Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing alright today. I have been up since 6 am. I was up and fed the pups and got coffee going before 7 am. Meme and Bob were already gone when I got downstairs because he had an early doctors appointment. Mark went straight to work so Mom relaxed for a short bit and then I started doing some rearranging in the kitchen. Mark had made a comment to me this morning and I knew that I needed to work my magic and do something about it. It took me 3 hours but I was successful. Mom needed to do this because of several reasons. One being that Mark was unhappy but so was I. We have a good size kitchen and Mom and Mark had very little of it. Meme had most of the cabinet space and that needed to change. With doing all the rearranging, I was able to get more. I am very happy with the results. I think that Mark was too when I showed him all that I did. The pantry is still a work in progress but I arranged it to where Meme is seeing that she is taking up the entire space in there and there is no denying it. I told her that it needed to stop and she needed to start eating what was in there and not stock piling things like she has been doing. I told her it is not okay for her to have the entire pantry and Mark and Mom have only 1 shelf. That is not fair and it will be changed again and soon. If Mom needs to rearrange things to make things fit then she will have to do the same. This is our house and her and Bob live with us... not the other way around. Mom has her mind set and both her and Bob will have to either understand that and be okay with it or they will have to find their own little place where she can have all the space to herself. Either way, Mom is very okay with it. You may be wondering where all this mind set is coming from.....yesterday, Mom had a conversation with Aunt Beck. She was listening to me being upset and very angry. She told me that she keeps hearing Mom discuss the same things with her and nothing gets solved. She said that she could literally feel the anger coming from me and it was not good. She told Mom that if things didn't change then I would become sick over this. That is not an option and I will not let anything or anyone do that to me ever again. It has happened in the past but no more. Mom needs to put her foot down on so many things and this is the year to do it! 2020 will be a good year. No one will spoil it for me. 
 Lets see what else happened yesterday..... Mom chatted with Auntie Kristina for a bit. I checked in with her. I really thought that she would call me but I understand that she is busy and she has a lot of family around right now. She said that she was doing good. She got a good night sleep and that everyone was doing alright. She thinks that it is still shock and she would be right. It will hit when everything is over and everyone is gone. How funny...speak of the devil... Auntie Kristina just called Mom and we spoke for over 1 hour. It was so good to hear her voice. She is doing really well. We laughed, we cried and just chatted about everything. Her Mom is doing okay as well. She has her moments where she breaks down but that is to be expected. Mom will be continuing to say prayers for everyone. 
 Mom spoke to Grandpa last night too. He seemed to be doing better and sounded a bit better as well. When we are finished talking on the phone, Mom always says that I love him and miss him. He used to say it back to me but lately when I say it he just says " likewise". I am not sure why though. It really hurts and bothers Mom. He would always tell me that he loved me and Mom hasn't heard that now in over 2 months. I try not to think about it too much because if I do the tears will flow. Maybe someday I will get the nerve up to ask why. 
 Nothing else happened. Last night was pretty quiet. Tonight will probably be the same. Mom and Mark will watch some TV and then go to bed. It is Friday though and then the weekend. Mark has one more day of work and then 2 days off. Mom is going shopping tomorrow for a bit and then home to do a few things around the house and then relax. I will write to you in the afternoon when I return home. The candle will be lit for you in a few minutes. I will whisper to you later this evening as well. I hope that you have fun tonight while I get some rest. Hope you do all the things you need to and want to do. Continue to fly high and free my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart and soul. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you like crazy. Come visit Mom tonight in my dreams if you can. Thanks pumpkin. 
 For now, I need to get going so that I can get the pups feed and dinner started. Please watch over us and I will be looking for a painting in the sky from you and Jim. Thanks Tyler!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!