Thursday, August 31, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? To be honest with you, Mom is not in a good mood at all. I am very angry. I am angry at a lot of things right now. My emotions are on over drive & I am just trying to stay as quiet as I can so I don't blow up at the whole world like I just blew up at Mark a few minutes ago. What is the biggest pet peeve that Mom has? Yes.... people who lie to me... I can't stand liars. I can't stand it when I ask a question, already knowing the answer, to see if someone will tell me the truth or not. That happened today with Mark & something relating to his job. He told me one thing & I found that what he told me was not true at all so I asked him again & he still gave me a lie. That just burns my a**. I am so upset, angry, etc... right now. I probably shouldn't even be writing to you but I needed to do it now as I will be studying after this & I didn't want to have to rush later to get your letter done. Mom is sorry that I am saying all this on here but to be quite frank... Mom has no one to talk to, no one to call up & just vent to. Everyone is either working or is too busy to listen to me. Guess I will remember that when the tables are turned & they all need someone to listen to. I am always there to help others but maybe I shouldn't be so open. Maybe I need to ignore everyone like everyone does to me all the time. Maybe that will be an eye opener for them to see exactly what they do or maybe it won't faze them at all....either way.... Mom still has no one. I really wish I could have a conversation with you. Mom misses you so much. I miss all the times that we could just do absolutely nothing & just talk. We would talk about anything & we would talk about everything. Sometimes it would be funny, sometimes it was serious but no matter what we always listened to each other. We would always give the other one advice or our opinion of things. It was always you & I in this world together. People would come & go out of our lives but we always had each other. Now Mom doesn't even have that as it was taken from me as well. 4 years & 2 months ago, you left this world. Mom is not mad at you at all for that. I could never be mad at you. I have questions about things with no chance of getting any answers to them at all.Mom just misses you so dang much. It hurts like h*ll all the time. Just bare with me.... have patience with Mom as I try to work this out the best I can...the best way I know how to. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Mom saw something that a good friend of mine posted yesterday about missing his Mom as she suddenly passed away last year. When I read it I immediately thought of you so I would like to share it on here:
I can hear your voice on the ocean's wind
I can smell your perfume every now and then.
Your phone number remains in my contact list.
I called it a few times but it no longer exists.
I loved the times that you spent with me.
Going for rides and watching TV.
I miss your hugs and kisses too.
Life's been so different without you.
I've tried to move on like they tell me to do.
But nobody can understand my true love for you.
You're in my dreams and in my heart
I truly feel that we are not so far apart.
Your love lives on inside of me.
I share it daily with friends and family.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? To be honest with you, Mom is not in a good mood at all. I am very angry. I am angry at a lot of things right now. My emotions are on over drive & I am just trying to stay as quiet as I can so I don't blow up at the whole world like I just blew up at Mark a few minutes ago. What is the biggest pet peeve that Mom has? Yes.... people who lie to me... I can't stand liars. I can't stand it when I ask a question, already knowing the answer, to see if someone will tell me the truth or not. That happened today with Mark & something relating to his job. He told me one thing & I found that what he told me was not true at all so I asked him again & he still gave me a lie. That just burns my a**. I am so upset, angry, etc... right now. I probably shouldn't even be writing to you but I needed to do it now as I will be studying after this & I didn't want to have to rush later to get your letter done. Mom is sorry that I am saying all this on here but to be quite frank... Mom has no one to talk to, no one to call up & just vent to. Everyone is either working or is too busy to listen to me. Guess I will remember that when the tables are turned & they all need someone to listen to. I am always there to help others but maybe I shouldn't be so open. Maybe I need to ignore everyone like everyone does to me all the time. Maybe that will be an eye opener for them to see exactly what they do or maybe it won't faze them at all....either way.... Mom still has no one. I really wish I could have a conversation with you. Mom misses you so much. I miss all the times that we could just do absolutely nothing & just talk. We would talk about anything & we would talk about everything. Sometimes it would be funny, sometimes it was serious but no matter what we always listened to each other. We would always give the other one advice or our opinion of things. It was always you & I in this world together. People would come & go out of our lives but we always had each other. Now Mom doesn't even have that as it was taken from me as well. 4 years & 2 months ago, you left this world. Mom is not mad at you at all for that. I could never be mad at you. I have questions about things with no chance of getting any answers to them at all.Mom just misses you so dang much. It hurts like h*ll all the time. Just bare with me.... have patience with Mom as I try to work this out the best I can...the best way I know how to. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Mom saw something that a good friend of mine posted yesterday about missing his Mom as she suddenly passed away last year. When I read it I immediately thought of you so I would like to share it on here:
I can hear your voice on the ocean's wind
I can smell your perfume every now and then.
Your phone number remains in my contact list.
I called it a few times but it no longer exists.
I loved the times that you spent with me.
Going for rides and watching TV.
I miss your hugs and kisses too.
Life's been so different without you.
I've tried to move on like they tell me to do.
But nobody can understand my true love for you.
You're in my dreams and in my heart
I truly feel that we are not so far apart.
Your love lives on inside of me.
I share it daily with friends and family.
Such a beautiful poem that is for sure. I know you will like it my sweet precious son. Mom really has no updates for you at all today. The phones are quiet & Mom is just trying to stay away from everything & everyone. Maybe I will have some for you on tomorrows letter. For now though....here are a couple daily prayers for you:
May you determine to travel lighter starting now. May you—with your God-given authority in Christ—demand that the enemy shut his mouth and leave you alone. May you discern the baggage of man-made obligations and lay them down. May you decide to fling aside your own self-condemning thoughts and wrap yourself up in God’s beautiful grace and righteousness instead. And, may you march on from here, full of faith, empowered by grace, and awakened by God’s love, and walk as one who’s been spoken for by God above. May your latter days be far more blessed than your former days. Jesus is always up to something new. Bless you!
If you’re in a season of hardship and life feels like an uphill climb, may you stay the course until Jesus tells you otherwise. May you determine NOT to make any rash decisions that you’ll later regret. May you instead, fix your eyes on Jesus, and take your cues from Him. May you trust Jesus to carry your burden so you can hold fast to His promises. May you exhale frustration and inhale God’s peace and provision. This season will pass. And you’ll come through it with strength, clarity, and conviction. Don’t take the enemy’s bait. Follow the Savior’s lead. You’ll be glad you did. Blessings on your night tonight!
The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want...(Psalm 23).
Mom is hoping that later tonight your evening will be everything you need it to be & may want it to be. I will be whispering to you later so hopefully you will hear my voice & smile. Mom will smile back to you. Hopefully tonight I will get to see the moon & stars shining bright. I relaxed out on the balcony for a bit last night & saw nothing. Mom is going to go & try to relax for a bit before I need to get the night routine stuff going. As I have been writing to you I do not think it would be a wise move to try & study as my head is not in it today as well. I would think you would agree with Mom. I will be studying all day tomorrow though. Just remember you are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I will write to you again tomorrow night so until then...good night & sweet dreams later. You will forever be my shining star, Tyler. I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, August 30, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing well. I was up early this morning getting things ready for Mark to go to work...made lunch & coffee for him. Got the pups fed & settled. I relaxed for a few before I made breakfast & then got ready to start my day. Took the pups out for a walk & then got them inside & then went over to my neighbors to go walk her pup. Mom was outside for a total of 30 minutes. I enjoyed the nice breeze & the sun on my face. Away I was finished with all the pup walks, I came in & got myself a snack & then headed straight to my office. My intention was to study all day but that did not happen again. Mom is just pretty upset with so many things regarding my studies, the school, my instructor, etc.... I know I need to just get through it to move on but Mom getting to that point seems to be pretty tough for me right now for some reason. Usually I am not like this at all. I just can't wrap my finger around the reasoning why. Anything that you can do to give Mom the push she needs would be awesome, Tyler. Thank you so much!
Mom was able to touch base with Aunt Beck today! That was great as it has been about 3-4 weeks since we have spoken. Boy...she sure is busy with doing conferences & retreats. She has been on the road & not home quite a bit. She is headed back out again for 4 days to the White Mtns with her friend for another outing tomorrow. She will be home next Tuesday for 4 or 5 days & then her & John will be going on vacation for 2 weeks the middle of September. Things are good with them both, just really busy. Bean is doing well. She is busy herself with work & spending time with friends when she has her days off. All is well with her too. Mom was happy to hear it all. Meme called me yesterday & we chatted. She is so tired & in pain. You could hear it in her voice but I said nothing. The conversation was not long as she was going to eat dinner & then head to bed. I wish that she would just retire. She has worked hard her whole life. This is the time for her to enjoy everything. Maybe one day she will. Bob I guess is the same. He goes next week again for the heart procedure. Skittles is not doing well still. The meds don't seem to be doing the trick so not sure what is next. Mark is doing okay. Working a lot this week & out visiting clients. Princess is doing better. She is sleeping next to me right now. Ozzy is just full of energy as usual. Mom is well.... hanging in there. So much going through my mind but I will get by. Mom knows that you are always watching over us & I thank you. We have the best Angel. That makes Mom smile & so proud. I miss you so much. More than words can say my sweet precious son. I love you to infinity & beyond. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Forever you will be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will be inside my heart, mind, body & soul. That is all the updates that I have for you today. Here is the prayers for you though: May God open your eyes to see beyond the obstacles and through the storm so you can envision His next place of promise for you. May your doubts, worries, and fears take a back seat to faith, hope, and love. In fact, may others look up from their own storm because of how you trust God in yours. You are mighty in battle because God is mighty in you! Don't give up hope! Don't coddle your fears. Cling to the promises of God and walk forward in faith. Have a brave and courageous day.
May you sense right here, right now that heaven is close and Jesus is near. May you rest tonight knowing that though the elements rage all around us, God is very much in control. May you find peace in the storm. May you find rest in the shadow of His wing. Don't carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, let Jesus carry you. He'll assign a yoke that fits you perfectly. He'll give you grace to do your life one step at a time. Yours isn't to worry about tomorrow. Yours is to worship Him. He's been good. He is good. And He'll be good again. When it's all said and done, you'll be glad you trusted Him. Embrace childlike faith and a heart-at-rest tonight.
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing well. I was up early this morning getting things ready for Mark to go to work...made lunch & coffee for him. Got the pups fed & settled. I relaxed for a few before I made breakfast & then got ready to start my day. Took the pups out for a walk & then got them inside & then went over to my neighbors to go walk her pup. Mom was outside for a total of 30 minutes. I enjoyed the nice breeze & the sun on my face. Away I was finished with all the pup walks, I came in & got myself a snack & then headed straight to my office. My intention was to study all day but that did not happen again. Mom is just pretty upset with so many things regarding my studies, the school, my instructor, etc.... I know I need to just get through it to move on but Mom getting to that point seems to be pretty tough for me right now for some reason. Usually I am not like this at all. I just can't wrap my finger around the reasoning why. Anything that you can do to give Mom the push she needs would be awesome, Tyler. Thank you so much!
Mom was able to touch base with Aunt Beck today! That was great as it has been about 3-4 weeks since we have spoken. Boy...she sure is busy with doing conferences & retreats. She has been on the road & not home quite a bit. She is headed back out again for 4 days to the White Mtns with her friend for another outing tomorrow. She will be home next Tuesday for 4 or 5 days & then her & John will be going on vacation for 2 weeks the middle of September. Things are good with them both, just really busy. Bean is doing well. She is busy herself with work & spending time with friends when she has her days off. All is well with her too. Mom was happy to hear it all. Meme called me yesterday & we chatted. She is so tired & in pain. You could hear it in her voice but I said nothing. The conversation was not long as she was going to eat dinner & then head to bed. I wish that she would just retire. She has worked hard her whole life. This is the time for her to enjoy everything. Maybe one day she will. Bob I guess is the same. He goes next week again for the heart procedure. Skittles is not doing well still. The meds don't seem to be doing the trick so not sure what is next. Mark is doing okay. Working a lot this week & out visiting clients. Princess is doing better. She is sleeping next to me right now. Ozzy is just full of energy as usual. Mom is well.... hanging in there. So much going through my mind but I will get by. Mom knows that you are always watching over us & I thank you. We have the best Angel. That makes Mom smile & so proud. I miss you so much. More than words can say my sweet precious son. I love you to infinity & beyond. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Forever you will be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will be inside my heart, mind, body & soul. That is all the updates that I have for you today. Here is the prayers for you though: May God open your eyes to see beyond the obstacles and through the storm so you can envision His next place of promise for you. May your doubts, worries, and fears take a back seat to faith, hope, and love. In fact, may others look up from their own storm because of how you trust God in yours. You are mighty in battle because God is mighty in you! Don't give up hope! Don't coddle your fears. Cling to the promises of God and walk forward in faith. Have a brave and courageous day.
For we live by faith, not by sight (2 Corinthians 5:7 NIV).
Here are a couple sayings for you as well today: Life isn't about waiting for the winds to change....It's about learning to adjust your sails.
Life is tricky baby.... stay in your magic!
Well once again it is getting to that time of the day where the night stuff must get done. It is more pressure as the days are shorter & nights are longer. The sun sets around 7 pm now. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for my voice. Smile when you hear me & I will smile back to you. Hope that your evening will be all that you need & want it to be. If you get the change come visit Mom in my dreams as I sleep tonight. Have fun & continue to fly high & free. Maybe tonight I will get to be surprised in seeing the moon, stars & a painting from you! I will be looking in the sky later for them. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.....good night & sweet dreams. I love you. You are my shining star, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, August 29, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom has had quite the night last night & day so far. I am pretty tired today & hopefully tonight I will be lucky enough to get some solid sleep that I need to get. Mom had the intention of studying today...to get back into the grid but that did not happen at all. Instead Mom has spent most of the day watching princess & making sure she is doing okay. Last night night around 7:15 pm she had another seizure. It didn't last as long as the one she had a couple months ago but still it was sad to have to watch. Mom stayed right by her side through it all & just talked to her to let her know she was not alone. She was quite tired after the whole thing so Mom did the only thing I knew how to do & that was to sit up in bed & watch TV so that I could monitor her closely. She slept all night long. She only woke up a few times to move & then fall right back to sleep. Mom is the one who did not sleep at all. I wanted to make sure she was going to be okay. She has been laying next to me all day long. She is eating, drinking, going to the bathroom, & she even went for a walk with me earlier today so that is always a good sign. She has been resting a lot but that is normal. Mom will watch her closely for the next couple of days just to make sure though. There is no reason to why these are happening though. If there is anything you can do for her from where you are, could you please help Princess? Can you please help us? Thank you. Mom whispered to you a lot last night. Did you hear me? I hope so. I will whisper to you again tonight like I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile to Mom & I will smile back to you. Tonight, I will light a candle for you as I did not get the chance to last night. Be looking for it. Thanks pumpkin!
Like I have said earlier today has been a mellow day. I was able to catch up with a couple of my friends & chat with them on the phone. That was nice. I will try to call Aunt Beck after I am done writing to you to see how she is doing & how Bean is. Hopefully I will have an update for you on tomorrows letter. Mom is helping her neighbor out again this week & next week. She is going to be moving because she got a new job but until she can make the move in 2 weeks she has to commute back & forth. It is a long day & a long drive so I am walking her dog, Howie a couple times during the day before she gets home. He is the cutest thing... you would love him. Mom went over yesterday & played with him for a bit so he could get used to me. He is such a doll. I will miss them bunches when they are gone. She has a wonderful opportunity & I am happy for her though. Great changes. Mom also found out yesterday that our neighbor that used to live on the 1st floor of our building passed away last week. He was a very nice guy. He had 2 mini doxies like ours. We got along well. It was so sad to hear of his passing though. May Jason R.I.P. now for eternal life.
Things in Houston, Texas are not getting any better right now. The rain is still coming down. So much damage to so many people, animals, things..... my heart still hurts for them all. I think the last news said that 49" of rain has fallen so far. That is only a foot shorter than me. Mom is still praying for them & hopes that relief comes soon for all. That is everything I have for you today for updates. Here is a couple prayers for the day:
May God Himself recover and restore what the enemy has stolen. May He heal family rifts, renew tired relationships, and revive weary faith. May He lift you up and make you strong. May He give you wisdom in boundaries and humility in love. May He show you what's yours and grace you to release what isn't. May you know-beyond a shadow of a doubt-that nothing and no one can separate you from God's love. Walk in humble, hopeful faith today.
When you can't sense what God is up to, may you trust even more, His heart towards you. When your journey is different than you would choose, may you see His invitation to make you new. When you the storm rages overhead, may you know-with everything in you-that new mercies are on the other side. And when you're tempted to overstate your problems and understate His promises, may you step back and find your footing again. On Christ the solid Rock you stand, all other ground is sinking sand. He is mighty to save and He is doing a new and beautiful thing in you! Embrace a joy-perspective this night!
Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom has had quite the night last night & day so far. I am pretty tired today & hopefully tonight I will be lucky enough to get some solid sleep that I need to get. Mom had the intention of studying today...to get back into the grid but that did not happen at all. Instead Mom has spent most of the day watching princess & making sure she is doing okay. Last night night around 7:15 pm she had another seizure. It didn't last as long as the one she had a couple months ago but still it was sad to have to watch. Mom stayed right by her side through it all & just talked to her to let her know she was not alone. She was quite tired after the whole thing so Mom did the only thing I knew how to do & that was to sit up in bed & watch TV so that I could monitor her closely. She slept all night long. She only woke up a few times to move & then fall right back to sleep. Mom is the one who did not sleep at all. I wanted to make sure she was going to be okay. She has been laying next to me all day long. She is eating, drinking, going to the bathroom, & she even went for a walk with me earlier today so that is always a good sign. She has been resting a lot but that is normal. Mom will watch her closely for the next couple of days just to make sure though. There is no reason to why these are happening though. If there is anything you can do for her from where you are, could you please help Princess? Can you please help us? Thank you. Mom whispered to you a lot last night. Did you hear me? I hope so. I will whisper to you again tonight like I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile to Mom & I will smile back to you. Tonight, I will light a candle for you as I did not get the chance to last night. Be looking for it. Thanks pumpkin!
Like I have said earlier today has been a mellow day. I was able to catch up with a couple of my friends & chat with them on the phone. That was nice. I will try to call Aunt Beck after I am done writing to you to see how she is doing & how Bean is. Hopefully I will have an update for you on tomorrows letter. Mom is helping her neighbor out again this week & next week. She is going to be moving because she got a new job but until she can make the move in 2 weeks she has to commute back & forth. It is a long day & a long drive so I am walking her dog, Howie a couple times during the day before she gets home. He is the cutest thing... you would love him. Mom went over yesterday & played with him for a bit so he could get used to me. He is such a doll. I will miss them bunches when they are gone. She has a wonderful opportunity & I am happy for her though. Great changes. Mom also found out yesterday that our neighbor that used to live on the 1st floor of our building passed away last week. He was a very nice guy. He had 2 mini doxies like ours. We got along well. It was so sad to hear of his passing though. May Jason R.I.P. now for eternal life.
Things in Houston, Texas are not getting any better right now. The rain is still coming down. So much damage to so many people, animals, things..... my heart still hurts for them all. I think the last news said that 49" of rain has fallen so far. That is only a foot shorter than me. Mom is still praying for them & hopes that relief comes soon for all. That is everything I have for you today for updates. Here is a couple prayers for the day:
May God Himself recover and restore what the enemy has stolen. May He heal family rifts, renew tired relationships, and revive weary faith. May He lift you up and make you strong. May He give you wisdom in boundaries and humility in love. May He show you what's yours and grace you to release what isn't. May you know-beyond a shadow of a doubt-that nothing and no one can separate you from God's love. Walk in humble, hopeful faith today.
When you can't sense what God is up to, may you trust even more, His heart towards you. When your journey is different than you would choose, may you see His invitation to make you new. When you the storm rages overhead, may you know-with everything in you-that new mercies are on the other side. And when you're tempted to overstate your problems and understate His promises, may you step back and find your footing again. On Christ the solid Rock you stand, all other ground is sinking sand. He is mighty to save and He is doing a new and beautiful thing in you! Embrace a joy-perspective this night!
For we live by believing and not by seeing (2 Corinthians 5:7 NIV).
Here is an inspirational saying for the day as well: Today I close the door to the past...open the door to the future, take a deep breath & step on through to start the next chapter in my life.
Well, my sweet precious son.... it is that time of the day where Mom needs to get going & get things ready for the night routine. It is 4:30 pm & Mark will be home in a couple hours so I need to get dinner going & feed the pups for the night. Think Mom will relax on the couch for a bit as well & watch some TV. May your night be all & everything you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom in my dreams if you can. Thanks! I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom wll be back tomorrow night with another letter so until then....good night & sweet dreams. Remember, You are my shining star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, August 28, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom didn't have a great night of sleep but I was wide-eyed & bushy-tailed early this morning around 6:45 am for some reason . I got up & got the pups all fed & then thought that I could go lay down for a bit but nope....I played my game for about an hour & then got right into the shower & got ready & then headed out the door to go run the errands that needed to be done. I left the apartment around 11 am & returned home after 1:30 pm. Now I am just hanging around, writing to you & then I will be going to prep dinner as it will take a bit of work to do tonight. Mom is also doing laundry & a couple other little housework things as well. Tomorrow is the day that I crack down & start my studies again. I will study 4 days a week for 8 hrs & then take Wednesday & the weekend off. I need that break & I really like getting things done during the week instead of waiting until the weekend. Less people out & also it gives Mom & Mark our weekends off to do what we want to. It is so nice! Mark is enjoying it as well.
Watching the TV & all you see are the heart breaks of Texas. It is getting worse down there & more rain is to hit still. Mom was literally in tears as I was looking at the pictures. People are dying, so many are homeless & without power, animals are being left behind to die because the families have to leave them to make themselves safe. OMG...... it is just awful. My thoughts & prayers go out to everyone: the people, the crews that are working around the clock to help, Police, Fire & Ambulance, Military that have been sent there to help out, the animals...just everyone. Just thinking about it right now has Mom in tears. I can't help it as Mom & Mark lived just 20 -30 minutes where all this is happening in Houston. Places we used to go to & drive are completely under water. Mom prays that this weather stops & everyone can start healing from this once again. I have been thinking of all the folks that we met while we were living there & wondering if they are all okay. Again... Mom is just praying that this stops for them & soon.
Everything else has been quite quiet. No phones are ringing or anything so unfortunately Mom has no new updates for you at all. Sorry pumpkin but I am sure that will change as the week moves along. I know you are watching over us all so Mom knows we are all in good hands. Thank you for everything you do. Mom loves you so much. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my shining star. I miss you more than words can say. You forever will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. You really are my true hero & the wind beneath my wings. I will whisper to you later this evening & I will light a candle for you. Hope you hear Mom when I am talking to you & you smile. I will smile back for you to see. May your evening tonight be all that you & need it to be. May you have fun while Mom is sleeping tonight. Come & visit me if you can. Thank you! Before I go I will write to you the pray for the day so here it is: May Jesus tilt your chin upward so you can sense His smile and more clearly hear His voice. May He speak a surprising word of encouragement to you so you have the strength to keep marching onward. May He build a bridge where you least expect one. May He connect you to others who see the best in you. May you steward this training season with clarity, purpose, and conviction. May the things you've been hoping for and praying for culminate into one glorious answer that takes your breath away. And may your faith become sight sooner than later. He's making a way where there's been no way. You can trust Him.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom didn't have a great night of sleep but I was wide-eyed & bushy-tailed early this morning around 6:45 am for some reason . I got up & got the pups all fed & then thought that I could go lay down for a bit but nope....I played my game for about an hour & then got right into the shower & got ready & then headed out the door to go run the errands that needed to be done. I left the apartment around 11 am & returned home after 1:30 pm. Now I am just hanging around, writing to you & then I will be going to prep dinner as it will take a bit of work to do tonight. Mom is also doing laundry & a couple other little housework things as well. Tomorrow is the day that I crack down & start my studies again. I will study 4 days a week for 8 hrs & then take Wednesday & the weekend off. I need that break & I really like getting things done during the week instead of waiting until the weekend. Less people out & also it gives Mom & Mark our weekends off to do what we want to. It is so nice! Mark is enjoying it as well.
Watching the TV & all you see are the heart breaks of Texas. It is getting worse down there & more rain is to hit still. Mom was literally in tears as I was looking at the pictures. People are dying, so many are homeless & without power, animals are being left behind to die because the families have to leave them to make themselves safe. OMG...... it is just awful. My thoughts & prayers go out to everyone: the people, the crews that are working around the clock to help, Police, Fire & Ambulance, Military that have been sent there to help out, the animals...just everyone. Just thinking about it right now has Mom in tears. I can't help it as Mom & Mark lived just 20 -30 minutes where all this is happening in Houston. Places we used to go to & drive are completely under water. Mom prays that this weather stops & everyone can start healing from this once again. I have been thinking of all the folks that we met while we were living there & wondering if they are all okay. Again... Mom is just praying that this stops for them & soon.
Everything else has been quite quiet. No phones are ringing or anything so unfortunately Mom has no new updates for you at all. Sorry pumpkin but I am sure that will change as the week moves along. I know you are watching over us all so Mom knows we are all in good hands. Thank you for everything you do. Mom loves you so much. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my shining star. I miss you more than words can say. You forever will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. You really are my true hero & the wind beneath my wings. I will whisper to you later this evening & I will light a candle for you. Hope you hear Mom when I am talking to you & you smile. I will smile back for you to see. May your evening tonight be all that you & need it to be. May you have fun while Mom is sleeping tonight. Come & visit me if you can. Thank you! Before I go I will write to you the pray for the day so here it is: May Jesus tilt your chin upward so you can sense His smile and more clearly hear His voice. May He speak a surprising word of encouragement to you so you have the strength to keep marching onward. May He build a bridge where you least expect one. May He connect you to others who see the best in you. May you steward this training season with clarity, purpose, and conviction. May the things you've been hoping for and praying for culminate into one glorious answer that takes your breath away. And may your faith become sight sooner than later. He's making a way where there's been no way. You can trust Him.
For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? (Isaiah 43:19 NIV
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Here is an inspirational message as well for you: To be kind is more important than to be right. Many times, what people need is not a brillant mind that speaks but a special heart that listens.
Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.....good night & sweet dreams later my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
PS. Mom is hoping to see a painting from you tonight. Not many nights left where there will be a chance to have a beautiful sunset. I will be looking later for it so get your brushes ready. I love you!
Sunday, August 27, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is doing just fine. All day today Mom was inner channeling you & decided to paint....however the painting was looking much different in my mind than what I painted. Honestly.... it came out terrible. Mom is definitely no Picasso that is for sure. You got your talent for painting from Pepe & Meme. Mom has about 4 of your paintings that you did for me hanging in our apartment. I am sure that you have seen them though. Every time I look at them they make me smile so much. I miss watching you paint. You were so good at it too. Mom will always cherish the ones that I have from you. Mom did absolutely nothing else today besides make brunch for Mark & I & get ready. Mom's shoulder is killing her so much. Guess the painting really didn't help much either as I was at that painting for 4 hours.
Yesterday went really well with Grandpa & Debbie. They got here at 11 am & we sat around for a bit & then headed out to lunch. We went to there favorite seafood place which is 5 miles from where we live & it is right across from the ocean. The weather was beautiful. Mom was enjoying it very much. After lunch we took them for an ice cream. After that we came back here & visited for about an hour or so & then they got back on the road to drive home. We chatted about the wedding & all kinds of things. It was a fun afternoon. After they left Mark & I just sat on the couch & watched TV until it was time to go to bed. Overall a very relaxing weekend indeed & it was much needed. Tomorrow is Monday & it is back to the grid. Mark has a busy week with work & Mom will be back to study full time. This is the last week of August & in less than 1 month Fall will be here. It is so hard to believe.
Mom really has no updates for you at all seeings how I have not spoken on the phone at all today & the weekend was quiet. I will touch base with everyone during the week though just to say hello & see how everyone is doing. I will have time to chat as Mark will be at clients all week. It is hard to talk when he is home because he is usually on the phone with business calls & Mom likes to stay quiet for him. Mom is praying though for all the people in Texas. They are getting hit really hard with a Hurricane/ Tornado. It is touching down right in Houston where Mom & Mark lived. The last I knew ( and I know it has changed ) there were 300,000 people without power, the winds were 130 mph & there were a couple deaths already. The whole thing will be considered a natural disaster again. This will be the 3rd or 4th one like this since we moved away from there. We never experienced anything like that while we lived in that area for 2 years. Mom & Mark are so blessed with that. I hope all the people we knew there are all well & they are safe. Mom has been thinking of them so much in the last 3 days. My heart is with them.
Mom is not sure what is going on as well on here. My purpose was to write you letters, as you know & Mom had quite a few following me on here. I am not sure if I am offending anyone or if I am saying things that are upsetting them in my letters but Mom just wants to let everyone know if that is the case I never intentionally do anything to make anyone uncomfortable at all. I am honest & speak my mind about things but I would never try to hurt anyone in anyway. The number of followers have gone down by a lot & I have noticed that in the past month. I am sorry & hope at some point they will come back. If not then I understand & will just keep trucking along with writing to you as this is the whole point to my blog.
Here is the prayer for the day for you: Let everyone that has breath, praise the Lord. Short & sweet but right to the point. Kind of like Mom...lol! Mom needs to get going for now as I am making dinner as I am writing to you & you know how well I do at multitasking....lol. Mom hopes that your night is filled with all things that you need to do & want to do my sweet precious son. Come visit Mom in my dreams if you can., Thank you. I will whisper to you later tonight so be listening for my voice. Smile a big smile for Mom & I will smile back to you. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will live forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow so until then....good night & sweet dreams. You, Tyler, are my shining star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is doing just fine. All day today Mom was inner channeling you & decided to paint....however the painting was looking much different in my mind than what I painted. Honestly.... it came out terrible. Mom is definitely no Picasso that is for sure. You got your talent for painting from Pepe & Meme. Mom has about 4 of your paintings that you did for me hanging in our apartment. I am sure that you have seen them though. Every time I look at them they make me smile so much. I miss watching you paint. You were so good at it too. Mom will always cherish the ones that I have from you. Mom did absolutely nothing else today besides make brunch for Mark & I & get ready. Mom's shoulder is killing her so much. Guess the painting really didn't help much either as I was at that painting for 4 hours.
Yesterday went really well with Grandpa & Debbie. They got here at 11 am & we sat around for a bit & then headed out to lunch. We went to there favorite seafood place which is 5 miles from where we live & it is right across from the ocean. The weather was beautiful. Mom was enjoying it very much. After lunch we took them for an ice cream. After that we came back here & visited for about an hour or so & then they got back on the road to drive home. We chatted about the wedding & all kinds of things. It was a fun afternoon. After they left Mark & I just sat on the couch & watched TV until it was time to go to bed. Overall a very relaxing weekend indeed & it was much needed. Tomorrow is Monday & it is back to the grid. Mark has a busy week with work & Mom will be back to study full time. This is the last week of August & in less than 1 month Fall will be here. It is so hard to believe.
Mom really has no updates for you at all seeings how I have not spoken on the phone at all today & the weekend was quiet. I will touch base with everyone during the week though just to say hello & see how everyone is doing. I will have time to chat as Mark will be at clients all week. It is hard to talk when he is home because he is usually on the phone with business calls & Mom likes to stay quiet for him. Mom is praying though for all the people in Texas. They are getting hit really hard with a Hurricane/ Tornado. It is touching down right in Houston where Mom & Mark lived. The last I knew ( and I know it has changed ) there were 300,000 people without power, the winds were 130 mph & there were a couple deaths already. The whole thing will be considered a natural disaster again. This will be the 3rd or 4th one like this since we moved away from there. We never experienced anything like that while we lived in that area for 2 years. Mom & Mark are so blessed with that. I hope all the people we knew there are all well & they are safe. Mom has been thinking of them so much in the last 3 days. My heart is with them.
Mom is not sure what is going on as well on here. My purpose was to write you letters, as you know & Mom had quite a few following me on here. I am not sure if I am offending anyone or if I am saying things that are upsetting them in my letters but Mom just wants to let everyone know if that is the case I never intentionally do anything to make anyone uncomfortable at all. I am honest & speak my mind about things but I would never try to hurt anyone in anyway. The number of followers have gone down by a lot & I have noticed that in the past month. I am sorry & hope at some point they will come back. If not then I understand & will just keep trucking along with writing to you as this is the whole point to my blog.
Here is the prayer for the day for you: Let everyone that has breath, praise the Lord. Short & sweet but right to the point. Kind of like Mom...lol! Mom needs to get going for now as I am making dinner as I am writing to you & you know how well I do at multitasking....lol. Mom hopes that your night is filled with all things that you need to do & want to do my sweet precious son. Come visit Mom in my dreams if you can., Thank you. I will whisper to you later tonight so be listening for my voice. Smile a big smile for Mom & I will smile back to you. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will live forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow so until then....good night & sweet dreams. You, Tyler, are my shining star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, August 26, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Saturday morning? Mom is up early & I have already done all the housework.....vacuuming, dusting, cleaning bathrooms, laundry, etc.... now Mark & I are awaiting Grandpa & Debbie to get here. They should be arriving in about an hour or so. They are just here for a quick visit & then they will be headed back home this afternoon. It will be nice to visit with them for a couple hours. We are going to go to lunch & then come back & just visit & relax before they have to head back on the road. The rest of the weekend will be just relaxing as there is absolutely nothing to do. All the errands & paying bills have been done. It is a good feeling!
Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you again last night but the night before I did not get much sleep as I was sick through the night. I spent yesterday basically doing nothing. Never got on my computer at all either. Mom was just not up for it. I ended up going to bed early as well. I think that is why I was up so early this morning. Mark slept in which was a good thing for him. He needed it. Meme called me yesterday to let me know that Skittle has allergies & that all his little muscles in his back are inflamed & tensed up. The vets put him on a medicine to see if that will help him out. Mom sure hopes so. Poor little guy. Bob goes to the doctors next week just to be checked out & in 2 weeks he goes in for the heart procedure again. Hopefully this time it will take & things will turn out good for a change. Please watch over them all for Mom. I know you do & you watch over us all but I always like to ask. Thank you my sweet precious son. That is all the updates that I have for you today. Not many as it was a very quiet week here & Mom really didn't chat with anyone other than Grandpa & Meme. Hopefully during this coming week I can touch base with everyone else. Need to catch up that is for sure.
Here are a few daily prayers for the day for you: May you learn how to walk in the authority Christ has entrusted to you. May you speak PEACE to your soul and PERFECT LOVE to your fears. May you refuse discouragement simply because courage fits you better. May you walk with those who bring out the best in you. May you love those who cannot return the favor. May you return to your First Love, time and time again. Jesus is your Source, He’s your Strength, He’s your Fortress, and He’s Your King. You lack no good thing because you have Him. Walk, live, and rest like it's true. Bless you.
May you hold fast to that which strengthens your soul. May you create time and space for Jesus: time in His Word, time to pray and reflect; time with your people; and even time for vigorous exercise because it reminds you that you're alive in Him. May you refuse to procrastinate on the important things. May you be motivated to turn away from time wasters and comfort foods. May you instead engage in the life-giving work and nourishment that Jesus has provided for you. Your calling matters. Your life matters. And YOU matter because you are an image bearer of the Most High God. Have a blessed and beautiful weekend.
Here is a couple inspirational sayings for you: " All that we are is a result of what we have thought. "
" Whatssoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive. "
Mom is hoping that your whole day & evening will be everything that you need & want it to be. May you get the chance to come visit Mom n my dreams tonight when I am sleeping. Mom will whisper to you later this evening so be listening out for my voice. Smile for Mom & I will close my eyes & picture that sweet smile I miss so much. I will smile back for you to see. I miss you more than words can say, Tyler. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my hero, my wind beneath my winds & my bright shining star. You are forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul.
Mom has to get going as Grandpa will be here in a matter of minutes but I will be back tomorrow night with another letter. Until then.... Good night & sweet dreams tonight.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Saturday morning? Mom is up early & I have already done all the housework.....vacuuming, dusting, cleaning bathrooms, laundry, etc.... now Mark & I are awaiting Grandpa & Debbie to get here. They should be arriving in about an hour or so. They are just here for a quick visit & then they will be headed back home this afternoon. It will be nice to visit with them for a couple hours. We are going to go to lunch & then come back & just visit & relax before they have to head back on the road. The rest of the weekend will be just relaxing as there is absolutely nothing to do. All the errands & paying bills have been done. It is a good feeling!
Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you again last night but the night before I did not get much sleep as I was sick through the night. I spent yesterday basically doing nothing. Never got on my computer at all either. Mom was just not up for it. I ended up going to bed early as well. I think that is why I was up so early this morning. Mark slept in which was a good thing for him. He needed it. Meme called me yesterday to let me know that Skittle has allergies & that all his little muscles in his back are inflamed & tensed up. The vets put him on a medicine to see if that will help him out. Mom sure hopes so. Poor little guy. Bob goes to the doctors next week just to be checked out & in 2 weeks he goes in for the heart procedure again. Hopefully this time it will take & things will turn out good for a change. Please watch over them all for Mom. I know you do & you watch over us all but I always like to ask. Thank you my sweet precious son. That is all the updates that I have for you today. Not many as it was a very quiet week here & Mom really didn't chat with anyone other than Grandpa & Meme. Hopefully during this coming week I can touch base with everyone else. Need to catch up that is for sure.
Here are a few daily prayers for the day for you: May you learn how to walk in the authority Christ has entrusted to you. May you speak PEACE to your soul and PERFECT LOVE to your fears. May you refuse discouragement simply because courage fits you better. May you walk with those who bring out the best in you. May you love those who cannot return the favor. May you return to your First Love, time and time again. Jesus is your Source, He’s your Strength, He’s your Fortress, and He’s Your King. You lack no good thing because you have Him. Walk, live, and rest like it's true. Bless you.
May you hold fast to that which strengthens your soul. May you create time and space for Jesus: time in His Word, time to pray and reflect; time with your people; and even time for vigorous exercise because it reminds you that you're alive in Him. May you refuse to procrastinate on the important things. May you be motivated to turn away from time wasters and comfort foods. May you instead engage in the life-giving work and nourishment that Jesus has provided for you. Your calling matters. Your life matters. And YOU matter because you are an image bearer of the Most High God. Have a blessed and beautiful weekend.
Here is a couple inspirational sayings for you: " All that we are is a result of what we have thought. "
" Whatssoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive. "
Mom is hoping that your whole day & evening will be everything that you need & want it to be. May you get the chance to come visit Mom n my dreams tonight when I am sleeping. Mom will whisper to you later this evening so be listening out for my voice. Smile for Mom & I will close my eyes & picture that sweet smile I miss so much. I will smile back for you to see. I miss you more than words can say, Tyler. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my hero, my wind beneath my winds & my bright shining star. You are forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul.
Mom has to get going as Grandpa will be here in a matter of minutes but I will be back tomorrow night with another letter. Until then.... Good night & sweet dreams tonight.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, August 24, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is alright. I am so sorry that I did not get the chance to write you a letter last night but Mom was so busy yesterday afternoon that by the time I got home it was 3:45 pm & I started to prep dinner, fed the pups, ate dinner, did dishes & then around 7:30 pm I was able to sit down & relax for a bit. I spoke to Grandpa, Debbie & Meme on the phone & then Mark & Mom went outside on the balcony to sit & talk. I was in bed at 10 pm last night & not once did I turn my computer on all day. Mom is trying to get out more often instead of being stuck in the apartment all day long studying. I will be studying Monday, Tuesday, Thursday & Friday. Wednesday will be my day to go out, run all the errands, grocery shop, etc...so that weekends will be spent doing everything & anything that Mark & I want to do. He is working so much & rarely home I decided to change things up. It also gives Mom a break that I really need seeings how I have been pushing myself for 2 1/2 yrs straight now with college. Today, Mom took a day just to relax & do really nothing. I was up early as usually but laid around for a bit, got up & made breakfast & pretty much have been quiet because Mark has been on a business call all day long ( since 8 am & it is now 4:22 pm. ) I took the pups for a walk & did some laundry. Tomorrow I will dust & vacuum the apartment & anything else that needs to get done. Debbie called me this morning as well & Mom was talking to her for about an hour or longer. She was so upset but by the time we finished talking she was feeling better about everything. Mom always says... " People should keep their nose on their own face instead of poking it in everyone else's business. " It is so true & it is worse when it is a family member doing it. All in all I think things are better now & she just needed someone to vent too. That is fine with Mom. I am always here to give an ear to if someone needs it. Always have been that way. Anyways.... Mom will start studying again come Monday. I will get back into the swing of things & get this miserable class over with. I know you will be by my side through the whole thing & I thank you for that. Mom needs you. I always need you my sweet precious son. I hope that even though I did not write to you last night, Mom hopes that you heard me talking to you several times during the day & evening. I saw a very tiny sunset last night. The stars were out as well. They were pretty. Hope I see some more this evening when I am sitting outside for a bit. Maybe just maybe one of these nights you will give Mom a breathtaking painting of your! I look every night for one & when I see one I have the biggest smile on my face & I always take pictures of it. Mom misses you so much, Tyler. I miss so many things when it comes to you: your voice, your smile, your laugh, your kindness to others, your advice & the way you would help Mom. I even miss our fights, our stubbornness. You are always on my mind day & night. Mom is always wondering what you do now, where you are, what you look like now. I even think of you at certain times when I am eating...like when I find a curly chip ( remember we would always " fight " about who would get it? You always won as Mom gave in....lol ), or when I am making dinner & it would happen to be one of your favorites. Doesn't matter what it is.... you are always on my mind. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are the wind beneath my wings & my hero. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Never forget that...please.
Mom really doesn't have much of any updates for you but I do have a request for you. Mom needs you to be there for Meme, Bob & Skittles. Meme was telling me that Skittles is not doing well. He is not eating or drinking & can't really walk. He has been that way for a couple days now & tomorrow he is going to the vets to be checked out. Mom is hoping that it is something simple. The vets are not sure if Skittles is having the same problem that Snapples did with his back. If that is the case than Meme & Bob do not have the money for another surgery & even the surgery would only prolong Skittles life for just a short time. Watch over them all for Mom, Tyler. Thank you. Please watch over the rest of us as well too. I know you do but I always like to ask. Mom hasn't spoken to Aunt Beck or Bean in about 2 weeks or so. Guess they are really busy. I will make the effort to call them tomorrow while Mark is at a client all day. That is all I have for you today. Here is the prayers: May God’s grace empower you to live abundantly, to pray powerfully, and to stay the course. May your honor for Him compel you to trust Him when your trials seem truer than His Word. He will not fail you, will not forget about you, and will not turn away from you. He's with you in battle, He'll help you when your heart breaks, and He'll deliver you and bless you before a watching world when the time is right. Trust Him. You're so very dear to His heart. Have a purposeful, powerful day.
May the Lord Himself give you a fresh perspective on your life. May you begin to see your troubles--tough as they are--as momentary. In fact, may you wrap your arms around the promise that those very troubles are achieving for you, an eternal glory, that far outweighs them all. Jesus is deeply invested in your journey and intends to get you safely home. May He give you a glimpse of glory, a peek into the eternal significance of your life because He is doing a glorious work in and through you! You matter deeply to Him. May your spirit be renewed in His presence today!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is alright. I am so sorry that I did not get the chance to write you a letter last night but Mom was so busy yesterday afternoon that by the time I got home it was 3:45 pm & I started to prep dinner, fed the pups, ate dinner, did dishes & then around 7:30 pm I was able to sit down & relax for a bit. I spoke to Grandpa, Debbie & Meme on the phone & then Mark & Mom went outside on the balcony to sit & talk. I was in bed at 10 pm last night & not once did I turn my computer on all day. Mom is trying to get out more often instead of being stuck in the apartment all day long studying. I will be studying Monday, Tuesday, Thursday & Friday. Wednesday will be my day to go out, run all the errands, grocery shop, etc...so that weekends will be spent doing everything & anything that Mark & I want to do. He is working so much & rarely home I decided to change things up. It also gives Mom a break that I really need seeings how I have been pushing myself for 2 1/2 yrs straight now with college. Today, Mom took a day just to relax & do really nothing. I was up early as usually but laid around for a bit, got up & made breakfast & pretty much have been quiet because Mark has been on a business call all day long ( since 8 am & it is now 4:22 pm. ) I took the pups for a walk & did some laundry. Tomorrow I will dust & vacuum the apartment & anything else that needs to get done. Debbie called me this morning as well & Mom was talking to her for about an hour or longer. She was so upset but by the time we finished talking she was feeling better about everything. Mom always says... " People should keep their nose on their own face instead of poking it in everyone else's business. " It is so true & it is worse when it is a family member doing it. All in all I think things are better now & she just needed someone to vent too. That is fine with Mom. I am always here to give an ear to if someone needs it. Always have been that way. Anyways.... Mom will start studying again come Monday. I will get back into the swing of things & get this miserable class over with. I know you will be by my side through the whole thing & I thank you for that. Mom needs you. I always need you my sweet precious son. I hope that even though I did not write to you last night, Mom hopes that you heard me talking to you several times during the day & evening. I saw a very tiny sunset last night. The stars were out as well. They were pretty. Hope I see some more this evening when I am sitting outside for a bit. Maybe just maybe one of these nights you will give Mom a breathtaking painting of your! I look every night for one & when I see one I have the biggest smile on my face & I always take pictures of it. Mom misses you so much, Tyler. I miss so many things when it comes to you: your voice, your smile, your laugh, your kindness to others, your advice & the way you would help Mom. I even miss our fights, our stubbornness. You are always on my mind day & night. Mom is always wondering what you do now, where you are, what you look like now. I even think of you at certain times when I am eating...like when I find a curly chip ( remember we would always " fight " about who would get it? You always won as Mom gave in....lol ), or when I am making dinner & it would happen to be one of your favorites. Doesn't matter what it is.... you are always on my mind. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are the wind beneath my wings & my hero. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Never forget that...please.
Mom really doesn't have much of any updates for you but I do have a request for you. Mom needs you to be there for Meme, Bob & Skittles. Meme was telling me that Skittles is not doing well. He is not eating or drinking & can't really walk. He has been that way for a couple days now & tomorrow he is going to the vets to be checked out. Mom is hoping that it is something simple. The vets are not sure if Skittles is having the same problem that Snapples did with his back. If that is the case than Meme & Bob do not have the money for another surgery & even the surgery would only prolong Skittles life for just a short time. Watch over them all for Mom, Tyler. Thank you. Please watch over the rest of us as well too. I know you do but I always like to ask. Mom hasn't spoken to Aunt Beck or Bean in about 2 weeks or so. Guess they are really busy. I will make the effort to call them tomorrow while Mark is at a client all day. That is all I have for you today. Here is the prayers: May God’s grace empower you to live abundantly, to pray powerfully, and to stay the course. May your honor for Him compel you to trust Him when your trials seem truer than His Word. He will not fail you, will not forget about you, and will not turn away from you. He's with you in battle, He'll help you when your heart breaks, and He'll deliver you and bless you before a watching world when the time is right. Trust Him. You're so very dear to His heart. Have a purposeful, powerful day.
Verse: Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance (Psalm 16:5-6 NIV).
For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all (2 Corinthians 4:17 NLT).
Here is a message for you as well: The great secret of life is the law of attraction. The law of attraction can also be called the law of creation. In other words, life is not happening to you, you are creating it.
It is that time of the night where Mom needs to get going so I can start the nightly stuff for the pups, Mark & I. Mom is hoping that your evening is everything that you need & want it to be. Continue to fly high & free. Keep traveling & learning like I know you are doing. Come visit me if you can tonight while I am sleeping. Thanks Tyler! I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Until then...... Good night & sweet dreams. You are my shining star.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, August 22, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing today on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is writing to you early so that I am able to get a couple of hours of study time in before I need to get dinner going & start our night routine here. Mom was up quite early this morning because for the last couple of days Mr. Ozzy has been getting sick & this morning was no different. Poor little guy. He was so scared so Mom stayed up with him for a little while before going back to bed. I am kind of tired right now but I will be fine & I will just go to bed early tonight because tomorrow I will be out for most of the afternoon running errands & getting grocery shopping done. Mom did hear back from her instructor regarding my email but there were no answers to my questions so I sent another one. Hopefully she gets back to me quickly. I have been waiting to submit this exam for 2 weeks now. I am getting quite frustrated with the whole thing. Anyways.....
Yesterday was the eclipse & to say the least Mom did not see any of it at all. It got dark & then a couple hours it got light again & then the sun set around 7:15 pm last night. I did however get to see some pretty neat pictures of it all. I guess there will be another one in 2024....7 years from now. Maybe Mom will see it then. Last night Grandpa did indeed call. I spoke to him for about an hour. All is well with him & Deb. They are going to come down for the day on Saturday so that they can go to another couple stores they wanted to & then we will go to lunch. They will head back around 3 pm to get home around 6 pm. Grandpa has to work on Sunday so he needs to relax & get sleep. They also want to bring down a gift they got Mark for being the Best Man for their wedding. I got my gift when they were here a couple weeks ago. It is a beautiful bracelet. Mom loves it & has worn it a few times already. The rest of the night was just relaxing & watching some TV. Mark & Mom went to bed around 10 pm. Nothing exciting at all....lol.
Today, the weather has been so beautiful. The sun is shining & the temps are warm again....middle 80's. It is muggy though. Guess it is going to be like that all week & the weekend will be sunny but cooler. I can handle that! Mark got to work from home again & has been on the phone all day with a client. Mom has been quiet. Took the pups for a walk earlier & now I am writing to you. Dinner will take a bit to prep tonight so I will do that starting in a couple hours. That is all the updates that I have for you today. More to follow as the week moves on. Here is the daily prayer for the day: May you know--in the deepest places of your soul--that Jesus is working in ways you cannot see. In due time your faith will become sight and you'll be glad that you trusted Him. Trust that He’s working on your behalf. And in the meantime, may you be generous to those in need, compassionate to those who struggle, and kind to those whom the world overlooks. You're an ambassador of the Most High God. Trust Him with your whole life today!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing today on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is writing to you early so that I am able to get a couple of hours of study time in before I need to get dinner going & start our night routine here. Mom was up quite early this morning because for the last couple of days Mr. Ozzy has been getting sick & this morning was no different. Poor little guy. He was so scared so Mom stayed up with him for a little while before going back to bed. I am kind of tired right now but I will be fine & I will just go to bed early tonight because tomorrow I will be out for most of the afternoon running errands & getting grocery shopping done. Mom did hear back from her instructor regarding my email but there were no answers to my questions so I sent another one. Hopefully she gets back to me quickly. I have been waiting to submit this exam for 2 weeks now. I am getting quite frustrated with the whole thing. Anyways.....
Yesterday was the eclipse & to say the least Mom did not see any of it at all. It got dark & then a couple hours it got light again & then the sun set around 7:15 pm last night. I did however get to see some pretty neat pictures of it all. I guess there will be another one in 2024....7 years from now. Maybe Mom will see it then. Last night Grandpa did indeed call. I spoke to him for about an hour. All is well with him & Deb. They are going to come down for the day on Saturday so that they can go to another couple stores they wanted to & then we will go to lunch. They will head back around 3 pm to get home around 6 pm. Grandpa has to work on Sunday so he needs to relax & get sleep. They also want to bring down a gift they got Mark for being the Best Man for their wedding. I got my gift when they were here a couple weeks ago. It is a beautiful bracelet. Mom loves it & has worn it a few times already. The rest of the night was just relaxing & watching some TV. Mark & Mom went to bed around 10 pm. Nothing exciting at all....lol.
Today, the weather has been so beautiful. The sun is shining & the temps are warm again....middle 80's. It is muggy though. Guess it is going to be like that all week & the weekend will be sunny but cooler. I can handle that! Mark got to work from home again & has been on the phone all day with a client. Mom has been quiet. Took the pups for a walk earlier & now I am writing to you. Dinner will take a bit to prep tonight so I will do that starting in a couple hours. That is all the updates that I have for you today. More to follow as the week moves on. Here is the daily prayer for the day: May you know--in the deepest places of your soul--that Jesus is working in ways you cannot see. In due time your faith will become sight and you'll be glad that you trusted Him. Trust that He’s working on your behalf. And in the meantime, may you be generous to those in need, compassionate to those who struggle, and kind to those whom the world overlooks. You're an ambassador of the Most High God. Trust Him with your whole life today!
But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.
Here is an inspirational saying for the day as well: My precious life is a sacred path of discovery. There are always forks in the road, but I am never lost, for I am simply exploring all the wonderful twists & turns. I am so excited & grateful to be alive. My heart is open to receiving all the joy in the universe. I am at peace with the unknowing of where my life will take me because I know that I am eternally loved & cared for. My life is a messy story of perfect love. I live everyday with passion & courage. My time on this Earth has an amazing purpose & I so chose to live my life with great meaning.
Mom needs to get a move on so that I do have a couple hours to study today. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for me. Smile & I will too. Hope your evening will be everything you need it to be & so much more my sweet precious son. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams tonight while I am sleeping. Thank you. I miss you like crazy & I love you more than all the stars in the sky. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will remain in my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.....good night & sweet dreams tonight. Remember... You, Tyler, are my shining star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, August 21, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing the best I can without having you here. Today is a typical Monday. The weather is warm & sunny though but it will be getting dark here for about 3 hours in a 1/2 hour due to the Solar Eclipse that is happening today. Guess there hasn't been one since Mom was a little girl ( back in the 70's. ) Everyone needs to be wearing special glasses to be looking at it as if you do not then you could damage your eyes pretty badly. Mom is going to stay in with mark & the pups just to make sure. I will look at all the pictures that folks will be taking though. I wonder what it is like for you to see it from whenever you may be. I bet it is so pretty & very different then what we see. I wonder about a lot of things as you have told me that the stars are so much different from up there then down here. You told Mom through the angel reading that I would love them & I know you are so right as you know Mom loves prisms & sparkly things...lol! We are about 20 minutes out from everything starting here & it sure is getting darker outside. I turn to look out the window to see if I see anything but I am not successful as of right now. When I went & took the pups for their walk earlier the sun was not near our apartment it was on the front end of the building & all our windows face the back side of the building. Oh well... I take it as a sign that it was not meant to be.
Last night was a quiet night after our skype call with Tubal & Karen. They are doing well but have had a string of bad luck lately with storms blowing up electrical things in both houses in West Virgina & in Ohio. They were also saying that their vehicle had caught fire as well. Mom is hoping that everything gets better for them in the next few days. We will skype again with them in 2 weeks like we usually do. Grandpa did not call Mom last night which was very weird but I am sure he will be calling tonight. Meme called me on her break. Everything is fine with her & they had a relaxing weekend. That was good to hear. Phone has been quiet today as well for us again which makes it easy for when Mark is working from home. Mark actually has a pretty relaxed week & not a lot of traveling that will be going on. That is wonderful for him as he is been out straight the last couple of months. He needs this break. Mom will be back to her studying as well. I need to get back into that mode again. I have completely been slacking off the last 2 weeks because I am still waiting to hear back from my instructor. Hopefully that will be soon. I put another call into the voicemail for her & also another email to her. Mom is starting to lose her patience right about now though...... Anyways.... Today is Ron Nepo's birthday & Auntie Kristi's birthday. I wish Ron a happy heavenly birthday & told him I hope you & him were playing poker up there...lol! Please tell him that Momma T misses him very much. Thanks Ty! Go & visit Auntie Kristi if you can. She would love that! Not much else for updates today. I will have more for you as the week progresses. Here is the daily prayer for the day:
May God lift your chin, awaken your heart, and open your eyes to all you possess in Him. May you refuse to let your disappointments define you. May you instead, stand on that barren land and envision a harvest. May you experience a revival of faith in the very place of your heartbreak! Instead of rehashing your losses, determine to rehearse His promises because they're truer than your circumstances. Today's a good day to embrace faith, to give thanks, and to worship the One who keeps His promises. You've got everything you need in Him. Have a blessed day.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing the best I can without having you here. Today is a typical Monday. The weather is warm & sunny though but it will be getting dark here for about 3 hours in a 1/2 hour due to the Solar Eclipse that is happening today. Guess there hasn't been one since Mom was a little girl ( back in the 70's. ) Everyone needs to be wearing special glasses to be looking at it as if you do not then you could damage your eyes pretty badly. Mom is going to stay in with mark & the pups just to make sure. I will look at all the pictures that folks will be taking though. I wonder what it is like for you to see it from whenever you may be. I bet it is so pretty & very different then what we see. I wonder about a lot of things as you have told me that the stars are so much different from up there then down here. You told Mom through the angel reading that I would love them & I know you are so right as you know Mom loves prisms & sparkly things...lol! We are about 20 minutes out from everything starting here & it sure is getting darker outside. I turn to look out the window to see if I see anything but I am not successful as of right now. When I went & took the pups for their walk earlier the sun was not near our apartment it was on the front end of the building & all our windows face the back side of the building. Oh well... I take it as a sign that it was not meant to be.
Last night was a quiet night after our skype call with Tubal & Karen. They are doing well but have had a string of bad luck lately with storms blowing up electrical things in both houses in West Virgina & in Ohio. They were also saying that their vehicle had caught fire as well. Mom is hoping that everything gets better for them in the next few days. We will skype again with them in 2 weeks like we usually do. Grandpa did not call Mom last night which was very weird but I am sure he will be calling tonight. Meme called me on her break. Everything is fine with her & they had a relaxing weekend. That was good to hear. Phone has been quiet today as well for us again which makes it easy for when Mark is working from home. Mark actually has a pretty relaxed week & not a lot of traveling that will be going on. That is wonderful for him as he is been out straight the last couple of months. He needs this break. Mom will be back to her studying as well. I need to get back into that mode again. I have completely been slacking off the last 2 weeks because I am still waiting to hear back from my instructor. Hopefully that will be soon. I put another call into the voicemail for her & also another email to her. Mom is starting to lose her patience right about now though...... Anyways.... Today is Ron Nepo's birthday & Auntie Kristi's birthday. I wish Ron a happy heavenly birthday & told him I hope you & him were playing poker up there...lol! Please tell him that Momma T misses him very much. Thanks Ty! Go & visit Auntie Kristi if you can. She would love that! Not much else for updates today. I will have more for you as the week progresses. Here is the daily prayer for the day:
May God lift your chin, awaken your heart, and open your eyes to all you possess in Him. May you refuse to let your disappointments define you. May you instead, stand on that barren land and envision a harvest. May you experience a revival of faith in the very place of your heartbreak! Instead of rehashing your losses, determine to rehearse His promises because they're truer than your circumstances. Today's a good day to embrace faith, to give thanks, and to worship the One who keeps His promises. You've got everything you need in Him. Have a blessed day.
Verse: So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up (Galatians 6:9 NLT
Here is an inspirational saying for the day as well: I have fought battles, many of which most will never understand. Even when my mind & body have felt weak, my soul has remained strong. I am unstoppable.
" We are all broken....that's how the light gets in. "
Well the eclipse is in full swing here as it got dark. It will go on for another couple hours... right in time for Mom to start making dinner & feed the pups. Tonight will be a relaxing evening with doing nothing but relaxing. Maybe a glass of wine will be in there as well...lol. Hope that you have a peaceful night with all the things you need to get done & want to do. Have fun while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I will whisper to you later tonight so smile when you hear Mom & I will smile back to you my sweet precious son. Remember forever that you will always be a part of me....you live inside my heart, mind, body & soul.I will be back tomorrow night so until then....good night & sweet dreams. You are my shining star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, August 20, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Sunday night? Mom is doing alright. Waiting for dinner to be done so that Mark & I can eat & then it will be our skype call with Tubal & Karen at 7 pm. After that it will be relaxing & watching TV & then going to bed as tomorrow is Monday & both Mark & Mom are going to be busy. Today was a good productive day. Mom made us brunch & then we went downstairs & cleaned out both vehicles & vacuumed them out. After that Mom came up to her office & I did some poking around on the Internet for Grandpa's wedding. Mark was chatting with his brother & playing his game. We took the pups out for a walk & then fed them. All in all today has been a pretty good day for us. The weekend was nice & it was fun. Mom is sad that it went by so fast though. Only 2 more weeks of August & then it will be September 1st. Fall will be here before we know it. The warm days & the cool crisp nights. That is still Mom's favorite time of year. I will always think of it as our favorite season though. We got to do so much during the Fall time. I miss those times & I sure miss you more than anything. Mom misses you like crazy.
The weather today was again nice & sunny & pretty warm. Mom did not get to see a sunset last night or the stars or moon. I looked & there was really nothing. Others are posting stunning sunset pictures & Mom is over here being like... " I am not seeing anything close to that. " I wish I could because they are breathtaking. I will have to start posting some sunset pictures for you as well along with the puppy pictures & the grieving quotes & sayings. Maybe I will do that starting tonight. Hopefully Mom will see something in the sky later. I will whisper to you as I always do later on for sure so be listening out for my voice. Lets smile at the same time, okay? I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever will live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Never forget that!
Mom doesn't have much for updates for you as I didn't talk to anyone yesterday or today. I did however find out that one of your friends is battling cancer. She was diagnosed back on June 29th with uterine cancer. She has had 2 chemo treatments & has 4 to go. She also had to have a total hysterectomy done. That is so sad because she is 25 years old I believe & wanted children so badly. My heart goes out to Cassie. She will be n my prayers. Please watch over her as well, okay? Thanks pumpkin! Mom will have more updates for you tomorrow I am sure.
Here is the pray for the day: when you pray for others, God listens to you & blesses them, so when you are safe & happy, remember that someone is praying for you. Amen.
Here are a couple quotes for you as well: What you think, you become. What you feel, you attract. What you imagine, you create.
trust the wait. Embrace the uncertainty. Enjoy the beauty of becoming. When nothing is certain, anything is possible.
Mom is hoping that your night is filled with everything you want & need it to be. Have fun while I am sleeping tonight. Come be with mom if you can. Thanks Tyler! I will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then...good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. You are my shining star. I love you to infinity & beyond.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Sunday night? Mom is doing alright. Waiting for dinner to be done so that Mark & I can eat & then it will be our skype call with Tubal & Karen at 7 pm. After that it will be relaxing & watching TV & then going to bed as tomorrow is Monday & both Mark & Mom are going to be busy. Today was a good productive day. Mom made us brunch & then we went downstairs & cleaned out both vehicles & vacuumed them out. After that Mom came up to her office & I did some poking around on the Internet for Grandpa's wedding. Mark was chatting with his brother & playing his game. We took the pups out for a walk & then fed them. All in all today has been a pretty good day for us. The weekend was nice & it was fun. Mom is sad that it went by so fast though. Only 2 more weeks of August & then it will be September 1st. Fall will be here before we know it. The warm days & the cool crisp nights. That is still Mom's favorite time of year. I will always think of it as our favorite season though. We got to do so much during the Fall time. I miss those times & I sure miss you more than anything. Mom misses you like crazy.
The weather today was again nice & sunny & pretty warm. Mom did not get to see a sunset last night or the stars or moon. I looked & there was really nothing. Others are posting stunning sunset pictures & Mom is over here being like... " I am not seeing anything close to that. " I wish I could because they are breathtaking. I will have to start posting some sunset pictures for you as well along with the puppy pictures & the grieving quotes & sayings. Maybe I will do that starting tonight. Hopefully Mom will see something in the sky later. I will whisper to you as I always do later on for sure so be listening out for my voice. Lets smile at the same time, okay? I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever will live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Never forget that!
Mom doesn't have much for updates for you as I didn't talk to anyone yesterday or today. I did however find out that one of your friends is battling cancer. She was diagnosed back on June 29th with uterine cancer. She has had 2 chemo treatments & has 4 to go. She also had to have a total hysterectomy done. That is so sad because she is 25 years old I believe & wanted children so badly. My heart goes out to Cassie. She will be n my prayers. Please watch over her as well, okay? Thanks pumpkin! Mom will have more updates for you tomorrow I am sure.
Here is the pray for the day: when you pray for others, God listens to you & blesses them, so when you are safe & happy, remember that someone is praying for you. Amen.
Here are a couple quotes for you as well: What you think, you become. What you feel, you attract. What you imagine, you create.
trust the wait. Embrace the uncertainty. Enjoy the beauty of becoming. When nothing is certain, anything is possible.
Mom is hoping that your night is filled with everything you want & need it to be. Have fun while I am sleeping tonight. Come be with mom if you can. Thanks Tyler! I will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then...good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. You are my shining star. I love you to infinity & beyond.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, August 19, 2017
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