Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. Not the best day for a few reasons but I am hanging in there. Last night I did not really get any sleep because I was up all night with tummy issues. Mark had it the night before & guess I caught it. To say the least I am pretty tired today & have not done much of anything. Mom was suppose to go out today & get my nails done & run errands but I decided that I would do it all tomorrow instead. Hopefully I will get enough sleep tonight & will be in a somewhat better mood. The weather is another thing. Today it has been dark & rainy. We had a thunderstorm early in the day with high winds & heavy rain. After about 2 hours the sun came out for a little while. Now it is back to being dark & cloudy. Guess it is suppose to be that way the rest of the night into tomorrow morning. The last thing that is making Mom upset is that it just seems like no matter what is ever talked about between Mom & Mark, it is good for a couple days & then BAM.... it goes right back to the same ole sh*t ( not like Friday night....just to clarify. ) This afternoon we were chatting & he told me 3 times over the weekend how something was going to go & then when he was talking about it today & the whole thing had changed. I mentioned it & he said he never said it any differently over the weekend or at that point. Mom couldn't believe it because I know what I heard a couple days ago, but no matter what I am always the one who is in the wrong. It is always my fault. Mom had absolutely nothing to say to him after that & we haven't spoken a word since. Mom is just tired of all the lies. I am tired of just dealing with it all. I don't really care anymore & that is not okay as I am a very caring person to everyone. I am so angry right now at the whole ordeal but I am just keeping my mouth shut. I know if I was to open it, it would start another argument & I just don't want to deal with that either. Mom is so sorry that you have to keep seeing me like this. I know you dislike it. Mom just really doesn't know what to do right now so anything that you can guide me on from where you are would be great my sweet precious son. Thank you so much. Enough of this.....
 Mom really doesn't have any updates for you. I am still walking my neighbors pup for her for the next 3 days. He is sweet & such a good dog. Mom had to put his raincoat on him today as it was raining. It was so cute. Sad that as of Friday he will be moving & I probably will never see him again. Makes Mom sad but I am happy for his " Mommy  " & him though. Last night was quiet as I did not chat with anyone. I will in the next couple days though. Hurricane Irma is still threatening so many in the Florida & Carolina's in the next couple of days. I am worried about everyone & the animals as I was worried for the one that just hit Texas. Mom is praying for them daily that is for sure. That is all I got at this time. Here are a couple prayers for the day:
 When you can't sense what God is up to, may you trust even more, His heart towards you. When your journey is different than you would choose, may you see His invitation to make you new. When you the storm rages overhead, may you know-with everything in you-that new mercies are on the other side. And when you're tempted to overstate your problems and understate His promises, may you step back and find your footing again. On Christ the solid Rock you stand, all other ground is sinking sand. He is mighty to save and He is doing a new and beautiful thing in you! Embrace a joy-perspective this day!

For we live by believing and not by seeing (2 Corinthians 5:7 NIV)

 May you begin to live more by faith than you do by sight. May you trust-with your whole heart-that God has already gone ahead of you, cleared the way, established grace, and answered prayers before you even fully understood just what you'd needed. Jesus is profoundly invested in your journey. He merely spoke, and the heavens came to be. He speaks now on your behalf because He loves you and is invested in you. Don't look around for signs. Look up and rejoice because He's got you. Live by faith in this moment, because one day, your faith will become sight and you'll be glad you trusted Him. Embrace a heart at rest tonight. You are mighty in God!

 Here is a saying for the day as well:At the end of the day, tell yourself gently: " I love you, you did the best you could today & even if you didn't accomplished all you had planned, I love you anyway. "

 Well, Tyler, It is that time of the night where I need to feed the pups as it is after 5 pm & I see Mark is not doing it. They keep coming in my office & jumping up on me so that is my sign that they are hungry. I will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then...good night & sweet dreams. Hope your evening is filled with everything you need & want it to be. Come be with Mom if you can. Thank you. Remember forever that you are my hero, the wind beneath my wings & my shining star. You are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you like crazy, all the time & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I will whisper to you tonight so be listening for my voice. Smile & Mom will smile back to you.

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!