone. We can't even call 911 if we needed to. Mom is getting tired of paying for something that rarely works. We seem to be having a problem with our pool guy as well. He hasn't been here in 2 weeks now. He did this to us in December and expected a full months pay. Mom is checking into things with him because I refuse to pay him for a full month when he hasn't been here to do the work. Things are crazy and weird that way down here. Guess we will see what is going on in the next couple of days.
Mom and Mark received our freezer today. It is working but this one came in damaged. Not as damaged as the one yesterday but still. Mom has an email out to the seller to see what can be done. It is going to work out fine though. Meme and Bob will have theirs and Mark and Mom will have ours. No more fighting over space for the freezer anymore. No it is the refrigerator and the pantry...lol. we did a few little things around the house as well. Meme has been watching TV all day while knitting and Bob has been in his room sleeping. He has been really shaky today. He received a phone call earlier and I handed him the phone and he dropped it and hung up on the hospital. I think nothing of it but he is really embarrassed about it. I can understand it. He helped Mom with the freezer earlier but he was so shaky that he dropped it and Mom had to catch it. While I was doing that I popped a blood vessel in my hand. I am bruised. It happened instantly. I said nothing at all because of the circumstance. It is really getting to the point where Bob can't do much of anything anymore. His shaking (tremors) are really bad. None of us say anything at all though. There is a lot of cleaning that happens because of it. Mom makes sure that this house is clean. Everything else is going okay though. The weather is beautiful. Middle 70's the next couple of days. Grandpa called again today. He was telling me that things are going really well with Debbie. He seems very happy so that makes me happy. I hope it last though and this doesn't fade out. Debbie was saying that her nephew is sick. Mom is saying prayers for him and hopes he gets better soon. That is all the updates that I have for you today. It is after 5 pm so I need to get going and get the pups fed and dinner going for Mark and I. Meme and Bob are already eating dinner as we speak. Mom will light your candle later and whisper to you tonight before I go to bed. Smile and I will smile too my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you like crazy and will be back tomorrow with another letter. Have fun tonight while I get some sleep. Come visit me if you can. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, January 27, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing alright today. It is already after 2:30 pm amd the day really has flown by. Again, it was another night with not much sleep. Mark was up a lot and so was Mom. I have been awake since 6 am though but didn't get out of bed until 7 am. The pups were fed, the morning walk was done, coffee was made and a bit of relaxing before the day needed to get started. Meme and Bob left early in the morning to go to his appointment. Mom got ready right off and then I proceeded to clean the house. Garbage was done, the entire house was vacuumed...floors and carpet, dusting was done, kitchen cabinets all cleaned and granite countertops were all polished. That took Mom a couple hours to do and as I finished, Meme and Bob were back. Mark was working and Mom came into her office. Our stand alone freezer came in today and it came damaged. I am not sure what is going on here but everything that we order here gets delivered that way. It is awful. We have another one coming either tomorrow or Wednesday. Hopefully this one will be in better shape.
It is a very quiet afternoon. Meme is in her room knitting and Bob is in his room as well. Not sure if he is sleeping or what he is doing. He didn't want to be downstairs today which is odd for him. It is 70 degrees and overcast today. The pups are sleeping after their afternoon walk. They are both in here with me. Ozzy is in his bed while Princess is laying on the window seat. Mom doesn't mind at all as I love them dearly. Meme is still wanting another dog. I am not sure if she is going to get one or not. I say nothing about it as I know it is a touchy situation. Time will tell on that subject.
Mom spoke to Aunt Beck in couple days ago. She seems to be doing well. Busy as ever. We didn't have long to chat but it was nice. Mom was supposed to have called Grandpa last night but that didn't happen because our phone wasn't working again. Mom noticed it this morning. Same thing...twice in 1 week. I have to get on the phone and call to see what is going on. Another tech will probably have to come back out again to see. We have so much trouble with that here. It is crazy! Mom will have to fill you in on how everyone is doing later in the week as I have nothing right now. Everything is really quiet.
Yesterday on the news was a sad story. There was an LA Lakers celebrity...Kobe Bryant who passed away in a helicopter crash. They were 8 passengers and the pilot....one being Kobe Bryant's 13 year old daughter. They were no survivors...all were perished in the crash. Obviously, Mom did not know any of them personally but my heart was heavy for the family memebers that are left behind. Wives lost their husbands and their child or children, children lost their Dads and silbings in a matter of seconds. Mom knows the heartache of losing a child but to loose a child(ren) and a husband all at the same time... I can't imagine. I know it happens all the time. My thoughts and prayers go out to all the families and friends that are grieving and mourning the loss of their loved ones. May the 9 who lost their lives yesterday R.I.P. for eternal life now.
Mom spoke to Auntie Kristina this morning. She was having a hard time today. This weekend was the memorial service for her Dad. She said that everything went well but yesterday, her Mom finally broke down and lost it. Kristina did too. She was crying today, she was tired and angry. All the emotions that Mom knows so well. I just listened to her and let her say what she needed to. Mom has been there. I understand. My thoughts and prayers are with Alice and Auntie Kristina too. In the days ahead, they will get a new routine and start to live a "new" life. They will not be the same person they once were. I know that Mom isn't anymore.I haven't been for the last 7 years. I never will be again either.
It is after 3 pm now. Mom has a short bit before starting the night routine stuff. Mark is on a call and everyone else is still very quiet. Scratch that... Meme and Bob are on the move...lol. Mom is going to relax for a bit and then wait for Mark to finish work. Tonight is going to be an early night for us as neither of us slept well. Tomorrow is a day that Mom is going to go do some shopping. Pick up a few things that we need and then come back home and relax for a bit. I will light your candle later this evening and I will whisper to you tonight before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile back. I hope that your night is filled with all that you need it to be and want it to be. Come say hi and visit in my dreams if you can. Thank you pumpkin. I miss and love you uncondtionally. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Please watch over us and continue to fly high and freely. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing alright today. It is already after 2:30 pm amd the day really has flown by. Again, it was another night with not much sleep. Mark was up a lot and so was Mom. I have been awake since 6 am though but didn't get out of bed until 7 am. The pups were fed, the morning walk was done, coffee was made and a bit of relaxing before the day needed to get started. Meme and Bob left early in the morning to go to his appointment. Mom got ready right off and then I proceeded to clean the house. Garbage was done, the entire house was vacuumed...floors and carpet, dusting was done, kitchen cabinets all cleaned and granite countertops were all polished. That took Mom a couple hours to do and as I finished, Meme and Bob were back. Mark was working and Mom came into her office. Our stand alone freezer came in today and it came damaged. I am not sure what is going on here but everything that we order here gets delivered that way. It is awful. We have another one coming either tomorrow or Wednesday. Hopefully this one will be in better shape.
It is a very quiet afternoon. Meme is in her room knitting and Bob is in his room as well. Not sure if he is sleeping or what he is doing. He didn't want to be downstairs today which is odd for him. It is 70 degrees and overcast today. The pups are sleeping after their afternoon walk. They are both in here with me. Ozzy is in his bed while Princess is laying on the window seat. Mom doesn't mind at all as I love them dearly. Meme is still wanting another dog. I am not sure if she is going to get one or not. I say nothing about it as I know it is a touchy situation. Time will tell on that subject.
Mom spoke to Aunt Beck in couple days ago. She seems to be doing well. Busy as ever. We didn't have long to chat but it was nice. Mom was supposed to have called Grandpa last night but that didn't happen because our phone wasn't working again. Mom noticed it this morning. Same thing...twice in 1 week. I have to get on the phone and call to see what is going on. Another tech will probably have to come back out again to see. We have so much trouble with that here. It is crazy! Mom will have to fill you in on how everyone is doing later in the week as I have nothing right now. Everything is really quiet.
Yesterday on the news was a sad story. There was an LA Lakers celebrity...Kobe Bryant who passed away in a helicopter crash. They were 8 passengers and the pilot....one being Kobe Bryant's 13 year old daughter. They were no survivors...all were perished in the crash. Obviously, Mom did not know any of them personally but my heart was heavy for the family memebers that are left behind. Wives lost their husbands and their child or children, children lost their Dads and silbings in a matter of seconds. Mom knows the heartache of losing a child but to loose a child(ren) and a husband all at the same time... I can't imagine. I know it happens all the time. My thoughts and prayers go out to all the families and friends that are grieving and mourning the loss of their loved ones. May the 9 who lost their lives yesterday R.I.P. for eternal life now.
Mom spoke to Auntie Kristina this morning. She was having a hard time today. This weekend was the memorial service for her Dad. She said that everything went well but yesterday, her Mom finally broke down and lost it. Kristina did too. She was crying today, she was tired and angry. All the emotions that Mom knows so well. I just listened to her and let her say what she needed to. Mom has been there. I understand. My thoughts and prayers are with Alice and Auntie Kristina too. In the days ahead, they will get a new routine and start to live a "new" life. They will not be the same person they once were. I know that Mom isn't anymore.I haven't been for the last 7 years. I never will be again either.
It is after 3 pm now. Mom has a short bit before starting the night routine stuff. Mark is on a call and everyone else is still very quiet. Scratch that... Meme and Bob are on the move...lol. Mom is going to relax for a bit and then wait for Mark to finish work. Tonight is going to be an early night for us as neither of us slept well. Tomorrow is a day that Mom is going to go do some shopping. Pick up a few things that we need and then come back home and relax for a bit. I will light your candle later this evening and I will whisper to you tonight before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile back. I hope that your night is filled with all that you need it to be and want it to be. Come say hi and visit in my dreams if you can. Thank you pumpkin. I miss and love you uncondtionally. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Please watch over us and continue to fly high and freely. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, January 26, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet precious son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but to be completely honest I just needed a day where I wasn't around computers, etc... Mom didn't even look at my phone hardly at all either. It felt nice. Just because Mom didn't write to you doesn't mean I didn't think about you because I did...all day long. I posted on your Facebook page like I do every morning and I talked about you all day and night. You are always on my mind, pumpkin. Sometimes though, Mom just needs to unwind and relax. I know you understand what I am saying and I know you see everything. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. I love you with all my heart and soul. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart,mind,body and soul.
Yesterday our day was busy. We were up at 7 am, got the pups fed, their morning walk was done, coffee brewing and then we all took our showers and got ready. We left at 11 am and went to BJs Wholesale Club. It wasn't a bad drive at as all. 13 miles and we were there. We got our membership and off we went to shop. Mom hasn't been in one for over 15 years. We looked around for quite a while before leaving. We got home at 1 pm. We put everything away, got lunch and then decided to sit outside for a bit. Before we knew it, it was time to feed the pups and have dinner ourselves. We watch some tv for a bit before everyone decided to go separate ways. Bob went to bed, Meme watched a movie and Mark and Mom cuddled in bed and watched a movie as well before we called it a night and went to bed. Neither of us slept well though. This morning Mark was up and not feeling well, Ozzy fell out of the bed and Bob did as well. We heard him fall. This is the 3rd time for him since we moved here. He said it's when he is dreaming, he does it. I can tell you it makes one hell of a noise.
Today we decided not to go anywhere or do anything. Ozzy is in some pain and we did not want to leave him alone. Mom is making a pot roast for dinner. It's been cooking all day. We will be eating in a couple of hours. We have been sitting by the pool for most of the day. It's really nice outside. 70 degrees and sunny. Mark and Mom did some cleaning around the outside. The furniture, the bbq grill, etc... We hosed down the cement because of all the pollen and cleaned that off. The rest of the day will be spent relaxing and then having dinner and oh our nightly walk with the pups. Mom hasn't spoken to Grandpa in 4 days since Debbie returned so I will call them briefly to check in and say hello around 8 pm. Tomorrow is Monday and Mark is back to work, Bob has an appointment in the morning, Mom is going to be cleaning....dusting, mopping, vacuuming, etc....I will write to you in the afternoon when I am finished.
Mom will light your candle tonight and whisper to you later this evening when I go to bed. I hope that your night is everything you need and want it to be. Have fun while Mom gets some solid sleep tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can.
Mom is going to relax now. I have an hour before it is time to get the night routine started. I miss you like crazy. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤
Hi my sweet precious son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but to be completely honest I just needed a day where I wasn't around computers, etc... Mom didn't even look at my phone hardly at all either. It felt nice. Just because Mom didn't write to you doesn't mean I didn't think about you because I did...all day long. I posted on your Facebook page like I do every morning and I talked about you all day and night. You are always on my mind, pumpkin. Sometimes though, Mom just needs to unwind and relax. I know you understand what I am saying and I know you see everything. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. I love you with all my heart and soul. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart,mind,body and soul.
Yesterday our day was busy. We were up at 7 am, got the pups fed, their morning walk was done, coffee brewing and then we all took our showers and got ready. We left at 11 am and went to BJs Wholesale Club. It wasn't a bad drive at as all. 13 miles and we were there. We got our membership and off we went to shop. Mom hasn't been in one for over 15 years. We looked around for quite a while before leaving. We got home at 1 pm. We put everything away, got lunch and then decided to sit outside for a bit. Before we knew it, it was time to feed the pups and have dinner ourselves. We watch some tv for a bit before everyone decided to go separate ways. Bob went to bed, Meme watched a movie and Mark and Mom cuddled in bed and watched a movie as well before we called it a night and went to bed. Neither of us slept well though. This morning Mark was up and not feeling well, Ozzy fell out of the bed and Bob did as well. We heard him fall. This is the 3rd time for him since we moved here. He said it's when he is dreaming, he does it. I can tell you it makes one hell of a noise.
Today we decided not to go anywhere or do anything. Ozzy is in some pain and we did not want to leave him alone. Mom is making a pot roast for dinner. It's been cooking all day. We will be eating in a couple of hours. We have been sitting by the pool for most of the day. It's really nice outside. 70 degrees and sunny. Mark and Mom did some cleaning around the outside. The furniture, the bbq grill, etc... We hosed down the cement because of all the pollen and cleaned that off. The rest of the day will be spent relaxing and then having dinner and oh our nightly walk with the pups. Mom hasn't spoken to Grandpa in 4 days since Debbie returned so I will call them briefly to check in and say hello around 8 pm. Tomorrow is Monday and Mark is back to work, Bob has an appointment in the morning, Mom is going to be cleaning....dusting, mopping, vacuuming, etc....I will write to you in the afternoon when I am finished.
Mom will light your candle tonight and whisper to you later this evening when I go to bed. I hope that your night is everything you need and want it to be. Have fun while Mom gets some solid sleep tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can.
Mom is going to relax now. I have an hour before it is time to get the night routine started. I miss you like crazy. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤
Friday, January 24, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I have a bit of a headache right now but other than that I am good. I went to bed quite early last night and slept pretty well. I was up at 6:15 am. Feed the pups at 7 am and then lounged for a bit before getting ready. Once all that was done Mom headed out the door and went grocery shopping. I got home around 11:30 am and rearranged everything and put all of it away. I finished that at 12:45 pm. It is always like playing jenga after shopping in this house. I always have to redo the refrigerator, freezer and pantry. Meme and Bob were outside while I did all that. I think I told you that Mark and Mom bought a stand alone freezer to put in the garage. It comes next week and where we are putting it, Meme and Bob have a bunch of stuff there. I let them know that it needed to be moved. Meme got angry with me because I asked her again when she was going to move all of it. She told me that I was hounding her. well, if she did it a few days ago, Mom wouldn't have to keep asking her now would I? There was always some excuse to why she didn't do it. It was too cold, it was raining. Well today is the perfect day because it is dry, sunny and 78 degrees. She came inside for a few minutes and said something. I asked her what she was going to do and she yelled at me. I told her that just because she was angry that didn't give her the right to take it out on me. She walked away and went back outside. Now she is not talking to me. Whatever. She can not think it is alright to treat me that way when I am not the reason she is angry in the first place. Bob is absolutely no help to her at all either and that makes her even angrier. No my problem and not my issue. She needs to deal with it not Mom. Poor Mark had to listen to all that when he is doing something pretty important for work. I apologized to him for it and came down to my office so that he could be left alone. I checked email and such and decided to write to you now. Afterwards, I think I am going to just relax and maybe play a game on my phone. I am listening to some soft music, relaxing music to help my headache. Hope it helps!
Last night was really quiet. No phone calls. We had dinner and then I did the dishes and we came upstairs and Mark played his video game and Mom watched TV. Meme and Bob went upstairs after they ate around 6 pm and Bob went to bed and Meme was watching a movie on TV. I had a candle going in our room. It was quiet and peaceful. I enjoyed it very much. I think tonight will be a repeat of the same thing. Maybe not as early. It is Friday after all. I think we will take the pups for a nice walk later and then who knows. No plans for the weekend as of right now. I know the weather will be cooler....back in the high 60's to low 70's. Maybe Mark and Mom will have to chance to just go somewhere and do something ourselves for a change. That would be really nice. I am sure that we will be sitting outside by the pool as well so that he can smoke a cigar. He hasn't done that in a few days. That relaxes Mark which is nice to see. Mom will have to update you on that later this weekend to what we are doing.
Never received a call back from Aunt Beck. She must be really busy. Debbie was online yesterday afternoon. I asked her if it was a nice reunion with Grandpa. She said yes but there was a lot of talking that needed to be done and she wanted to take things slow. Mom understood but what I didn't understand is why she was on her phone and facebook. That was one of the problems that they had. She was always on her phone and that is why Grandpa didn't talk. Mom doesn't want to start thinking this way but I am now wondering if her intentions were good on why she wanted to "come back home." I guess time will tell. I will hear it in Grandpa's voice when I call Sunday. I will see how she reacts as well. Mom will fill you in on that later. Tomorrow is Auntie Kristina's Dads memorial service. Mom wishes that she could be there to support her but she knows that I am there in spirit. I am only a call away for her. I will check in with them over the weekend. I am sure that Jim will be looking down and smiling at all the people and memories that will be shared tomorrow.
When Mom signed in on here today, I noticed that it said there was 8900 posts. I was like wow! In July it will be 7 years that I have written to you. I started the blog 2 weeks after you passed on. That is crazy to think that there are 8900 posts with letters and pictures to you! Dang that is a lot. Mom is still thankful to everyone who continues to read her letters to you daily, weekly or monthly. They are being read all over the world still. I hope and pray that I can help others that are going through the same thing as Mom. In grief, there is never a time frame to just "get over it." Every one is different in the process. Mom still grieves for you daily and I know I always will. The pain is still there and it never fades. I laugh, I smile, etc...but I also cry just as much. Everything reminds me of you and it hurts like h*ll. You were and still are my everything. I miss you beyond anything. More than words can say. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Later tonight I will light the candle for you while I make dinner. That is when I usually light it and I also light it in the morning for a couple hours as well. I will whisper to you later too. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Mom hopes that your night is everything that you need it to be and maybe want it to be as well. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks pumpkin. Please watch over us all. We all need you in our lives. Continue to learn wherever you are. Spread those wings and fly high and free. Soar like an Eagle. Mom knows you are! I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now, Mom is going to go relax for a couple hours. Soon it will be time to feed the pups and make dinner. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son.....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I have a bit of a headache right now but other than that I am good. I went to bed quite early last night and slept pretty well. I was up at 6:15 am. Feed the pups at 7 am and then lounged for a bit before getting ready. Once all that was done Mom headed out the door and went grocery shopping. I got home around 11:30 am and rearranged everything and put all of it away. I finished that at 12:45 pm. It is always like playing jenga after shopping in this house. I always have to redo the refrigerator, freezer and pantry. Meme and Bob were outside while I did all that. I think I told you that Mark and Mom bought a stand alone freezer to put in the garage. It comes next week and where we are putting it, Meme and Bob have a bunch of stuff there. I let them know that it needed to be moved. Meme got angry with me because I asked her again when she was going to move all of it. She told me that I was hounding her. well, if she did it a few days ago, Mom wouldn't have to keep asking her now would I? There was always some excuse to why she didn't do it. It was too cold, it was raining. Well today is the perfect day because it is dry, sunny and 78 degrees. She came inside for a few minutes and said something. I asked her what she was going to do and she yelled at me. I told her that just because she was angry that didn't give her the right to take it out on me. She walked away and went back outside. Now she is not talking to me. Whatever. She can not think it is alright to treat me that way when I am not the reason she is angry in the first place. Bob is absolutely no help to her at all either and that makes her even angrier. No my problem and not my issue. She needs to deal with it not Mom. Poor Mark had to listen to all that when he is doing something pretty important for work. I apologized to him for it and came down to my office so that he could be left alone. I checked email and such and decided to write to you now. Afterwards, I think I am going to just relax and maybe play a game on my phone. I am listening to some soft music, relaxing music to help my headache. Hope it helps!
Last night was really quiet. No phone calls. We had dinner and then I did the dishes and we came upstairs and Mark played his video game and Mom watched TV. Meme and Bob went upstairs after they ate around 6 pm and Bob went to bed and Meme was watching a movie on TV. I had a candle going in our room. It was quiet and peaceful. I enjoyed it very much. I think tonight will be a repeat of the same thing. Maybe not as early. It is Friday after all. I think we will take the pups for a nice walk later and then who knows. No plans for the weekend as of right now. I know the weather will be cooler....back in the high 60's to low 70's. Maybe Mark and Mom will have to chance to just go somewhere and do something ourselves for a change. That would be really nice. I am sure that we will be sitting outside by the pool as well so that he can smoke a cigar. He hasn't done that in a few days. That relaxes Mark which is nice to see. Mom will have to update you on that later this weekend to what we are doing.
Never received a call back from Aunt Beck. She must be really busy. Debbie was online yesterday afternoon. I asked her if it was a nice reunion with Grandpa. She said yes but there was a lot of talking that needed to be done and she wanted to take things slow. Mom understood but what I didn't understand is why she was on her phone and facebook. That was one of the problems that they had. She was always on her phone and that is why Grandpa didn't talk. Mom doesn't want to start thinking this way but I am now wondering if her intentions were good on why she wanted to "come back home." I guess time will tell. I will hear it in Grandpa's voice when I call Sunday. I will see how she reacts as well. Mom will fill you in on that later. Tomorrow is Auntie Kristina's Dads memorial service. Mom wishes that she could be there to support her but she knows that I am there in spirit. I am only a call away for her. I will check in with them over the weekend. I am sure that Jim will be looking down and smiling at all the people and memories that will be shared tomorrow.
When Mom signed in on here today, I noticed that it said there was 8900 posts. I was like wow! In July it will be 7 years that I have written to you. I started the blog 2 weeks after you passed on. That is crazy to think that there are 8900 posts with letters and pictures to you! Dang that is a lot. Mom is still thankful to everyone who continues to read her letters to you daily, weekly or monthly. They are being read all over the world still. I hope and pray that I can help others that are going through the same thing as Mom. In grief, there is never a time frame to just "get over it." Every one is different in the process. Mom still grieves for you daily and I know I always will. The pain is still there and it never fades. I laugh, I smile, etc...but I also cry just as much. Everything reminds me of you and it hurts like h*ll. You were and still are my everything. I miss you beyond anything. More than words can say. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Later tonight I will light the candle for you while I make dinner. That is when I usually light it and I also light it in the morning for a couple hours as well. I will whisper to you later too. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Mom hopes that your night is everything that you need it to be and maybe want it to be as well. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks pumpkin. Please watch over us all. We all need you in our lives. Continue to learn wherever you are. Spread those wings and fly high and free. Soar like an Eagle. Mom knows you are! I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now, Mom is going to go relax for a couple hours. Soon it will be time to feed the pups and make dinner. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son.....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, January 23, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is okay today. It has been a really crazy morning for everyone. Mom was up at 6 am again this morning and got out of bed to feed the pups at 6:45 am. Coffee was made, the pups morning walk was done and then Mom relaxed for a bit before having breakfast and then heading upstairs to get ready. Meme and Bob left around 9 am to go to his doctors appointment and Mark was waiting ever so patiently for his new desk to arrive. Mom got ready and then came right into my office. I called Aunt Beck but she didn't answer. I left a message and still nothing. I called Auntie Kristina to see how she was doing. Her Dad's memorial service is Saturday. She is going down to stay with her Mom for 3 days. I told her that I would chat with her next week. She seems to be doing well and she has lost over 80 lbs. That is amazing. She is very happy! Mom is happy for her! Meme and Bob came home and brought in 5 boxes for me that were at the post office. I went through them and then Mark's desk arrived.... he unpacked it and it came busted. He had to call the company to tell them and then email pictures to show the damage. He was so bummed as he has been waiting for 1.5 months to get this and now he has to wait another month to get the replacement. It is sitting in our garage for the time being. Meme and Bob left again this afternoon. I think that they went grocery shopping. Mom will go tomorrow so that I know what I can't buy because it won't fit. That always happens when Meme goes shopping. She buys so much and then Mark and I have no room for our stuff. I have spoken to her about this for 3 months now and she still will not budge and listen. Mom doesn't know what to do anymore. It is like Meme doesn't really care about this stuff. It is the same way for the pantry and the freezer. Mark and Mom had to go out and buy a stand alone freezer just so that we could have stuff. That is pretty messed up and very inconsiderate on Meme's end. These are the little things that bother me all the time and I am at a lost for words other than it is very disrespectful. Anyways...enough of that subject....
Yesterday, Mom went to get her hair highlighted. The hair dresser is awesome and I love her already. You would get a kick out of her too. I thought that I was getting a full highlight but it was just what they call a casting. What was done looks good and she showed me a way to style my hair without curling it. I tried to do it this morning and I failed miserably....lol. It will take some time getting it down and I will keep trying until I get it right or until I go back on February 14th to get a full highlight done and she can reshow me...lol. Meme got hers cut and it looks good. I don't think it is really a place for Meme. The atmosphere is not for her but she is going to continue because that way I can cart her around and she doesn't have to drive. That is her thing too. I drive her everywhere except to Bob's appointments. She does that. She won't drive to nail or hair appointments or to the grocery store or Walmart or any other store. On the weekends she makes Mark drive. She only drives to the post office which is 5 miles from our house and then like I said to his appointments. Bob can't drive anymore due to his shaking and tremors. It is sad because I know he misses that too. Mark and Mom are going to try once again to start having date nights and also going out on our own on the weekends. It is extremely difficult to do because when we go out on the weekends, Meme and Bob always think that they are invited as well. That happened last weekend. Mark and Mom thought we were going shopping and then out to lunch...kind of like a date day and that didn't happen. Meme and Bob assumed that they were going as well so there went a day for just Mark and Mom. I was a bit angry with it too. I thought it would get better in time but it is getting harder to deal with every day. Mark and Mom wanted to do this out of the kindness of our hearts but it really is not working out. Mom wishes that I could figure it out so that it will work. Now we are kind of stuck because Meme's house is sold and they sign the papers I believe tomorrow or early next week. Now they do not have a place in NH anymore. I know it will be a tough conversation and they will not like what Mom has to say but it has to be done. A family meeting is going to have to happen. Things can not continue the way they are.
On a happier note.... Grandpa called last night. He was going to bed early so that he could get up at 7 am to get ready and go get Debbie in Newport for breakfast. He seemed so happy and like a little kid. I called him this morning to make sure he was up and ready and he was. I told him I would call him on Sunday night to say hello. I am happy for him and Debbie. I am sure their reunion was very sweet to witness. I pray and hope that things will work out and it doesn't go back to the way it was. Neither of them need that again. I am glad that Grandpa is no longer going to be alone. I know that was hard for him and it was tough. He was so sad. Mom was so worried about him too. I wasn't sleeping all that well at night because of it so now I can again because they are back together. Mom is hoping that they will come for a visit and soon. It has been 3 months since I have seen Grandpa and I miss him terribly. Guess Mom needs to be patience and see what happens. I know that you will be watching over us all like you always do and that means everything to Mom. Thank you so much my sweet precious son.
I have no updates for you today. I will light your candle later, and whisper to you tonight before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Tonight should be relaxing as nothing is planned after dinner. I think Mom will watch TV while Mark plays his game with his brothers. Tomorrow is Friday and then the weekend. Hopefully the weather will be better. Today it is overcast and it has been raining off and on. It will be good sleeping weather tonight. I hope that your night is everything that you need and want it to be. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Mom will be back again tomorrow. I love you with all my heart. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will forever be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you like crazy. You are constantly on my mind every second of every minute of every hour of every day. Mom needs to close this letter up to you today so I can do a few things before the night routine starts. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams, pumpkin.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is okay today. It has been a really crazy morning for everyone. Mom was up at 6 am again this morning and got out of bed to feed the pups at 6:45 am. Coffee was made, the pups morning walk was done and then Mom relaxed for a bit before having breakfast and then heading upstairs to get ready. Meme and Bob left around 9 am to go to his doctors appointment and Mark was waiting ever so patiently for his new desk to arrive. Mom got ready and then came right into my office. I called Aunt Beck but she didn't answer. I left a message and still nothing. I called Auntie Kristina to see how she was doing. Her Dad's memorial service is Saturday. She is going down to stay with her Mom for 3 days. I told her that I would chat with her next week. She seems to be doing well and she has lost over 80 lbs. That is amazing. She is very happy! Mom is happy for her! Meme and Bob came home and brought in 5 boxes for me that were at the post office. I went through them and then Mark's desk arrived.... he unpacked it and it came busted. He had to call the company to tell them and then email pictures to show the damage. He was so bummed as he has been waiting for 1.5 months to get this and now he has to wait another month to get the replacement. It is sitting in our garage for the time being. Meme and Bob left again this afternoon. I think that they went grocery shopping. Mom will go tomorrow so that I know what I can't buy because it won't fit. That always happens when Meme goes shopping. She buys so much and then Mark and I have no room for our stuff. I have spoken to her about this for 3 months now and she still will not budge and listen. Mom doesn't know what to do anymore. It is like Meme doesn't really care about this stuff. It is the same way for the pantry and the freezer. Mark and Mom had to go out and buy a stand alone freezer just so that we could have stuff. That is pretty messed up and very inconsiderate on Meme's end. These are the little things that bother me all the time and I am at a lost for words other than it is very disrespectful. Anyways...enough of that subject....
Yesterday, Mom went to get her hair highlighted. The hair dresser is awesome and I love her already. You would get a kick out of her too. I thought that I was getting a full highlight but it was just what they call a casting. What was done looks good and she showed me a way to style my hair without curling it. I tried to do it this morning and I failed miserably....lol. It will take some time getting it down and I will keep trying until I get it right or until I go back on February 14th to get a full highlight done and she can reshow me...lol. Meme got hers cut and it looks good. I don't think it is really a place for Meme. The atmosphere is not for her but she is going to continue because that way I can cart her around and she doesn't have to drive. That is her thing too. I drive her everywhere except to Bob's appointments. She does that. She won't drive to nail or hair appointments or to the grocery store or Walmart or any other store. On the weekends she makes Mark drive. She only drives to the post office which is 5 miles from our house and then like I said to his appointments. Bob can't drive anymore due to his shaking and tremors. It is sad because I know he misses that too. Mark and Mom are going to try once again to start having date nights and also going out on our own on the weekends. It is extremely difficult to do because when we go out on the weekends, Meme and Bob always think that they are invited as well. That happened last weekend. Mark and Mom thought we were going shopping and then out to lunch...kind of like a date day and that didn't happen. Meme and Bob assumed that they were going as well so there went a day for just Mark and Mom. I was a bit angry with it too. I thought it would get better in time but it is getting harder to deal with every day. Mark and Mom wanted to do this out of the kindness of our hearts but it really is not working out. Mom wishes that I could figure it out so that it will work. Now we are kind of stuck because Meme's house is sold and they sign the papers I believe tomorrow or early next week. Now they do not have a place in NH anymore. I know it will be a tough conversation and they will not like what Mom has to say but it has to be done. A family meeting is going to have to happen. Things can not continue the way they are.
On a happier note.... Grandpa called last night. He was going to bed early so that he could get up at 7 am to get ready and go get Debbie in Newport for breakfast. He seemed so happy and like a little kid. I called him this morning to make sure he was up and ready and he was. I told him I would call him on Sunday night to say hello. I am happy for him and Debbie. I am sure their reunion was very sweet to witness. I pray and hope that things will work out and it doesn't go back to the way it was. Neither of them need that again. I am glad that Grandpa is no longer going to be alone. I know that was hard for him and it was tough. He was so sad. Mom was so worried about him too. I wasn't sleeping all that well at night because of it so now I can again because they are back together. Mom is hoping that they will come for a visit and soon. It has been 3 months since I have seen Grandpa and I miss him terribly. Guess Mom needs to be patience and see what happens. I know that you will be watching over us all like you always do and that means everything to Mom. Thank you so much my sweet precious son.
I have no updates for you today. I will light your candle later, and whisper to you tonight before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Tonight should be relaxing as nothing is planned after dinner. I think Mom will watch TV while Mark plays his game with his brothers. Tomorrow is Friday and then the weekend. Hopefully the weather will be better. Today it is overcast and it has been raining off and on. It will be good sleeping weather tonight. I hope that your night is everything that you need and want it to be. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Mom will be back again tomorrow. I love you with all my heart. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will forever be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you like crazy. You are constantly on my mind every second of every minute of every hour of every day. Mom needs to close this letter up to you today so I can do a few things before the night routine starts. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams, pumpkin.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, January 22, 2020
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