Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this rainy and thunderstorm Thursday? Mom is doing okay today! Another day with getting a lot accomplished! It feels great. I have been busting my hump all morning and afternoon with phone calls and emails about my business. I think I am finally getting somewhere now! Tomorrow will be another day that I am back at it again but only in the afternoon as in the morning I am driving Meme to go shopping and run errands for what she needs. we will be leaving early in the morning and hopefully getting back by 11 am. we will see it that actually happens....lol
Last night was just what I expected. we fed the pups and then took them for their walk. It was already raining so they didn't want to be out long. Came back in, had dinner, cleaned up and then put chemicals in the pool and closed everything up for the night. We came upstairs and just relaxed and watched tv for the night. We were both tired by 9:30 pm. We have new renters on one side of us and they were loud as hell. They partied until 1 am and kept Meme, Mark and I awake. We all have windows facing that pool area so we heard it all. They do it again and I will call the Sheriff. Things in this resort are getting bad. No one is following social distancing, wearing masks, etc... people are coming in from Louisiana, New Jersey, New York, Canada and a few other places that are not suppose to be in this community right now. No one is caring for our safety. It is a horrible feeling and no one has any respect for being quiet for others. If we knew this was the way it was, Mark and Mom would have never bought a home here. I don't see us staying here for more than a couple years and then we will move somewhere else. It is stressful and you can't sleep at night, tired the next day and it is not right or fair. Everyone's losing their sanity. Meme agrees with us as well. Things are no better here and it is getting to be like it was in NH where we lived...sucky! We, full-timers complain and make the calls but nothing gets done. Our voices are not heard cuz no one cares. One of our sweet neighbors are fed up with it all and told mom yesterday that they can't stand it here anymore and they will be moving within the year. That sucks. They are such great people. Mom will miss them. I hope things get better but honestly I am not counting on it at all 😢
Tonight will be about the same as all day it has been raining and mega thunderstorms. It is suppose to rain all night and every day for the next 2 weeks. Mom didn't realize that June, July and August here is the rainy months. We can get over 21" of rain during that time. I believe it. I don't like it as that is why we moved to the sunshine state and there is no sun at all...disappointing. Going to be a long 3 months with this weather. Maybe it is a catch 22 as anyone renting can't enjoy time out at the pools so it will be quiet....lol! Mom has dinner in the oven already and we will be eating around 5:30 pm tonight. I have to go downstairs in about 20 minutes to finish it up though. Mom will light your candle later and I will whisper to you before I fall asleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can and smile when you hear my voice. I will smile to you! Thanks pumpkin!
No updates for you today. Maybe tomorrow though. Thank you for helping me find the pins that I was looking for. I asked for your help last night as I have been looking for days and this morning I looked in a few stops that I hadn't and voila I found them. I thanked you then so I hope you heard Mom. Those pins are the ones we picked out when we would vacation here. They have so much more meaning to me than just being a pin. I have them all together now and they are on a landyard. I hope you smile when you see them.
I sure do miss you so much. I can't believe that in 16 days it will be 7 years since you left. 7 years in a long time and it has been so hard for Mom. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my winds. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Please continue watching over us all and keeping us safe and healthy. Thank you my sweet precious son. Continue to fly high and free. I know you are doing amazing things up there wherever you may be. I am proud of you, always. I have to get going for now. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweetest dreams to you, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
Thursday, June 4, 2020
Wednesday, June 3, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing well. I have been up since the ass crack of dawn and I have been productive the entire day. Got a few more things accomplished for my box and sent out a few more emails in regards to finding the boxes and mailer envelopes, labels, etc... It is getting there. I just now need to work with Cratejoy and that will be the big thing I do tomorrow. After that I can finally start to focus on my school for a couple weeks before I have to launch my 1st ever box! It is super exciting and I am very happy with the outcome so far! Mom will keep you posted. everyone else has been busy too, well all but Bob. mark has been on the phone all day long and working his tail feathers off as usual. Meme took Bob to the doctors today and I guess all was good with his bloodwork. I am pretty shocked at that though. He is not following the sugar free diet and he is gaining a lot more weight plus his breathing is getting worse as well. They did talk about his legs and how red/blue/gray color they get and he has to wear compression socks now. They said they would like to order a chest x-ray to see what may be going on but that is sketchy as the whole Covid thing is still going around and the last place you want to be is in the hospital. I know they altered some meds as well. They didn't discuss he lack of sleep though or his nasty attitude. Guess that may be for a different doctor...not sure. meme has been on the phone all day long for Bob while all he is doing is freaking sleeping and doing nothing. He uses the excuse that he can't talk to the doctors and that they don't understand him...Mom calls BS as he never tries. It is just another thing he expects Meme to do for him. His whole attitude towards life and the lack of what he doesn't due really makes me angry. Meme is 12 years older than him and she is stressed out so bad. Her health is declining rapidly and Mom sees it. I try to talk to her but it does no good so I have to sit and watch it all happening in front of me. I think Mom has gotten to the point of where she is just going to remove herself from all this stress as it gets to me and I need it to stop. I have explained very vividly to Meme that if all this continues then her and Bob need to find a new place to live whether that is here in Florida or back North. I spoke to Aunt Beck today for the first time in a few weeks. She still says the same thing...they both need to leave but she is happy that I am finally sticking up for myself and Mark. she has been extremely busy which is a good thing. She didn't say much about John but I assume he is good and nothing about Bean either. I haven't spoken to her in almost a year. How sad huh? I text her and get no response back so I just don't bother anymore. Meme doesn't even hear from her. I can only assume she is well. Grandpa and Debbie are good. They are just tired of not being able to go anywhere or do anything. Mom will keep you updated as I know of things.
Last night was fun. Mark and Mom ate dinner, cleaned the dishes, walked the pups and then went swimming. We stayed outside until 7:30 pm and then dried off and was inside around 8 pm. Just in time to walk the pups for the night and then head upstairs to watch a bit of TV and then go to bed. It was relaxing and refreshing. Mom really enjoyed it. That won't happen tonight though or the next few nights I don't believe. Mom just looked the weather up and yup...massive rain until next week. Lots of thunderstorms probably but I am praying it will be just rain or Mom and Mark will not be getting any sleep with the pups. Can you help us out, pumpkin? Thank you! Guess tonight will be dinner, clean-up, maybe walk the pups and then watching tv. Not much to do when it is raining. maybe Mom will take a bubble bath later. That will be relaxing before bed. Maybe a glass of wine too! who knows. It is 4 pm though and of course it is almost time for Mom to get things going for the pups for dinner and then us. No clue to what we are having but that is ok. I am not worried! Mom hopes that you will have fun while I sleep. Maybe you can come visit in my dreams. That would be lovely. Please know that I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will light your candle later and I will whisper to you tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter for you in the afternoon. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams. I miss you more than words my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
PS. Mom wanted to take a couple minutes to say that I am praying for everyone in the world. We are going through rough times with the Coronavirus still spreading but just a few days ago something else happened to a black man that was not necessary. There are many stories going around and political views that Mom will not get into at all but the story was horrific. I feel for the victim that lost his life, to his family and his friends that have to mourn the loss of him. Now riots and looting are happening all over the United States because of this. More people are dying, buildings being burned to the ground, people getting hurt and others losing their homes, businesses because of it. We are all in curfew nightly because it is not safe to be outside. The world is falling apart and I don't think anyone knows what to do anymore. Mom is praying that it all stops. I know it won't bring that man back to life but we can prevent things from happening to others. We all need to come together and unite regardless of our age, color, the way we look, the way we talk, etc... there is no need to judge anyone. There is no time for that. The power of prayer is amazing and Mom will continue to pray for us here and for all in the world we live in together.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing well. I have been up since the ass crack of dawn and I have been productive the entire day. Got a few more things accomplished for my box and sent out a few more emails in regards to finding the boxes and mailer envelopes, labels, etc... It is getting there. I just now need to work with Cratejoy and that will be the big thing I do tomorrow. After that I can finally start to focus on my school for a couple weeks before I have to launch my 1st ever box! It is super exciting and I am very happy with the outcome so far! Mom will keep you posted. everyone else has been busy too, well all but Bob. mark has been on the phone all day long and working his tail feathers off as usual. Meme took Bob to the doctors today and I guess all was good with his bloodwork. I am pretty shocked at that though. He is not following the sugar free diet and he is gaining a lot more weight plus his breathing is getting worse as well. They did talk about his legs and how red/blue/gray color they get and he has to wear compression socks now. They said they would like to order a chest x-ray to see what may be going on but that is sketchy as the whole Covid thing is still going around and the last place you want to be is in the hospital. I know they altered some meds as well. They didn't discuss he lack of sleep though or his nasty attitude. Guess that may be for a different doctor...not sure. meme has been on the phone all day long for Bob while all he is doing is freaking sleeping and doing nothing. He uses the excuse that he can't talk to the doctors and that they don't understand him...Mom calls BS as he never tries. It is just another thing he expects Meme to do for him. His whole attitude towards life and the lack of what he doesn't due really makes me angry. Meme is 12 years older than him and she is stressed out so bad. Her health is declining rapidly and Mom sees it. I try to talk to her but it does no good so I have to sit and watch it all happening in front of me. I think Mom has gotten to the point of where she is just going to remove herself from all this stress as it gets to me and I need it to stop. I have explained very vividly to Meme that if all this continues then her and Bob need to find a new place to live whether that is here in Florida or back North. I spoke to Aunt Beck today for the first time in a few weeks. She still says the same thing...they both need to leave but she is happy that I am finally sticking up for myself and Mark. she has been extremely busy which is a good thing. She didn't say much about John but I assume he is good and nothing about Bean either. I haven't spoken to her in almost a year. How sad huh? I text her and get no response back so I just don't bother anymore. Meme doesn't even hear from her. I can only assume she is well. Grandpa and Debbie are good. They are just tired of not being able to go anywhere or do anything. Mom will keep you updated as I know of things.
Last night was fun. Mark and Mom ate dinner, cleaned the dishes, walked the pups and then went swimming. We stayed outside until 7:30 pm and then dried off and was inside around 8 pm. Just in time to walk the pups for the night and then head upstairs to watch a bit of TV and then go to bed. It was relaxing and refreshing. Mom really enjoyed it. That won't happen tonight though or the next few nights I don't believe. Mom just looked the weather up and yup...massive rain until next week. Lots of thunderstorms probably but I am praying it will be just rain or Mom and Mark will not be getting any sleep with the pups. Can you help us out, pumpkin? Thank you! Guess tonight will be dinner, clean-up, maybe walk the pups and then watching tv. Not much to do when it is raining. maybe Mom will take a bubble bath later. That will be relaxing before bed. Maybe a glass of wine too! who knows. It is 4 pm though and of course it is almost time for Mom to get things going for the pups for dinner and then us. No clue to what we are having but that is ok. I am not worried! Mom hopes that you will have fun while I sleep. Maybe you can come visit in my dreams. That would be lovely. Please know that I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will light your candle later and I will whisper to you tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter for you in the afternoon. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams. I miss you more than words my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
PS. Mom wanted to take a couple minutes to say that I am praying for everyone in the world. We are going through rough times with the Coronavirus still spreading but just a few days ago something else happened to a black man that was not necessary. There are many stories going around and political views that Mom will not get into at all but the story was horrific. I feel for the victim that lost his life, to his family and his friends that have to mourn the loss of him. Now riots and looting are happening all over the United States because of this. More people are dying, buildings being burned to the ground, people getting hurt and others losing their homes, businesses because of it. We are all in curfew nightly because it is not safe to be outside. The world is falling apart and I don't think anyone knows what to do anymore. Mom is praying that it all stops. I know it won't bring that man back to life but we can prevent things from happening to others. We all need to come together and unite regardless of our age, color, the way we look, the way we talk, etc... there is no need to judge anyone. There is no time for that. The power of prayer is amazing and Mom will continue to pray for us here and for all in the world we live in together.
Tuesday, June 2, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom has had a weird day. I was good this morning but throughout the day I have been kind of all over the place...tired, sick feeling. Maybe I just need to drink more water. Not sure though. It is 3:45 pm and Mom needs to get her stuff together so that I can make dinner in about 30 minutes. My day has been busy though. I got ready early this morning and went and got my vehicle. The thing that was wrong with it was the carbon filter. It was black as black could be. There was no AC coming from it due to the condition that the filter was in. I was thankful as it didn't cost much at all to fix it. Came home, made some breakfast and up to my office I went. I have been here ever since. I was able to locate a few more things that I needed for my boxes so that is good. I have them saved so all I have to do on Thursday is go to them and order. Looks like my box will be launched the first of July! Mom is super happy with everything that I have and will be getting. It is a box that represents me! I know you would be proud of Mom. I sure do miss you my sweet precious son. Every day and every month is hard but June is the hardest. It is the month where I get reminded even more what you went through and what we both lost. I wish you were still here with me but I know you are so happy and free where you are. Mom would never take that away or want to take that away from you...ever!
Last night was different. After Mom fed the pups, made dinner and did dishes, Mark and I went in the pool for a bit. we had fun playing ball and Mom did some exercises and laps. We were out at 7:15 pm and dried off, walked the pups for the evening and headed upstairs to watch tv and then go to bed. It was a nice change for sure. Mark got word that the cutover he was suppose to do would not be tomorrow night, it was changed to next week and then changed again to July now....super crazy. The week of the 15th though he will be crammed into his office for 12 hours a day for all 5 days. He was invited to take this class and course for the last 3 years. We have never had the money for him to go to Plano, Texas and we still don't but due to the Covid-19 virus, the company is offering it online. Mark is excited. They will be tiring days for sure and we will all have to be super quiet but we can do it for him. It starts every morning at 8 am and ends at 8 pm. Mom is happy that he is happy about getting this certification. It is a big deal in his line of work. He has got this! Tonight I think will be a mellow night. It is really crappy weather again. Very windy and cloudy. The temp is pretty low too. I was hoping to have pool time but I don't think tonight is the night so we will skip it. maybe tomorrow though as the rest of the week looks crappy too. So sick of the rain and thunderstorms. They can go away anytime now. Meme and Bob have been quiet today as well. That is a good thing. Mom feels bad for the way I feel and I know I should be able to tolerate more than I can but I just can't. I am having a really hard time with him. I don't want to be around him. That is awful to say but he is just not getting it. He is so disgusting and rude and has no manners and doesn't care about anything or anyone. there is only so much that Mom or anyone for that matter can take. Meme feels the same way. He has a doctor's call in the morning and I really hope she gives him sh*t. He needs to hear it for sure! He needs to be held accountable for his actions that he is doing and ones that he is not doing. This is a big house but not big enough with him here. again, that sounds terrible and I feel terrible for typing this but I can't lie. I am too stressed out because of him. Mom never thought it would ever be this way. If I would have only known, I would not have suggested this move. I now know why Meme acts the way she does. She has had it with him as well. Again.... for the 3rd time...that is really bad but it is the truth. Anyways...dinner, clean-up, walk the pups and relax is what is on the agenda. Tomorrow I will be back to the drawing board to get more things set for this box to launch. I will be back with another letter to you as well. Mom will whisper to you later tonight so smile for me and I will smile for you. Have fun while I am sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Please continue to keep us all safe and healthy here. That means a lot to Mom. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom has had a weird day. I was good this morning but throughout the day I have been kind of all over the place...tired, sick feeling. Maybe I just need to drink more water. Not sure though. It is 3:45 pm and Mom needs to get her stuff together so that I can make dinner in about 30 minutes. My day has been busy though. I got ready early this morning and went and got my vehicle. The thing that was wrong with it was the carbon filter. It was black as black could be. There was no AC coming from it due to the condition that the filter was in. I was thankful as it didn't cost much at all to fix it. Came home, made some breakfast and up to my office I went. I have been here ever since. I was able to locate a few more things that I needed for my boxes so that is good. I have them saved so all I have to do on Thursday is go to them and order. Looks like my box will be launched the first of July! Mom is super happy with everything that I have and will be getting. It is a box that represents me! I know you would be proud of Mom. I sure do miss you my sweet precious son. Every day and every month is hard but June is the hardest. It is the month where I get reminded even more what you went through and what we both lost. I wish you were still here with me but I know you are so happy and free where you are. Mom would never take that away or want to take that away from you...ever!
Last night was different. After Mom fed the pups, made dinner and did dishes, Mark and I went in the pool for a bit. we had fun playing ball and Mom did some exercises and laps. We were out at 7:15 pm and dried off, walked the pups for the evening and headed upstairs to watch tv and then go to bed. It was a nice change for sure. Mark got word that the cutover he was suppose to do would not be tomorrow night, it was changed to next week and then changed again to July now....super crazy. The week of the 15th though he will be crammed into his office for 12 hours a day for all 5 days. He was invited to take this class and course for the last 3 years. We have never had the money for him to go to Plano, Texas and we still don't but due to the Covid-19 virus, the company is offering it online. Mark is excited. They will be tiring days for sure and we will all have to be super quiet but we can do it for him. It starts every morning at 8 am and ends at 8 pm. Mom is happy that he is happy about getting this certification. It is a big deal in his line of work. He has got this! Tonight I think will be a mellow night. It is really crappy weather again. Very windy and cloudy. The temp is pretty low too. I was hoping to have pool time but I don't think tonight is the night so we will skip it. maybe tomorrow though as the rest of the week looks crappy too. So sick of the rain and thunderstorms. They can go away anytime now. Meme and Bob have been quiet today as well. That is a good thing. Mom feels bad for the way I feel and I know I should be able to tolerate more than I can but I just can't. I am having a really hard time with him. I don't want to be around him. That is awful to say but he is just not getting it. He is so disgusting and rude and has no manners and doesn't care about anything or anyone. there is only so much that Mom or anyone for that matter can take. Meme feels the same way. He has a doctor's call in the morning and I really hope she gives him sh*t. He needs to hear it for sure! He needs to be held accountable for his actions that he is doing and ones that he is not doing. This is a big house but not big enough with him here. again, that sounds terrible and I feel terrible for typing this but I can't lie. I am too stressed out because of him. Mom never thought it would ever be this way. If I would have only known, I would not have suggested this move. I now know why Meme acts the way she does. She has had it with him as well. Again.... for the 3rd time...that is really bad but it is the truth. Anyways...dinner, clean-up, walk the pups and relax is what is on the agenda. Tomorrow I will be back to the drawing board to get more things set for this box to launch. I will be back with another letter to you as well. Mom will whisper to you later tonight so smile for me and I will smile for you. Have fun while I am sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Please continue to keep us all safe and healthy here. That means a lot to Mom. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Monday, June 1, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is sorry about the short letter to you last night. I was so sick until about 10 pm or later. I am doing much better today though. I was able to get some sleep so that helped me out.
Today is June 1st. Yup it is the month I try to have a positive attitude with but I always end up hating the entire month. There is not one day at all in the whole month of June that doe not bring back horrible memories for Mom. I say I am going to try every year to think differently and every year is just the same. I am not sure that I will ever be able to get over all the bad memories that this month holds for me.
Yesterday was a crap day. It started in the morning and ended in a huge argument with Mark. To make a long story short... he started Bob on this kick of learning things that he does for work. Mark thought it would be a hobby. Bob told Meme that he was doing this because Mark was going to find him a job. Mark has been doing this now for over 25 years. He explained to Bob that it wasn't going to happen and that he needed to do this and learn it in small doses. He is not listening and he is now obsessed with the videos, etc... he is on the computer all day and all night. Only time he isn't is to eat and try and sleep which he hasn't in almost 3 weeks. Meme spoke to me on 3 different occasions about asking Mark to talk to him. I mentioned it yesterday morning on what was said to me and Mark said that he told Bob it should be a hobby, not doing this past 2-3 hours a day max and if Bob still wanted to do it then that was Bob's problem not his. He was such a jerk about it. mom was so disgusted with his attitude. It ended in a big ole blowout between us and we didn't talk for about 4 hours. Mom went in the pool all morning while Mark did whatever. Around 11 am I got out of the pool and I decided to take Meme to the place she wanted to go. Everyone decided to go...ugh. We were gone for about 2 hours. Came back home and Mom went in the pool again. Mark was no where to be found and Bob went right up to the computer. Unbelievable. I guess Mark was chatting with both his brothers and their wife/GF. Mom is never included in any of those conversations at all. I am used to it now. It hurts but I never show it. I won't give the satisfaction. He told me that he found out that his niece and her husband may be moving to the Navy Florida base that will be 4 hours from us. They all had a wonderful idea of everyone coming to Florida for a vacation for a week so that everyone could see one another as it has been almost 6 years for Ellis and Mark and just a year for him seeing Gary. It has been many years seeing Tori. Mom is cool with Ellis, Stacy and Tori but no thanks to Gary and Sarah. After what happened the last time...I don't think so. I told Mark that. I know he didn't appreciate it but I was honest. I don't know what is going to happen but the move is suppose to take place at the end of this month. Lord have mercy! I will keep you posted.
Today has been an okay day. Meme and Bob had a call from one of his doctors. Nothing was done because Meme was doing all the talking and she wasn't being honest. I was fixing breakfast and overheard everything. I was stunned at the bogus answers that she was given. When she was off the phone, I called her out on it. How is someone suppose to help out if they are not being told the truth. I told Meme over the weekend that things were getting worse daily with Bob. If things progressed and continued at this rate then he will have to go somewhere else to live. She said "where" and Mom told her that I didn't know and it was not my problem. She responded with "well it is my problem" and I said exactly. I can't have Bob here if he is going to continue to stress everyone out, get in Meme's face because he is angry, not wash his hands, etc... it is so bad, Tyler. The doctors really need to be doing something for him and very soon. Just talking to him on the phone is not doing any good. They need to see him face to face either on skype or in person. I know you see Mom stressing out and it is not healthy. I try to avoid him at all cost but it is not that easy. I don't know what to do any longer. I take it day to day but now it is more like hour to hour. I never thought this would be so difficult. I don't think it would be if he didn't act the way he does. He makes if so difficult for everyone in this house. Enough is enough!
The weather is hot hot hot. Yesterday was 93 degrees, today is the same. Finally dry weather but I heard we are in for the thunderstorms and rain again on Friday and over the weekend. Oh joy! Not! I never realized that the May/June was the rainy season here. I know today starts hurricane season for us. I hope we don't see anything major here! 3.5 months until Grandpa is here! I can't wait. I miss him so much! I will cherish the 2 weeks I have with him. I hope that he likes the area so much that he wants to move here. My fingers are crossed. Help Mom out, pumpkin! Tonight will be dinner, clean up, and then Mark and I are going to go swimming for a bit. Mom will get some exercise in the pool and then dry off and come upstairs and crawl into bed and relax for a bit before going to sleep. I will light your warmer downstairs and I will whisper to you later tonight. Have fun while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now, Mom needs to finish a few things up before it is time to start the night routine. I have about 1 hour to do it in. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is sorry about the short letter to you last night. I was so sick until about 10 pm or later. I am doing much better today though. I was able to get some sleep so that helped me out.
Today is June 1st. Yup it is the month I try to have a positive attitude with but I always end up hating the entire month. There is not one day at all in the whole month of June that doe not bring back horrible memories for Mom. I say I am going to try every year to think differently and every year is just the same. I am not sure that I will ever be able to get over all the bad memories that this month holds for me.
Yesterday was a crap day. It started in the morning and ended in a huge argument with Mark. To make a long story short... he started Bob on this kick of learning things that he does for work. Mark thought it would be a hobby. Bob told Meme that he was doing this because Mark was going to find him a job. Mark has been doing this now for over 25 years. He explained to Bob that it wasn't going to happen and that he needed to do this and learn it in small doses. He is not listening and he is now obsessed with the videos, etc... he is on the computer all day and all night. Only time he isn't is to eat and try and sleep which he hasn't in almost 3 weeks. Meme spoke to me on 3 different occasions about asking Mark to talk to him. I mentioned it yesterday morning on what was said to me and Mark said that he told Bob it should be a hobby, not doing this past 2-3 hours a day max and if Bob still wanted to do it then that was Bob's problem not his. He was such a jerk about it. mom was so disgusted with his attitude. It ended in a big ole blowout between us and we didn't talk for about 4 hours. Mom went in the pool all morning while Mark did whatever. Around 11 am I got out of the pool and I decided to take Meme to the place she wanted to go. Everyone decided to go...ugh. We were gone for about 2 hours. Came back home and Mom went in the pool again. Mark was no where to be found and Bob went right up to the computer. Unbelievable. I guess Mark was chatting with both his brothers and their wife/GF. Mom is never included in any of those conversations at all. I am used to it now. It hurts but I never show it. I won't give the satisfaction. He told me that he found out that his niece and her husband may be moving to the Navy Florida base that will be 4 hours from us. They all had a wonderful idea of everyone coming to Florida for a vacation for a week so that everyone could see one another as it has been almost 6 years for Ellis and Mark and just a year for him seeing Gary. It has been many years seeing Tori. Mom is cool with Ellis, Stacy and Tori but no thanks to Gary and Sarah. After what happened the last time...I don't think so. I told Mark that. I know he didn't appreciate it but I was honest. I don't know what is going to happen but the move is suppose to take place at the end of this month. Lord have mercy! I will keep you posted.
Today has been an okay day. Meme and Bob had a call from one of his doctors. Nothing was done because Meme was doing all the talking and she wasn't being honest. I was fixing breakfast and overheard everything. I was stunned at the bogus answers that she was given. When she was off the phone, I called her out on it. How is someone suppose to help out if they are not being told the truth. I told Meme over the weekend that things were getting worse daily with Bob. If things progressed and continued at this rate then he will have to go somewhere else to live. She said "where" and Mom told her that I didn't know and it was not my problem. She responded with "well it is my problem" and I said exactly. I can't have Bob here if he is going to continue to stress everyone out, get in Meme's face because he is angry, not wash his hands, etc... it is so bad, Tyler. The doctors really need to be doing something for him and very soon. Just talking to him on the phone is not doing any good. They need to see him face to face either on skype or in person. I know you see Mom stressing out and it is not healthy. I try to avoid him at all cost but it is not that easy. I don't know what to do any longer. I take it day to day but now it is more like hour to hour. I never thought this would be so difficult. I don't think it would be if he didn't act the way he does. He makes if so difficult for everyone in this house. Enough is enough!
The weather is hot hot hot. Yesterday was 93 degrees, today is the same. Finally dry weather but I heard we are in for the thunderstorms and rain again on Friday and over the weekend. Oh joy! Not! I never realized that the May/June was the rainy season here. I know today starts hurricane season for us. I hope we don't see anything major here! 3.5 months until Grandpa is here! I can't wait. I miss him so much! I will cherish the 2 weeks I have with him. I hope that he likes the area so much that he wants to move here. My fingers are crossed. Help Mom out, pumpkin! Tonight will be dinner, clean up, and then Mark and I are going to go swimming for a bit. Mom will get some exercise in the pool and then dry off and come upstairs and crawl into bed and relax for a bit before going to sleep. I will light your warmer downstairs and I will whisper to you later tonight. Have fun while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now, Mom needs to finish a few things up before it is time to start the night routine. I have about 1 hour to do it in. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
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