Monday, January 20, 2020

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I am really tired for some reason. I thought I slept pretty good last night but now I am thinking I really didn't. This day has gone by pretty fast. It is already after 1 pm. Mom was up at 6 am and then fell back to sleep until 7:30 am. I got up made coffee and then fed the pups. I sat downstairs for a long time today before coming upstairs again to get the day started. I managed to make the bed, get ready and do laundry before 11:30 pm. mark took a break from work for lunch and we were able to have an hour together before he had to return back to work. meme was downstairs and we were chatting with her while Bob was also downstairs and he was saying nothing to no one. Not one word. He was just sitting there staring straight ahead. He does that every day, all the time. Meme said that he was probably angry with her. I guess there was a phone conversation yesterday while Mark and Mom were out. She was chatting with a friend of hers and she was asking about Bob. Meme told her what was going on and I guess her friend told her to stick him in a nursing home or a facility. Maybe that would smarten him up. This morning I guess Meme told Bob what her friend said. He has not spoken a word since. I am sure it is hard on Bob and he doesn't want to live this way but on the other end he needs to do things besides just sitting there and never talking to anyone. Mom has decided before New Years that I was no longer going to get into it. It is not my battle. It is simply like this... Bob talks then great if he says nothing then neither do any of us. He treats us like we are not here and we now kind of have to do the same. It probably is not the best solution but that is the only way we can continue all living together. It is a day to day thing. It is not easy by any means but we are doing the best we can.
 Last night was a good night. Mom spoke to Grandpa around 7 pm. He sounded ok. It was the first time he didn't mention Debbie's name. Neither did Mom. I don't want to unless he brings it up. I know that he is hurting and talking about it constantly does not help things. Mom has been there many of times. Every day will get easier for him. Mom just wishes he had things to do with friends instead of being alone now. That is what hurts the most. I did mention to him to come down here for vacation in April and be with us for Easter. I told him to think about it and we would talk about it more tonight when I call him. He was saying that he is sleeping pretty good at night. He goes to bed around 12:30 am and gets up around 9 am. That is good for him. I was happy to hear that. He needs good sleep. He watched the football games yesterday. The Titans lost to KC Chiefs and Green Bay lost to the 49ers. The Superbowl is February 2nd and will be KC Chiefs vs 49ers. Mom has no skin in the game but boy would I love to see the Chiefs take the win. Mom has never been a 49ers fan. Your Dad is but never me or you. Either way I think it will be a good game. Since we moved here, Mark and Mom haven't watch any football. Maybe 2 games. That is sad but it is different being here and it being warm and sunny all the time vs being up North where it is super cold and snowy now. This week we will be in cold temps. Today through Thursday it will be in the low 60's and tomorrow is the worst day. High is 57 and low is 35 at night. That is crazy. Everyone here will be all bundled up. We will still be okay as we have not completely acclimated yet. Meme and Mom will be going out in the cold tomorrow for our nail appointment in the afternoon. Wednesday, Mom is getting a high light done. I have not had one done in almost 6 years. I went back to my dark color brown but now I want the blond highlights back. Mark wants them back too. I am a little anxious on this but I know it will look good as I have had it done so many times before. Mom is also letting her hair grow on the top so that I can have a new style as well. It is finally time to change things up. I am looking around at some new styles. Help me out, pumpkin. I need your opinion! Thanks! 
 We finished movie #4 of Harry Potter for Mark. Tonight will be #5. We will get through them all by this week and then we will start on the Lord of the Rings series since he has never seen them either. We start watching them after we take the pups out for their walk after dinner and they get done by 7:30 - 8 pm. That gives us time with them and then they go to bed and Mark and Mom have a couple hours on our own to do what we want. It works out nicely. Not much else is going on. No new updates as of today. I am sure to have some later in the week. Please continue to watch over Grandpa for Mom and also all the rest of us. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom will light your candle in a couple of hours. I will whisper to you later tonight when I go to bed. I sure hope that you get to do all that you need and want to do. Come visit Mom in my dreams if you can. I will be back either in the morning or evening with another letter to you. Mom needs to get going now because I have a couple things I need to do before it is time to make dinner and feed the pups. Always remember that I love you with all my heart. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later. I miss you beyond words, Tyler, my bright shining star!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

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