Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing the best she can as I did not get much sleep last night. Mom received some news from a friend & that just tore my heart. I was pretty much up all night long tossing & turning but not really sleeping at all. My mind was on everything else but sleep. Today, Mark & Mom were suppose to go take a little road trip but I decided that I was not up for that right now. I wanted to just stay home & basically do nothing. I was up early this morning, had a little breakfast, got ready, took the pups for a walk & then have just been looking around on my computer. I decided to write to you now so that I can turn my computer off in a little bit & just try & relax for the rest of the afternoon & evening. 
 Mom is awaiting a phone call right now. We have a towing company coming to take our vehicle to the mechanics to get looked at. Mark has tried everything & nothing. Thank God that the insurance covers a tow. It would have been a couple hundred dollars to just tow it 2 miles from where we live. Mom is hoping that whatever it is, it is an easy fix & that it doesn't cost too too much to fix. We don't need this right now at all. I guess we will find out within a day or two what the problem is. The waiting game is on!
 Grandpa & Debbie are back from their " honeymoon. " They got back around 12 noon today. Sounds like they had fun but are happy to be home. Mom will be calling them later this evening to quickly chat with them about it all. Meme called me this afternoon. She is doing well but told me that Bob's doctors apt. did not go so well today. Too many things are going on right now. Mom's head is spinning. I hope that things will calm down & soon. Haven't spoken to Aunt Beck at all but i will try to get in touch with her by the end of the week/weekend to see how they are doing. Meme spoke to her last night & they are well. Guess they are just busy! 
 The news that I received last night was horrible, Tyler. It brought back so much for Mom with you. I have spoken about my friend's son who was diagnosed with cancer, had a knee replacement done, then had to have the lower leg amputated. he has been going through chemo for the last year or even longer now. The day came when the chemo was finished, this part of his life was over & they could celebrate a new chapter for him....or so they thought. He went for scans & testing 2 weeks later & the scans showed that he had tumors in his lung. After they were biopsied it came back cancer. The cancer had spread from the knee to the lungs in just a short time. DHMC couldn't do anything any longer so they seeked a second opinion at a hospital near where Mom lives. It would be a trial treatment but they were hopeful. After a couple visits there & another new set of scans done, those showed that the tumors had tripled in size in just a couple weeks. They were told the most devastating news possible: The tumors are inoperable & the trial treatment would not work. The doctors are hopeful for a few months but God only knows what will happen. Right now so many are praying for him & his family. Mom is doing everything she can to help out as well. The family are headed on his Make A Wish trip to Hawaii next week & are helping him in doing things on his bucket list as well. Mom has known this family for 13 years now. My friend's son ( name is kept for privacy purposes ) is only 15 years old. My heart hurts for everyone... for the young man, his brother, his Dad & his Mom. The things I have have to go through & deal with in the past 4 years when I lost you will be what she is going to be facing. No mother should have to do this. Please do me a favor, Tyler.... if it is his time to be called home, please be there for him when he receives his Angel wings. Mom doesn't want him to face it alone. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom will continue to update you but I think you will know everything before I do. Either way.....I am asking all my followers & readers on here to please say a pray for this young man & his family. I don't care what you believe in, what religion you are... that doesn't matter. What matters is that this family knows they are not alone in any of this. Please spread the prayers, the love, the light to them all. Thank you so much & many blessings to each & every one of you as well.
 That is what I have for you today, Tyler but here are a couple prayers for the day:  May Jesus tilt your chin upward so you can sense His smile and more clearly hear His voice. May He speak a surprising word of encouragement to you so you have the strength to keep marching onward. May He build a bridge where you least expect one. May He connect you with others who see the best in you. May you steward this training season with clarity, purpose, and conviction. May the things you've been hoping for and praying for culminate into one glorious answer that takes your breath away. And may your faith become sight sooner than later. He's making a way where there's been no way. You can trust Him.
 May peace flow like a river through the very depths of your being. May joy rise within you like the morning sun. May strength awaken your heart and sturdy your steps. And may faith swallow up your every fear. God is with you at the break of day. He will not fail you. Though darkness and fear and weakness threaten to overtake you, they will not, they cannot, because you belong to Jesus. He is your stronghold, your high tower, your deliverer, and your defender. He heals, reveals, corrects, and redirects. He’s your very good shepherd and will lead you safely through the storm. Trust Him with your whole heart today.
 Here is an inspirational saying for today: There are going to be very painful moments in your life that will change your entire world in a matter of minutes. These moments will change YOU. Let them make you stronger, smarter, & kinder. But don't you go & become someone that your not. Cry. Scream if you have to. Then straighten out that crown & keep it moving.
 It is just a little after 4 pm right now & the pups are coming in the office & begging to get fed...lol! Guess mom needs to get going so I can do that & also start prepping for dinner tonight. May your evening be filled with things that you need to get done & things that you would like to do. I know you are shining bright for the ones who need it the most right now. That makes Mom very proud. Come visit me tonight if you can while Mom is sleeping. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you beyond words & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will whisper to you later so smile when you hear my voice & I will smile right back to you. Maybe I will see a nice sunset tonight , the stars & moon as well. It has been several nights now since Mom has seen anything. I will look for a painting from you. I will be back tomorrow night so until then....good night 7 sweet dears my shining star!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!