Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is sorry about the short letter to you last night. I was so sick until about 10 pm or later. I am doing much better today though. I was able to get some sleep so that helped me out. 
 Today is June 1st. Yup it is the month I try to have a positive attitude with but I always end up hating the entire month. There is not one day at all in the whole month of June that doe not bring back horrible memories for Mom. I say I am going to try every year to think differently and every year is just the same. I am not sure that I will ever be able to get over all the bad memories that this month holds for me. 
 Yesterday was a crap day. It started in the morning and ended in a huge argument with Mark. To make a long story short... he started Bob on this kick of learning things that he does for work. Mark thought it would be a hobby. Bob told Meme that he was doing this because Mark was going to find him a job. Mark has been doing this now for over 25 years. He explained to Bob that it wasn't going to happen and that he needed to do this and learn it in small doses. He is not listening and he is now obsessed with the videos, etc... he is on the computer all day and all night. Only time he isn't is to eat and try and sleep which he hasn't in almost 3 weeks. Meme spoke to me on 3 different occasions about asking Mark to talk to him. I mentioned it yesterday morning on what was said to me and Mark said that he told Bob it should be a hobby, not doing this past 2-3 hours a day max and if Bob still wanted to do it then that was Bob's problem not his. He was such a jerk about it. mom was so disgusted with his attitude. It ended in a big ole blowout between us and we didn't talk for about 4 hours. Mom went in the pool all morning while Mark did whatever. Around 11 am I got out of the pool and I decided to take Meme to the place she wanted to go. Everyone decided to go...ugh. We were gone for about 2 hours. Came back home and Mom went in the pool again. Mark was no where to be found and Bob went right up to the computer. Unbelievable. I guess Mark was chatting with both his brothers and their wife/GF. Mom is never included in any of those conversations at all. I am used to it now. It hurts but I never show it. I won't give the satisfaction. He told me that he found out that his niece and her husband may be moving to the Navy Florida base that will be 4 hours from us. They all had a wonderful idea of everyone coming to Florida for a vacation for a week so that everyone could see one another as it has been almost 6 years for Ellis and Mark and just a year for him seeing Gary. It has been many years seeing Tori. Mom is cool with Ellis, Stacy and Tori but no thanks to Gary and Sarah. After what happened the last time...I don't think so. I told Mark that. I know he didn't appreciate it but I was honest. I don't know what is going to happen but the move is suppose to take place at the end of this month. Lord have mercy! I will keep you posted.
 Today has been an okay day. Meme and Bob had a call from one of his doctors. Nothing was done because Meme was doing all the talking and she wasn't being honest. I was fixing breakfast and overheard everything. I was stunned at the bogus answers that she was given. When she was off the phone, I called her out on it. How is someone suppose to help out if they are not being told the truth. I told Meme over the weekend that things were getting worse daily with Bob. If things progressed and continued at this rate then he will have to go somewhere else to live. She said "where" and Mom told her that I didn't know and it was not my problem. She responded with "well it is my problem" and I said exactly. I can't have Bob here if he is going to continue to stress everyone out, get in Meme's face because he is angry, not wash his hands, etc... it is so bad, Tyler. The doctors really need to be doing something for him and very soon. Just talking to him on the phone is not doing any good. They need to see him face to face either on skype or in person. I know you see Mom stressing out and it is not healthy. I try to avoid him at all cost but it is not that easy. I don't know what to do any longer. I take it day to day but now it is more like hour to hour. I never thought this would be so difficult. I don't think it would be if he didn't act the way he does. He makes if so difficult for everyone in this house. Enough is enough!
 The weather is hot hot hot. Yesterday was 93 degrees, today is the same. Finally dry weather but I heard we are in for the thunderstorms and rain again on Friday and over the weekend. Oh joy! Not! I never realized that the May/June was the rainy season here. I know today starts hurricane season for us. I hope we don't see anything major here! 3.5 months until Grandpa is here! I can't wait. I miss him so much! I will cherish the 2 weeks I have with him. I hope that he likes the area so much that he wants to move here. My fingers are crossed. Help Mom out, pumpkin! Tonight will be dinner, clean up, and then Mark and I are going to go swimming for a bit. Mom will get some exercise in the pool and then dry off and come upstairs and crawl into bed and relax for a bit before going to sleep. I will light your warmer downstairs and I will whisper to you later tonight. Have fun while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now, Mom needs to finish a few things up before it is time to start the night routine. I have about 1 hour to do it in. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤