Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Today is September 11th. It is a very sad day for us all here in the United States as 16 years ago is when the attack on the twin towers in New York happened. You were only 10 years old so I am not sure if you remember any of it but boy Mom remembers. I remember where I was, what I was doing & who I was with. I remember that day being very quiet at work & no one was on the roads. So many lives were lost. Mom came home from work that evening & just sat & watched the news. I cried watching the TV at the people that were jumping out of the windows before the building collapsed. The news feed was heart wrenching so I can't even imagine what the families of those people were feeling. So much sadness. So much tragedy as well. I know I always tell you this story about this day to you but it is the story that hits home for Mom. Two workers were in one of the towers & they had enough time to evacuate. One worker could walk & the other worker was in a wheelchair & was not able to leave. The two were close friends. The one man called his family to tell them he was okay but he wouldn't be coming home that night. He proceeded to tell his family that he had the chance to evacuate but because his friend could not ( he explained why to them ) he was not going to leave his side. He was going to stay with him & they would leave this world together & that is exactly what he did. He sacrificed his own life so that his friend would not die alone in the tower. That story has stayed with Mom for all these years. Bless that mans heart for what he did that day. He is a hero in so many peoples eyes. So many hero's that day....human & canine as well. Blessings to all the people who lost their lives that day & also to the families who lost their loved loves. 
 Speaking of hero's..... Mom always said you were my hero & you still are. I know that even though I can not see you anymore, I know you are doing so many great things that are needed of you. I know you are learning all that you can & that you are extremely happy now. That is all I ever wanted for you my sweet precious son. Mom continues to be so proud of you. I will always be proud of you. Continue doing what you are doing in the heavens above. Continue to fly high & free. Mom misses you so much. More than words can say but as much as I miss you & would want you back here with me I could never be that selfish. It would not be fair to you at all. I know that now. Mom will always be sadden that I lost you & will always wonder " what if  " on certain things but I am trying each day to do the things you would want me to do which is...live. You would want Mom to be happy & continue to live my life the way I would want to. Mom is trying so hard. Some days are better than others & I believe that it will always be like that. Grieving will just be a part of my life now...forever. Mom lost herself when I lost you. Mom knows that parts of me will never come back & I will never be that same person I once was. I am finely okay with that. You, my son, took my heart when you left this physical world that evening in June. You will have Mom's heart with you wherever you are & wherever you go just like you will always live inside my heart, mind, body & soul forever. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are the wind beneath my winds & my shining star. 
 Mom does not have any updates for you as it is early afternoon here but I am sure to have something for you as the week progresses. Here is a prayer for the day though:
 May you look around and notice all of the answers to prayer you enjoy because of prayers you prayed some time ago. May the breakthroughs you've experienced and the open doors you've walked through compel you to pray with more fervency, specificity, and tenacity. God loves your faith. He loves it when you pray. He's very protective of you and won't give you something that's not good for you. He makes you wait because He's making you ready. Keep praying. God is moving, even when you can't see it. One day, your faith will become sight.

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 NIV).

 Here is a inspirational saying for you: every word you speak has immense power, because it is a thought in action. There is an invincible power in every word you speak! You are a human being filled with unlimited possibilities & the words you speak can either build a jail around you where you can only see limitations or they can set you free to live your life without any limits. Listen to the words that you speak & you will find every limitation you have ever experienced revealed to you. Change your words & you will change your life.

 Mom needs to get going for now as I still have some time to do some of my studying before it is time to prep dinner for Mark & I & get the night routine started. It will be early to bed for us both as Mark needs to get a good nights sleep as he needs to be on the road early tomorrow morning. Please watch over us all & please be with Mom especially the next few days. Thank you, Tyler. I appreciate it so much. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Later this evening I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will smile back to you. Remember I love you more than all the stars in the sky! Until tomorrow..... good night & sweet dreams.

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!