Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? Mom & Mark just got home from doing the last bit of shopping that we needed to do for Christmas. We had to go to a couple different stores & then grocery shopping. We got home about 30 minutes or so & Mom put everything away & now I am writing to you. The weather today is chilly but it was nice. The sun is going down already as it is 3:15 pm. Within the next 45 minutes the night sky will be upon us. Mom is hoping that I will be able to see the moon & stars shining bright. It sure has been awhile since I have seen them. 
 Last night was good! Mom got the chance to chat with Meme & Grandpa for a little bit after we had dinner. Mark & Mom later watched TV & then I was fast asleep by 10:30 pm. Mark stayed up & watched a TV show & went to bed later. Guess that glass of wine helped Mom because I was able to get a good nights sleep. Hope tonight is the same way! Later today we are going to watch the Stars Wars movie again because tomorrow we are headed to go see the newest one that came out last night in the theater. Mom needs to rewatch the other one so I know what the heck is going on. You know me.... Mom wishes that you were here so we could see it together. You loved those kinds of movies. Mom will definitely be thinking of you when I am there tomorrow. Give me a sign if you can my sweet precious son. Thanks! Later tonight Mark & Mom will be doing the gingerbread house as we did not do it last night. Crossing our fingers that it comes out good this time...lol! If there is time Mom will watch a movie & maybe take a hot bath before going to bed. Need to get up early tomorrow so I must get some solid sleep! Mom is hoping that you night is filled with all the things you need to do & want to do. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Mom would really like that a lot. It always gives me validation that you are alright & that you are with me every day even when I can't see you. Thank you, Tyler! I will whisper to you later as well when I light the candle & when Mom goes to bed. Smile when you hear my voice & I will smile back to you. 
 I don't have really any updates for you other than Mark's brother Gary is out of the hospital & on strict bed rest for a week or more. He was able to leave last night which was good. He did test positive for the flu but everything else is still not diagnosed at this point. The doctors may the thinking it has to do with the fires that have been going on in California for the last month or more. We spoke to him last night & he was doing pretty good. Mark & Mom are relieved that is for sure. I will have more updates for you maybe later this weekend or during the week. For now here is the prayer for the day:
 Father, for every broken heart that is praying....for every parent that is stressed out & overwhelmed because of what is happening with their child....for every person that is struggling to find a way to live in this world with no money, no job & no resources on the horizon....for every person who feels like they are drowning in depression, anxiety & fear....for each person who is afraid the numbness they feel is going to be permanent & they will always be just existing, instead of living....Father, we pray for You, our Healer, to intervene. We bind the enemy in the name of Jesus. We pray for the strength to say, " I can't do this but my God can & greater is He that is in me, than that is in the world. " Father, we need to be infused with radical hope her. We ask to meet You in these dark valleys in ways we have never known You before. We ask that You lead us beside the still waters & that You restore our souls. Amen. 
 Here is a saying for the day as well:
 I Let Go~ I accept my life as it is. I do not judge, I do not dramatize. I let life's events come freely & I welcome the lessons they convey. I stop struggling now. I let go & know that God always gives me that which is most appropriate for my soul. 
 Mom is going to have to get going as the time is ticking & I need to be getting things ready for the pups for dinner & us too. Mark is waiting for Mom to watch the movie now. Remember that you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you more than anything & everything in this world. I love you unconditionally. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my shining star! Mom will be back tomorrow so until then.... Good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!