Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday early evening? Mom is doing alright. I am just really stressed out. So much is going on right now and I am the only one who seems to be thinking straight and it just is too much. Mom is trying to be thinking on the positive side of things but I live in the reality world...not some fake world or want to be world. Ugh...Mom is just having a rough time. My mind is constantly thinking and I am not sleeping the greatest either. I am tired and cranky....

Mom wanted to write to you for a few minutes. It is almost 5 pm and it will be time to feed the pups and walk them but I just needed to write to you. Even if it is a short letter...I still wanted to tell you how much I love you and miss you. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. To infinity and beyond. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in y heart, mind, body and soul. 

This weekend has been rough. Saturday was supposed to have been a day of going to look at houses but instead...Mark and Mom got into a fight, I stayed home and he went and looked at houses with the realtor. Today we were suppose to have met with the realtor but Mark had to start an 8 hour class for his teaching job. We went out this morning briefly and picked up so things and then came right back home. He has been in his office since and Mom has been in hers. I have been making sure I had everything for my February boxes and I started thinking about the April Boxes and getting ideas ready. I think I am all set of what I want to do for that April Box and the June Box. I want to get the stuff while I can but I don't want to be hanging on to them and having to pack it all up if we move.... anyways... I did get a lot done. 

There were no showings yesterday as Mom declined one that wanted to come between 4:30 pm and 5:30 pm. I was in no mood for it. I needed a break. There were none today either. Monday we have one at 12 noon. That will give me time to do things in the morning and then get the house set for the showing. I made it clear to the realtor that showings will be Monday-Friday 12 noon until 4 pm and none before or after. Saturdays are negotiable and no showings at all on Sundays. We need to have a break even though we are trying to sell this house. Mom can't do anything while this is going on and this is a problem so I had to make these choices. It might hurt us in the end but I have to do what I feel is right. Mom will keep you updated!!!

I got a very disturbing message yesterday from Debbie. It was about Grandpa. She was saying that he is starting to really forget about things...things that he should know. I guess it has been going on for so time now and she is just getting around to telling me about this. This is very concerning to Mom. He is getting up there in age. What is more disturbing is that Debbie is saying that it is very difficult to deal with and she doesn't want to. Mom needs to find a way to talk to Grandpa so that he will be honest with me and then Mom needs to somehow get him to move here so that I can take care of him. Ty, Mom needs help. I need this house to sell so we can move and I need help that my business starts doing better and also I need help with Grandpa. Anything that you can do will help me out so much. Thank you my sweet precious son. 

I need to go for now though so that I can feed the pups and walk them. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you after the showing providing that it doesn't get cancelled. I will whisper to you later this evening so smile for me and I will smile back to you. I have a candle burning right now but will have the warmer going later too. Have fun while I sleep tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks! Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams. Fly high and free. Do all the things you need to do and want to do. Please watch over us and keep us safe and healthy. I miss you like crazy. I love you.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖