Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is so busy and I apologize that I didn't write to you again yesterday but honestly there was just not enough time in the day or night to do it. I felt guilty but I know you see everything and you understand where I am coming from.

Yesterday, Mom started her day at 7 am. Pups were fed and walked and then I got ready and ran errands for about an hour. I got home and came into the office and started on phone calls. Mom was literally on the phone from 11 am until 4:30 pm and then again from 6:30 pm until 9:30 pm. I have just 2 hours break to feed the pups, walk them and get dinner myself while Mark was on the road to the college again. It was crazy. I went upstairs at 10 pm and crashed at 10:30 pm. I was so tired. I didn't sleep well though. I hope to get better sleep tonight. 

Mom has been up since 7 am again and after the pups were set, I came right into my office and started the phone calls again. I think I made about 5 calls and the rest were done online which was easier...but there were about 20 of them to do. I finished around 3 pm and phone calls were still coming in along with emails. We are getting down to the wire. We have 2 weeks tomorrow before we leave and move. We have a lot of things to still do and get finalized. We will get it done. Most of the hard parts are over with. All the address changes and the packing are done except for 2 or 3 boxes. I can have that done in less than an hour and then go over it again just to make sure I didn't miss anything. The rest of the time is just waiting around and Mom working on her April boxes. I have a couple errands to run tomorrow morning and then I am back home and working on the rest of this stuff. I will be curating boxes for my business all next week so that will be fun and the week after it will be a short week...we will have 3 days left here and then movers will come and we will be leaving this place behind us and starting our new adventures. I know that Meme is scared and nervous but the rest of us are not. We are excited and anxious to get out of here! We look forward to a tiny town again and peace and quiet. Mom will be ordering furniture tomorrow morning and getting it here for our move. I will probably be trying to put stuff together before hand so it is less work on the new house! We shall see!!! I will keep you posted!

Mom will call Grandpa tonight. I will check in as I have not heard from him at all. I texted Aunt Donna again today to see how she was and I finally got a response back. Not what I expected though but oh well. She basically said that she is depressed and sad and alone. Everyone deserted her including me and she thought that I would be the one person who wouldn't. I told her that I didn't desert her and I have been trying to get her with no response back. I also told her it was a 2 way street and just not for me to always be the one. She shot back saying that I didn't get it that she was depressed and sad and didn't want to reach out to people and people should be reaching out to here only. I kindly told her that she needs to get over that crap. I am sorry that she is grieving the loss of her dad still and she is depressed. I wish that on no one. It is hard but I told her that she needs to try. I will not be the only one and I will not be spoken to like that from her or anyone. I put it back in her face saying that I am always there for everyone but when I need someone no one is there. Where was everyone when I lost you, Tyler? They were busy with their life and couldn't bother with me. I did it all on my own. Aunt Donna needs to do the same or she will never be able to live her life. She never responded back to me after I wrote that because she knows it is the truth. I don't want to hear it. I have a feeling I won't hear from her again or anytime soon. C'est La Vie. Everyone else did the same thing to me in NH so nothing new on my end! Live and learn and not dwell on things. That is what needs to be done to more forward and not backwards. I learned that from you. Mom will let you know if she contacts me again.

It is already after 5 pm and Mom must get going. I have to feed the pups and walk them and then get dinner going for us. Mark is still working. I think it will be a long night that is for sure. Maybe if we are lucky we can relax a bit before going to bed. I will whisper to you later so smile when you hear me and I will smile back to you. Mom has had a candle burning for you all day today. I will light the warmer later as well. Have fun while I sleep and come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Until then....good night and sweet dreams. I miss you more than words my sweet precious son.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖