Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing well. I am, as always, busy. I was up at 7 am and downstairs feeding and walking the pups by 7:30 am. I came right back upstairs and I started doing all the things I needed to do. I got ready right after that and then I was out the door and to the post office shipping a box out and grabbing my own mail. Back home in 30 minutes and I was right back upstairs doing what I needed to do. I finished out the afternoon by looking and starting to shop for the February Box. I am getting really great ideas! I am holding off on purchasing anything until the December Box launches to see if I can get the extra 20 subscribers that I need to sell out of the boxes. I am hoping that every month that I will continue to grow and grow. I will stop at 100 boxes though for a bit as it will be quite expensive to do it all on my own. I know that you are right there with me though. Thank you for every step of the way encouragement. It means so much to me. Mom took a shot at this whole business thing and it is paying off now.

Well, today is October 15th. It is a bittersweet day for me. This day holds so many meanings and memories for Mom. October 15th was Ramon and Mom's day that we had got married way back in 2005. It would have been 15 years married and 20 years together if it had worked out but as we all know, it did not work out in the end. So many were shocked. They thought we were the "it" couple. Mom did too but boy did I get fooled on that. Today's date became very bitter for me. It was a hurtful day for a very long time. I am sure that he doesn't even remember it at all. Mom sometimes wishes that I didn't either but my brain doesn't work that way at all. I think that is why I chose to make something happy out of this day after all those years! Last year on this very day.... We made the big move to Florida. We flew out of Boston around 11 am and we touched down here at 2 pm and got to the house that we would start calling home around 4 pm. What a year it has been. What a whirlwind. So many ups and downs, arguments and tears shed. Many friendships and relationships have crumbled too. There has been good though, too.... Mark got a new job, Bob is doing better now health wise for the past few months, all the pups are healthy and well, Mom graduated from 2 classes and only has one more to go, Mom started her business and new friendships have developed. I miss our family up North but I am still hoping and praying that they will move here. I am trying to help them understand it will be good for them. Time will tell oh that one. I think all in all... this day has been good. Reflection on some things but better memories more than anything. Mom can take the past, learn from those mistakes and grow as a person. Some things I will never have closure on and I have learned to deal with it. I wanted to but others didn't so I had no choice but to move on! 

Mom has had a candle lit for you all afternoon. It is a Halloween Candle and it is flavored "Candy Corn"! Your favorite. I can't believe that in 16 days it will be Halloween. Mom has avoided all the movies that you would make me watch with you...lol. I know you are laughing at that and boy, what I wouldn't give to hear that laugh again from you. That would be music to my ears. I just recently found the tape recorder that I believe has your voice on it. I haven't brought myself up to listening to it though. I have it in a safe place so I know I will get the courage up to one day to listen to it. Just has to be a day that I am alone as I know that I will cry my eyes out. I will light the warmer for you this evening. I will whisper to you later tonight before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. I miss you beyond any words can say or express. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Have fun tonight while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Right now it is almost time for Mom to get the pups fed and walked and get dinner going for us. Tonight we will do nothing but relax and then get some shut eye! Until tomorrow comes, pumpkin....good night and sweet dreams.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah💛